ideal lover

After the Hashimotos left, Aya Kobayashi Hirano asked the charitable society to ask her parents to send photos to them every week to confirm the health of Aya Kobayashi Hirano because she had a supervisor.

For money, Kobayashi Hirano Ling's parents had to take time every week to take Kobayashi Hirano Ling out to take pictures.

The park not far from the apartment was the one I visited most often. Kobayashi Hirano Aya was most impressed by the fact that there was an oak tree in that park with a simple swing hanging on it.

That should be the happiest time Kobayashi Hirano Ling spent with her parents.

Although it was just for taking pictures, the warm time spent together every week made Kobayashi Hirano Aya's parents treat him a lot gentler. At least the three of them walked together like a complete family.

Even after the photo was taken, Aya Kobayashi Hirano would be taken home, or let him spend time by himself in the park.

But it doesn't matter, after all, Kobayashi Hirano Aya now has classmates who "cared" about him, as well as generous help from adults.

He should be satisfied.

Swinging on the swing, Aya Kobayashi Hirano thought so.

It's just that if you suppress the desire to "satisfy" like this, there will be times when you can't help but overflow.

The day of the first snow, it was Christmas.

It is also Kobayashi Hirano Aya's birthday. If you want to say why Kobayashi Hirano Aya knows her own birthday, it is nothing more than the fact that when he first started school, the students who surrounded him in the center chatted non-stop about him, including his birthday.

"That's great~ Hirano Aya, your birthday is Christmas."

That was probably the only envious tone Kobayashi Hirano Ling heard.

It turns out that his birthday is Christmas Day...

[December 12th is Christmas] This cognition remained in his mind.

Similarly, on Christmas Day, Kobayashi Hirano Aya was rarely taken out by her parents to an amusement park.

Kobayashi Hirano Aya thought it was celebrating her birthday.

The dreamy lights and snowflakes in the amusement park melted together that day, which gave Kobayashi Hirano Aya an illusion.

Thinking that I can also get his "preferential treatment" on my birthday.

So he said what he always wanted for his birthday: "Cake."

Pointing at the cakes placed in the dessert shop, Kobayashi Hirano Aya's voice became louder: "Mom and Dad, I want cakes."

It was the first time that she didn't suppress her desire, Kobayashi Hirano Ling made her request so carefully.

He saw his parents pulling him away impatiently, muttering in his mouth, "Sure enough, children are troublesome", "What kind of cake do you eat at Christmas, it's not a birthday".

So Aya Kobayashi Hirano fell silent again, not daring to make any more noise.

Perhaps because of guilt, Kobayashi Hirano Ling's parents bought him cotton candy as compensation.

Then show a happy look when taking pictures.

Kobayashi Hirano Ling felt that she was happy when she got the marshmallow, but he was reluctant to eat the marshmallow, so she kept holding it foolishly. As a result, the marshmallow turned into sticky sugar water, leaving nothing behind.

My heart is empty.

Obviously I have already received a gift, so I should be satisfied.

Kobayashi Hirano Aya always said this to herself when she was young, and then suppressed herself more and more.

He is already very happy now, so he can't make more excessive demands.

Kobayashi Hirano Aya thinks this way, as long as the status quo can be maintained.It's a pity that this status quo didn't last long. On the day that group of college students came to Kobayashi Hirano Aya's house, the surface of the peaceful life maintained was finally broken.

The reason is that a student saw Norio Kobayashi playing "Pachinko" in the game hall, and the way he was spending money lavishly made him suspicious. As long as they did a little research, they could find out that the money that the parents got was nothing at all. Spending on Kobayashi Hirano Aya did not improve her life, and all of them were fed to the "game hall" of "gambling".

This made the students of the club feel angry. While running to Kobayashi Hirano Aya's house to confront his parents, they felt sad for Kobayashi Hirano Aya's situation.

This pair of irresponsible parents would not care about anything, no matter how much chicken soup for the soul they poured, it would be useless. The students felt upset and irritable, and in a fit of rage, they canceled their relief funds.

The innocent students just wanted to punish the bad parents a little, but they never thought about how bad this wayward behavior would bring to Kobayashi Hirano Aya.

Aya Kobayashi Hirano has lost her value.

The eyes of his parents, who had no way to use him to get money, turned back to looking at trouble.

Kobayashi Hirano Ling often bit her fingers in the closet in fear, not daring to disturb her parents by making a sound.

Both father and mother have become more terrifying than before.

There is no way to satisfy the desire. Without the one hundred thousand yen that should have been, the parents become more irritable.

Kobayashi Hirano Ling's age has passed the age for receiving subsidies, and life has become more and more embarrassing. For Kobayashi Hirano Ling's parents.

The pressure that could not be vented gradually accumulated, and the dissatisfaction with life also made Kobayashi Hirano Ling's parents' spirits worse and worse.

Kobayashi Hirano Aya has naturally become the outlet for her parents.

According to his parents, it is Kobayashi Hirano Aya's fault that their life is so bad.

There is no way to lose Kobayashi Hirano Aya, because there are still people in the community watching over her, but there is no way to completely vent her anger on Kobayashi Hirano Aya. The child's skin is tender, and even a little injury will be obvious.

Then Kobayashi Hirano Aya's parents discovered a great stress reliever.

Norio Kobayashi began to burn Kobayashi Hirano Aya with cigarette butts, and Hirano Ryana would deliberately step on Kobayashi Hirano Aya's feet wearing high heels. These were all hidden positions, and few people would find out, not to mention that most of Kobayashi Hirano Aya's clothes All are loose clothes that cover the whole body.

They don't want to be arrested for child abuse, so after hurting Kobayashi Hirano Aya, they will touch Kobayashi Hirano Aya's head and let him be a good boy. If someone asks about the wound, they will answer:

"I accidentally dropped it."

Kobayashi Hirano Aya would say so obediently.

Give Kobayashi Hirano Aya a bad habit that cannot be reversed by giving him a whip and a candy.

He's getting used to being hurt.

As long as his parents touched his head, he would not complain, until his parents' behavior became more and more excessive, Kobayashi Hirano Aya's wounds became larger and larger, and the truth that could no longer be covered up with lies was finally exposed. In front of the world.

The last impression left to Kobayashi Hirano Aya by her parents who were arrested and imprisoned for child abuse was the horrible hatred.

When Kobayashi Hirano Aya said goodbye to them, Kobayashi Norio resentfully grabbed Kobayashi Hirano Aya's neck, the terrifying force almost broke his fragile neck.

Of course, he didn't succeed.

The parents who were sent to the police car finally left Kobayashi Hirano Ling with hatred, which made Kobayashi Hirano Ling cry sadly.

But everyone only thought that he was frightened by Norio Kobayashi's behavior, and comforted him that he would never see them again.

Kobayashi Hirano Ling was sent to an orphanage, but it was a relatively high-end orphanage. Because of his special case, Kobayashi Hirano Ling would also receive psychological counseling.

For the new children, the rules of the orphanage are always to "order" the newcomers, which is a joy for the children who also live in the orphanage.

Kobayashi Hirano Aya never resisted, and was even very active when the children called him.

Simply, like a trained dog.

The first person who discovered the abnormality was Nadeko Katsuragi, a psychiatrist who worked as a volunteer in the orphanage.

When it was determined that Kobayashi Hirano Aya had a cognitive error and would regard "injury" as a "reward", Katsushiro Nadeko decided to arrange a separate room for Kobayashi Hirano Aya for treatment.

Then, she discovered that Aya Kobayashi Hirano would always look at the gate of the orphanage.

"Aya Hirano, what are you looking at?"

"..."

"What are you waiting for?" Nadeko Katsuragi asked while stroking Kobayashi Hirano Aya's head.

"Mom and Dad."

"Ok?"

"I'm waiting for my mom and dad to pick me up, it's always been like this before."

It is such a simple matter to throw it to the orphans and pick it up when the subsidy is needed.

At that moment, Katsuragi Nadeko felt uncomfortable and disgusted. The child's parents regarded Hirano Aya as an item that could be exchanged.

How can there be such disgusting parents? !

Nadeko Katsuragi couldn't describe Kobayashi Hirano Aya's state. He and his parents, compared with the traditional understanding of the relationship between parents and children, were completely reversed.

Kobayashi Hirano Ling loves her parents unconditionally, but his parents are greedy for everything Kobayashi Hirano Ling.

This distorted relationship obviously had a bad influence on Kobayashi Hirano Aya's three views as a child.

So Katsuragi Nadeko made a decision. She sponsored Kobayashi Hirano Aya in a special way, sent him to a boarding school, gave him living expenses every month, and acted as his guardian, but she would not take Kobayashi Hirano Aya Bring it home to raise.

It's useless, if Kobayashi Hirano Aya is forced to integrate into a new family environment, Kobayashi Hirano Aya will only become more confused.

In order to let Kobayashi Hirano Aya lead a normal life, Katsuragi Nadeko asked Kobayashi Hirano Aya to interact with people and establish interpersonal relationships in an equivalent way.

So Aya Kobayashi Hirano learned, and through this method, she established a fairly ordinary life.

It's just that he accepted too many good intentions, which made him more and more oppressive.

Everyone is telling him how to live in the right way. He should completely get rid of those bad parents and usher in a new life just like the TV show.

He should hate his parents and treat them with complete indifference.

He should study hard, be a good boy, and have a bright future.

That's right, Kobayashi Hirano Aya should become what everyone expects, the ideal Hirano Aya in their mouths.

Those who studied hard, won scholarships, participated in associations, won awards, and helped him all said that Hirano Ling should live with integrity like this.

So he had to live like this.

No longer as Kobayashi Hirano Aya, but the ideal Hirano Aya that everyone is looking forward to.

"Don't come out again."

Kobayashi Hirano Aya said to the long-haired boy in the closet.

"Just stay here and don't come out again."

He closed the closet and completely denied his past as Kobayashi Hirano Aya.

He wants to live as "everyone's ideal Aya Hirano".

It's just that occasionally Kobayashi Hirano Aya would suddenly have such an idea:

[How long can I live? 】

【Live like this, how long can I last? 】

He is so busy every day, forcing himself to work hard for the so-called bright future like masochism, and he must not live such a failure like his parents. He wants to become a successful person in society and live happily.

and then?

Even if all these are realized, what else can I do?

At that moment, Aya Kobayashi Hirano suddenly felt that she might not live to be 30 years old.

But only for a moment.

The college he wanted to go to got an "A" without accident, and got a scholarship, and then on that day, he saw the man again.

His father, Norio Kobayashi, walked towards Aya Kobayashi Hirano with eyes full of hostility like a tramp, grabbed his head just like he did when he was a child, and asked him for money.

Kobayashi Hirano Ling only remembered that she ran away in embarrassment, and the scholarship she got fell into the hands of the man. After returning to the dormitory, Kobayashi Hirano Ling shrank herself under the quilt.

I kept thinking: don't come out, don't come out...

He had his hair cut the next day, and it was even shorter.

After realizing that her psychology was starting to lose balance, Kobayashi Hirano Aya studied psychology in order to live a more normal life.

But everything he maintained completely collapsed the moment he learned of his parents' death.

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