deceased into ashes

When I woke up, I saw the white ceiling of the hospital, and there was a person beside me, sleeping on the side.Zhou Qianyi was not used to the smell of the medicine in the hospital, she wanted to get up but she didn't want to disturb the people next to her.

The person next to him raised his face, bloodshot eyes were clearly visible in his originally clear eyes, and his expression looked tired.

It's Yan Min...

"Wake up," Yan Min rubbed her swollen eyes with a smile, took an insulated box from the side, and helped her let go of the table on the hospital bed before saying, "You scared me to death, so much blood, I'm so scared." I'm really afraid that you won't wake up again."

It was still raining outside the window, and the dark clouds in the sky still completely covered the originally bright sky.Zhou Qianyi looked at Yan Min. Yan Min was taking out the meat porridge and some light side dishes from the insulated box one by one. She carefully put the spoon in the bowl, and took out a pair of small wooden chopsticks to wash and put them away. On the little table.

Seeing Zhou Qianyi staring at her, Yan Min smiled softly: "Am I good-looking? You can take a second look if you like, and you won't be charged."

Yan Min's appearance belongs to the kind that can't be forgotten after seeing it once. Her eyes are beautiful peach eyes, and there is a mole under her right eye. The nose is not very high, but it is very small. The facial features give people the impression of gentleness. And sunshine.

That feeling was all the feelings Yu Qingyue gave her in the past - the sunshine and the tenderness towards herself.

Zhou Qianyi lowered her head, seeing Yan Min being so considerate to her, she felt really sorry: "Yan... Sister Yan, I really trouble you..." She scratched with a bandaged hand Neat but not messy hair.

Yan Min breathed a sigh of relief, picked up the spoon in the meat porridge and stirred it, then dug up another spoon and blew it to feed her, but Zhou Qianyi just took the spoon and put it back.

I don't deserve others to treat me so kindly...and this can be regarded as hanging on to others, she really doesn't like this.

Yan Min is such a good person, she should meet someone who is better than herself and is suitable for her.

Yan Min didn't understand what she meant, but just looked at her, temporarily suppressing the things she wanted to ask, because she didn't want Zhou Qianyi to be in a bad mood just after waking up.

Zhou Qianyi pursed her lips, and after a while, she raised her head to look at Yan Min, who was also looking at her; it's just that the light in their eyes was different, Zhou Qianyi's was the flash of tears, while Yan Min's was Zhou Qianyi's. Bring her light.

"Sister Yan..." Zhou Qianyi took a breath, trying to keep the physical tears from falling in his eyes: "You are a very good person, there is no need to be obsessed with someone like me...and I also......"

Yan Min lowered her eyes, looking at the layers of bandages tied on Zhou Qianyi's right hand, she couldn't help clenching her fists.

"Did she treat you like this?" Yan Min said this, the lightning flashed outside the window, and soon there was a deep thunder.

Zhou Qianyi looked out the window, thinking that the reason why the dark clouds outside the window were sad was probably not because they could not find a home, but because they had no home, so they could only rely on this method to make themselves disappear bit by bit. After disappearing, the light would probably come back. Arrived.

This is what should have happened, and they don't have their own emotions, but a little thing can sometimes make people think of a lot.

Zhou Qianyi thought of herself, is she not that important to this world?Perhaps my own existence covered up the originally bright sky, and the remaining gray earth made many people hope for sunny days.

"No, don't blame her," Zhou Qianyi heard the bursts of thunder, with an extremely calm tone: "It's me, I'm not good. I'll trouble you..."

Yan Min lowered her head, and waited for the thunder to pass before she raised her head, looked at Zhou Qianyi looking out of the window with empty eyes, and said, "Eat first, you must be hungry." She pushed the porridge away.

Zhou Qianyi could see the lingering gloom on Yan Min's face.She is good at catching other people's subtle emotions, so as to judge other people's mood and their thoughts at the moment.

Zhou Qianyi sipped the porridge with a spoon. Seeing that Yan Min kept her head down and kept silent, she didn't want her negative emotions to be passed on to others, so she hiccupped with a smile and said, "This porridge is delicious. .”

Seeing that Zhou Qianyi finally had a smile, Yan Min relaxed his brows. After a while, Zhou Qianyi ate all the food Yan Min brought. Zhou Qianyi never ate too much, and he couldn't eat much either.

Yan Min cleared the table and went to wash the dishes before returning. Zhou Qianyi was still silent and looked at the dark clouds outside the window. It was raining heavily, and the sound of the rain was very clear.

"That day, I...accidentally looked at your phone, I'm sorry." Yan Min tilted his head and sat obediently beside the hospital bed. Zhou Qianyi finally turned his face. There was not much change on her pale face. He said lightly: "It's okay, there's nothing inside."

Yan Min held his breath for a while, and finally couldn't help it anymore, and said, "I called her, using my cell phone, and your cell phone, but she didn't answer."

Zhou Qianyi had her long hair loose, and she said hoarsely, "Really..."

Yan Min knew that it might make her sad, but she didn't want Zhou Qianyi to be dragged down like this.

"Sister Yan, when can I leave the hospital?"

When Yan Min raised her head, she saw that Zhou Qianyi's face did not have the sad expression she had expected, but a cold and emotionless expression, and that kind of emptiness and loneliness enveloped Zhou Qianyi's whole body.

"Your illness...does she know..." Yan Min frowned.

"Sister Yan, I want to cut my hair when I'm discharged from the hospital." Zhou Qianyi answered irrelevantly, but obviously didn't want to answer either.

The habit of growing long hair since high school has not changed over the years.Because Yu Qingyue always said that long hair gives people a very beautiful feeling, she likes Zhou Qianyi with long hair, it smells good and is very cute.

Now, she wants to abandon everything she has done and thought about for Yu Qingyue.

Probably completely disappointed.

Once, she wanted to become Yu Qingyue, see what she saw, love what she loved, think what she thought, and miss what she thought.

When they were young, how many people would believe in such things as the passage of time?

Everyone longs for eternity, but how can there be so much eternity in the world?

It will always be light, no matter how passionate things are.It will always disappear, no matter how beautiful the scenery is.

Just like the sunset, no matter how you like it, no matter how beautiful it is, it will eventually set.

There is no eternity in the world.

It's not that Yan Min doesn't know that Zhou Qianyi's heart disease is already serious, and depression will only make her suffer more.

Enduring these pains, can we really turn a blind eye?

Obviously impossible.

Every text message in her mobile phone, no matter it was sent or edited, every sentence is concerned and sincere.

But any fool could see how perfunctory the other party's reply was.

Zhou Qianyi is really stupid, even though it is so obvious, she still wants to grasp a little bit, just a little bit of hope to make that person turn back; they may have loved each other, maybe they have been in love for many years, but when When one party gives up while the other party is still struggling, the only one who hurts is himself.

But she couldn't let go.

For 12 years, with one heart and one mind, feelings will not lie.

She always believed that Yu Qingyue had intentions, and they could still go back...

Is it right........?

she does not know.

From the moment you like someone, you are destined to become humble, but who doesn't love someone so hard to let go?The bits and pieces of the past, the things she has done for herself, are unforgettable.

I have never changed my mind, but now I am disheartened and unable to unilaterally remedy it.

"Sister Yan," Zhou Qianyi looked up at the ceiling, "She and I have been together for 12 years."

Yan Min looked at her slightly in shock.

She continued: "In my most difficult time, she was the only one by my side; I had no relatives or friends, I only had her, and I couldn't force myself to let go of someone I had loved for more than ten years."

"I'm thinking, when I'm so disheartened and cold that my emotions completely disappear, maybe I can let go. However, I don't know how long I can let go. After all, I know that my life is not long."

Yan Min was suddenly annoyed, she said: "What nonsense! You are such a good person, you can live a long time, you can live a long life, you will have a long time to let her go, and I... can wait for you. "

Yan Min didn't know about her illness, saying that she could live a hundred years is simply a fantasy.

But she also didn't want Zhou Qianyi to leave this world. It was the first time she liked someone so much, and she didn't want him to be hurt.

How happy and how sad it is to love someone.

But looking at the person in front of her, seeing her weak, she was sad, just wanted to hold her in her arms, and didn't want her to suffer any harm.

She wanted to warm this weak but strong and stubborn Zhou Qianyi with her body temperature, but she couldn't prevent the sadness and loss in her heart.

If I were that person, I would definitely not let her down like this.

Man is such a strange creature, he discards what he gets, and cherishes what he doesn't get.

She really wanted to push away those who hurt Zhou Qianyi, so far away that she couldn't see, touch, or think about it.

But she can't.

The cold drizzle of November was still falling.

After the download is over, the dark clouds will disappear.