Restlessness

"What Xu Yue wanted to say but couldn't say, I, Zhou Hui, said it for him today."

Gu Yuan remained silent, unwilling to speak for a long time, and turned the voice chat into a video after a few minutes.

Zhou Hui sighed slightly and told Gu Yuan all the news about Xu Yue's repeating his senior year in high school.

Gu Yuan sounded tormented, but he just blinked his eyes very lightly, and left the phone screen with random glances. After some self-relief, Gu Yuan shifted his gaze to the video frame of himself and Zhou Hui again. superior.

"I used to never think about what my future would be like when I was alone, so I felt that some things didn't matter to me, whether it was the grades of each subject or the ranking of the whole school... These are not important to me at all... I feel that as long as I finish those three years in the attached high school, everything will be over..." Gu Yuan reached out to the sofa beside him for a few times, and finally pressed the TV button Switching on the remote control, after a long pause, he slowly turned on the floor lamp on one side, "I still remember that he told me that he wanted to rent a house with me in the future and raise a cat together, or the one with piebald Kind of, also, we will go to work together in the future, and cook dinner together when we go home at night...no more, no less, just the two of us...Zhou Hui, do you know? I saw it from Xu Yue for the first time The future. My future and his."

Zhou Hui raised his head backwards. In the three years since he met Gu Yuan and now in such a hurry, this is the first time he has heard Gu Yuan's truest thoughts.Without talking about whether these are right or wrong, he can't just refute them.

"So, I will definitely go back." Gu Yuan suddenly stared straight at the phone screen, "But I am useless now, dragging a pile of suitcases and running back, what right do I have to stand in front of him, He is obviously such a proud person... No matter what, when we meet next time, regardless of the ending or not, I will definitely be the only person in this world who can deserve him."

Zhou Hui couldn't help laughing, and the tiredness in his eyes disappeared following Gu Yuan's promise. He stretched his waist and raised his phone, aiming the camera at the bright streets and tall buildings outside the window.

"It's been almost a year since you went abroad. Haven't you seen Shanghai for a long time? Come on, take a good look now." Zhou Hui turned his phone twice and moved his perspective to the other side, "That's where we are. The direction of the school is over, and your important people will be there waiting for you to come back."

In the video, there is still only a gray sky and high-rise buildings hidden in the clouds, but Gu Yuan watched it very seriously.It was past three o'clock in the morning local time in Los Angeles. Under the dim light, Zhou Hui unexpectedly found that there were mottled stars shining in Gu Yuan's eyes.

The stars disappear, and all that remains is a hopeless loneliness.

"Your uncle Zhou Hui." Gu Yuan rubbed his eyes and sniffed heavily, "Do you just want to see me, a big man, shed a few tears..."

"No, no, how dare I." Zhou Hui laughed and fell down on his bed.

After that, whether Li Ranran found a girlfriend, whether Xu Yue went back to his third year of high school, or whether he was single, all the things that happened in the past year have been successfully compiled into a story by Zhou Hui set.He told Gu Yuan word by word.

The video call lasted for more than two hours, and what should be said or should not be said gradually spread in these two worlds.After hanging up the phone, Gu Yuan slowly got up and took out an exquisite small gift box from the bottom right of his closet.

A white translucent bracelet and a photo of a high school student with a red background.

Gu Yuan sat on the edge of the bed and stroked it over and over again. He once wanted to give Xu Yue the whole world, but in the end, all he left behind in his haste was a photo of himself in high school.

Gu Yuan slowly closed his eyes, with the corners of his mouth raised, as if he had been transported back to the midsummer afternoon of the second year of high school, and only those few words remained in his mind

"It's a picture of your boyfriend"

"Be sure to keep it well. In case I'm not at school someday and you think I'm wrong, just take a look at this."

"Don't lose it"

At [-]:[-] the next morning, Gu Yuan sat in front of the computer on time, tapped the keyboard a few times with both hands, and finally edited it into a simple email and sent it to the professor's mailbox.

"Thank you for taking care of me for so Lane. Idecido specialize in psychology [thanks to the professor's long-term care, I decided to specialize in psychology]"

This winter was colder than last year. On the night of December 12st, Xu Yue received New Year greetings from three people on WeChat. Apart from Li Ranran and Zhou Hui, the extra person was Zuo Xiu.

The attached high school got out of school very early today, and after lunch at noon, one after another, you could see boys and girls hooking up shoulder to shoulder and walking out of the teaching area from upstairs to several flights of stairs.

After sorting out the review materials on the table, Zuo Xiu got up, walked to Xu Yue and bent over.

"Xu Yue, it's New Year's Eve today. Our school has given all the teachers and students a day off, do you want to go out to play together at night?" Zuo Xiu looked around and took out his phone from his trouser pocket after making sure that there were no teachers around the classroom. , I don’t know which group chat message it was, he flipped it out and held it up in front of Xu Yue, "Look, a lot of people in our class are going together... Or, you can also invite your former friends to go together."

"Zuoxiu Zuoxiu! Come and help us look at this question."

Before Xu Yue refused, the girls in the front row of the classroom glanced at them, laughed a few times and then shouted loudly.

"Come right now, eh, Xu Yue, don't refuse." Zuo Xiu left this sentence and walked towards the front row.

Xu Yue just looked up and stared at his back, then took out the white medicine jar whose label was torn off by Li Ranran from his desk pocket, and swallowed it together with the cold mineral water on the table.

"Xu Yue, are you okay..."

The new deskmate is a girl, and Xu Yue hasn't been able to remember her name well until now.

He shook his head slightly and ignored it.

The group finally decided the location of the large-scale high school group New Year's Eve at the most famous Bund scenic spot in Shanghai. In the bus with heating and air conditioning, Zuo Xiu sat next to Xu Yue and explained for a long time with a few classmates from other provinces behind him. Sometimes I would look back and laugh at Xu Yue.

When Li Ranran and Zhou Hui arrived, the worry on Xu Yue's brows slightly dissipated. He followed Zhou Hui and listened to their stories about what happened in the university.

In the last ten seconds of the New Year's countdown, Zuo Xiu got out of nowhere and grabbed Xu Yue's arm.

"Xu Yue, actually I have something to tell you, actually I..."

The second half of Zuo Xiu's words were hidden in the cheers of everyone after the countdown ended. Xu Yue only saw the boy with delicate brows and eyes open his mouth exhaling coldly. As for what he said, he didn't hear a single word clearly. .

But at this moment, across the river is the most famous Oriental Pearl Tower in Shanghai, and behind it is the most prosperous Nanjing Road in the city. The decks of cruise ships passing by in the river are full of dark figures.

At a certain moment of looking back, Xu Yue seemed to see the two teenagers hugging each other and squeezing into the crowd again.

Xu Yue suddenly walked towards the river and raised his hands to cover his mouth. This was the craziest time since Gu Yuan left.

He shouted loudly: "Gu Yuan——Happy New Year to you—"

Zuo Xiu just froze on the spot so foolishly, the Xu Yue in his eyes could neither laugh nor cry, his eyes were dull and he never had room to communicate with anyone, even if he had a relationship every time he didn't. Chatting is more like a one-man show without any response.

But now, the person he thought he was familiar with had a hoarse voice, yelling other names seemingly crazy but suppressed.

"Gu, Yuan..." Zuo Xiu slowly read out the familiar name.

"Yes, it's Gu Yuan." Zhou Hui suddenly approached and patted Zuo Xiu on the shoulder, "I heard what you were about to tell him just now."

"Really..." Zuo Xiu smiled helplessly, his face turned pale.His eyes fell on Xu Yue who was standing by the fence again, "The first time I saw him, he was squatting on the sidewalk of the tree-lined road, carefully guarding the black butterflies he picked up. I remember the look in his eyes. For three full years, from the first year of high school to the third year of high school, and then he became my classmate, I don't want to hesitate anymore, I know this is my only chance..."

Li Ranran couldn't help smiling, and touched the tip of his nose, "Student, the new year has just started, don't make it so sad, besides, who hasn't had a crush on someone in high school... just There is one thing I feel is necessary to tell you, you have remembered that look for three years, do you know what it is?"

Not knowing why, Zuo Xiu shook his head slightly.

"That look..." Zhou Hui patted Zuo Xiu's shoulder twice, pursed his lips and raised his eyes to look at Xu Yue's back, "It's always just Xu Yue looking at Gu Yuan."

The shouts and cheers on both sides of the road subsided a lot, Zhou Hui couldn't help but bow his head.

"You can tell him what you said just now, but in the end... I think you already have the final answer in your heart...Happy New Year, classmate."

Zhou Hui dropped this sentence and smiled politely at Zuo Xiu, strode forward a few steps and lay on Xu Yue's back, his chin pressed against his shoulder.Li Ranran was dissatisfied, so he pouted and pulled Zhou Hui's arm from Xu Yue's neck, and put his own on it. The three of them hugged together on the spot, and Xu Yue finally showed a long-lost smile .

After that day, all of Xu Yue's energy and thoughts were devoted to the comprehensive review in the last few months of the third year of high school. He was doing the problems he had already done, memorizing the classical Chinese essays he had memorized, and he sealed Gu Yuan's photos in the archives. In a newly purchased wooden box, just like the white jade bracelet left by my mother back then, it is completely hidden in my heart.

Fleeting years are tossed and turned, and the span of time passing is ridiculous.In the blink of an eye, it is the midsummer of the year again, and it is also the busiest two days in Shanghai.

Xu Yue walked out of the examination room with a transparent pencil case in her hand. Li Ranran and Zhou Hui, who had been waiting outside the test room for a long time, were nervous and handed over a brand new bottle of mineral water in a hurry.

"How's it going? Xu Yue, how's it going this time?" Zhou Hui's hands trembled slightly, "Speak, talk, we're so anxious. Li Ranran and I will give you flowers at the school gate after your college entrance examination." Pull up a banner to bluff!"

"That's right, hurry up." Li Ranran stomped his feet anxiously, and even shook Xu Yue's cold arms, "Nod if there is no problem!"

Xu Yue unscrewed the cap of the mineral water bottle in his hand unhurriedly, took a sip, then glanced at the two of them, raised the corners of his mouth slightly, and nodded his head twice.

"Hey, I'm going, finally!" Zhou Hui, who had been terrified for a whole year, suddenly sighed, took out his mobile phone and swiped a few times with his fingertips, and finally couldn't help but choked up, "It's really not easy, I He obviously doesn't even have a girlfriend, but he cares about being a father all day long."

"According to what you're saying, then I'm thinking of being a mother?" Li Ranran bought three ice creams from an unknown store next to her, took a bite and let out a long sigh of satisfaction, "Ah, great!"

"Let's go." Xu Yue snatched one of them from Li Ranran's hand, and said lightly.

The summer vacation at the university is almost exactly the same as that at the attached high school, starting in mid-July and returning to school at the end of August.In the days when the results of the college entrance examination came out, Zhou Hui and Li Ranran stayed in Xu Yue's small rental house and watched the school application all night.

Xu Yue finally applied for the university in Hangzhou. Although Zhou Hui persuaded him many times, he didn't know whether this stubborn temperament was brought up by being with Gu Yuan for a long time before, or whether this was Xu Yue's truest personality. idea.

But these are not important anymore.At least he felt that Xu Yue seemed to be slowly crawling out of the mud, leaving the rest to time.

and Gu Yuan.

Time seems to be able to take away a lot of things at any time, and it can also bring many new faces.

Day and night alternate, the stars move, new people come and go, but the old ones who never forget remain in my heart for two full years.

Xu Yue was the same as before, in the few days before the official opening of the new university, he walked cleanly with his little luggage. No one he wanted to see.

That evening, Xu Yue dragged his suitcase and stood at the ticket gate of the high-speed rail station. He glanced at Li Ranran and Zhou Hui who were following behind him, and couldn't help but embrace them.

"Xu Yue, remember to send us your location when you arrive at school, and tell us when you find a place to live, don't keep disappearing all the time." Zhou Hui winked at Xu Yue, "Otherwise, the two of us will rush to Hangzhou to beat you up Meal! Another meal will be blackmailed!"

Li Ranran stood on the other side and nodded frequently with red eyes.

As if being stabbed in the wound suddenly, Xu Yue withdrew his arm, patted the backs of the two of them casually, and finally entered the ticket gate without looking back.

College and high school are like two completely parallel lines, without any intersection.The teaching area of ​​the new school is divided into many professional departments, and the entire campus is three or four times the size of the attached high school.In Xu Yue's new life, there will no longer be any teachers racing against the clock to urge you to ask for after-school homework, and there will be no school leaders taking advantage of the late-night self-study to wander around the campus of the attached high school just to catch someone A puppy love.

Xu Yue has always treated Zuo Xiu with a lukewarm attitude of only being a classmate. Despite this, Zuo Xiu managed to find out about the university that Xu Yue filled in after the college entrance examination. Although it was not the same major, Zuo Xiu Xiu still felt unwilling.

He once thought that for the two years that Gu Yuan spent with him, he could use many two years to make up for it.

The lecture hall for evening self-study is so large that it can accommodate one or two hundred people at the same time, although they are all unfamiliar faces.Xu Yue pressed the books on basic psychology on the table, frowned and circled a few times with a pen.

There were a few girls sitting in the row in front, and the voices of the crowded discussion just fell into Xu Yue's ears.

"Oh, by the way, do you know that our department seems to have a new professor of psychology coming next week, and let me tell you, I heard that he is super handsome! At first I thought it was a star who just debuted! "

"It's almost a holiday, why is there a new professor suddenly?"

"do not know……"

"Could it be...his girlfriend is in our school? Which teacher? Or which alumni????"

"You read too many romance novels, Xiao Ai. Our department has already spread the word, it is said that the professor just came back from the United States, and he seems to be about the same age as our college students! He has won many awards and degrees. I can’t count them all! And the most important thing is that the professor seemed to be specialized in finance before. I don’t know why he suddenly switched to psychology after half of his studies. In two years, he completed what others could only complete in three or four years... ... Tsk tsk, tell me, is this still a human being!"

"Never mind him, then do I have a chance! I have never experienced the teacher-student relationship in novels when I grow up!"

"Go, go, shut up. Have you finished copying the notes that the teacher asked you to copy in class? It's almost time for self-study next night... Oh, by the way, did you find out what the professor's last name is?"

"It seems..." The girl in the middle tilted her head, thought carefully for a long time, and then said slowly, "My surname is Gu."

The author has something to say: About Gu Yuan's two years abroad will be included in the episode.