Restlessness

Later, Li Ranran and Zhou Hui didn't show much interest in the table full of Hangzhou dishes as agreed before, and the round table was unconsciously filled with various small bottles of beer and liquor.

Halfway through the drink, Li Ranran didn't bother to use the cup anymore, and began to blow on the bottle with blushing cheeks. Because of the weight loss, the Adam's apple in the neck also slid up and down a few times, and a few drops of white wine leaked slowly down the chin. slipped into the neck.

For a simple dinner party, at most, Zhou Hui and Li Ranran sat there and chatted about other things, and then they unconsciously mentioned the high school life of the four of them before.

Li Ranran's entire face was flushed, and his eye sockets were reddened, and he couldn't help picking up a bottle of wine again and rushed to the table.

"You two, if you are in love, just love it! You have to hide it from me and Zhou Hui." Li Ranran said, his voice began to choke, and his nose was inexplicably sore, "It's okay to hide it from the two of us, as long as you I can go on well..."

"Gu Yuan, do you know that in my eyes, you have always been the one who will support others when the sky falls..." Zhou Hui sniffed, took a big gulp of beer, grinned and took a deep breath He said, "But why didn't you tell Xu Yue when you fucking went abroad, do you know how sad he was at that time... What the hell are you two doing! How fucking cowardly!"

The past that was finally buried in her heart was suddenly revealed by the two of them. Xu Yue suddenly poured white wine that was so full that it was about to overflow into the empty glass in front of her, hesitated for a few seconds and swallowed it.

Gu Yuan raised his eyes, and the half-raised hand finally stopped on his lap.

"I was too scared at that time..." Gu Yuan said shallowly, "I was afraid that he would repeat the same mistakes."

I am most afraid that you will repeat the same mistakes, so I even left quietly at the end.

Alcohol began to act mischievously again, Xu Yue's eyes were dark and black and white double images kept appearing outside, he tried hard to find Gu Yuan's face, and then faced that direction, forcing himself to half-open his eyes.

He raised his hand to wipe off the spicy white wine that remained at the corner of his mouth, and said slowly: "Gu Yuan, whether it's Xu Lu or you, I've let go now... Are you satisfied with the result?"

"Gu Yuan, the two of us... have long been on our way."

This night, Xu Yue drank a lot of wine, the skin under the corners of his eyes was oozing blood from the inside out, and the red blood slowly crawled out from the bottom of his eyes. The old illness that hadn't happened for two years finally came back, and his stomach was overwhelmed The pain twisted into a rope, the intense pain made him frown slightly, and instinctively grasped Gu Yuan tightly with his right hand.

"Gu, Gu Yuan..." Xu Yue no longer had the strength to open his eyes, and the last words slowly disappeared, "I hurt..."

Xu Yue no longer remembers how she was carried to the emergency department, how she got home in the end, and how that cup of honey water, which was even the same temperature as before, slipped into her mouth... When the winter sun illuminated the entire rental house at noon the next day, he slowly opened his eyes.

Stomach is more comfortable than before, Xu Yue squinted to see that there is a cup of steaming milk on the bedside table.He couldn't help but glanced around. The pillow that fell on the ground was now placed on the single sofa in the bedroom, and the few coats that had nowhere to be placed on the edge of the bed had already been put into the closet. Surprisingly, there is still a faint smell of men's perfume in the room.

"This taste..."

This smell was too familiar to Xu Yue, he sat up suddenly from the bed, and opened the door of the room without caring about the hot milk on the table.

The glass window of the living room was opened by Gu Yuan, and the dark curtains that Xu Yue never wanted to open were also hung intact on both sides of the white wall, and the hidden buttons that were knotted in the middle could still be seen. Small gray gauze flowers.

A person was huddled on the couch, the shirt that smelled of cigarettes had not been taken off, and only a thin blanket was covering his body.

Xu Yue threw off his slippers and walked closer with his bare feet. Seeing Gu Yuan, who was trembling with his eyes closed and pale, with his hands tightly clasped on his chest, he couldn't help biting his lower lip.He casually picked up the remote control of the air conditioner on the coffee table and adjusted it to the warm air state.

The surrounding environment of this rental house is not very good, and the only thing to talk about in the past is the monthly rent of less than 1000 yuan.But for Xu Yue, as long as there is a place to go back to, no matter where it is, at least he will still have the thought of home.

The vertical air conditioner made a humming sound, and several blades were stuck in the middle and vibrated continuously.Gu Yuan gently turned over and slowly opened his eyes.

Xu Yue suddenly regretted this unnecessary action.

"Who! Xu...Xu Yue?" Gu Yuan threw away the blanket on his body and sat up immediately, "Are you awake? How is it? Is your stomach still uncomfortable? When I went to the hospital yesterday, the doctor said it was acute gastroenteritis and prescribed a prescription Piles of medicine..."

"You..." Gu Yuan was overwhelmed, Xu Yue was stunned for a moment, feeling inexplicably distressed.

"Ah, my...you drank too much wine yesterday and became unconscious. I took you to the hospital first. The doctor wanted you to spend the night in the inpatient department, but I know you don't like the disinfection in the hospital. The smell of water, so..." Gu Yuan spoke very quickly, licking his chapped upper lip, and sniffing from time to time, "So I decided to take you back...to your home. Ah, and Li Ranran and Zhou Hui, I also helped them find a hotel, don't worry about the two of them."

"Understood..." Xu Yue nodded slightly, and just before Gu Yuan was about to speak, he said with a light smile, "Thank you."

Thank you, these three words have enough weight, as if at a certain moment, the distance between the two of them was clearly drawn.

Gu Yuan's bright eyes suddenly dimmed back, and he stood up a little dazedly. After hesitating for a long time, he slowly said: "Xu Yue, I know you won't forgive me...but if you don't say something now, It's really too late!"

"When I was in high school, you were like a light that suddenly broke into my world. I knew I was bad, and I didn't have much pursuit until I met you...you are excellent, you have good grades, and you have a bright future. The future, so I will follow behind you and chase hard, if you take a step forward, I will follow it."

"Even if I'm abroad, I don't dare to let go of any day." Gu Yuan shouted with a nasal voice and hoarse voice, "I gave up the bullshit finance that my mother arranged for me. In order to learn psychology well."

"Xu Yue, do you know? The books I have memorized are more than all the textbooks in our attached middle school in the past three years. A test paper is so long that it can be rolled into a paper tube...It seems that love abroad can be blessed, never They don’t often threaten to talk to some parents like the attached middle school. We often see two big boys holding hands on our campus, but Xu Yue, do you understand? Every time I see them, I feel pain here... Later I Only then did I realize that I inserted this knife here with my own hands two years ago, and I have never been willing to pull it out since then..."

With red eyes, Gu Yuan slammed hard on his left chest. The muffled voice from the black shirt sounded extremely depressing.

"In the past two years, I have had too many regrets." Gu Yuan suddenly calmed down, holding Xu Yue's shoulders firmly with both hands, "I missed the college entrance examination that I promised you, but this time, I can't miss it again. you……"

"Xu Yue, I'm back this time... I'll never leave again. We live in a rental house together, raise a white cat with tabby, and go to school together." Gu Yuan looked at Xu Yue seriously. With slightly cloudy eyes, "So... even if you say that we are not on the way, I will still chase after it as hard as before."

"I'm not lying to you, so can you not let me go."

"Don't hide anymore, I'm afraid I won't find you..."

Xu Yue slowly closed her eyes, and in the darkness, she seemed to see the ginkgo tree in the rainy day of the middle school again, and the roots seemed to be covered with blood-red roses.

"...It smells like cigarettes all over your body, and even the perfume can't cover it off, so let's wash it off first." Xu Yue turned around and went into the bathroom and turned on the water heater first, "The water temperature has been adjusted for you... I , I'll go to sleep for a while."

Xu Yue wanted to escape, just like two years ago, he didn't have enough courage to face the face in front of him that he had missed for two whole years.

Gu Yuan closed the bathroom door in a daze, white mist rose from the hot water sprinkled from the shower head, and the mirror in front of the sink was slowly covered by the rising water vapor, and then became blurred.Gu Yuan took off his cigarette-smelling shirt, and leaned his back against the glass door of the bathroom.

Los Angeles two years ago.

The last evening class ended on time at 8:[-] p.m. local time. The psychology professor packed up his things, looked around the classroom, and finally settled on Gu Yuan.Probably because of the same reason as being Chinese, the professor seemed to have figured out Gu Yuan's loneliness at the moment. He stepped off the podium, completely ignoring the students sitting next to Gu Yuan, and directly knocked on Gu Yuan's desk.

"If you want an, come out with me."

Gu Yuan came back to his senses and packed up the things on his desk, then slowly stood up and followed the professor up to the roof of the top floor.

"Yuan, I'm really sorry to ask you to come up to chat so late, I heard...you just rejected a girl's confession last week?" The professor held on to the railing with both hands, and the breeze blew their hair, "Oh , don’t get me wrong. I just overheard some students talking about it.”

The way Americans get along is always so simple and comfortable. When you meet someone you like, you will pursue it. Even if you are rejected, you can just laugh it off and become best friends.

Gu Yuan was stunned for a moment, he never expected that a professor of psychology who is also Chinese would ask this question in such a way.

"Yeah." Gu Yuan nodded slightly, "Professor, I actually don't like girls."

The professor's expression didn't change, he never showed a trace of surprise, he just nodded along, and finally put his right hand on Gu Yuan's shoulder. "I think, even if it is a boy, you will also refuse."

Gu Yuan didn't speak any more, and raised his head slightly to look at the quiet road outside the school.Gu Yuan, the tall tree on both sides, couldn't make out his name, but he thought it was surprisingly good-looking.

"Yuan, then what type of boy do you like?" The professor blinked and looked away.

Gu Yuan suddenly smiled, shrugged his shoulders lightly, and his eyes were filled with tenderness: "What kind of look would I like... Probably good-looking and tall, who can be shorter than me Three centimeters, right? His grades in both subjects are very good, so he can transfer to the liberal arts class for me..."

"To help me quit smoking, I can buy a lot of cantaloupe-flavored lollipops. Even though I don't know why the limited-edition key chain is so popular, I still squeezed into the crowd after school and bought one... I don't know anything about video games, but I still stayed up all night in a daze before I snatched the pre-sale tickets for the scene—”

"Yuan, I'm sorry to interrupt you." The professor suddenly smiled and flicked his wrist casually, "Actually, you are not answering my question, you are just missing someone"

The rooftop suddenly became quiet, only a few car horns could be heard from the parking lot...

"May I know his name?"

"Of course." Gu Yuan took out his phone and opened the phone's photo album. There are a total of 167 photos, all of which are from the same person, but there are obvious dividing points. "His name is Xu Yue."

In the first few pages, the boy in the school uniform has his eyes bent, and the corners of his mouth are raised unconsciously. Whether he is lying on the table, or running in the gym with a basketball in his arms, even a funny and ugly photo seems to be showing respect to everyone. Telling that this is their young and ignorant youth.

But starting from the last two pages, the overall style of the photos is very messy, it no longer looks like it was taken by Gu Yuan himself, but it looks like it was preserved from the university's confession wall.There are high-definition ones, and some candid shots out of focus in panic.

"The latter were forwarded to me by my friend, and I saved them all." Gu Yuan chuckled lightly.

The boy in the photo no longer wears the blue and white high school uniform, smiles occasionally, rarely has anyone around him, always looks lonely, and stretches out his hand to hold an umbrella to cover the white stray cat in the flower bed wind and rain……

Gu Yuan turned off the screen of the mobile phone, raised his head and slowly closed his eyes, a fine wind sneaked across the gap between his lips.

"Professor, I actually miss him. I really miss him..."

Just as Gu Yuan was deep in thought, someone knocked on the bathroom door from outside.

"Gu Yuan? Gu Yuan! Are you okay?" Xu Yue patted the wooden door lightly, "You've been in the bathroom for too long, you'll run out of oxygen."

Gu Yuan wiped off the water droplets on his face, and without caring about his wet upper body, he directly opened the bathroom door, and dragged Xu Yue who was standing outside the door into his arms.

"Gu..."

The word "Gu Yuan" was suddenly blocked by the person in front of him. After two years, Gu Yuan pushed Xu Yue behind the door again, and pressed his warm lips tightly. After 2 minutes, he couldn't help being angry. Panting, she tilted her head and nestled into Xu Yue's shoulder.

"I can't... I'm really going to lack oxygen."

Xu Yue sighed, raised her hand and opened the frosted glass window of the bathroom a thin slit, turned her head to look at Gu Yuan who was lying on her chest and kept panting, and raised his chin with her hand.

"Gu Yuan, can you tell me now... when you went to the airport two years ago... did you ever think about me!" Xu Yue's voice was low, as if complaining, but also as if venting distress.

"Ah Yuan...why..."

Why did you leave without a word?

And why did he appear in his world again...

Xu Yue looked at the familiar yet somewhat unfamiliar boy in front of him, and finally couldn't help biting him hard.

The entire bathroom was filled with the smell of shower gel, mixed with a faint smell of smoke, and finally completely contaminated by the smell of blood.

He was neither gentle nor tactful, and was simply busy and busy for two years, Xu Yue finally had a reason to wake himself up.

Lingering into the white mist, it seems that there are still two teenagers running on the tree-lined road.

That year in the second year of high school, Gu Yuan hopped a few steps on one foot, lay on Xu Yue's back, raised his face and raised his arms, and tore off a branch full of water droplets. The rain soaked their school uniforms.

Gu Yuan carefully wiped away the little drops of water on Xu Yue's eyelids: "Then, are we together now?"

Xu Yue blinked lightly, "Well, forget it. It's true, I didn't lie to you."