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After school starts, we are promoted to sophomores.The increase in professional courses and the change of departments made us very busy as soon as the school started.

The Faculty of Letters and the Faculty of Law are not far apart, and our dormitory is even in the same building, but even so, it is very difficult for Yu Qi and I to meet each other.In my freshman year, I joined several departments and associations. In my sophomore year, I only chose to stay in the External Relations Department, and successfully ran for the vice minister.In my junior year, I should be able to run for minister.

Yu Qi chose to stay on the debate team.When she was a freshman, she was very favored by the instructor and the captain at the time. She was a student of the Faculty of Arts, which made the seniors of the law school in the junior year feel some pressure. One-time debate team captain.So Yu Qi took over the school's debate team, and she was the vice-captain of the liberal arts school's debate team.

While taking care of the department, we also tried our best to do our best in our studies. We successfully got the highest grade point last semester and applied for a scholarship.

These are all good things, but at the same time, our troubles have increased.

We have a high degree of discussion in the school forum.Different from the past, Yu Qi tried to convince himself not to care about it, but fortunately, everyone is more mature now, and no one makes a fuss about Yu Qi's physical condition.

But there are a lot of people who express their love to us in the forum, and from time to time when they walk on the road, they will also have their eyes on us, which makes us very troubled.

Fortunately, no one has put things like confessions into action yet.

No wonder.October passed, and it was another school sports meeting of the year.Yu Qi and I rarely have free time - she is basically insulated from physical education, and she is directly exempted from physical education, while I have finished all work and studies, and we took a walk by the lake in the school.

The name of the lake is Nameless.It is said that it was named "Wuming Lake" because the first principal believed in Taoism, and because "the avenue has no name".The shape of the lake is also very similar to a Taiji fish, with a pavilion in the center, and the other half of Taiji is an artificial forest named "Invisible Forest", with a circular pavilion in the center.

Students in the UAV club often use drones to take pictures of this area, and what is shown on the photo is a complete Taiji map.

Yu Qi also likes Taoist ideas very much, and she often comes to this area for a walk.

We sat on the bench by the lake, blowing the autumn wind, watching the waves on the lake, and the birds that occasionally skipped the water.

The hustle and bustle of the school sports meeting will leak out from time to time.

I thought about it, and asked Yu Qi: "Do you still remember what you said before the school sports meeting in the first year of high school?"

Yu Qi: "About what?"

Me: "About... the person you like?"

Yu Qi smiled: "Why do you ask that?"

Me: "It just happened to be at the school sports meeting, and you seem to have known about Jiang You for a long time. At that time, you said that you were too naive, and you just want to know what you think now." I lowered my eyelids slightly, "And it seems that at that time, you said that you have someone you like."

Yu Qi turned her eyes from me to the surface of the lake: "I did know about Jiang You a long time ago. At that time, I saw them dating outside...but actually I didn't think very much about her at that time," she smiled. ,"too young."

"You also know that Jiang You's personality is relatively mild, contrary to his appearance, and they often have disagreements. The biggest conflict probably occurs when they go out together during summer vacation... They say that traveling is the best choice between couples. Good test methods, living habits, etc. If you can’t get along well, it’s easy to have conflicts... Of course, the most important thing is that they have different opinions. I won't give in, so I will say goodbye at the end."

Me: "... like this."

Yu Qi: "Yes."

Me: "...What about you?"

Yu Qi turned to look at me, slightly confused: "?"

I lowered my head and fiddled with my fingers, so I didn't see Yu Qi grabbing the corner of his clothes: "The person you liked at that time...do you still like it?"

Yu Qi sighed softly: "You still remember this incident. I... still like it." The ending sound gradually deepened, as if he was sighing, as if he had a feeling.

I felt sour in my heart: "Really... would you like to talk about him? It's been so long since the college entrance examination, you... aren't you going to talk to him?"

Yu Qi cast his eyes on the lake again: "I... actually plan to hide it for the rest of my life. Because she is a girl." Yu Qi chuckled, "I don't know when it started, but my mind was gradually occupied by the other party, watching She smiles, watching her every move can make me feel better..."

Yu Qi was in a very happy mood.As if thinking of that girl, her happiness came.

It's no wonder that she knows about Jiang You. Like Jiang You, she also likes girls.

I tried my best to hold back the bitterness in my heart, and concealed the trembling of my voice: "You like her very much, why didn't you tell me?"

I must have concealed it very well, or maybe Yu Qi was immersed in thinking and didn't notice my abnormality: "Because I know she won't agree to me, she is so good and gentle, although I haven't seen anyone she likes yet, but I don't want to be selfish and take her down a hard path...how can I pull her down a rough path because of my selfishness when she could have had a smooth path? I will continue to like her and watch her until ...until she finds her own happiness, then time will let me give up slowly." Even though it sounds easy, there is still a trace of loneliness in Yu Qi's words.She is actually a very gentle person, restrained and forbearing, and there is no one thing that is not for the sake of the person she likes.

Who is that lucky person?It's really hard for me to control... It's hard to control my jealousy.He must be a very wonderful person, able to make Yu Qi like him so much, put himself in her shoes, and even take himself so lightly.Even if my liking becomes a regret, even if I hide my emotions forever, I don't want to try—I don't want her to walk on a path where she might be stared at by strange eyes.

Yes, Yu Qi is a gentle person at heart, she is always thinking of others... especially for those she likes.

If it is said that what Jiang You said to me aroused a little hope in me, then what Yu Qi said was like a basin of cold water, which extinguished my hope.Anyone can see that she likes that girl deeply.Unless Yu Qi gave up by herself, how could others shake that girl's position in her heart?

I have no chance.

The birds skipped over the lake.The fallen leaves of the invisible forest have turned yellow, and the setting sun reflects the surface of the lake, reflecting the dim yellow of the invisible forest.It is a beautiful evening scenery picture.I didn't have the heart to appreciate such a beautiful scenery.My thoughts were confused, I tightened my coat subconsciously, and responded to Yu Qi's words: "It's really lucky to be loved by someone you like. No matter what the result is, to be loved by someone so tenderly and carefully is really, really lucky .”

Yu Qi looked at me with concern, but didn't answer what I said: "Are you cold? It's dark and windy at night, let's go back."

I yearn for a little bit of her tenderness towards her friends: "Yes."

A little bit is fine.I told myself.

But how can there be no limit to human greed?All along, everyone thought I was Yu Qi's best friend.In this position, I have enjoyed the most preferential treatment and the most tenderness from her.I still end up wanting more than I should, wanting more, wanting more than just a best friend, wanting something beyond friendship... wanting her attention, wanting all the tenderness she has for the rest of my life.

So it should be a punishment.I think.Being aware of such greed by the heavens, seeing Yu Qi's tenderness towards the person he likes with his own eyes today, that tenderness that does not belong to me, the affection that does not belong to me, is the greatest punishment for my greed.

Along the way, I pretended nothing happened, talking and laughing with Yu Qi as usual.How long can this day last?Walking with her on the small road in the campus, feeling the four seasons, being with the evening breeze, even if there is only silence, only the sound of Yu Qi's cane tapping the ground, such a time is also beautiful.One day, her relationship will have an ending, whether it blossoms and bears fruit, or ends without a problem, maybe she will walk this road arm in arm with the girl she likes, maybe she will let go of this relationship and fall in love with another Lucky girls, but neither will be me.

After all, friends don't spend their whole life together, do they?

Don't be too greedy.It is a very lucky thing to be accepted by her and become a friend.At least at this moment, the closest position to her is me.

"If she feels lucky...it's my luck." Yu Qi sighed softly when we were about to go downstairs to the dormitory and we were about to say goodbye.

"You really care about the person you like." I was actually a little puzzled, "In fact, sometimes I also hope that you are more selfish... You deserve everything, and you deserve to be treated well by everyone. Are you really unwilling to try? "

"No way." Yu Qi replied quickly, "Actually," she smiled brightly and sincerely under the setting sun, "I'm already very lucky."

"Tao Zhizhao, what's wrong with you?"

When my roommate came back, I looked out the window and heard the sound, and I seemed to wake up with a start.

My roommate looked at me worriedly.I wondered: "What's wrong?"

Roommate: "You...you are crying, do you know that?"

I reached out and touched my face, and there were indeed tears falling.

I was obviously just looking out the window, not thinking about anything...

In a strange way, I murmured: "I must have lost love..."

Roommate: "?"

Roommate: "!"

She put down the things in her hands, feeling a little at a loss, so she came up and hugged my shoulders: "It's okay, that dog man is not good enough for you, there are tens of thousands of men in the world, you see, it's hard to find three-legged men, two-legged men ..."

She seemed to be concerned about her, and she started to speak indiscriminately. I smiled, but I guess she thought it would be better to cry: "No, I didn't confess to the other party... The other party didn't know that I liked her. She did. The more I think about it, the more wronged I become, and my voice starts to sob, "She's fine, but she just doesn't like me... Obviously she likes girls too, why not me..."

The roommate was confused, and finally made it clear: "You like girls, and she likes girls, doesn't she like you?"

Me: "Well..."

The roommate was even more at a loss, "That, that, ah, this, you are so good," she probably also felt at a loss, and sighed, "Oh, there is no way, I like this thing... Let time dilute it. "

I nodded, bitter in my heart, what else could I do?

The author has something to say: It feels like it's coming to an end... right...

Right now, I'm going too far towards the end, but it's really hard to let the emotion and the plot develop naturally without being abrupt.