Cannon Fodder's Rebirth

Taking off his clothes and standing under the shower to drench cold water, Jiang Xi raised his head and let the water splash on his face to cover up his slightly astringent eye sockets under the frustration.

This feeling of powerlessness made him feel bone-wrenching pain. He clearly knew what to do, and clearly knew what the other party needed him to do, but if the other party didn't open the closed door himself, there was no room for him to squeeze in.In the end, nothing can be done.

He never left the bathroom, and he didn't follow Zhong Yifan's instructions to lock the door. His ears were filled with the sound of rushing water, and Jiang Xi didn't hear the door.

When the bathroom door was opened, he looked over dumbly.

It was Yue Yan who came uninvited, bringing a bunch of food.

"Are you okay?" Yue Yan barged in even though he heard the sound of water in the bathroom, Yue Yan didn't want to deny that he might be a little subjective.But he did call Jiangxi twice before he opened the door without answering, so at least he could use caring as an excuse to break in.

Jiang Xi now knew that he should really listen to Zhong Yifan's words and lock the door behind him first, he hurriedly grabbed the bath towel to wrap himself in some, and the two moved out of the bathroom.

Yue Yan kept looking up and down, and after making sure that there were no indecent marks left on Jiang Xi's body, he seemed relieved.

Putting down the things brought on the tray, he raised his hand to signal Jiang Xi to come over: "Are you angry with me? That kid's quarrel is neither serious nor serious, so don't care about it like him. Come, eat something."

It was he who drove the car for more than two hours to bring them here. We talked in the car and knew that Jiang Xi hadn't had dinner yet. He originally planned to have dinner together as soon as he got here. Zhong Yifan didn't expect Zhong Yifan to come first. one hand.

"Thank you." After returning to his normal state, Jiang Xi didn't have any clothes to change, so it was a bit awkward to just eat like this, but he was relieved to think that everyone downstairs was dressed like this.

Today's birthday party was a buffet style, and the food was taken from the dining table downstairs. Yue Yan didn't know what Jiangxi liked to eat, so he took a few more.Jiang Xi had long since choked on what Zhong Yifan said at the adult party, he had no interest in food at all, and he couldn't refute his good intentions, so he just took a sip of pineapple juice.

Yue Yan killed a piece of smoked salmon and a small piece of bacon cheese sandwich by himself. He looked up and saw that Jiang Xi still had nothing to eat, so he chose from three or four desserts on the tray, and finally chose a beautifully shaped matcha mousse and handed it over past.

"I don't know what relationship you have with Fanzi anymore, but if you don't want to stay and play, I can send you back now."

After picking up Mousse, Jiang Xi looked up, and Yue Yan's eyes were full of sincerity.If you understand it at a deeper level, there may be some hints in the eyes that encourage him to leave.

Jiang Xi felt as if he had noticed something...

In fact, it's not that I haven't encountered this kind of thing in my previous life, but Zhong Yifan is the only one in my heart, and I don't even have the desire to try dating other people at all.In his heart, it is very irrational to use sexual intercourse to relieve loneliness. If the heart is empty, then only deeper loneliness will be left after the relief.

Just like now, he admits that his unrequited love is very hard, but this does not mean that accepting other people's comfort will make him happier.

"I want to stay here. I haven't said something clearly. I want to say it before I leave." After cheering up and saying this, Jiang Xi shifted his gaze from Yue Yan's face back to the mousse in his hand, and bit down on the first bite. a mouthful.

"Well, let me ask you a word, do you and Fanzi... have that kind of relationship?"

What that kind of relationship refers to Jiangxi is actually not very sure, but even if it does not rise to a relationship of lovers, at least it is a hint of more than ordinary friends, right?

"Not yet, but I hope that the relationship with him can go further." It seems a bit strange to say this to a stranger who has only known each other for a few hours, but the other party asked so directly, he thinks he understands the other reasons behind this question mean.

Yue Yan stared at him as he finished eating the small piece of mousse, as if he had thought about that sentence seriously, before he nodded and smiled helplessly: "Okay, I understand. Then you rest, I'll go out first gone."

Just as Yue Yan picked up the tray and was about to leave, Jiang Xi suddenly realized that he was experiencing symptoms of dizziness, drowsiness, and drowsiness.Looking at the half-empty pineapple juice next to him, he realized something.

"What's wrong with you?" After walking two steps and realizing that Jiangxi was not right, Yue Yan turned back and put down the tray to support him.

The drowsiness came fiercely, Jiang Xi was so tired that he couldn't even lift his eyelids, but he could feel Yue Yan put him on the bed, and then he opened the door and went downstairs, shouting loudly.

"Fuck! Which grandson put obedient water in the pineapple juice?"

Knowing that this group of grandchildren were playing crazy, Yue Yan was afraid that someone would play a prank when he was choosing food, so he didn't dare to take an alcoholic drink, so he poured a glass of pineapple juice for Jiangxi, but he didn't know that this was still a trick.

It took Zhong Yifan a lot of effort to find clothes for Jiang Xi from the third floor.He had too many shirtless home clothes, and he didn't know what he was fussing about when choosing, from color to texture to feel, he touched them one by one before finally choosing a light blue one.I feel that this color is lighter than the sky and the sea, just like Jiangxi, who is as pure as the unpolluted sea water, but has deep feelings that can embrace the world like the sky...

It's just that Zhong Yifan didn't expect that when he came downstairs, he would meet Yue Yan who came back angrily after finding the real culprit, while Jiang Xi had already fallen asleep with flushed cheeks, absolutely assuming he wanted anything and everything.

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When Jiang Xi woke up, it was already more than three hours later.

The bedside lamp was on, and Zhong Yifan was next to him in pajamas, with a thin blanket draped around his waist, leaning against the bedside and holding the glass of red wine in his hand thoughtfully, taking a sip.

Jiang Xi experienced short-term memory loss, no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't remember why he was lying on the same bed with Zhong Yifan.

"Are you awake?" A movement around him alarmed Zhong Yifan: "Is there any discomfort?"

"Uh..." Unnaturally twisting on the bed, Jiang Xi tugged at the clothes on his body: "Yes."

Probably didn't think he would say that, Zhong Yifan put down his red wine glass and leaned over: "Dizziness? Headache?"

"No, I'm not used to sleeping with clothes on, it's awkward." Jiang Xi feared that he would never get rid of this problem in his life.

"..." With these words, Zhong Yifan didn't know what expression to make.

"Didn't you... have sex?"

"Didn't this get out with you?"

"Really?" Jiang Xi smiled. He did not have any memory of what happened after he fell asleep, but his body was his own, so he knew best if he had ever been involved in it or not: "That's a pity, I don't even feel it."

"Are you implying that my skills are poor?" Zhong Yifan didn't know why he could still laugh while looking at Jiang Xi, he suddenly felt a little uncomfortable, he thought that Jiang Xi should know how to cherish himself more.

"I'm just pointing out the fact that you deliberately discredited yourself."

Throwing back the blanket, Jiang Xi crawled over Zhong Yifan's upper body, picked up the red wine bottle that was placed over there, and poured himself a third of a glass of red wine with the glass that Zhong Yifan had just put down.

"I suggest you drink milk." Snatching the cup, Zhong Yifan glanced at the boxed milk beside him, which he brought specially for Jiang Xi.

In fact, it is Zhong Yifan who should drink milk, he drank a lot tonight.

"Drinking too much alcohol will hurt your health." The boxed milk was inserted into a straw and brought to Zhong Yifan's mouth, and the wine glass in his hand was taken away by Jiang Xi.

"Didn't you ask why you suddenly fell asleep before?" He exchanged the milk and the red wine glass with Jiangxi forcibly again, Zhong Yifan insisted on letting him drink the milk, but he still listened to the persuasion and put down the wine glass, no longer drank.

"Don't dare to ask." Holding the milk, Jiang Xi's eyes stayed on the straw for a second, then looked up at Zhong Yifan with a smile.

"Why?" Zhong Yifan was a little surprised by these three words.

"I'm afraid I'll like you more if I ask." Jiang Xi can remember that he suddenly fell asleep and wanted to sleep, and now he is lying here without any discomfort, and Zhong Yifan is by his side, which already explains the problem, doesn't it?

"..." Zhong Yifan sometimes doesn't understand the structure of Jiang Xi's brain, he has already brought out the most embarrassing side of himself in front of him, yet he can still say such things. "It's fine if you don't know me, you can see my virtues now, what do you like about me?"

This question was complicated, and Jiang Xi didn't answer it.

After so many years, liking it for too long has almost become a kind of inertia, and the reason for liking can no longer be specific to a certain point.In addition, although Zhong Yifan in front of him has a deliberately depraved side, this is not the real him. I believe that under this degenerate appearance, it is himself who is really suffering.

"Just now there is hypnotic water in the thing you drank. It's a prank. It doesn't target anyone. It depends on his attributes. Do you understand what this means? These people around me regard this kind of thing as eating and sleeping. It's just as easy, it's as normal for you to have a meal with your friends, and it's as normal for them to have a bed." Zhong Yifan was afraid that his own depravity was not fully demonstrated to Jiang Xi: "Do you understand that like attracts like? Are you sure you like me like this?"

"Are you sure this is the real you?" Jiang Xi confidently concluded: "Your rebellious period is really long, obviously doing so will not let you get pleasure from it, so why bother to deliberately indulge?"

"Do you think you know me well?"

"It's true that I don't understand enough, but you can tell me that I understand. Let's start with the sudden transfer of schools, how about it?" Just now Zhong Yifan mentioned the hypnotic water, which actually greatly strengthened Jiang Xi's confidence.No matter Zhong Yifan stays here to accompany him out of sympathy or any other purpose, isn't this the best proof that even if he indulges, he is far from being hopeless?

"It amazes me how stubborn you are sometimes."

"Will you throw me out of the door again because you can't bear it? I'll slam the door again." Jiang Xi joked, knowing that the other party must have thought of his strong confession on that birthday.

"Whatever you want, now I am not afraid of being found out that I like boys. And if it is known that you are so 'passionate', I believe there will be many people willing to satisfy you, Yue Yan should be the first to rush over and carry you away After Jiang Xi fell asleep just now, Yue Yan's expression clearly exceeded the nervousness that an ordinary friend he just met should have.

"Are you going to sell me to your friends? Doesn't that violate your original intention of not letting me get close to your circle of friends?"

"Yue Yan is different from other people. He doesn't participate much in such activities. We are pure buddies. Although we all like boys, he is definitely a man of integrity. If you want, I think you can develop it."

"Are you serious?" Jiang Xi stared at Zhong Yifan's eyes with a penetrating sharpness.He looked deeply into it, and then smiled lightly: "Then why, at this moment, it's you, not him, who stays here with me?"

"..."

Zhong Yifan was stopped by the question.

Yes, from the very beginning, he had no intention of letting other people get close to Jiang Xi.The few sources of warmth that belonged to him, he cherished them and didn't want to get dirty, but he never thought of giving them up.

The mood is inexplicably subtle.

"Come back, get back to the original track of life, no matter what happened, if you continue on the track of unhappiness, you will only get farther and farther away from happiness."

"Where did you learn such an old-fashioned tone?" He raised his hand and rubbed it on Jiangxi's head, messing up the hair he helped to dry when the other party fell asleep just now: "Some roads, if you go too far, you can't go back went."

The loneliness of being the only one left in the world is deeply rooted.So that no matter how many cronies and friends are around, after the hustle and bustle, it is still empty, lonely and cold.

"Because of Tong Huan?" Jiang Xi pursed his lower lip: "Do you really like him that much?" Because of his betrayal back then, did he indulge himself so childishly?

As if he didn't expect Jiang Xi to make such an association, he was taken aback for a moment, and then Zhong Yifan smiled disdainfully.

"Do you really think highly of me, am I so infatuated?"

Without answering this question, Jiang Xi felt that it was really difficult to say.Emotional matters are inherently complicated, there are no formulas and laws, and there is no question of whether it is worth it or not.Some people may feel distressed when they look at some feelings, but if the person involved feels that no matter how hard the love is, it is more happy to stick to this love, who can conclude that he is unlucky?After all, this feeling and mood are all his own, and only the person concerned can judge whether giving up is happier than sticking to it.

"Since you want to know so much, let me tell you a story."

Zhong Yifan didn't know why he wanted to tell Jiang Xi.From the day he knew this story, it became an unhealed wound in his heart. He had been watching the wound fester and fester for so many years, and it even made his whole life smell of mildew and decay.