Cannon Fodder's Rebirth

"I'm saying this, I don't want your sympathy." Zhong Yifan tugged at the blanket on his waist, and twitched the corner of his lower lip self-deprecatingly: "I just want you to know that liking it or not has long been meaningless to me. I'm not capable of responding to your feelings."

If Jiang Xi is really the real age of his current body, he will definitely be shocked after hearing this.Fortunately, he is mature enough.

"Like is an instinct. I can't control my feelings. Similarly, if the feeling comes, you can't control yours. Again, I won't give up unless you have your own true emotional belonging." Suddenly I feel that maybe my rebirth is not simply because of my obsession with Zhong Yifan too much, but because God has pity on such a Zhong Yifan and gave him the mission of salvation to redeem him.

The night was already deep, and Jiangxi's pupils were darker than the night, setting off that firmness beyond doubt.

Zhong Yifan admitted that he was a little moved.

"You have hugged many people with these hands, don't you mind?"

These words made Jiang Xi stare at Zhong Yifan's hand seriously, and thought for a while: "From an emotional point of view, I mind, mind to death."

"Heh!" Underestimating Jiang Xi's level of frankness, the sentence "I care so much" made Zhong Yifan feel a little disappointed for no reason: "Since you care so much, why are you saying that kind of thing? Playing me?"

"The mind I said is not the mind you understand." That kind of mind is not disgust, but jealousy and regret.Jealous of the people he hugged, regretted that he still suffered from self-loathing after self-exile. "I care more about who these hands will hold in the future."

Compared to the past, Jiang Xi cared more about the future, using indulgence to numb his wounds, this kind of Zhong Yifan made him feel more distressed.

"Is there a difference who is it?" Anyway, I have hugged so many people without distinction...

"Why not? When you hugged Tong Huan back then, you felt the same as hugging other people now, right? The person you like is the same as the person who makes you feel alone."

This night, Jiang Xi stabbed Zhong Yifan a second time after his parents' problems.

"The person I hugged for the first time was you." As if admiring Jiangxi's astonishment with the joy of self-harm, Zhong Yifan continued to add: "When I liked Tong Huan, I never hugged him."

"How come..." This didn't look like a question anymore, Jiangxi's three words were automatically silenced in the air, so light that only one mouth shape remained.

"Why? Because it's stupid! I like it so much, I want to cherish it, I'm so stupid that I'm afraid he will hurt, I'm so stupid that I don't want to hug him." Then, I saw him sleeping with someone else, and then...

Jiang Xi didn't know why he rushed over to hug Zhong Yifan tightly, and when he found out, the other party was caught in his arms unexpectedly.

At this moment, his resentment towards Tong Huan was too high.Zhong Yifan, who used to be pure and foolish, was ruined by him just like that.

"Holding him so tightly, is he planning to sacrifice himself? I'm not refusing anyone who comes now." Having said that, Zhong Yifan actually didn't move.

"It doesn't matter, as long as you want..." If the other party needs it, it really doesn't matter.Jiang Xi felt that apart from constantly emphasizing how much he liked him, there was really very little he could do for the other party.Whether it's Tong Huan's betrayal, or the emotional entanglement of the parents, or being taken as a usable reproductive organ forcibly removed from the healthy living environment in the past, and found to be useless and unable to go back. Things, fait accompli, no matter which one he can't replace for repair.

"What an idiot..." In the end, he broke free from Jiang Xi's restraint, Zhong Yifan helped him pull up his crooked pajamas, and said jokingly: "I haven't tried to sit still in years, don't test me. "

It's been a long time since there was such a person, who made him want to not want to hurt because of his debt and emotion.Jiang Xi, the only person he owed in his life, he didn't want to hurt this only person again.

"I'm very serious." Zhong Yifan's hand, which helped arrange the pajamas, was still on the neckline, and his fingertips barely touched the skin. Jiang Xi felt that the temperature in that place was constantly rising, and it began to transfer heat to the surroundings.

From a short distance away, the four eyes met, and the eyes of the person opposite were extremely gentle, and the atmosphere was unexpectedly beautiful.Jiang Xi leaned over involuntarily, trying to kiss the lips with a faint smile.

However, the kiss failed.

Zhong Yifan turned his head away, but hooked Jiang Xi's neck and pressed the back of his head so that his chin rested on his shoulder.This almost hugging action was fixed in a posture where they couldn't see each other's expressions, so Zhong Yifan was able to say the following words as frankly as possible.

"Before I can be sure that I only want to hug you in the future..." I omitted half of the sentence, and expressed the meaning of rejection with a slight shaking of the head: "I don't want to turn you into the same existence as them. "

Time suddenly froze in perception.The words that Zhong Yifan uttered close to his ear were not loud, but to Jiang Xi, they had an extremely shocking echo.

This is tantamount to Zhong Yifan's own admission that at this moment, to him, he is different from other people.

Under the impact of great happiness, Jiang Xi almost wondered if he had an auditory hallucination.

It's not an auditory hallucination, it's that someone really jumped on the door with a "boom", and then slammed the door with a "smack".

The atmosphere was destroyed in an instant, and both of them suddenly felt somewhat embarrassed, Jiang Xi voluntarily withdrew from Zhong Yifan's embrace, and the latter got up to open the door.

"What are you playing? Take me with you!" It was Tong Huan who forcibly entered without invitation, in a drunken state, the baggy bathrobe was not tied tightly by the belt around the waist, and half of it slipped off his right shoulder, revealing a large piece of sensationalism landscape.

If you don't recall his domineering temperament and the cruel things he did to Zhong Yifan, to be fair, Tong Huan actually has a pretty face.

Drunk-eyed, he climbed onto the bed, and rubbed Jiangxi's neck with his hair that had not been blown dry after taking a bath like a cat, and then turned around in a kneeling position. Zhong Yifan, who was standing still by the door, gestured for invitation.

Jiang Xi was leaned against by Tong Huan, didn't move, just stared at Zhong Yifan's actions.

He had never imagined such a scene, him, Tong Huan, Zhong Yifan, in the same ambiguous room on an ambiguous night.

"Come here!" Standing by the door, Zhong Yifan waved to the bed.

Jiang Xi couldn't understand for a while, whether he was really calling himself or Tong Huan.

"Jiangxi, come here."

When the name was called, my heart suddenly fell to the bottom.The scene from six years ago can't help replaying in his mind, is he going to be thrown out of the house again because of Tong Huan?

Mechanically getting out of bed, Jiang Xi felt extremely hurt after experiencing the ecstasy just three minutes ago.This kind of injury, in addition to emotional, also includes self-esteem.

Probably dissatisfied with his slow pace, Zhong Yifan took two steps forward.After Jiang Xi hesitated for a while, he was already joined hands and quickly pulled away from the room.

Zhong Yifan casually closed the door with a "bang", and took him up to the third floor in a hostage manner.

What does it mean?

"Tong Huan?" He glanced back subconsciously, but couldn't see the expression of Tong Huan in the room at the moment.

"He's drunk, just sleep for a while, don't worry about him." His tone was very calm, at most impatient of being harassed for no reason, Zhong Yifan took Jiang Xi directly to his bedroom.

The room with the theme color of light field green implies that the owner actually desires to live a peaceful life away from the hustle and bustle and close to nature.

The master bedroom at night has a strong smell of green grass, which comes from the open door of the balcony.The tulle curtains were half drawn and blown by the night wind, which made the stars appear faintly, bringing out a pure atmosphere that was incompatible with the atmosphere downstairs.

Zhong Yifan never brought anyone to stay overnight in this room, it can be said that this is almost the only room in the whole house that has not been contaminated by other people's odor, and it is a place where his mind can rest a bit.

If he can regain the ability and courage to believe in liking, Zhong Yifan is willing to try for Jiangxi, starting from a place that is at least fairly clean...

"Tong Huan..." I didn't know how to ask, but Jiang Xi really wanted to know why Tong Huan would appear in Zhong Yifan's life again.

"Why are you still with him, right?" Both of them were sitting on the head of the bed, pulling a thin blanket over their bodies, such simple chatting was actually more attractive to Zhong Yifan than intense exercise on the bed.For him, it was too easy to find someone to sleep with, but it was much more difficult to find someone who could speak his mind. "I found out that he was my roommate on the first day I went to the Academy of Fine Arts. The relationship is closer than before. We were only in the same class in middle school, and we started to sleep together in college."

This is really called evil fate, right?Even Jiang Xi couldn't help but want to sigh, if fate deliberately made such an arrangement, it would be impossible for such a small human being to avoid it.

"Now that I think about it, the expression on my face when I saw him must have been quite silly. Later Cheng—that man took me to have dinner with his friends, and I realized that he, Tong Huan's father and uncle all went up the mountain together. An old classmate who went to the countryside." As if realizing that calling his father by his first name was too awkward, Zhong Yifan replaced Cheng Zhiyuan with that man again. "Oh, by the way, Uncle Tong Huan's cousin seems to be admitted to L University this year, maybe you will be classmates."

Children's music?Jiang Xi suddenly remembered that in the previous life, Tong Le seemed to have mentioned that he graduated from L University.

Why do I suddenly have a premonition that this life will be more chaotic than the previous life?

Jiang Xi couldn't help but secretly said, "You and Tong Huan's cousin... are also very familiar?"

Probably misunderstood this sentence as jealousy, Zhong Yifan raised his hand and rubbed Jiangxi's broken hair again: "It's just that I had dinner three years ago, that child was in the same class as you, and he was just in the first year of high school. You should have a deep understanding of the pressure of educating high school students, how can you have the time to become familiar with it?"

That's okay... Zhong Yifan's previous life's childish words followed him, he had the responsibility to be more tolerant, and his words have always made Jiangxi feel like a thorn. Fortunately, this time he finally played before the prelude to the tragedy. I hope he can Just in time to stop all tragedies from playing out.

In fact, looking at it now, there must be more than one person who was with Zhong Yifan before it was too late, and it was just a perfunctory excuse to forgive Tong Le's betrayal with such a reason in the previous life.Anyway, the giving is for the purpose of self-exile of feelings, so it doesn't matter who you are with and the reason for being together.

"Can I ask you a question?" It was rare that Zhong Yifan took the initiative to know something about Jiang Xi.

"of course."

"How many lovers have you had?"

"..." Jiang Xi has never dated anyone, and he has spent all his life with one man from his previous life to this life, but he wants to know Zhong Yifan's attitude towards this kind of thing: "Is this very important?"

"What are you thinking about in your little head? Do you think I mind?" Laughing at himself, he inserted his fingers into Jiangxi's soft hair, and naturally turned his head towards him, letting Jiangxi lean on his shoulder : "How can I have that qualification? I just want to know, do you like boys more or girls?"

"Why do you think I like girls?" Jiang Xi was really surprised, his head broke free from the control of that hand, and he stared at Zhong Yifan's face in confusion.

"I seem to remember that on the way to Tong Huan's house when I ran out of the restaurant that evening, I saw you carrying a girl on your back." The girl was still singing something on his back.In fact, as soon as he said the words, Zhong Yifan himself was surprised for a moment, he had unconsciously remembered this trivial matter for so many years.

Jiang Xi also remembered what happened that day, Zhou Xiaoyou sprained his foot that evening, and he carried her home on his back.

"That girl is my classmate in elementary school. I don't deny that she is a beautiful and lovely girl, but for girls, I really can't help it." I only have feelings for you. This last sentence, after the relationship suddenly got closer, On the contrary, Jiang Xi was embarrassed to speak too bluntly.