Pavlov and the White Moonlight

Nothing to say, Gu Jing notified our parents the next day.The only thing I'm worried about is Tang Shuhe. I swore that I would always be with him the night before. It was only at that moment that I realized that I really couldn't keep him behind all the time. That was the most helpless thing for me. place.

When Tang Shuhe's father arrived at school that day, Gu Jingjin waved to Tang Shuhe in the class, and gently motioned Tang Shuhe to go out with her. Tang Shuhe pursed his lips and stood up expressionlessly.I said I have to go with Mr. Gu, but Gu Jing waved her hands with anxiety on her face, and said, "You still don't think things are troublesome enough."

I said, "Doesn't puppy love find parents in pairs? If his parents want to see me, I don't have to make another trip."

Gu Jing sighed and said, "Then you wait outside the office first."

I said, "I stand with him."

Gu Jing looked very tired, she sighed, and said, "Save me some time, Lu Huai, can you understand me? Besides, what will happen if I'm here?"

I finally saw Tang Shuhe's father that day.It was probably the first time he was called to school like this by the teacher. His posture was a little arrogant, with broad shoulders and straight back, standing next to Gu Jing and opposite Tang Shuhe like a tower, blocking the light from the window.

Gu Jing's expression was a little nervous and anxious, and she kept whispering that parents should do a good job of psychological counseling for their children. At this point in time, falling in love will greatly affect their grades anyway. She was a little incoherent when she said it, and I realized that It turns out that I'm not the only one who thinks that this silent man will really hurt Tang Shuhe.

Tang Shuhe's father did not speak from the beginning to the end, only staring at Tang Shuhe with a pair of amber eyes like Tang Shuhe's.Tang Shuhe didn't look at him, but looked far away, staring at the green lawn of the playground in a daze.

Gu Jing was at a loss for words for a while, and finally said: "Actually, people's sexual orientation is relatively fluid, especially when we are teenagers. As adults, now the main thing is to let children not affect their studies, and try not to... engage in too violent intervention."

Tang Shuhe's father didn't even have any expressions, only the muscles on his cheeks were tightly clenched.He said, "Tang Shuhe, look at me."

Tang Shuhe looked away and looked at him quietly. The clear and gentle smile in those eyes that I was familiar with disappeared completely, and his eyes were calm and empty, nothing at all.

His father said, "Is it true?"

Tang Shuhe nodded.

His father said: "Is this why you insist on studying liberal arts?"

The corner of Tang Shuhe's mouth raised slightly, and he said, "Yes."

His father took a deep breath and said to Gu Jing, "Please trouble Teacher Gu."

Gu Jing was stunned: "No, no..."

His father interrupted Gu Jing: "Today I will take a leave of absence for Tang Shuhe, and he will come to class tomorrow."

Gu Jing stammered: "Well, I still want to remind you that parents should focus on the child's psychological counseling, and don't let him..."

"I know," his father said, "Tang Shuhe, come home with me first."

"I can't go back." Tang Shuhe said.

"What did you say?" his father said.

"I can't go back." Tang Shuhe repeated lightly.

His father seemed to be suddenly irritated by this sentence. He squinted his eyes, his eyebrows twitched, and said word by word: "I want you to come home with me now."

"I can't now..." Before Tang Shuhe finished speaking, his father greeted Tang Shuhe's face with a slap in the face. The moment I broke in, Gu Jing stepped forward and grabbed his father's arm. Said: "What is this! What is this!"

The office door was slammed by me.I stood at the door panting, and the three people in the office all turned to look at me. I thought I was such an idiot, what the hell was I doing just now.I walked over a few steps, dragged Tang Shuhe back, squeezed words out from between my teeth, and said, "Don't make things difficult for him."

I can almost hear Gu Jing's head buzzing, she said: "Lu Huai, listen to me, you go back first."

I said, "The matter between me and him was initiated by me, so don't make things difficult for him."

His father was panting with anger, glanced up and down at me, and didn't give me any extra glances, then turned his head and said to Tang Shuhe: "I don't care what it is, I'll just ask you, will you come home with me now. "

Gu Jing said: "Even if he goes back with you now, I won't let him go. Please calm down first, and communicate with each other after the two parties' emotions have eased up. We will communicate with you tonight, okay?"

When Gu Jing said this, he kept blocking Tang Shuhe and me, trying to hide his father's knife-like sight.His father was at least two heads taller than Gu Jing. Gu Jing raised her head and looked at him. His father looked at Gu Jing, then at Tang Shuhe, and said, "Tang Shuhe, this is the second time."

Tang Shuhe didn't speak, took a step forward, and stood side by side with me.

His father gave him a last cold look, nodded to Gu Jing, turned and left.The moment he disappeared outside the door, I finally let go of my clenched fist. If he hits my Tang Shuhe in front of me again, I really don't know what I can do.I turned around to look at Tang Shuhe's face: "Did you hit me just now?"

Tang Shuhe pursed his lips and shook his head, saying, "Thank you, Teacher Gu."

"You two are trying to piss me off," Gu Jing leaned on the chair and rubbed her forehead wearily, and sighed, "How could such a thing happen, I'll ask again, are you real or..."

"Really." I said.

"Really." Tang Shuhe said.

Gu Jing sighed again.

"Teacher Gu," I said, "my mother will be here in the afternoon."

"I know, I'm not too worried about you," Gu Jing said, "Tang Shuhe, the current situation is, if you have anything tonight, please feel free to contact me, okay?"

Tang Shuhe nodded, and said, "Thank you, Teacher Gu."

Gu Jing waved her hand: "Go back to your self-study... Tang Shuhe, sit at the empty table in the first row."

When he got out, he turned his head and smiled at me, looking apologetic, I hugged him and said, "Student Shu Xiaohe, I love you very, very much now, what should we do, why don't we run away."

He breathed lightly in my ear, as if he was sighing but also smiling: "Okay."

I said nonsense: "Go to the desert and build a small house. No one will find us except lizards and sandstorms."

He just smiled, hugged me, and shook slightly.

I said, "He said the second time, what second time?"

I felt that Tang Shuhe's hand on my back froze.I sighed, and kissed his side neck and hair: "It's okay, it's okay, if you don't talk about it, don't talk about it."

Tang Shuhe shook his head and said, "The first time was because I wanted to study liberal arts, and the second time was because I refused to go home with him."

My heart skipped a beat: "What the hell, is he threatening you? What will happen the third time?"

Tang Shuhe said, "I don't know."

I have mixed feelings in my heart.

Tang Shuhe sat at the empty table in the first row. I remembered that he had sat at that table before, but it was completely different now.There was such a big gossip, and everyone in the self-study class was not in the mood to study. Gu Jing was on the phone in the office, and the classroom was full of whispers. .Tang Shuhe leaned half against the wall, looked back at me, smiled frankly, and reached out to show me his heart.

A little bit of fighting, and finally made public the sincerity.

His dad was nothing like him, except for a pair of amber eyes that could tell blood.I really don't want Tang Shuhe to go home at all, but there is no way, no way.Once the door is closed, I can't hold him.

I thought about it that day, and finally discussed with him whether we should both turn on our mobile phones and turn on the speakerphone on his side. At least I can know what happened. Tang Shuhe smiled, rubbed my hair, and said : "It's okay, don't be so nervous."

I just frowned and stared at him without speaking.

He thought for a while, and tried to comfort me: "My dad...Although he is strict, he rarely beats me."

He said, "It's all right."

I held his hand and pressed it against my forehead. Tang Shuhe leaned over and kissed my hair, and said, "I will come to class tomorrow."

I'm just tired of him.Tired of dealing with his parents, teachers, and his anxious and nervous boyfriend.

It was my mother's school that day. She didn't know how to feel sad in her life. She was overwhelmed by this moment. She looked at me incredulously and blankly. She was in a trance and kept nodding. I only said that I would go back and discuss it with my dad. When I got home, the old couple sat side by side on the sofa and looked at me silently.

I stood at the door, my Adam's apple moved up and down: "Mom and Dad."

My dad said dryly, "I'm back, I'm back."

I said, "...well."

My mother patted the sofa and said, "Lu Huai, sit here."

I sat between the two of them.My dad squeezed the frame of the reading glasses, and said carefully: "I know that some people are born with a more, um, different sexual orientation, but you don't seem to be, why did you suddenly..."

"I don't know," I said, "it might be nature, it might be nurture, it doesn't matter."

My dad choked and said: "I don't know very well, maybe it's because you haven't dated a girl before, so you have some misunderstandings..."

I sighed: "Dad, heterosexuals will not try to date the same sex to rule out their homosexuality before they fall in love."

My dad stopped talking and pinched his eyelids one by one.

"You are seventeen or eighteen, you may not take what your parents say to you, but I still have to say something," my mother touched my back, "Baby, you are still too young, there are many things that you still have to say." You don't know its consequences, and you don't know what you have to bear for these things. Fortunately, you still have a lot of opportunities for trial and error... Mom didn't say that it is wrong to fall in love with that child, but you are still too young, and there are many things. Don't take it too seriously, do you know what mother means?"

My mother seldom talked around in such a way, so I froze for a moment: "Mom, just say it."

My mother sighed and said: "You are too young, you don't understand that some things... are fruitless, don't give up too much for that child. It may be a bit immoral to say this, but mother is afraid that you will be hurt," my mother Suddenly he said without beginning or end, "When you grow up, you will be fine."

My dad stood up without saying a word, walked into the study, and closed the door.I said: "Dad..."

My mother patted me and said: "He went to check the information. He is not very accepting of... this matter."

The atmosphere at home was strange and heavy.Although my mother said one thing after another, she still looked at me blankly.I felt uncomfortable, and I was worried about what was going on with Tang Shuhe, so my reaction was very blunt. The mother and son sat silently for a while, and I suddenly realized: "What will be fine when you grow up?"

Mom didn't say anything and sighed.

I also sighed, and said forget it.My parents are already working hard to accept my orientation, and they are actually uncomfortable, so those thoughts that expect me to "get better" in the future should not be torn apart for a while, and take it slowly.

"Honey," my mom said, "is there something you're hiding from mom?"

I forced a smile, buried my face in my hands, and said in a muffled voice, "It's just uncomfortable...Mom, I'm worried about Xiao Tang, and I'm afraid his father will beat him."

"How could it be?" my mother tried to comfort me, "how could you beat a child because of this kind of thing?"

"I want to go and see." I looked up and said, "Mom, I have to go and see him."

My mother patted my head and said, "No. My mother advises you not to. It's okay if you don't go to other people's housework. Once you go, it will be more likely to intensify conflicts."

I said, "Then I won't go, I'll go for a walk."

My mother took a deep look at me, leaned back on the sofa, closed her eyes, waved and said, "Let's go." After a while, she added, "I'm actually a little annoyed seeing you now."

I:"……"

it's getting dark.I just wandered downstairs to Tang Shuhe's house, sat on the steps of their corridor, stared at the window of Tang Shuhe's room in a daze.The security guards here even dare to let a suspicious person like me, who is out of his mind, come in. What a broken community.I sat there, not wanting to go up or go.My mother is right, it is indeed easy to intensify conflicts when I go up now, so I don't go up, it's better to take a look here.

The light in Tang Shuhe's room is a warm color. I remembered the way he stood in front of the window and compared his heart to me when I sent him home for the first time. My heart softened, and I thought worriedly and sweetly, what is Tang Shuhe doing now? what?

I wandered around for a while, stared in a daze for a while, and after reading the chat records between Tang Shuhe and me with a smirk for a long time, I suddenly heard a "boom" from above my head, and I raised my head subconsciously——

My pupils shrank suddenly.

I watched helplessly under the peaceful warm yellow light, a man cut Tang Shuhe's thin arms backwards, pressed his head and hit the window glass, boom, boom.

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