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Such as spring:

Three hours after the plane took off from the Capital Airport, it finally arrived in Xining.

You know how painful it is for me to take off and climb for 20 minutes for someone like me who is dizzy even when I go up and down the elevator.Near the window, you can see the sparks flickering at the tail of the aircraft, which is shocking in the dark night.

Then began to encounter air currents, violent turbulence.

The coconut water I drank in my stomach started to make me feel sick, my stomach felt extremely nauseous, and my head started to feel deprived of oxygen due to exhaustion.

There seemed to be cold sweat on my forehead, and I carefully leaned against the window, not wanting to affect the mother and daughter who closed their eyes and meditated.

In a trance, a thought that was almost terrifying suddenly came up. If the plane had an accident due to strong air currents, I would not even be able to see you again.

Perhaps it should be fortunate that when you loved me, if I left, you would never forget me again.

I'm selfish, aren't I?

When people are uncomfortable, their thoughts tend to be pessimistic and their emotions tend to be depressed, but with such thoughts, they are 90.00% sure of the safety of aircraft flight.

The car drove for more than an hour before arriving in the urban area. After nightfall, the sky in the northwest was extremely dark and the streets were extremely deserted.

At 11:45:43 in the evening, the red numbers on the digital clock at the airport made my eyes dry after just one glance.

Even though I wore the thick down jacket you asked me to bring, I still felt the cold wind blowing into my neck, an irresistible cold.

I am now in a high-end club in the center of Xining. After inquiring about the hotel for a long time, I realized that there is a good network speed here. I still ordered the expresso you complained about, and the man in a black suit on the opposite side was playing music I didn’t know in front of the piano. , the tone is gentle and slow.People like me, who can tell the difference between Bach's serenade and Turkish march after listening for a while, can't tell whether the melody is good or bad, but I am sure that if you are the person sitting in front of the piano, then I will probably be like the one next to you. Like the two little girls, see obsession.

Originally, I was going to go to a few factories around the salt lake in Golmud for field visits and research, but my mentor met old friends today and left a lot of information for me to sort out.

I'm sitting here with a thick stack of papers in my hands, in a warm and comfortable environment, I can't concentrate on even a little bit of it.I have always liked the open city where you can directly see the end of the land, freed from the shackles of tall buildings and cars, and the human spirit is more free.

If you are by my side, you will be very happy, watching the sky and the earth stretch together until they finally embrace each other visually.You have always loved the beauty of the vast atmosphere.

However, because you are not here at this moment, I miss so much.

I don't know if you will see this email, I don't know if you will know, but for a moment, I miss you so intently.

Another: The itinerary plan has changed, and I will probably stay here for a month.I don't know if the weather in Beijing is warm these days, so don't work too hard.

韩若

2004 3 Month 4 Day.

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After writing the email to Ruchun, I ordered a glass of lemonade, washed down the bitterness of the coffee in my mouth, and buried myself in a lot of information.

In the afternoon, following the advice of the instructor, I signed up for a one-day tour group to go to the Kumbum Monastery, the most famous scenic spot in Xining.The temperature was low that day, and there was a little misty rain in the gloom. I was squeezed into a six-seater van, and the strong smell of gasoline made me want to throw up.I didn’t follow the tour guide with a loudspeaker in the tour group. My eyes fell on the pagoda praising the eight merits of Sakyamuni. The white pagoda has black marks on the wind and rain. From the birth of the lotus to the final death and Nirvana, and we are humble human beings who have endured a lot of favors from the gods. When I think of the person I miss the most, I feel a little sad, like the seal script of a temple, floating in my heart.

There are many sutra tubes in the temple. The lama in red cassock told me that if you shake the sutra tube once, you are reciting a scripture.

For the first time, for Ms. Wang Weiwei, I recite a sutra for you, just for your comfort and joy in the rest of your life.

Once again, for grandpa and grandma, I will recite a scripture for you, and I hope you will live a long life.

The last one is Su Ruchun, I will recite a sutra for you, and I hope you will have no children, no daughters, no wives and concubines for the rest of your life.

When I arrived at the Butter Flower Hall, looking at the exquisite statues, I remembered my wish just now, and suddenly felt that the gods and Buddhas all over the sky would not care about my seemingly vicious wish.

The next morning, my tutor and I set off from Xining to Golmud.

There was a lot of passenger traffic at Xining Railway Station, and there were many black and red-skinned people from the Northwest Plateau. Their behavior was somewhat straightforward and rough. I managed to protect my petite mentor and board the train.

The train was bumpy all night, and the mentor’s friend picked us up at the train station. He drove a top-quality pickup, which looked dilapidated.

In Golmud, a pickup truck worth 20 yuan can only be driven for two years, and it will directly become a scrapped car in the third year.

Gradually driving away from the city center, the driver with good driving skills can't change the fact that the tremors, I think of the bouncing car I made when I was a child.The green on the road gradually disappeared, and finally only the whitish saline-alkali land remained.

When we arrived at Salt Lake, there was no mobile signal at all, and there was no place to surf the Internet.

Water was so scarce that bathing became a luxury.

It has been a few days since I returned to Xining again, and my hair was full of sand from the desert, and when I shook it, it was all splattered and yellow.

When I came into contact with the Internet again, it had been two weeks since the email was sent.

When I opened the inbox, Ruchun's name was quietly written in bold on a white background. I felt warm and comforting.

The body of the email was a bunch of CC's, with two words at the end - read.

I don't know if I should be disappointed or what it feels like.

After the phone was fully charged, several incoming call reminder text messages popped up.There are Ms. Wang Weiwei, Ms. Du Liya, even grandparents, a phone number that seems to be my father, but there is no Su Ruchun's.

Ms. Wang Weiwei called me eight times, and I called over, "Bao Wa, you finally called back. Mom is going to be in a panic. Your phone has been disconnected. I called your classmate surnamed Lin, but the number turned up. I got an empty number, and no one answered the phone in your dormitory. Fortunately, I finally found Dr. Su's phone and called, so I was relieved."

"Hey, mom, do you really treat me like a baby? Didn't everyone tell you that you're going to stay in Qinghai for many days? Lin Li'an has gone to study in the UK. It's normal that you can't get through to him."

Wang Weiwei said: "You bastard, haven't you heard that your mother is worried when you travel thousands of miles?"

I laughed out loud.

Ms. Wang Weiwei seemed to hesitate for a moment, and asked, "Did Han Qi look for you?"

"Ah."

"He called me."

I said, "As you can imagine, isn't what he has always believed to be your soft heart?"

The mother went on to say, "No matter how you say it, he is your father."

I said, "I know."

After all, my mother didn't say anything. Some people appear in your life and occupy an irreplaceable position for others. You have no choice but to abandon them.Even after making the decision to put everything about this person in the past, I have to admit that this person is an eternal scar while my mother continues on the road of life.

Also, I can't face him calmly yet.After being so absent from my life and giving me so much disappointment.

Put down the phone for a while, and call Du Liya back. She is very enthusiastic when she sees me, and she will not contact me when she is fine and will not take the initiative to contact me.With so many missed calls, it seems that she is in a hurry.

"Sister, it's me."

"Wuuu, baby, you've finally paid attention to me."

I rubbed my forehead, "Sister, you can call me Baowa, and I'm used to it, but can you not call me Baowa with such a loud voice?"

"Baby, I'm getting married."

I suddenly felt that 2012 had arrived ahead of schedule, and it was okay for Du Liya to call me Baowa. She, a beauty like her who hadn’t come to a romantic news once in 100 years, actually performed a flash marriage.

"Auntie knows? Why didn't my mother tell me the news?"

"I haven't dared to tell my mother yet."

"Why, are there things you dare not do?" As far as I know, Auntie's standard for Du Liya's mate selection has been very low, as long as she can marry herself happily.

"That person is a little older than me."

"Isn't it enough to calm you down?" This kind of strong woman, if she doesn't need a mature and stable man with much more experience than her, she probably won't be discouraged.

"He's 20 years older than me."

I comforted her, "Man, 41 flowers, you just bloomed at the best time, and you are not old at all."

"Boy, when did I say he is old? A man like him, even if he is old, can still make me want to look at him alone." She said aloud, but the ending sound was rarely carried. After seeing the sweetness of the little woman, he immediately returned to depression: "He has a son."

I said, "It's okay, just because you don't want to have kids."

She sighed, "The problem is that our family knows his son."

I have a bad feeling.

She hesitated for a moment, then said, "His son is Su Ruchun."

I was finally speechless.

How dare Du Liya want to be my mother-in-law?

I struggled to prepare my words: "Sister, did you tell him?"

"Who?"

"Nonsense, Su Ruchun's father. What are you doing? Did you have intentions to make such a mess?"

Du Liya yelled back: "Yes, I did it on purpose. I just fell in love with an old man on purpose, I was eaten to death by an old man on purpose, and I found out that the person I like has a Such a big son, and his son is still with my favorite cousin since childhood. Han Ruo, are you still a man, do you ever say that about your elder sister?"

At the end of the roar, there was a crying sound.

I panicked all of a sudden, "Sister, it's okay if I'm wrong. I'm not in the right mood, so don't be angry with me."

People close to me are usually free to laugh and laugh, but if I really hurt my heart and turn cold-hearted, I must be the one who panics first.