Nongben is passionate

The first thing Xie Mingyu did after leaving the hospital was to buy a house.Meng Gu, who accompanied him to see the house, didn't understand, "What kind of house are you buying? Your family is an unscrupulous real estate developer. Do you know what the name of the 'Lvshuijingyuan' real estate that your third brother built last year is now called?" Is it worth the price? Are you still short of housing?”

Xie Mingyu flung out a sentence, "Master, I am happy."

Meng Gu retreated, seeing him efficiently bought a house that he thought was not very good without blinking his eyes, and then dragged to the furniture city to see the bed, Meng Gu was really surprised this time, " Don't you really want to live in it? There is nothing in that house, and you fell out with your family?"

Xie Mingyu ignored him.

Xie Xuan asked him about this, "I heard you are buying a house?"

Xie Mingyu nodded indifferently, "Yes." In fact, it was already bought by then.

"How did you think of buying a house?"

"It's nothing, I just want to buy it."

The topic was quickly dismissed by him.How could he tell Xie Xuan that it was because he was afraid that his drug addiction would be discovered, so he could only leave far away. He needed a private space that was completely his own and would not be disturbed. One side is hidden.He couldn't even imagine how Xie Xuan would react if he saw him when his drug addiction broke out.Some people say that in the world of love, if you still have to pay attention to self-esteem, it only means that you are not deep enough in love. However, for Xie Mingyu, if he doesn't even have self-esteem, he would rather die.

After that, both of them had nothing to say, and this kind of situation happened not once or twice.

Once, they had dinner at a newly opened seafood restaurant. The environment of the restaurant was very good. Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows was a wide deck covered with logs. , the steamed scallops with vermicelli in the restaurant are very authentic, and the tiger prawns are also very fresh, but halfway through eating, he suddenly felt extremely itchy all over his body, and fear immediately occupied his body like a living thing, his face changed drastically, and he got up in a hurry , and left the restaurant without even having time to make up a decent excuse, leaving the unknowing Xie Xuan alone.But in fact, it was just a slight allergy, and his psychological effect magnified the itching that was not serious at first a hundred times.Afterwards, Xie Xuan asked him the reason for leaving, but he couldn't tell at all, so he had to use his bad temper to cover up his weakness.

Some things, once made an exception, will soon become normal, like smoking.At first, Xie Mingyu just couldn't resist the anxiety and irritability in his heart, and wanted to get temporary peace from nicotine, but he soon became addicted.Once, Xie Xuan went back and forth. At that time, Xie Mingyu was wearing only a pair of big underpants, leaning on the bed and puffing. His expression and posture were like an old smoker who had smoked for decades. In Xuan's surprised expression, Xie Mingyu saw a fallen soul, he almost sat up from the bed in panic, and looked at Xie Xuan like a primary school student who made a mistake——

Xie Xuan said in an unwavering voice, "You didn't smoke before." He didn't blame or disgust, but just expressed a kind of surprise and statement, but Xie Mingyu felt that there was nothing to hide. Xie Xuan's words were unintentional. The "before" contrasted with his current unbearable, shame suddenly enveloped him, and he lost his temper, "It's none of your business what I want!"

Xie Xuan didn't expect Xie Mingyu to have such a big reaction, and stared blankly at him.After a long time, he spoke with difficulty, "Mingyu, what happened to us?"

Yes, what the hell is going on?Xie Xuan once thought that after the restart, even if they couldn't become close immediately, at least they should be able to learn to be a little more honest, considerate each other, cherish the time spent with each other, and have some happy days.However, Xie Mingyu's increasingly weird temper and sudden irritability always made Xie Xuan at a loss. He tried to talk to him, but Xie Mingyu's non-cooperation made him feel powerless for a while.

Xie Mingyu stiffened, looking completely unreasonable, only wishing that Xie Xuan would leave quickly, he didn't dare to look at Xie Xuan, for fear of seeing the disappointment and discouragement in his eyes.

Xie Xuan walked out of the room, the sound of closing the door echoed in Xie Mingyu's heart.

Xie Xuan didn't go to the company, he walked to the balcony garden connected to the living room, sat hunched under the flower stand, smoking one cigarette after another - the weather was a bit foggy, and all the scenery seemed to be covered with a veil , the humidity in the air was high, and he soon felt cold.The phone rang, but he didn't want to answer it at all. The phone rang persistently for a minute, and finally stopped, but it rang again not long after——

He Lin called, because Xie Xuan was late, so he asked if the morning meeting would be postponed.

Xie Xuan rubbed the space between his eyebrows, and originally wanted to say that he would come right away, but he was really not in the mood, so he had to temporarily cancel the meeting arrangement.He lit the last cigarette in the cigarette case, and the scarlet cigarette butt flickered in the morning mist, and the faint light could not illuminate the way forward at all.

A body was attached to his back, and two arms were around his neck—Xie Xuan knew it was Xie Mingyu. After losing his temper inexplicably like that, he sometimes showed great enthusiasm and submissiveness, which was his expression The way of apologizing, like a docile cat trying to please people, softening his body, kissing his ears, neck, and cheeks in a gesture of complete attachment, kissing every inch of his skin, with a kind of Indescribable sadness.

His extraordinary enthusiasm and intimacy always made Xie Xuan feel bad. Xie Xuan held his shoulder and tried to push him away, "Mingyu, what's wrong with you?"

Xie Mingyu didn't speak, just hugged Xie Xuan tightly like a drowning person, held his face and kept kissing him, Xie Xuan pushed away again, and he stubbornly entangled him again.This time, Xie Xuan held his head with great strength and stared at him, "Mingyu, is it because I'm not doing well enough?"

Xie Mingyu lowered his eyelids, his eyes fogged up.He knew what Xie Xuan was thinking, but everything was caused by himself. Self-loathing and self-abandonment completely captured him. He felt desperate, and he didn't dare to look up at Xie Xuan's face.He even hated why he had to impulsively say "start over" that day, and after that sentence blurted out, he already regretted it-he was scared by drug addiction, he surrendered to vulnerability, so he desperately wanted to catch Xie Xuan, like grabbing a life-saving straw—but that's not the real Xie Mingyu, so when Xie Xuan said "I don't know", even though he was a little disappointed, he was relieved, great, just Just pretend nothing happened, he is like an ostrich with his head buried in the sand, I just hope Xie Xuan will quickly forget that stupid sentence he said.But Xie Xuan agreed, and he said: "Okay, let's start again." At that moment, happiness hit him like a gift from the sky, making him tremble all over, and the happiness like fireworks exploded overwhelmed all the anxiety and shame , Fear——he just realized that he still loves Xie Xuan, even more than before. In the past, every day, every minute, every second, he was thinking about him and looking forward to the arrival of this day , rehearsing this scene countless times in their minds.He wants to cry.

"Third brother, let's do it."

Xie Xuan was stunned for a moment before he realized what he meant by "do".Since their reconciliation, they have never done it, it's not that they don't want to, but they can't.Every time Xie Xuan wanted to get closer to Xie Mingyu, Xie Mingyu would subconsciously avoid it, or suddenly become stiff all over.Xie Xuan thought that Xie Mingyu was unwilling, so she always stopped at that time, and then kissed his neck, shoulders, back... combing his hair with fingers one after another, like comforting a child, or putting her face on his back , Slowly appease your desire.

Xie Xuan was still hesitating, but Xie Mingyu couldn't wait to kiss his lips and pull his tie.

Their bodies were still young, and they longed for each other. The fire of desire in their bodies quickly ignited and quickly swept through their bodies. Touching, kissing, kissing, stroking, they entangled each other tirelessly, and stumbled into the bedroom— — Their lips were unwilling to separate for a moment, sucking and biting vigorously, as if they wanted to swallow each other into their stomachs, ambiguous saliva overflowed from the corners of their mouths, Xie Xuan's lips kissed his chin, Adam's apple, earlobes, and chest, biting His erect dogwood...

In the past, Xie Mingyu would not hide his joy and scream when making love, but this time, he seemed very silent, his eyes stained red by lust stared blankly at the void, his mouth was slightly open, and he let out deep and shallow gasps. At the beginning of the impact, his pupils constricted, and gradually he couldn't control his sinking. He bit his lip, and tightly grasped Xie Xuan's back with both hands. His nails were almost embedded in his eyes. To engrave him in my heart, at the moment of the climax, a kind of extreme joy exploded in the body like fireworks, his insteps were straightened, and a hoarse roar finally couldn't be restrained from the bottom of his throat, that kind of pleasure It lasted for nearly ten seconds, and his whole body was in a feeling of ecstasy.

Xie Xuan didn't back out right away, just hugged him from behind in this posture, his sweaty skin pressed against each other, and the air was filled with the smell of lust after love.

There was a long silence between the two, and just as Xie Mingyu was about to fall asleep, Xie Xuan put his forehead on Xie Mingyu's shoulder and said quietly: "Mingyu, I know that there was once too much love between us. How unpleasant, what I have done, whether it is right or wrong, I bear it alone, I will not say I regret it, and I will not allow myself to regret it, because once I regret it, it is like denying my past self completely. How do we move forward? I can’t say let’s completely abandon the past and start over. It’s just a lie to lie to children. Because of the past, we are what we are now. I know I’m not good enough, of course, you also have shortcomings, I can’t It is guaranteed that there will be no conflicts and quarrels between us from now on, and there is no guarantee that we will not end in a mutual hatred, but now I know that I want to be with you. If I didn't tell you this today, I must I will regret it—Mingyu, I want to be with you, I want to go on with you."

Xie Mingyu knew that he was crying, but he held back and didn't look back. He felt that Xie Xuan hung a metal object around his neck. He touched it. It was a ring, which was the one that Xie Xuan had been hanging around his neck all the time. However, Xie Xuan He didn't say anything, but just pressed his body tightly against him, and the two of them hugged each other in silence.