summer like smoke

Xia Zhaoshi drove (in fact, he was driving) back to the room where he and Lin Yan lived together for several months.

Instead of the villa where Jiang Zhen stayed together for several years.

Messy clothes, horrific wounds, horrific blood stains, and gloomy expressions, all of these made Xia Zhaoshi scare many people when he got off the car and walked into the building all the way up the stairs.There was even a little girl outside the elevator who was so frightened that her hairs rose on the spot and she screamed.

Xia Zhaoshi was just cold.At this moment, he didn't want to wear that layer of elegant and noble gentle skin.

When Xia Zhaoshi got to the floor, as soon as Xia Zhaoshi got out of the elevator, he saw Jim bowed his head slightly, standing respectfully not far in front of him.It seems that he should have been waiting for him for a long time.

Glancing at it from the corner of the eye, the sockets of his eyes suddenly widened, Jim's shock was beyond words.He has been in the Xia family for 20 years, and has been with Xia Zhaoshi for 15 years. He has never seen this young master who has always been extravagant and femme fatale.

He didn't know exactly what happened, but the situation, no matter how he thought about it, probably wouldn't be too far from the truth.

Jim was already prepared to be punished by Xia Zhaoshi with any thunderbolt. Unexpectedly, Xia Zhaoshi stopped in front of him and looked at him blankly for a long time. He... you like him too, don't you?"

The words in a calm tone, but in the ears of the listener who has a ghost in his heart, it is like a mountain and a river changing color, thunderous.

At that moment, Jim only felt a loud buzzing in his head, and he almost knelt down as soon as his knees softened.Raising his head abruptly, the paralyzed face that Lin Yan had complained about countless times finally showed a rare trace of suspicion, horror, and apprehension that had not been seen for more than ten years.He even raised his voice rarely, and retorted anxiously and clumsily: "No...no...no, no...no."

Xia Zhaoshi's gaze was unfathomable, fierce and sharp, and the darkness condensed into a whirlpool.The tone is still calm as usual.But for Jim, this calm is not the calm before the storm at all, but the devastating end of the world.

"Although you grew up in the United States, the Xia family still hired someone to teach you Chinese. Don't you know the meaning of this sentence without silver 300 taels? Oh, okay, even if you don't like Lin Yan, But at least, you are fascinated by him, you can’t deny this. Otherwise, how could it be such a coincidence that just as I dropped Lin Yan last night, you came to me with the information on your back.”

"And there is a discontented expression of indignation, sadness and pain. Oh, seriously, do you think I can't see it?"

"But... tsk, Jim, there is one thing that I really didn't see. You are really capable and merciful. Come on, tell me, how much time did you spend, behind my back, to inquire about Lin The smoking thing, huh?"

"Since when did you become Lin Yan's follower from my Xia Zhaoshi's subordinate?"

"..."

Every time Xia Zhaoshi said a word, every word, Jim's face turned paler.In the end, it was completely bloodless and pale.

After a few seconds.splash──

This time, he really knelt down.With a heavy sound, there was no more hesitation, nor was there any buffer, and he just knelt down straight down.On the cold and hard floor, the bone-chilling chill penetrated into his knees and creviced his bones, making him twitch uncontrollably from the cold, his teeth trembling.

In fact, Jim was originally a tough guy and a pure man, even if he didn't say he was not afraid of anything, but at least for so many years, he was a tough guy and a pure man who had fought many times before the gate of life and death.But as for whether he is courageous, whether he has backbone, whether he has a bottom in his heart... these are actually not important, not important at all.What really matters is what kind of person Xia Zhaoshi is, he knows better.

too clear.

Crazy in control, obsessed with cleanliness.Physical and mental, both.Not to mention his scheming like a mountain, his city like a sea, and his thunderbolt methods, unscrupulous.

Fortunately, Jim is still only inquiring about Lin Yan, fantasizing about Lin Yan, but not actually doing anything with Lin Yan. That is his luck, and it is his blessing.Those who are interested in Xia Zhaoshi, not to mention lowly subordinates like JIm, anyone, regardless of status, don't even talk about doing it, but they can't take a second look, don't move their brains, or even think about it. Guess-

That's a big taboo, touched the scales, and dirty Xia Zhaoshi's treasure.

Jim closed his eyes to suppress the trembling, thinking that this time, he would be spared the crime of death, and he would be in so much pain that he would rather die than die.

The unknown is scary, the waiting is anxious, and the calm is full of murderous intentions.Especially when these three, all of them, come from Xia Zhaoshi, this man.

"What are you afraid of? I said, what will I do to you?" After some time, Xia Zhaoshi suddenly chuckled, broke the calm calmly, stopped waiting, and dropped the answer, "I won't do anything to you." How are you?"

Jim's spine stiffened.In the next second, he raised his head abruptly, his pupils dilated and his eyes were about to burst, his face was full of disbelief, both shocked and suspicious.

That appearance made Xia Zhaoshi laugh, and an indescribable complex emotion suddenly flashed in his eyes: "This time, I will not punish you."

He doesn't punish him.real.Because Xia Zhaoshi understood that this time, the person who should be punished the most is actually not Jim.

but himself.

He is angry with himself.If this situation had been put in the past, he would have desperately tormented Lin Yan.But now...but now, no matter how angry she is, there is no one to vent her anger on.

Walking slowly to the door, his injured right hand, which was still bleeding, slowly covered the door handle, and after a pause, Xia Zhaoshi turned his expression away and said in a low voice: "Although the Xia family has always trained you as a machine, you are a human being after all. People. And as long as it is a person... as long as it is still a person, then who will not be fascinated by him, who will not be fascinated by him. "

This was what Xia Zhaoshi once said.It was what he himself, personally, said to Lin Yan.

【No one will fall in love with you, Lin Yan】

Yes, no one.

【It's just that this obsession, some people become jealous, some people become liking, some people remember deeply, some people forget quickly... that's all】

That's all.Then what happened to him.

Will again, remember how long.

Xia Zhaoshi said that at that time, and he clearly remembered that he said it.But how could he forget that he himself is also a person.

He is no exception.

To a certain extent, Lin Yan is truly invincible.

After entering the room, Xia Zhaoshi closed the door behind his back, instead of going in, he leaned behind the door and stood quietly for a while.Everything you can see is exactly the same as when you lived here with Lin Yan back then, nothing has changed, no difference.

Things that are not people are the happiest.Things are not human beings may be relieved.But things are different, but absolutely, it will not be easy.

Lin Yan used to sit on the sofa.Of course, what he does more often is to lie on his back, and nine times out of ten, he falls on the computer with his arms in his arms, playing games.That posture was originally extremely unsightly, but because it was made by him, Lin Yan, it seemed lazy and classy.Lin Yan slept on the bed.Lin Yan's sleeping posture is very cute, like a baby... No, it's like a fetus still in the mother's womb, with her eyes lightly closed and quietly immersed in the depths of the primordial sea water, most of her body is naked, as smooth as creamy tender than slender Ci, with her chest slightly in her arms, her arms around her knees, her breathing is steady, and her exhalation is light and shallow.Occasionally, the long and dense eyelashes flicked down. Did he encounter something terrible in his dream?The white chest undulated weakly, like a mountain blown by the wind.There is also the window, which Lin Yan leaned against.Tired of playing the game and feeling bored, Lin Yan likes to lean on this huge transparent floor-to-ceiling window to overlook the entire city of S.I remember that I once asked Lin Yan why, and what Lin Yan said at that time.

Oh yes, he said, tilting his head adorably, laughing at himself—

【Because I just like to watch the excitement】

Yes.Under the window is the busiest and densest area in the entire S city.People are coming and going, traffic is busy, lights and shadows are interlaced, and neon lights are flickering.Lin Yan likes to be lively, because he is afraid of being alone.

Every time he thinks about everything in front of him, Lin Yan's figure becomes like a ghost. Under Xia Zhaoshi's eyes that were in a trance, it is faintly visible, ready to emerge.For a moment, Xia Zhaoshi almost hallucinated: Lin Yan was clearly standing there by the window, turned his head, and smiled at him.

Peach blossoms and spring rains have infinite charm.

Just like the first time I saw you.

Shaky picture.In the blink of an eye, it's gone.

Xia Zhaoshi simply closed his eyes.

Does he have feelings for Lin Yan?So...does it have feelings?that-

Is it love?

Xia Zhaoshi is an absolutely strong man, he doesn't want to make himself look so downcast, and he really doesn't want to think about such hypocritical issues.But it cannot be denied that he really couldn't help but think of that day not long ago, when he just calmly endured more than ten hours of cross-country flight and finally arrived at the airport, but the moment he landed, he was shocked to hear Lin Yan The news that she was taken away by that lunatic Mo Qing in order to save Han Yingyue...

What was the reason for the sudden rage at that moment, why did he go into it without being on the spot.Following the clues was originally what Xia Zhaoshi was best at, but why did he forget to do it at that moment?

Xia Zhaoshi obviously disliked flying, but at that time he didn't even have the slightest hesitation in his mind, and he turned around quickly.He could also order his subordinates in the country, or discuss with Han Xiao, who is absolutely safe, to rescue Lin Yan, and then send him a message, but he still insisted on his own opinion and refused his mother to return home quickly. The sooner the better, he left behind the family where everyone was in danger, changed his ticket, and decided to leave.

And later, when I found out that this flight was unexpectedly delayed, the frantic anxiety that was almost out of control...

He is obviously strong in logic and good at analysis and reasoning, but why didn't he spend a little time at that time... just a little bit, just a little bit, to think clearly about all this.

Maybe, half of it is used for worrying, and generally used for scolding, why don't you listen to me?

In the past, Xia Zhaoshi always felt that the most important person has been lost, and it doesn't matter if he loses anyone in the future; but he didn't know that once the things that were thought to be unimportant were lost, they would become important.

The cheapness of people's hearts can be seen.

Xia Zhaoshi took a long bath.As a man, his bathing time was already amazingly long, but this time, it was unimaginably long, and there was nothing to say.The scalding hot water was splashing on the horrific wound—there was pain, but to him, this little pain was really, really insignificant.

He even enjoys the pain.It hurts sober, it hurts so good.

The phone kept ringing relentlessly outside the bathroom halfway through the wash.Xia Zhaoshi didn't want to talk about it at first, but he didn't expect that when he came out, the phone hadn't even been given up.Frowning, Xia Zhaoshi walked over to pick it up and glanced at the screen, his expression seemed impatient, but he answered anyway.

"Say."

Sean's voice over there immediately slapped his head and covered his face: "Hey Adrian, how can you thank me? I've already taken care of that Cecil for you! Everything is OK, everything is settled!...But──" He wanted to speak After a few more seconds, Sean complained very puzzled, "Hey, I said, the new MB you said a while ago that you wanted to take care of when you returned to China, couldn't it be this Cecil? ... Damn! It's not very good even if it doesn't disfigure you. Ah! Especially since you have already met a stunning beauty like Sister Lin, how can you still fall in love with such a beauty!...Are you still the perfectionist Xia Zhaoshi I knew before!? "

Xia Zhaoshi had no time or mood to chat with Sean, so he simply ordered: "You don't have to worry about it, it has nothing to do with you. As for that Cecil──," he paused mercilessly, and gave a deep laugh, "Oh, you can use it to your heart's content. Well, it doesn't matter if you die. Just don't let me see the dead body."

He was about to hang up.

Sean howled with a nudge: "Ah hey! Wait a minute!" He took a breath, his voice suddenly lowered, and became furtive and obsessive, "That...hehe, Adrian, when will you... Sister Lin, bring me to the United States? Oh, even if I can’t compete with you... it’s okay, don’t get angry! Everyone knows that they are very self-aware! But let’s see...just see! Just look !...It's okay. Anyway, we are brothers, after so many years... don't you think?"

In fact, hearing this, hearing Sean say this, the tone full of anticipation, the mood of eager anticipation—even Xia Zhaoshi didn’t even need to close his eyes to imagine, at this very moment, Sean on the other side of the phone on the other side of the ocean, that sloppy picture The flamboyant, extremely typical American pervert's face──it really made him feel like laughing.

But tugging at the corner of his mouth, he found that after all, he still couldn't laugh.

Bring Lin Yan to America?Oh, he thought too.Why didn't he want to.He had thought of this before, but now he was thinking like crazy!

But there are some things that are really not, and have not been, he thought, that's fine.

Covering the sky with one hand cannot cover the yin and yang of life and death.

"Let's talk. If there is nothing else, don't bother me anymore," Xia Zhaoshi was about to hang up, when he suddenly thought of something, and slowly narrowed his eyes, "Oh, by the way, and don't call him sister Lin. Sister Lin. First, he is not a woman, and second, he is ten years older than you."

"..." This time without even thinking about it, you can see Sean's stupid expression on the other side, "What!? Isn't he a high school──"

The future and finished words came to an abrupt end in Xia Zhaoshi's merciless cut-off busy voice.

Throwing away the phone, my heart was very congested.It was an indescribable feeling, even more uncomfortable than the feeling of ten thousand ants crawling through the heart but unable to scratch it.One thousand times ten thousand times ten million times more uncomfortable.Xia Zhaoshi raised his hand and rubbed his aching temple, and was about to get up to pour himself a glass of red wine, but he didn't expect that the phone rang again just as he took a step forward.

At first he was determined not to pay any attention to it, but until he had finished his drink, the phone still didn't give up and was still screaming.

This time Xia Zhaoshi was really impatient, his expression was extremely gloomy, he grabbed it without even looking at the screen and yelled rudely at the microphone: "I told you not to bother me again!"

…………

It was eerily quiet.The electric current of the thousands of miles of communication, only the sound of Xia Zhaoshi's suppressed breathing that has nowhere to vent at the moment.

"...What's the matter with you? It's rare to be so angry."

When the voice on the other end of the phone came out, Xia Zhaoshi froze for a moment.

It's not Sean, it's Zhao Rulin.

his mother.

Xia Zhaoshi's complexion changed, he paused, and let out a long breath: "It's nothing." After thinking about it, he turned and walked back and forth in the room, explaining in a low voice while wiping his hair, "I'm not in a good mood right now, mom. If there's nothing wrong If not, I'll hang up, good morning."

Zhao Rulin was silent for a few seconds, then smiled leisurely: "If there's nothing to do, I'll call you as soon as I get up? Do you think I'm so boring?"

Xia Zhaoshi's eyes sank and he didn't speak.That's right, the relationship between them is indeed not such a hypocritical mother-child relationship.With a slight sigh in his heart, Xia Zhaoshi walked to the sofa and sat down, lit a cigarette, and waited quietly.

In fact, the reason why he didn't want to have a conversation with his mother at this time was that besides being in a bad mood, there was another, very important one: he probably already guessed what his mother was going to say to him.

And at this moment, he didn't really want to... No, he really didn't want to talk about that matter.

Zhao Rulin spoke word by word, slowly: "What did you think about what I told you last time?"

really.

Xia Zhaoshi held his forehead with a cigarette in his hand. Although he tried his best to suppress his tone, he could still hear the helplessness and impatience in it that could not be concealed: "Mom, I told you, and I told you a long time ago. I don't want to think about it right now."

Zhao Rulin gracefully raised the volume slightly: "Temporarily? How long is it temporarily? Since the day you turned 20, when I first asked you this question, you have always answered me temporarily. Heh, you want to temporarily How long? How long do you want for a while? It used to be because of Jiang Zhen, but now, who is it because of?"

There is no doubt that Zhao Rulin's question hits the nail on the head and hits the nail on the head.Especially for Xia Zhaoshi at this moment, it was clearly harsh to the ear, ruthless to mean.

He couldn't say the last "because of whom", but it was actually because of himself.

Xia Zhaoshi puffed out smoke rings and remained silent.

And they are indeed a pair of tacit understanding mother and son, at this time, each gave each other a moment of tolerant tranquility.In the end, it was Zhao Rulin who took the lead in softening his tone: "You know that although our Xia family has been rooted in the United States for decades, it is still traditional in our bones. When I was your age... son, you are already ten years old."

"You don't like women, I've known that for a long time. And I never forced you. And in the future, I don't intend to force you to marry a woman. "

"But son... Son, whether you want it or not, you must give me a grandson."

"I will never and cannot compromise on this point. An heir is a must."

Xia Zhaoshi got up to snuff out the cigarette butt, and responded lightly: "Yes. I will have a baby, Mom. I promise you," he promised the future seriously, but also flatly rejected the present, "but not now."

Zhao Rulin didn't force him anymore.She is also a rebellious person herself. She was young and had experience, so she knows the truth that too much is too much, and it is counterproductive.

Picking up a spoon, took a sip of porridge and drank it slowly, Zhao Rulin changed the subject lightly: "So, you just got so angry, doesn't it have something to do with that beautiful kid named Lin Yan?"

Xia Zhaoshi frowned and didn't answer.I have to admit that women are indeed born intuitive animals with keen senses.

Before Zhao Rulin asked this question, he already had seventy to eighty percent certainty in his heart.And now adding that the son didn't speak, it is very sure: "Oh, that's true, it seems that I guessed it right. At the last banquet, I saw right there that you had some thoughts about that child."

"Sincerely."

"I remember when I asked you what you were going to do with that child. You said it was a trivial matter and it had already been dealt with."

"Oh no. What you said back then is that it doesn't need to be dealt with at all."

Every time Zhao Rulin said a word, a word, but he didn't know that those words were poisonous, and his throat was sealed with blood; those words, like knives, were cut to the bone, and they were gouged deep in his soul.

"I'm telling you that it's best if it's like this. But according to the current situation, it's not the same thing."

"You guys, what's wrong?"

Xia Zhaoshi was in a trance, and slowly closed his eyes: "No, it's not that we have a problem."

His voice was hoarse, and it sounded painful and tired, as if he had just experienced a night of either you or me fighting.In the bloody storm of swords and swords, the most worthless thing is human life.The cruelest battlefield in the world has never been in the human world, but always only in the hearts of the people.

"Yes, my own problem."

All, all, everything, from beginning to end, from beginning to end, is his problem alone.

Lin Yan stretched out his hand to him three times, but he refused three times.

He rejected him a full three times.

Zhao Rulin could hear the pain in his son's words that he couldn't hide, but the pain and bitterness that he didn't even bother to hide. He was secretly surprised that his son was so serious this time, and because of course it was his mother. So it is inevitable that I feel boundless distress for him.But it's not easy for her to talk about feelings.What's more, their mother-child relationship has never been the kind of friend who talks about everything and talks frankly.

After thinking for a moment, Zhao Rulin sighed, and gave words of comfort that ordinary mothers could not imagine: "Okay. I will talk about the child later. I won't force you, so I won't mention it for now. But son, what's wrong with you? Family motto, have you forgotten what I taught you before? Anything, anyone, whether it’s yours or not, but as long as you want it, don’t let it go.”

"Since you have decided that you really want it, you must get it at all costs, even if you destroy that person."

This is the difference between Zhao Rulin and Qiao Xiaoyin.When dealing with feelings, the former is willing to ruin others, while the latter is willing to ruin himself.

And it seems that such extremely terrifying and powerful genes have also been passed on to their children.

Xia Zhaoshi smiled incomprehensibly, and replied softly: "I always remember."

Then he hung up.

Yes, he remembered, he had always remembered.This is not a lie.Because for so many years, he has always used this as the criterion, regardless of life or career, even if it is bloody all the way, he has come through rain or shine.

This time, however, things were a little different.It's not that he doesn't want that person—he wants, he wants—but he can't afford it.

The scene in front of him suddenly fell like a rain curtain, the vastness of the sky and the earth blurred his vision, and his vision faded away. That night, there was thin snow outside the window, and the surrounding fields were quiet and silent. In the empty and dark room, Lin Yan hugged his waist and gently touched his head. On his shoulder, whispering in his ear:

【I put my pride and my life in your hands】

He put his life in his hands.

And he didn't take it seriously.

He didn't take the matter of life and death seriously.

Nemesis unhappy.He can't blame anyone else.

Xia Zhaoshi asked someone to pick up little Adrian, who had been raised by Lin Yan at the veterinarian for several months.I haven't seen it for several months and it has grown a lot.At least, the current Lin Yan can't hold it anymore.

It seems that there is a generation gap, and when we saw Xia Zhao again after being separated for so long, little Adrian, the "father" in name, did not show much excitement and joy, even the most simple and lovely intimate contact that he used to do often. , neither.Apart from the fact that it has always been more sticky to Lin Yan from the very beginning, it seems that it was because Xia Zhaoshi was blaming Xia Zhaoshi for not showing up when he was dying and dying.

This really has a bit of arrogance potential.

Little Adrian got into the closet and sniffed Lin Yan's clothes desperately.Xia Zhaoshi came over to touch it: "Do you miss him too?"

Hmph, ignore you.

Little Adrian turned his head awkwardly and pointed his butt at Xia Zhaoshi.

Xia Zhaoshi laughed dumbfounded.But-

Well, rare, this time, we are at one end.