Shuoyun Feidu

"...How can you treat me like this again and again." Beitang Zunyue said at the end, his tone was still calm, but one hand had already grabbed Beitang Rongdu's collar at some point, forcefully Clenching, even the joints were slightly white, Beitang Rongdu's lips began to tremble unconsciously, his face gradually showed a look of panic, and he murmured: "You are wrong, I didn't treat you like that on purpose, really Yes, I never did. Believe me, I didn't do it on purpose..." Beitang Rongdu felt a little incoherent in his words, he never expected that Beitang Zunyue would witness what happened in Yinhua Pavilion this afternoon. That incident... No, that's not the case, Beitang Rongdu murmured in his heart, he wanted to explain clearly, he wanted to tell Beitang Zunyue that it was not his fault, he was just designed by others , but Beitang Zunyue let go of his hand suddenly before he could speak, and shook Beitang Rongdu away vigorously, and said lightly: "Yes, I like you very much, but for the things you do, for what you do with you I can't turn a blind eye to those people involved, just like I can't dislike you..."

When Beitang Zunyue said this, he laughed softly. At the beginning, he felt that there was pain somewhere, but he didn't know where it was, but now, he knew it. So I wanted to free up a hand to cover the position of my heart, but I still didn't move it. Even though it hurt there, it was obviously not injured at all, but I only felt that the blood was stopping and couldn't stop coming out, tick tick He fell to the ground, but Beitang Zunyue still looked so arrogant, so arrogant that he didn't even want to wrinkle his brows, but said in a soft tone, "I'm finally considered I understand one thing, Du'er... It turns out that even if he is the best person in the world, the most impeccable person, but if he comes over and tells you before you feel affection for him, he loves him. You are affectionate, so Du'er, will you still value him in the future when you get along with him? Do you cherish this person? Maybe you can say yes, but in your heart, you really don't."

Beitang Rongdu tightly pursed his lips, his eyes were still beautiful, but what was contained inside was no longer a pool of spring water full of ripples, but clearly a dark and hopelessly deep pool. He no longer has the desire to explain to Beitang Zunyue, because he now understands that Beitang Zunyue is not only doing this because of the incident in the afternoon, the scene of himself and Mu Qinghan in Yinhua Pavilion is just an introduction , a spark that made Beitang Zunyue arouse the dissatisfaction that had been suppressed for a long time, and the explanation would not change anything at all, so Beitang Rongdu's lips moved slightly, and he whispered: "No, no... ..." Beitang Zunyue looked at Beitang Rongdu's distraught look, and a deep disappointment flashed in his eyes almost imperceptibly. In fact, he was waiting for an explanation from Beitang Rongdu. In fact, as long as Beitang Rongdu gave An explanation from him, even if these words and reasons may seem lame and ridiculous, but he will accept them all, will choose to believe the other party, and will be willing to believe no matter what, as long as Beitang Rongdu gives him an explanation However, Beitang Rongdu didn't give him anything, not even an excuse that could be fabricated casually, not even a excuse that could be forgiven...

--How ridiculous this is, two people like this, two men who are equally arrogant and arrogant, stand on their own point of view, self-righteously substituting the other's ideas, thinking that they are smart, and one of them thinks it is meaningless Explanations have no effect at all, while the other person has been waiting for even the most clumsy explanation or excuse from the other party. Way to relax...

The two of them were deadlocked like this for an unknown amount of time, Beitang Rongdu looked at Beitang Zunyue's face, and suddenly said in a daze: "The reason why you are so angry is because you think I have divided my heart into several parts and given a lot of money. People, and you, are just one of them, aren't you? But it's really not like that, you're not, you're not one of them... Maybe I'm really not a loyal person, I don't know how to be consistent, admit it I also have feelings for other people, but I have never given myself to others except you, and I have never given myself to others. Maybe this does not really mean anything, but I know, I will not let anyone Fuck me, except you, although I am not willing or willing, but if you must, I will not push you away..."

Beitang Rongdu spoke intermittently, as if he was clumsily trying to explain a feeling that he didn't realize at the very end that he shouldn't be able to spend wantonly until Tu Qiongdao appeared, the huge deep hall was empty, It was so quiet that even the sound of blood flowing quietly in the body could be heard clearly, there was obviously no strong wind blowing in, but the eyes seemed to become more and more dry, but they just refused to shed tears just like that ...Beitang Rongdu suddenly wanted to smile, not for anything else, just to laugh at himself. When letting go of his pride and persistence, Beitang Rongdu did not let go of his own "uncontrollable emotion", his hesitation, his soft heart and affection, he knew exactly what kind of person he was, he was born suspicious And sensitive, but then there is such a big fool who is willing to provide suitable soil, abundant rain and dew, to diligently urge the fruit to ripen, so that he can taste what the so-called love is like. Caring about him, understanding him, cherishing him, not caring about those unintentional injuries from time to time, but my own negligence and habituation, but inadvertently gradually consuming this person's initial feelings bit by bit... But Beitang Rongdu doesn't care Gan Ruan, he grabbed the ring on the desk, grabbed Beitang Zunyue's hand suddenly, put the ring on his finger, and said mechanically: "You agreed...you Now that you wear it, it will last your whole life, so you are not allowed to take it off again, you are not allowed..."

At this time, Beitang Rongdu's eyes were blurred, without the color of calmness and wisdom in his hands in the past. Du's forceful hand did not allow Beitang Rongdu to put the ring on his hand again. In fact, Beitang Zunyue is obviously not as ruthless as he appears on the surface. He really is not. They hurt each other. Just like a poppy that is in full bloom, or a flower on the other side wandering on the road to Huangquan, entangled and never ending, when it hurts another person, it will hurt itself, but it has to be ruthless and treat itself from the beginning to the end. Armed up, wrapped up, no longer willing to suffer any harm, no longer willing to taste the taste of disappointment... Beitang Zunyue clasped Beitang Rongdu's wrist, looked at Beitang Rongdu's trembling lips, Word by word whispered: "From today on, only I can spoil my feelings at will. No one else is allowed, and no one is allowed... including you."

During the vigorous tugging between the two, one of them was careless, and the ring accidentally slipped off, and fell to the ground with a slight sound, and then rolled into an unknown corner, Beitang Rongdu Suddenly awakened, immediately subconsciously wanted to look for it, but after all, he didn't move, just stared blankly at the handsome face of Beitang Zun who was getting closer and closer, his face gradually turned pale, and suddenly hehehehe Jin'er laughed out loud, and said, "You...are you really not willing? You are not willing to give me a way? Are you really not willing? Ah?" After saying this, Beitang Rongdu's face It seemed to be slightly distorted, as if he was enduring some pain. When he looked up again, the two blue eyes had a thin layer of moisture, and his tone was strange, as if he was talking to himself. In ordinary language, he said: "I obviously like you, I really like you, it's not fake... But why are you still like this... You actually don't want me anymore... I obviously like you very much!" Beitang Zunyue seemed to have heard something interesting, and he couldn't stop laughing, and then he let go of Beitang Rongdu's wrist, and said with a low smile: "Look, Du'er, even You have already said it yourself, you 'like' me very much... You count, I have been with you for several years from the beginning to now, but you have never said a word of 'love'. "

Like seems to be just a superficial love, but love is a deep and deep liking... Beitang Rongdu's face turned pale, at this moment, he suddenly didn't know what to say, in fact, he knew this The answer to the question is all just because he is too smart and sober, because he knows that only what he can’t get is always the most beautiful and the best, so although he likes Beitang Zunyue very much, he likes it very much, He surpassed everyone, but he never told the other party, thinking that after the extinction of Yan Hua, everything would naturally disappear, but he forgot, even if the other party knew it completely in his heart, but it was still different whether he said it or not, Indeed, not saying it doesn't mean that he doesn't love it, but Beitang Zunyue didn't ask for these words, and it doesn't mean he doesn't want to hear it... In fact, he really doesn't love it, no, because if he really doesn't love If so, why are you so sad?

--Indeed, there are many things in this world that can only be done but cannot be said, but there are also some words, if you really don't say them clearly, then maybe you will leave regrets later, which is very important In front of that person, if you have something in your heart, you must let him know, because no one can guarantee whether you will have the opportunity to tell this person in the future.

Beitang Rongdu's eyes showed strong longing and hope. He looked at Beitang Zunyue without shedding a tear, but something slowly fell from his heart and fell to the ground, making a slight sound , this voice fell in my ears, as if I heard something rapidly disintegrating. It turns out that the most powerful way to hurt people in this world is not with sharp knives, but to turn the original lingering affection into the most ruthless sword light, soft Going to stab... Beitang Rongdu tried his best to calm himself down. Instead of being weak and helpless just now, he twisted his crossed hands tightly, and instead of yelling hoarsely, he used a strangely calm expression. The voice questioned: "You promised me that you will be good to me for the rest of your life, and you will not change your mind. It is only a few years now, and it is still a long, long way from a lifetime... How can you treat me like this, how can you say nothing? When Beitang Rongdu said this, his tone suddenly became urgent, and his white teeth knocked out a faint bloodstain on his lips. His face was full of hope and he said quickly: "Forgive me, I will correct any mistakes I made, as long as you forgive me Me, let's start again... I wouldn't be happy without you..."

As Beitang Rongdu said, he stepped forward and hugged Beitang Zunyue tightly without hesitation, grabbed the other's hand and put it in his arms, pressed his cheek into Beitang Zunyue's neck, and murmured softly: "Please, don't treat me like this...you can take whatever I have, I know you always wanted me, but I only gave it to you twice, so how about this, I will give you all now Here you are, you can do whatever you want, you can do this every night, I will only give you one person... Erlang, please, really please..."

This was clearly a begging, Beitang Rongdu never thought that he could actually lose his dignity, but Beitang Zunyue stared at him for a while, and suddenly couldn't stop laughing, He pushed Beitang Rongdu away fiercely with one hand, smiled wantonly, and said, "You think this is what I want?...I don't care for your charity, what do you take me for!" Beitang Rongdu Pushed by him, he staggered, and his back hit the hard corner of the desk heavily. He was so painful that he could hardly breathe for a moment, but he didn't feel it at all, because Beitang Rongdu knew that in this world, in his own heart , the really important person, the person who really loves deeply, the person who can't let go, only Beitang Zunyue, only in front of this man, will he hesitate, worry, worry about gains and losses... Do you give alms?Yes, the kind of affection he wants, the love he wants, only Beitang Zunyue can give it to him.

--The lives of the two of them are full of blood and conspiracy, killing and scheming, but at the same time there is a little warmth. This relationship is pure to a certain extent, and nothing can be tolerated. Such two people , will lean together to keep each other warm, lick each other's wounds, share happiness or share pain with each other, in fact, as long as we can be together, but even such a wish, will be due to the teasing of fate and human nature. Weaknesses in them, and were mercilessly mocked.