Reborn love is not sweet talk

Sitting alone in the dark halo of the storage room, Zou Panshu combed carefully again.As of today, the old dream of my hometown is hard to find. It is a simple experience: my mother died of dystocia, and my father died of serious injuries when he went out to work. Grandma is left as a family member.The old and the young have no one to rely on, relying on the sale of house furniture and other things that can be sold, and the accumulation of parents in the early years, the grandmother also supports some manual work, forcing him to go to college, but unfortunately he is very introverted because of his family. After junior high school, I learned that I was a pervert and only liked boys, so I was anxious all day long, under great mental pressure, and didn't learn anything.Grandma passed away a few years ago, and it was considered a good life. The people in the hometown said it was a red thing, and sold the only remaining house to the house of the cousin who had been taking care of the two in exchange for the funeral expenses.After burying his grandma, he was in his hometown without any worries. He didn't know what to do. He ignored his aunt's hypocritical persuasion, and he didn't have to go to school. Last semester, his grandma fell ill, and he was a third-rate student in a small place. The junior college really didn't teach anything, and he won't suffer that kind of pain if he got that kind of diploma and didn't have it, not to mention he didn't even have living expenses.

After digging through his pockets, he found 165 yuan, and in his ignorance, he still knew how to walk to the train station. For some reason, he remembered that his father was working in S city, and once he came home and talked about that tall pearl. The tower, there is a river under the tower, and the two banks are the buildings of all nations that make the Chinese people proud and shameful. My father said that it is as brilliant as heaven, and I must take myself to see it when I am admitted to a good university.

He went to buy a ticket, and the cheapest standing ticket was 155 yuan. Seeing his hesitation, the conductor was a kind aunt, who kindly told him that he only needed to buy a standing ticket. Seeing that he reminded again that there is a half-price student ID card, Zou Panshu was annoyed that he threw away his student ID card too quickly, and at the same time pulled out a slightly newer 10 yuan from the remaining money, and put the rest at the ticket window In the groove, do not give yourself a chance to regret, in a blink of an eye, the swift conductor changed a red train ticket and put it in the groove, this time you will definitely not regret it, and you will have to deduct 30% of the refund, Zou Panshu is reluctant .

I touched my thin legs, which were completely different from the one I had two years later. It was these legs that got off the train station in the early morning. I walked from the train station to the river beach under the Pearl Tower without eating or drinking a drop of water. side.He didn't cross the river and couldn't find the way. He asked several passers-by who either asked him to take a taxi or waited for dawn to take the ferry. There was also a tourist who recommended him to take the sightseeing tunnel after dawn. It was frighteningly expensive. He quickly walked away.

He simply didn't ask any more. He heard that there was a ticket for going up the tower, so he gave up his heart and walked along the river from one end to the other. It is said that there are prosperous and bright fireworks everywhere, but this brightly lit street lamp alone is enough to be worthy of Dad's proud wish. He walked around until he was satisfied, even if his feet were heavier than lead.

His mind is over, and life has just begun. He was carrying a small bag, which contained only a few changes of underwear and a few sundries. He kept ten yuan close to his body and was not willing to use it. It was only after dawn that he wanted to find a job and found out. On the first day of the Chinese New Year, there was no one to hire workers. He wanted to buy a newspaper and checked the recruitment and found that the newspapers were not available for sale. Frustrated and disappointed, he didn’t know the direction, so he summoned up his courage and asked a few locals who didn’t look like tourists. At this moment, where the business will recruit people, I walked to this bar street in a daze, and fainted from hunger at the lost door.

After touching his calf, he touched his meatless thigh, and then poked the protruding ribs. He was extremely disappointed to find that if he hadn't had Pang Fei's nourishing diet for more than three months in his previous life, he would have looked like a coffin. With a figure as pale as a vampire, would that person still pick on him?

It seems that not only strengthening the physique, but also gaining weight has become a top priority. In the future, I will be lost at work, and I will eat frozen food from the store for dinner. I will not get up so early for breakfast, and I can’t go out for lunch. At least for a month, no one will If you trust it enough to give yourself the key, then this is really a problem.If the quality is not enough, it depends on the quantity. You can only increase your appetite, and then exercise more to digest it into muscle instead of fat. Let's do this for now.

Getting close is only the first step, and being worthy is his obsession. He wants to accompany that person upright, and be that person's family member.Then you can no longer be such a useless little boy, at least you must have a skill.Fortunately, when he followed him in his previous life, Zou Panshu felt that that person intended to expose him to a wider world as the communication between the two deepened. He often brought back a good book or edited some news highlights for him to read. Computer use, even in the second half of 2011, I will bring myself on a business trip. I took the opportunity to learn a lot of foreign languages. Most of them are daily life languages, and oral English is more dominant. This is also a breakthrough. Many businesses of that person’s company are It is international, and senior employees must be proficient in English and German, and the person himself is proficient in Japanese, French and Spanish in addition to these two languages.

Then there are some important dates, some people in the first year thought they were gradually forgotten, but now thinking about it, it seems that they have never disappeared. Zou Panshu was a few people who treated him well in his previous life, and he wished to give back to others. Now, although the Holy Mother will not be like this anymore, I have learned to distinguish whether others are sincere or not, but the kindness of that person to me in the memory of the first year is really engraved in my heart, which is different from Pang Fei. Just thinking about Pang Fei, I missed a good opportunity for in-depth understanding and communication.

Zou Panshu didn't want to miss any key information. After thinking about it, he went to the bar in front of him to look over it. Paper and pens were available everywhere, but this paper was actually a drink list, palm-sized, but it was enough for him. Such a secret He didn't dare to blatantly capitalize the close-up of the information, but just marked the key points with specific words he knew.What pleased him most was that he even found a calendar card the size of a business card. The front and back were 2010 calendars and 2011 calendars on the other side, and the lunar calendar dates were clearly marked. From Fei's wallet, he crossed off every passing day from the day they separated, hoping that the days would pass in the blink of an eye until the day he marked the terminator...

Looking at the same card, the anxiety and anxiety are similar, but the object is completely different. He shook off the melancholy in his mind and strengthened his will.You need to be very careful to leave a mark on the card, because the surface of the card is coated with oily light and can't absorb the ink at all. If it is not dry, it will be scratched if you touch it casually.He adds a little bit carefully every time, and puts it aside to dry for a long time, and sometimes does not move until he adds another point the next day.

At this moment, he turned this card without any records to the side of 2010, and tapped on several dates with the tip of a pen, as if he could see those real experiences through the gap of time. This life will be his own unique memory.He is not yet sure whether these experiences will be repeated in the future.

After finishing this step, he regained his composure, and began to list key points and precautions in an orderly manner. The thin wine list filled a full page in a short while. He looked at it and found that some places were written too superficially. It would be miserable for anyone to guess what they saw, so he hurriedly took a new one, squatted beside the bed, and revised it with a hazy halo. The revised font was neater. Anyone who reads it can only see the few items that they are going to do at the moment, and the rest of the words that are out of order can only be guessed.

After finishing all this, my stomach growled unsatisfactorily, and when I stood up, I almost stumbled and fell to the ground. It turned out that my feet were numb and painful after squatting for a long time.After half-squatting and kneading for a long time, he finally recovered. He went to the aisle to watch the clock, only to realize that it was getting dark before he knew it. It was already eight o'clock in the evening, and he was so focused that he even ignored the sound of firecrackers.The firecrackers that were gathered again were still crackling, Zou Panshu listened while heating the meal, praying that he could absorb some lively and festive atmosphere with the sound of firecrackers, and bless himself to go back to that person smoothly .

It was still freezing cold after a full meal, Zou Panshu didn't have any friends and didn't even have a mobile phone, but the phone in the bar rang several times, but he was very honest and didn't answer any of them.He took a pot of hot water to soak his feet, even though the fever was subdued, he knew he couldn't catch the cold anymore, otherwise it would really ruin his life if he repeated it.Before going to bed, he quickly changed the underwear that Pang Fei borrowed, thinking about washing it before returning it to Pang Fei tomorrow.There was only one set of underwear left in the bag, and the one that was replaced in the hospital was not brought back, presumably thrown away by Pang Fei, he sighed secretly and had no choice but to accept this fact.

People may be really sleepy to the extreme, or they have made a plan and are determined. When they wake up, they feel that a century has passed, and their whole body is loose. After pumping up his gas, he got up and tidied up the small storage room.

When Pang Fei opened the door and came in, he also brought a bag of clothes, Xiaobao asked him to hand it over, and also brought him 300 yuan, saying it was an advance salary.

After Zou Panshu thanked him, he put it away silently, and once again warned himself not to bring the resentment and pain of the previous life into this life. No one should be responsible for things that don’t exist for them, as long as they don’t give themselves the opportunity to fall into sweet talk. , Even if you still can't be their own people in this life, don't be an enemy or a stranger.

It takes about three hours to get the needle once. During the Chinese New Year, everyone had a lot of social gatherings, and Pang Fei didn't stay with him any longer.

Zou Panshu would not keep anyone, if not for the key to the bar, Zou Panshu would rather finish it by himself.

Zou Panshu also felt much more energetic after three consecutive days of injections, and the impact of his grandma's death was not as great as that of his previous life. He thought it would be so easy to fall in love with Pang Feiye and Pang Fei at that time. It's related to the state of mind, it's like grabbing the last straw, holding it tightly in your hand, and throwing yourself into that love like a sacrifice, completely unable to distinguish reality from illusion, true from false.

Pang Fei was still very tactful when he spoke like that, with a sense of superiority from the small townspeople of S City but not annoying. At least he and Xiaobao would not look at outsiders with colored eyes, let alone insult them, but they have their own personalities The way of dealing with the world has formed his own circle, which is also an area that outsiders cannot intervene.

"Brother Pang Fei, I want to buy some books. I don't know where is the Xinhua Bookstore?" I will start work tomorrow. Taking advantage of this time, I have the money borrowed by Xiaobao. Zou Panshu hopes to buy foreign language books as soon as possible. Come back and study.

"Xinhua Bookstore? Do you still want to buy books? What kind of books? My house is a bit old for novels and magazines. Don't waste that money." Pang Fei suggested. This boy is thin and his clothes are rustic. This person has never seen anything in the world, and his behavior should always have a little bit of countryman's pettiness and restraint. Of course, what that person likes is this so-called simple quality, so I say that this person is a masterpiece. Pang Fei has a good appearance with a good appetite and a natural and simple temperament. Pang Fei snorts at this. Isn't it just a child support who has such high requirements and puts on some big money airs.

However, after contacting him for several days, Pang Fei always felt that this person was not as simple as he appeared on the surface. He looked like a very introverted person, but he spoke generously and even more politely, and he always felt alienated.

Pang Fei felt that he had always had a good eye for seeing people, so he caught his eye at the time, and he and Xiao Bao still intended to keep Qin Mingyu as a backup, recommending him to that person as the No. 1 choice.How did he know that the person is still the same person, but the soul is not the soul of the same stage.In his previous life, Pang Fei trained himself for three months and opened his heart, giving him the initial ability to communicate with the outside world and a smile, and it also gave him a desire for home and a sense of responsibility under the nourishment of love.A sense of responsibility is a necessary factor for a person's growth, and it will change a person's overall mental outlook from the inside out. In addition, following that person for a year and seven months will greatly broaden one's horizons and open up a wider world. Through the window, people of a higher level were in contact.

Confidence, introversion and prudence are the real Zou Panshu now. He is also quiet, but he is not reserved and shy with no experience in the world.

So no matter how accurate Pang Fei's eyes were in seeing people, even facing this person at this moment, he had no choice but to return home.

"No. I want to buy some foreign language books. I want to learn some English and German. I heard that there are foreigners coming to the bar?" There is nothing to hide. After buying it, you can't hide from people to read and study, and there are foreigners coming to the bar. It is also true that waiters who understand foreign languages ​​will have higher salaries and will receive generous tips.

Pang Fei looked and looked at the man in disbelief, his handsome face staggered his eyebrows exaggeratedly, shook his head and muttered something that he didn't understand, turned his feet and took him to another road.

There was no Xinhua Bookstore on the nearby Maoming South Road, only Shanren Bookstore, which was privately owned and not small. Zou Panshu lingered in front of the bookshelves for more than half an hour, looking at expensive books and making calculations in his heart. If you don’t have enough money, you need to buy a lot of exercise books if you want to study systematically. The cheapest set of textbooks alone costs 60 to 3 yuan, while any exercise book costs [-] to [-] yuan. After flipping through the exercises inside, I can understand Those who don't understand are still considered beginners. After this calculation, plus the money to buy MP[-] to practice listening, it is far from enough.

Pang Fei flipped through the bookshelves of magazines. He usually didn’t have time to read books. Most of the magazines contained pictures of beauties and men, as well as new fashion news worth reading. However, it took him more than half an hour to finish flipping through several magazines. Zou Pan Shu was still hesitating there, Pang Fei became a little impatient, they don't like people who are too thoughtful, they are hard to grasp, even those who are too high-minded, don't throw stones at yourself when you don't want to go with that person feet.That person was recommended by Xiaobao in order to save peace and trouble. He just wanted to keep a male favorite. He didn't want to add any after-dinner conversation to his family. Although he doesn't like forcing people, the person recommended must not be a troublemaker. The most important thing is that one is willing to fight and the other is willing to suffer, and each other can be satisfied.From time to time, Pang Fei slandered in his heart to let that person find an inflatable doll to solve everything, but it was better to just do it like this, if there was money to be made.

"Why, didn't you choose?" Pang Fei flicked the magazine, ignored the angry eyes from the counter, and walked to the foreign language bookshelf.

"I've chosen. I'm sorry to waste Brother Pang Fei's time. I'll pay right away." Zou Panshu is good at observing words and expressions, which has been cultivated since he was a child. In his hometown, he always pays attention to the expressions and actions of the people around him. Friends, classmates, neighbors, and even my own grandma can react to other people's emotions faster.

Gritting his teeth, Zou Panshu chose a copy of "New Concept English Volume 4" and the matching exercise book "Making Big Problems". The whole set consists of 80 volumes. Fortunately, they can be bought separately. He picked up three at the counter with a price tag of [-] yuan. The cheapest ballpoint pen and two notebooks cost about [-] yuan at once, and I couldn't find any German textbooks.

These two days are not counted as going to work, and Zou Panshu is too embarrassed to eat the food in the bar freezer. Every time he goes back, he will buy two boxed lunches. Pang Fei persuaded him once and he didn't agree, so he went with him, but Zou Pan Shu Neng clearly felt Pang Fei's displeasure, felt that he didn't know what was good and what was bad, and could only sigh inwardly. At this time, it was time to make a clearer distinction. It wasn't a relative, not a reason, how could he accept Pang Fei's with peace of mind in his previous life? I just enjoyed the relationship between him and Xiaobao.

On the way back, Pang Fei took the book and flipped through a few pages, raised his eyebrows and asked, "Are you self-taught? Didn't you teach it in school before?"

"When I was in college, I learned dumb English, and I forgot everything I learned in high school. I want to learn it all over again." What came out was that I didn't study it systematically, especially the professional terms in business.

Pang Fei clicked his tongue, wondering whether he agreed or disdain this learning method, after returning the book to him, he didn't say much, and seemed even more silent.

Zou Panshu didn't know if this practice would change anything, and felt a little uneasy, so he followed him back to the bar in silence. This kind of cold talk had never happened in the first three months of his life, but every time we met later, it was the same as now In this way, the atmosphere became more and more depressing, and in the end, each other's words were fierce, and the wounds were bleeding.

In his previous life, he talked about the future with Pang Fei. At that time, Pang Fei told him that he had started a small company in partnership with others, and the income was good. There was no need for Zou Panshu to work hard and learn more. Help, just reduce your working hours and don’t get tired. If you don’t want to go to work, he will take care of you. It’s a trivial thing to open your mouth. When two people get together to start a family, you don’t have to distinguish so clearly. What’s mine is yours, and what’s yours is mine. , let him not have a psychological burden.

Zou Panshu spent those short three months in honey. No one ever said that he would be raised for the rest of his life. Describe such a wonderful dream to him: two people who love each other and a home.

He was moved, fell in love with this man, and was full of thoughts from the bottom of his heart that he would try his best to treat Pang Fei well in the future and be worthy of Pang Fei's love. He planned to have two stable jobs for the two of them, and buy a small An apartment at one o'clock, regardless of the ebb and flow outside, the two of us just need to embrace each other to sleep at night as Pang Fei said, wake up with a kiss in the morning, and live our leisurely little days.

This dream was not shattered too quickly. Before meeting that person, Pang Fei felt lost, melancholy and anxious. Xiao Bao faintly revealed that Pang Fei's company was in trouble, and his partner cheated and ran away, leaving behind Pang Fei's debts. He also warned Zou Panshu not to discuss it with Pang Fei, saying that he is a machismo, and he must face this kind of thing with his own shoulders. I don't want Zou Panshu to worry too, but There are so many hardships in Xiaobao's words, Zou Panshu is so anxious that he only resents that he does not have all-powerful hands and eyes, and he has no money and ability to help his lover through the difficulties, not to mention that the lover is so considerate and does not let himself know his difficulties.

A week later, Xiaobao hesitated, and at the urging of Zou Panshu, he said that there was a way to raise a large sum of money, which would allow Pang Fei to pay off the debts and use some of the rest to continue the company. Zou Panshu immediately jumped down and met that person - Ren Shukuang.