mountains and deep sea

Fu Wensheng didn't sleep well that night, and he still had dreams, but when he woke up, there was someone beside him, and he would lie on his side, holding him, and as long as he moved, he would hold his hand tightly. It will be a little heavier.

In such a guarded atmosphere, it was rare for Fu Wensheng to sleep well in the second half of the night, and it was almost nine o'clock when he woke up in the morning.

The bed beside him was already cold, and it was estimated that Lu Yuzhi had been awake for a long time, so Fu Wensheng got out of bed and went to find him.

The phone by the bedside ding-dong, and a message popped up. Fu Wensheng read it while putting on his shoes. It was a message from George. He said he would arrive in Wancheng in a few days, and he wanted to make an appointment to meet.

He froze for a while, and sat by the bed for a long time before recovering.

The door was opened, and Lu Yuzhi walked in. Seeing him awake and sitting on the edge of the bed, he thought he was burning stupid, and the cold back of his hand touched his forehead first.

Fu Wensheng looked up at him.

"The fever seems to be gone." Lu Yuzhi sat down beside him, "How do you feel?"

"Don't worry, it will be much better if you sleep."

Lu Yuzhi glanced at him subtly, got up and went to find the thermometer again, and shook it.

Fu Wensheng quickly grabbed his hand, "What are you doing?"

"You said you were fine yesterday, but you also had a fever later?" Lu Yuzhi said, "It will be more reassuring to try."

Fu Wensheng clicked his tongue and took the thermometer from Lu Yuzhi's hand, "I mean it, I'm really fine."

He put the thermometer aside, pulled the person to sit down again, "Are you going to see Zhou Zhou?"

"Ah."

"Then you tell her, I'm busy, so I won't go, buy me a fruit plate and give it to her, and I'll go see her when I'm discharged from the hospital."

Lu Yuzhi was silent for a while, then nodded, "Okay. But...Fu Wensheng, you are a doctor, so there is no way for you to continue like this. You really don't want to be a doctor anymore?"

Fu Wensheng's eyelashes trembled slightly, but he didn't speak.

But without saying anything, Lu Yuzhi also knew what he was thinking, "I know what you think, otherwise you wouldn't come back to be a medical teacher, would you?"

Fu Wensheng let out a long breath, fell back and looked at the ceiling, "But I can't go..."

No one knows better than him how he wants to be a doctor. In order to become a doctor, he could give up everything and go to France to study alone.At that time, he was full of confidence and expectation for his future, thinking that when he had finished his studies, he would return to China and devote himself to the profession of doctor.

But now he is dying. There is no doctor who can't even go to the hospital, and no doctor is afraid of patients.

Lu Yuzhi leaned over, leaned half on his body, and said seriously, "It's ok, as long as you want."

"I know a psychiatrist, if you want, you can consider seeing it..." He paused, trying to explain more clearly, "I'm not saying you have a mental problem, I just think... ..."

"I know," Fu Wensheng interrupted him with a chuckle, "I've been a doctor too, so I know what you mean."

"Then you... accept my suggestion?"

Fu Wensheng rubbed his hair with his hands, and the soft hair slipped through his fingers, silent.

After half the payment, Fu Wensheng finally nodded.

Lu Yuzhi felt relieved, got up, and held Fu Wensheng's hand, "Then I'll make an appointment and accompany you some other day."

What happened to Zhou Zhou was at the theater, so Lu Yuzhi should go and see Zhou Zhou, and Han Xiao is also with him.

Han Xiao is his partner for many years. He is one or two years older than him. When he is not playing a role, he has short, cool hair and likes to wear bright red lipstick. Compare.

They didn't come here together, but they made an appointment, so they stepped into the ward together.

Only Qi Song and Zhou Zhou were in the ward, and Zhou Zhou was already awake, lying on the bed, his face still pale.Qi Song is coaxing her to feed her porridge.

When entering the door, Han Xiao deliberately coughed twice.

The people inside cast their eyes on the two of them together, and it was Zhou Zhou who reacted first, "Sister Han Xiao, Senior Brother."

Han Xiao smiled jokingly, and teased, "I want to see how you are doing, now it seems that you are recovering well with someone to accompany you!"

Zhou Zhou looked shy, "No, sister Han Xiao, don't talk nonsense."

"Whether I'm talking nonsense, you know it in your own heart."

Qi Song on the other side liked hearing this very much, and cheerfully called her sister, "Sister, you are not only good-looking, you can also talk, no wonder you are getting more and more beautiful."

Han Xiao was amused, "You are the one who can talk, you are the glib, I don't know if you will deceive us Zhou Zhou."

It was just an unintentional joke, but Zhou Zhou looked at Qi Song seriously.

Qi Song was anxious, and immediately explained, "How could I lie to Zhou Zhou, I will definitely not lie to her."

Satisfied, Zhou Zhou pretended to believe it reluctantly, "I hope we will do what we say."

Lu Yuzhi didn't get involved with them, and put the fruit basket in his hand on the bedside cabinet, "Zhou Zhou, are you feeling better?"

"Yeah, much better," Zhou Zhou nodded.

"Fu Wensheng bought this for you. He said that something happened recently and he will come to see you later."

Zhou Zhou quickly shied away, "No need, if Brother Wensheng is busy, I don't need to use it. I should thank him. If it weren't for him, maybe I wouldn't be able to wake up."

Lu Yuzhi smiled, but didn't answer.

As soon as Qi Song heard that Fu Wensheng asked Lu Yuzhi to talk, he had some opinions, "When did you and Wensheng get along so well? He asked you to talk and didn't call me?! This time too, you actually invited him to see it. Dance drama! No, Lu Yuzhi, don’t you dislike getting to know our group? Why are you so close to Wensheng?”

According to the high probability that Lu Yuzhi would ignore Qi Song's words in the past, but this time he actually asked, "Why did I ask you to speak?"

Qi Song seemed to have heard some joke, "Why? I have a good relationship with him! We grew up together since childhood."

A trace of displeasure flashed across Lu Yuzhi's half-closed eyes, and then he raised his eyes lazily, saying concisely, "Ask him."

Qi Song was choked, and wanted to say something, but Zhou Zhou stopped him, "It's all right, don't say a few words."

Being scolded by his wife, Qi Song immediately became obedient, sat down and wanted to continue feeding Zhou Zhou, "I won't talk, you eat."

"Hey!" Zhou Zhou blocked his hand, and looked at Han Xiao and Lu Yuzhi who had been holding back with embarrassment, "I won't eat it for now, I will eat it later."

"Why?"

Seeing that this thick-skinned man wanted to show his affection in front of everyone, Zhou Zhou blamed him, looked at him, thought for a while and said, "Go get me some hot water first."

Qi Song looked at the thermos bottle and had no choice but to put down the porridge in his hand, "Okay, then I'll fetch water first."

When the people left, Han Xiao looked at Zhou Zhou who was still watching him jokingly, "Zhou Zhou, this guy is being played to death by you."

Zhou Zhou knew it was teasing, but he was also shy and didn't answer.

Lu Yuzhi took a step back, leaned against the wall, and looked out the window, listening to their talk while watching the birds land on the branches.

Han Xiao continued, "I heard he proposed to you?"

Zhou Zhou nodded, but his interest was not high, "But I refused."

"Why?" Han Xiao was taken aback, "Don't you like him?"

Zhou Zhou leaned on the pillow, clasped his hands, and kept rubbing his jaw, "But I don't know how long his current love can last. What if he said that getting married is just a whim? I always feel that we won't last long."

Han Xiao didn't expect her to think so, and asked in surprise, "Why do you think so?"

Zhou Zhou sighed, "Sister Han Xiao, you also know what kind of person Qi Song used to be. He has been with many girls, and now he is serious about me and likes me very much, but I don't know if he was so right before. Those girls. He can mention marriage, but does he really want to be with me for the rest of his life? What if he regrets it in the future? Sister Han Xiao, I...don't trust him very much. "

The warm sun was sparse, Lu Yuzhi looked away from the outside, and looked at Zhou Zhou with a slight frown.

And Han Xiao put away his hippie smile, and held Zhou Zhou's hand, "Zhou Zhou, Qi Song was indeed a very playful person before, but if you think about it carefully, has he become restrained after being with you?" Not much. When you were practicing dancing in the theater, he would come to accompany you when he had free time, and when you had an accident, he was so anxious that he was about to cry. You can’t see this, but we outsiders can see it.”

Zhou Zhou was stunned for a moment, but didn't speak.

Han Xiao continued, "I heard that he has been going to work in his father's company recently. Where would he go before? It's because of you that he wants to work hard. I'm not saying good things about him, but Because you love him, I hope you can think about it carefully, and don't regret it when you think about it later."

After leaving the hospital, it was time to get off work. Lu Yuzhi parked his car at a parking spot on the side of the road. In the distance, the sky was half-shrouded in the setting sun with mist and dusk. There was a constant flow of traffic around him. Because of the congestion, Trumpets blare.

Lu Yuzhi remembered Zhou Zhou's words amidst the noise.

It was obviously someone else's feelings, but he thought of the unknown relationship between himself and Fu Wensheng for no reason.

He also thought about it more than once, why did Fu Wensheng want to be with him, because he said it was love at first sight?Or was it just because he happened to be the one in the Parisian bar that night that he took a huge interest in himself?

If so, how long can Fu Wensheng like him?Under the condition that Fu Wensheng has such a good background and talent, how reliable is love at first sight?Will he leave himself when he wakes up?

In every hysterical affair with Fu Wensheng, such questions always surfaced in his mind, so he would seek answers from Fu Wensheng again and again.But when Fu Wensheng said it himself, he would immediately rush to the next question, wondering how long this kind of love could last.

Lu Yuzhi didn't know, and didn't dare to gamble.

So he put himself at a great distance in this relationship, even though Fu Wensheng was right in front of him, he still didn't open his legs to grab it.

He thought that as long as he didn't touch too much, maybe when the time came, when Fu Wensheng was about to leave, he wouldn't be too sad, he would be able to leave dignity for each other, and he wouldn't embarrass himself too much.

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Zuo Erdong Chen

Classmate Xiao Lu: Lack of love since childhood, lack of security when growing up~