mountains and deep sea

On the day Zhou Zhou was discharged from the hospital, Fu Wensheng helped pick him up, and Zhou Zhou's parents stayed with Qi Song for a meal.Qi Song originally wanted to send Fu Wensheng back after dinner, but Fu Wensheng refused, saying that he had a friend to pick him up.

Qi Song was curious, "What friend, do I know him?"

Fu Wensheng, who was putting on his shoes at the entrance, paused, then shook his head, "I don't know."

"There are people around you that I don't know, no, Fu Wensheng, I found out that you have changed your mind!" Qi Song pretended to cry and complained, "There are other people around you..."

Fu Wensheng rolled his eyes, put on his shoes, straightened up, and called behind Qi Song, "Uncle."

Qi Song stood up straight reflexively, and quickly turned around, only to realize that there was no one behind him at all, and it was Fu Wensheng who teased him, "Tsk, Fu Wensheng..."

"Hey, don't talk about you," Fu Wensheng interrupted him with a wave of his hand, "Hurry up and go in and see Zhou Zhou."

He quickly opened the door, pulled his clothes and went out.

Zhou Zhou's house is in a high-end residential area newly built in the past few years. There is a short distance from her house to the road. Fu Wensheng walked for 15 minutes to get there, and got into a white SUV parked on the side of the road.

He slammed the door, "It's late, did you wait long?"

Lu Yuzhi held the steering wheel and looked at him, "No."

Fu Wensheng put on his seat belt and turned sideways, "Have you eaten?"

Lu Yuzhi turned the steering wheel, "Eat something casually, I made an appointment with the doctor at [-]:[-] pm, and it's just right now."

Today they made an appointment to see the psychiatrist that Lu Yuzhi knew. Lu Yuzhi knew that he was coming to pick up Zhou Zhou today, so he couldn't go with him. He was afraid that Fu Wensheng would just follow him and someone would see something. Just stopped nearby and waited for him.

It's broad daylight, but the meeting smells like an underground joint.

Lu Yuzhi seemed to be concentrating on driving the car, but he kept thinking about what Fu Wensheng would do if they were found out.Will you choose to break up with him?

I will.

After all, he cares so much about his family.

Fu Wensheng knew what Lu Yuzhi was thinking at a glance, and reminded him with a smile, "Yu Zhi, watch the road carefully."

Lu Yuzhi suddenly came back to his senses, "I'm watching."

"Oh, really?" Fu Wensheng's eyes were full of ridicule, "I almost bumped into it just now."

Lu Yuzhi turned to stare at him, "No."

"Yes, fortunately I reminded you."

Lu Yuzhi suddenly turned a corner and drove into another lane. Fu Wensheng couldn't avoid it and leaned over.

"Stop talking about you." Lu Yuzhi said coldly.

Fu Wensheng saw that he was getting angry from embarrassment, so he just laughed, but it wasn't funny anymore, so he followed the road.

He was actually a little nervous. Although he knew something about his situation, he was afraid of seeing a psychiatrist and hearing bad results from the doctor, so he fled in a hurry after consulting a psychiatrist in France, never to return home. dare not go.

This time, if it wasn't for Lu Yuzhi's insistence, he would have avoided it if he could, but Lu Yuzhi made an appointment for him without even calling.

Seeing that Fu Wensheng suddenly became quiet, Lu Yuzhi glanced over, "What's wrong?"

Fu Wensheng rubbed his fingertips, and said honestly, "It's okay, I'm a little nervous."

"Don't be nervous, psychiatrists don't eat people."

Fu Wensheng smiled lightly, but didn't speak.

Lu Yuzhi was afraid of what he was thinking, so he tried to explain, "It's just to enlighten you, chat, nothing else, it's better than holding it in your heart."

He hesitated for a moment, then reached out and held Fu Wensheng's hand, "Don't be nervous."

Fu Wensheng opened his pupils slightly, held Lu Yuzhi instead, and said, "I'm not nervous anymore."

The psychiatrist's surname is Cheng, and his single name is Lan. He is a few years older than Fu Wensheng this year, but his skin is well maintained, and his real age cannot be seen. When Fu Wensheng saw it, he thought it was only around [-].

He seemed to be standing at the door waiting for them on purpose, and as soon as he saw Lu Yuzhi's car, he came up to meet him, but he didn't look at Fu Wensheng first, but at Lu Yuzhi.

He took a few glances at Lu Yuzhi and asked, "How do you see it?"

Cheng Lan nodded in satisfaction, "You look good."

Only then did he look at Fu Wensheng, and politely reached out his hand to hold Fu Wensheng, "Mr. Fu, hello, I heard Yu Zhi mentioned you."

Fu Wensheng used to be uncomfortable looking at Lu Yuzhi because of Cheng Lan's eyes, but now he heard Cheng Lan speaking in a tone that was very familiar between him and Lu Yuzhi, so he glanced at Lu Yuzhi.

He nodded, "Hello, Dr. Cheng, are you familiar with Yu Zhi?"

Cheng Lan, "Oh, of course, we are..."

"Not very familiar," Lu Yuzhi interrupted Cheng Lan, and he looked at Fu Wensheng, "I met by chance, so I'm not familiar."

It seemed to be explaining to him that Fu Wensheng felt a little sweetness in his heart, and the discomfort just now dissipated.

Cheng Lan listened to Lu Yuzhi's nonsense, and complained in his heart without exposing it, and led Fu Wensheng to the consulting room, and asked Lu Yuzhi to wait outside.

The decoration of Cheng Lan's consulting room is very simple, but still warm. The curtains are deliberately chosen to be warm yellow, and there are potted plants in the corner, creating a heart-warming atmosphere for the patients who come for consultation.

Cheng Lan poured a cup of hot water for Fu Wensheng, and sat down opposite him, "I heard from Yu Zhi that Mr. Fu was also a doctor before?"

Fu Wensheng took a sip of water, "Just call me Wensheng. Well, I studied in the hospital before."

"In that case, we are also considered colleagues."

Fu Wensheng smiled, "Not anymore."

"Actually, I heard about you before Yu Zhi mentioned it to me." Cheng Lan got up, took the ipad from his desk, and clicked on a report for Fu Wensheng to read.

Fu Wensheng took it and recognized his own photo on it.

That was reported a long time ago. He followed his teacher to do a detailed study on cardiac stents, and made further use of existing drug-coated stents, using drugs to inhibit the proliferation of blood vessel walls and prevent restenosis. It is very meaningful for the treatment of coronary heart disease in the future.

At that time, he was interviewed and reported by major media. Fu Wensheng was fortunate to be dragged by his teacher to conduct an interview. The report he has now is from that time.

Fu Wensheng above, still wearing a white coat, was a few years younger than now, full of vigor, and at that time he was full of infinite longing for his future.

But in the blink of an eye, he has become a waste who dare not even handle a scalpel.

Cheng Lan looked at Fu Wensheng's expression, lowered his voice, and tried his best to be patient and gentle, "Wen Sheng, I am also a doctor, and I know something about coronary heart disease. What you studied at that time is very important for coronary heart disease. It can prolong the lives of many patients with coronary heart disease."

He patted Fu Wensheng on the shoulder, "You have already saved many people."

Fu Wensheng lowered his eyes and remained silent for a long time before slowly putting the ipad in his hand back on the table, "But when I failed to save the Master, you must know how powerless I was at that time, Dr. Cheng."

"Then you can't take all the responsibility on yourself," Cheng Lan said. "The irrationality of the family members and the seriousness of the patient's condition at that time are all unavoidable problems. You didn't do it."

Fu Wensheng bent down, clasped his hands, and rubbed his jaw in silence, before saying, "But sometimes I dream, it's that person who asks me why I can't save him, or that family member who confronts me with a knife. look at me..."

Telling him that he is a quack doctor who kills people and pays for his life, his blood is as thick as the night, and he keeps approaching him, taking away his five senses. He blames himself and is afraid, and finally takes off his white coat day after day.

Cheng Lan sighed, "Man is not a god, he will fail, he will be afraid and cowering, character is a part of man, you have to accept these existences calmly, only when you can face these, you can let go of the past."

Fu Wensheng slightly raised his eyes to look at him.

Cheng Lan told him a story about a patient who was dying under his treatment. When she came to see him for the last time that day, she told him that she had lived more than 1000 days since they met each other. , if one day she has to leave, I hope Cheng Lan will not blame himself.

At that time, Cheng Lan instinctively sensed what she was going to do, and told her to talk to her over and over again. When we parted, he said that he hoped they would have a chance to see each other again. At that time, he hoped that you had recovered.

At that time, the girl smiled brightly and nodded to him, saying that she would definitely.

But a few days after parting, she drank a large bottle of sleeping pills and walked towards death without hesitation.

"When she left, I was very sad and blamed myself. We have known each other for so many years. I thought she was going to recover, but I didn't expect that she would choose to leave in the end. I was also very depressed during that time, and no psychologist could resolve it. Myself, isn’t it ridiculous. Until I saw another patient and he told me he wanted to live and hoped I could help him.”

Cheng Lan seemed to remember something, fell into the memory briefly, and continued for a long time, "I understood at that time that doctors cannot save every patient, but every patient needs us to exist. The god of death fights for life, if you fail, stand up again, because there are people waiting for us behind."

"Wear," he said sincerely, "why did your teacher save you? It's because of your ability. He hopes to save more people in the future."

Fu Wensheng seemed to be hit, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and there was water in his eyes.

Cheng Lan came out of the consultation room, and as soon as he opened the door, he saw Lu Yuzhi who was still sitting on the bench in the corridor.He looked at the person in surprise, "Why are you still here?"

Lu Yuzhi originally folded his arms, but when he saw Cheng Lan coming out, he sat up straight and looked behind Cheng Lan, but no one came out, "I'll wait for him, where is he?"

"Asleep, I won't wake up later." Cheng Lan closed the door carefully, sat next to Lu Yuzhi, and looked at Lu Yuzhi intriguingly.

Lu Yuzhi didn't care about his gaze, "How is he?"

"Don't worry, he has post-traumatic stress disorder. It should be that the teacher was too stimulated by his injury because of his failed operation."

Lu Yuzhi frowned, "Can you recover?"

"Of course it can, but it will take some time and he needs to let go of himself. After all, I am only playing a supporting role."

He paused, with a thought-provoking expression on his face, and finally asked, "Do you care about him?"

Only then did Lu Yuzhi realize what he meant, moved his head awkwardly, and said frankly, "We are together."

Note: Cardiac stent is a treatment for coronary heart disease.

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Zuo Erdong Chen

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