mountains and deep sea

The lights in the kitchen were not bright, the water on the stove was bubbling, and the heat was rolling upwards from the spout of the kettle. Fu Wensheng was on one side, and his shadow was dragged for a long time.

He came out while Lu Yuzhi was asleep, thinking that Lu Yuzhi probably hadn't eaten anything in the past few days, so he made some first and asked someone to get up for a meal later.

The lamp was still an old-fashioned light bulb, and the filament was burnt red, which was reflected in Fu Wensheng's worried eyes. He could tell that Lu Yuzhi was in a bad state. I don't know how he got through these few days. Blizzard, he can come back to be with Lu Yuzhi sooner.

He should have come back sooner, at least Lu Yuzhi won't face this alone.

The phone in his pocket suddenly vibrated, which brought back Fu Wensheng's thoughts.He put down the chopsticks in his hand and picked up the phone. It was Shen Yanqing, "Hello, Mom."

"Hear the sound, are you back?"

"I'm back, now at... Lu Yu's house."

The other end of the phone was silent for a while, probably because he didn't expect that Fu Wensheng would be by Lu Yuzhi's side as soon as he came back, but Shen Yanqing didn't think about the reason carefully, and worried about Lu Yuzhi first came to his heart, "Hey, you are here in Xiaolu. At home, then you should spend more time with him, the old man has just passed away, so he probably feels bad."

Fu Wensheng curled his fingers holding the phone, and next to his ears was his mother's sighs. He really wanted to share the tray with Shen Yanqing, saying that Lu Yuzhi was with him, and they were not friends, but lovers.

But he couldn't say that in front of Shen Yanqing, he could only respond from the perspective of a friend.

Shen Yanqing talked to him a lot, and finally got back to the purpose of the call, "Wen Sheng, when you have time, Mom wants you to meet the girl I mentioned to you last time... ..”

"Mom," before Shen Yanqing finished speaking, Fu Wensheng interrupted, he rarely lowered his voice in front of Shen Yanqing, revealing his own displeasure, "Didn't I say that I don't want to think about those things yet, I don't Date, don't make a date for me either."

Shen Yanqing became anxious when she heard him say that, "No, I heard the sound, how old are you..."

"Mom, that's it, hang up first." Fu Wensheng hung up the phone before Shen Yanqing started a long speech. He rubbed the center of his brows wearily, when suddenly there was a sound behind him, Fu Wensheng turned his head, leaning on the door and making a mistake Lu Yuzhi looked at him well.

On such a cold day, when he got up from the bed, he was wearing a thin coat and no socks. His feet were already red from the cold, and he didn't know how long he stood there.

Fu Wensheng frowned, took the coat he had put on the chair, stepped forward and put it on Lu Yuzhi's body, and dragged him in, "Aren't you cold? Why aren't you wearing clothes?"

Lu Yuzhi remained silent for a long time, "I'm not cold."

Fu Wen sighed silently, pulled the man to sit down on the chair, and pretended to be relaxed, "Why did you wake up all of a sudden? I haven't even finished cooking the noodles yet."

Lu Yuzhi looked over his shoulder and landed on the steaming pot on the stove, and the smell of noodles lingered on his nose.

He frowned a little bit.

He couldn't sleep well at first, and when he woke up, the quilt around him was cold. He was stunned for a long time, and panic surged into his heart, so he put on his shoes and went out without thinking about anything. When he saw the brightly lit kitchen , to have some peace of mind.

He was just afraid, afraid that Fu Wensheng would leave, afraid that he was the only one in the yard.

He didn't say anything, but Fu Wensheng knew what he was thinking. He pinched the back of Lu Yuzhi's neck, "Yu Zhi, come back and live with me, okay, or I'll move here."

Lu Yuzhi withdrew his gaze from the stove, fixed his eyes on Fu Wensheng, and copied his eyebrows inch by inch as if he had a great nostalgia for the person, but the light in his eyes was dim, "Wensheng, will you Leave me?"

Fu Wensheng was startled, knowing that Lu Yuzhi had heard the phone call between him and Shen Yanqing, he squeezed the back of his neck more forcefully, and pulled him directly into his arms, "I won't, don't think too much about it. "

He held Lu Yuzhi's face, rubbed his ears, and said seriously, "I will always be by your side."

Lu Yuzhi's eyelashes trembled slightly, he reached out to hug Fu Wensheng, and buried him in the crook of his neck, "Fu Wensheng, don't lie to me."

Fu Wensheng's heart ached, "I never lied to you."

Fu Wensheng accompanied Lu Yuzhi in the Hutong Street, and he didn't even leave the house for a few days. Some people came to visit, but Fu Wensheng stopped them all, except for Du Mengqiu and Gu Yunping.

When Gu Yunping came, it was Fu Wensheng who opened the door. The moment the door opened, both of them were surprised. They didn't expect to see each other here.

Since he was an elder and Lu Yuzhi's biological father, Fu Wensheng couldn't decide what to do, so he stepped back and opened the door, "Uncle Gu."

"Wensheng, why are you here?" Gu Yunping entered the door and asked him first.

"I'll take a look at Yu Zhi."

Gu Yunping nodded, still with a calm expression, but he seemed to be a few years older than when he saw it last time, with gray hair growing on his temples.

He looked around the yard, but saw no one, "Where is Yu Zhi?"

"He's in the house."

While speaking, the door of the wing room creaked open, and it was Lu Yuzhi who was leaning against the door.

"go out."

Lu Yuzhi stared blankly at Gu Yunping who was standing at the door, and spoke coldly first, as if to evict the guest.

Gu Yunping didn't move, "I want to come and see you."

Lu Yuzhi remained unmoved, "Gu Yunping, what face do you have to step into this house?"

The flat tone of voice is the sharpest knife that can hurt people. It hurt Gu Yunping and himself. It is the pain of sealing the throat.

Gu Yunping stood silently at the door for a long time, and finally sighed, "Okay, I'll go, you have something... tell me."

"No, it will never have anything to do with the Gu family again."

Gu Yunping froze, didn't say anything, turned around, his steps suddenly became old and no longer strong.

Fu Wensheng closed the door, went over and hugged Lu Yuzhi into his arms, without saying anything, but the hands stroking his back were comforting.

They still went back to Fu Wensheng's house, Fu Wensheng was afraid that Lu Yuzhi would always think of Lu Quansheng and Lu Jiaruan in the yard, and it might be much better in a different environment.

Lu Yuzhi only took a few days off and went to the theater as usual, rehearsing and practicing dances. It seemed that there was not much change from before.But Fu Wensheng knew that he had changed, he became more silent and withdrawn.

Lu Quansheng was the person who grew up with him, leaving suddenly was a heart-piercing pain for him.

Fu Wensheng's laboratory and school are busy, and sometimes he comes home very late, only a small light in front of the floor-to-ceiling window is turned on at home, and the light shines on that person in a fluffy way, while Lu Yuzhi sits on the ground with his knees hugged, motionless. Looking out the window, he seemed to be ignorant of the outside world, and he didn't even notice that Fu Wensheng opened the door and walked to him.

Fu Wensheng sat down beside him, "What are you thinking?"

The voice is soft, afraid to disturb him.

Lu Yuzhi didn't move, still looking out through the window.Looking from such a high-rise building, you can see the lights of thousands of houses, the beautiful scenery of the first lights, the street lights stretching along the road, going to the endless long head, the streets are full of cars, the sound of horns is everywhere, it is lively there.

After a long time, he turned his head, "I didn't think about anything."

Fu Wensheng patiently stroked his hair, "Have you eaten?"

Lu Yuzhi shook his head, then nodded again, probably because he was afraid that Fu Wensheng would be worried.

But Fu Wensheng didn't understand him yet, so he pulled people to the kitchen, "I'll make you fried rice with eggs, don't sit on the floor, go wait for me on the sofa."

However, Lu Yuzhi followed him all the way to the kitchen and stood watching, his eyes always following Fu Wensheng.

When Fu Wensheng turned to look at him, he subconsciously lowered his eyes to look at his feet.

Fu Wensheng came over and cupped his face, "Shall we go out and relax?"

Lu Yuzhi didn't agree, "I don't want to go anywhere."

"Then we'll be right here. Besides," Fu Wensheng pressed his forehead against him, "Can you tell me something? I'm here."

Lu Yuzhi grabbed his sleeve, "I'm fine."

It's not that if you say you're fine, you'll be fine.

The death of Lu Quansheng dug a deep hole in his heart, bloody and bloody, and he tried hard to fill it up, but he didn't know where to start, like a clumsy child staring at the hole, he would cry at first , He didn't even know how to cry in the back, he was so anxious, he always felt that there was something waiting for him ahead, he wanted to find it, but he was left in front of the hole, unable to get through.

Lu Yuzhi began to suffer from insomnia all night. He had no dreams but woke up suddenly. He met the sleeping Fu Wensheng face to face in the dark, and fear first flooded his heart.

The surroundings were quiet, only the sound of Fu Wensheng's breathing lingered in his ears, and as he listened, there were other sounds.

It was Lu Jiaruan's, Lu Quansheng's, they seemed to be leaning on their ears, saying over and over again, "Yu Zhi, everyone will leave you, everyone, including Fu Wensheng..."

Lu Yuzhi closed his eyes overwhelmed in the dark night, trying hard to let those voices go away, but it was like a vine spreading its teeth and claws, entangled him bit by bit, and then dragged him violently!He fell into the abyss.

...... Fu Wensheng will go

...will leave me like them

Fu Wensheng had a bad dream. When he suddenly woke up from the dream, he felt that the quilt beside him was cold, and he suddenly woke up.

Anxiety and worry welled up in his heart, and his temples throbbed wildly, as if foretelling something bad.

He got up in a hurry, his eyes wandered over Lu Yuzhi's figure, there was no one in the bedroom, nor the balcony in the living room, only the sound of water dripping on the floor in the bathroom.

He knocked on the door, "Yu Zhi, is that you?"

There was no answer from inside, and the feeling of uneasiness was getting stronger and stronger. Fu Wensheng opened the door ignoring others, and when he saw the inside clearly under the dim moonlight, his heart constricted suddenly - there, Lu Yuzhi sank in the full water in the bathtub.

Fu Wensheng's mind was buzzing, and he instinctively ran over to drag Lu Yuzhi, but his whole body was shaking so badly that he didn't get up the first time, so he did it again.

With a splash, the water in the bathtub splashed all over the floor, and the white beads slammed onto the ground, like pieces of broken porcelain scattered all over the floor.

"Yu Zhi... Lu Yuzhi, wake up Lu Yuzhi! Lu Yuzhi!!" Fu Wensheng gave Lu Yuzhi chest compressions and artificial respiration, while calling his name with a trembling tail, his voice hoarse Rough.

a bit!

Twice!

Three times!

......

"Cough, cough..." Finally Lu Yuzhi coughed violently, his fingers shrank suddenly, and he woke up.

Fu Wensheng's tense heartstrings loosened suddenly, and he hugged him tightly in his arms. The muscles in his arms stretched into a line, and the hand that hugged Lu Yu's neck trembled uncontrollably.

His face was pale, not much better than Lu Yuzhi's.

"Lu Yuzhi, do you have a conscience..." When he spoke again, he was choked up, and the crying was hidden in the ending.

Lu Yuzhi's throat hurt so badly, his heart hurt too, and he couldn't speak.

Suddenly there was a hot drop on his shoulder, which woke him up a little bit. Panting for breath, he shouted Fu Wensheng's name with difficulty.

Fu Wensheng hugged him even tighter, almost breaking his bones. He was afraid that he would be submerged like a tide. He didn't dare to imagine what would happen to Lu Yuzhi if he didn't wake up.

His heart convulsed with fear, and he repeated a sentence over and over again, "Lu Yuzhi, you scared me to death Lu Yuzhi, you scared me to death..."

Lu Yuzhi's frozen limbs gradually came to life amidst Fu Wensheng's cries, a glint of light was glimpsed in his slack eyes, his eyelashes stained with drops of water trembled one after another, and the heart deep in his chest shrank tightly. There was a ball, and the dense pain came belatedly.

He slowly raised his arms to hug Fu Wensheng, closed his eyes, and tears fell.

Leaning on Fu Wensheng's shoulder, he wept bitterly.

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Zuo Erdong Chen

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