night without tears

Yin Yening watched as F knocked Cheng Fei aside with such force that he clearly heard the violent sound of Cheng Fei's body hitting the ground.

Cheng Fei coughed a few times, but before he had time to get up, F punched him down to the ground again, with his left leg pressing on his chest, and with his only hand, he slammed down hard.

"F, stop! Stop! This is...an order, an order..."

F turned his head and smiled contemptuously, but ignored it at all.

Yin Yening didn't know that F at the moment couldn't understand him, couldn't even recognize who he was, and didn't know that he was hurting Cheng Fei.He was just frightened by that sneer, he knew that if he didn't stop him, Cheng Fei would be beaten to death by him.

He looked down and saw a palm-sized stone at his feet.He had no choice but to pick up the stone and smash it down hard on F's head from behind.

F was stunned by his impact and stopped moving.

"You...you...you forced me, who told me to stop you..."

Before he finished speaking, he saw F staggering up, he took a step back in fright, but F just looked back at him, without any emotion or expression, and turned away , limped and walked down the cliff.

This, what does this mean?

Cheng Fei had already passed out, and there didn't seem to be any fatal wounds on his body. Yin Yening looked at him, and then at F who was walking further and further away, feeling a little at a loss what to do.

"You, why are you doing this?"

He finally chased after him and shouted at him, but F didn't seem to hear, Yin Yening looked at his back, feeling anxious.

"Where are you going?"

Where could he go like this?

He just... wanted to jump off the cliff.

For a moment, a strange fear filled his heart, as if he had left like this, and from now on, he would never see him again.

Never will.

This should be the result he expected, otherwise, he wouldn't be so cruel before, this should be the result he expected... because Yin Yening knew that he was actually a cruel person.

However, the moment he hugged him just now, the long-lost sense of fullness filled his arms, making his blood try to escape the control of his heart, hugging him and never letting go.

Never let go, those who have and don't have, human beings, machines, can, can't, all the considerations in the middle are all gone.

Then you can relax and try to love seriously.

I have always been a coward, Yin Yening knew it in her heart.To Cheng Fei, to him, they all wanted to love, but in the end they didn't dare.

"Why did you fight with Joshua? Why did you hurt Cheng Fei? If you have any grievances, just direct it at me! Why do you want to hurt the innocent?"

Hasn't he already made a choice?Leaving Cheng Fei behind, he chased after him, and grabbed the man's hand that was so broken that it didn't look like a hand.

"F, you can't..."

Before he finished speaking, his hand was thrown away, F pushed him hard, and continued walking.

Yin Yening stood, clenching her teeth.

No, I didn't make a choice.I will not choose him.

He didn't know that that person was already in chaos.He didn't know where he was going, and he didn't know what he was going to do. He just felt that someone was blocking him, so he waved away everything that was close to him.

When a machine breaks, it's often caught in some sad cycle, the old gramophone buzzing indistinctly but always the same song, or something like that.So Yin Yening pulled him again, he pushed away, he pulled again, he pushed again.

"F! You can't just walk away like this! You have to make it clear to me! If you want to take revenge, you will come at me. How long have you done to Cheng Fei like this?! Stop and make it clear to me!"

Who exactly?It's annoying.

F is already on the verge of endurance.

Already disordered, whether it is circuits or virtual nerves, can be filled with all kinds of whimsical ideas.So, in fact, "I'm bored to death" is just a very normal and direct reflection.

Yin Yening still hasn't realized how sad the matter is, and thinks that F is still soberly fighting with him, and finds it both hateful and ridiculous.

Where is the time to be awkward now?

It made it like this—although he didn't like that Joshua all the time, but F almost killed someone intentionally. If Joshua didn't commit suicide in the end, who should bear the responsibility for the murder?Then, he almost killed Cheng Fei again and again...

If he is really broken, why is it so clear... only for Cheng Fei?

And since he will be broken, since he will be confused, it means——

It means that he is fake, his emotions, his thinking, and everything about him are all fake.

So, still can't love him.

Why did you almost want to love him?

Yin Yening suddenly felt that it was very dangerous, it was really only a little bit close, and if one thought was missed, he would be doomed forever.

Why would you want to love him? ...to fall in love with a machine is ridiculous.

Not only can't love, but also can't let him do whatever he wants, anyway, this kind of thing can't be kept in the end.

... Always reluctant, always reluctant, this will not work!With such laissez-faire madness, just do it to the end, don't give yourself a chance to regret it, ruin him, this time completely ruin him and forget it!

Sometimes there is a fine line between love and hate.This kind of love that is struggling from the beginning to the end, if it crosses over there, it will be endless love, and if it crosses over here, it will be obliterated.

"F! I'm giving you one last chance, you stop and make it clear, otherwise, otherwise don't blame me..."

The robot waved his hand coldly.

A deep haze flashed in Yin Yening's eyes. Under some kind of nightmare that made him hate to the bone, he used all his strength to throw the broken robot to the ground.The soft soil and the fragrance after the light rain made him feel nostalgic and addicted for a moment.

This relationship is always a very contradictory one. When he looked at the person below him, his thinking suddenly became very clear.

I like it, I must like it, at least I really liked it once.

In the past, his F had a heart-pounding loneliness; in the past, his F would be satisfied as long as he gave a little tenderness; in the past, his F would not want to hurt anyone.

People will change, but I didn't expect that robots that follow strict procedures will also change.

But maybe—it's all an excuse.He just can't accept the fact that he might actually have loved a robot, the fact that it's so horrible, it can happen, but it can never be admitted...

This non-recognition made him experience countless times of evasion and destruction of corpses, and now, the cycle repeats itself.

It's just that Yin Yening sometimes miscalculates.

He presses down on F, convinced that his robot loves him so much that he can give up his life—even if he can't give up his life, he still has "orders" that can be imposed on him.

His "order" has long since expired.As for love, when the system is completely chaotic, I don't know where it went.

He picked up a sharp stone and threw it towards F's heart.Fang Jili said that the center of the circuit is there, as long as it is destroyed, everything will be over.

Once, twice... F did not struggle.

He just looked at Yin Yening, his dark and pure eyes made his hair stand on end.

"No, don't look at me anymore..." Yin Yening couldn't help shouting: "What kind of eyes are those, why do you have such eyes? You are just a machine, everything is fake..."

The sharp stone tip suddenly changed direction, pierced towards F's left eye, and pierced hard.Sure enough, there was no blood, only a black hole of shattered steel and glass.

"what……"

The man let out a scream, as if the previous pain was fake, but this time it was truly heart-wrenching.

Obviously it shouldn't hurt, robots don't hurt, but he screamed so painfully and so real.

"Ye, don't..."

The vocal chords, which should have been destroyed a long time ago, made a hoarse voice as if they had exhausted their last strength. F gently grabbed Yin Yening's sleeve, with a powerless and cowardly expression.

"Please, please...please...Ye, I...like you so much...like you so much...don't treat me..."

They have come to this point, they still like it, they still like it.There was no cure and no thought of being rescued.

"Please, don't destroy me... If I... I'm gone, are you...really willing to..." He asked him persistently and stubbornly as if exhausting all his strength.

Really willing?Of course she is willing, Yin Yening has always been willing.

However, there are some people who don't believe it, or some people stubbornly think that this person will one day, maybe one day, finally be reluctant to part with him.

Such an unrealistic person must die from his own unrealistic stubbornness.

His heart was hit hard again.The person he was thinking of was not even willing to give the most basic mercy, so he gave up and didn't struggle anymore.

There seems to be a saying that dying at the hands of a loved one is a kind of happiness.

What kind of happiness is this?Human beings really seek self-comfort, and the saddest thing in the world is this, knowing that the person you love deeply wants you to die.

Get it over, get it over.

When everything is over, I will find that, as he said, I am really just a machine. , the so-called feelings are false, the so-called pain is hypocritical, and the so-called soul is an illusion.

Then I shall have eternal rest.

There is no reincarnation, no afterlife, and I will never worry about meeting you again, and the pain of being ground into powder by you again.

Something, along the destroyed eyes, seeped in

What is that, wet... rain?No……

So... what kind of water drop is that?I won't cry...

Should never cry.

So... what the hell is that?

Under the influence of that tear, the already damaged circuit became chaotic again.

A feeling that I had never experienced before occupied my entire body, and my sight——turned as red as blood.

"why……"

He suddenly asked himself this question, asking himself who could no longer think, but he didn't know, so he raised his head and asked Yin Yening.

"Why... why, why... why, why... why—"

He grabbed the collar of the person in front of him, gritted his teeth, roared, and rushed towards him.

Afterwards, there were intermittent gaps and snowflakes in his memory again. When he woke up again, he was pressing Yin Yening under his body, his hands were clamping his shoulders tightly, Yin Yening's face was pale, His chest and neck were scarred and red.

The cold wind poured into my thoughts, as if something had been frozen, and everything suddenly seemed as calm and clear as frozen.

... He was hurt, he saw, his night was hurt.

But that's nothing, he thought, such vengeance is small compared to the pain he inflicted on me.

Hate, Fang Jili said, he will never understand what is hate.His maker said he wouldn't allow his perfect robot to understand that ugly emotion.

But Fang Jili was wrong.

He understands, he has always understood, he has never complained, just because he loves him too much, so he indulges everything he does.

There are limits to love and indulgence.

Yin Yening doesn't understand, everything has an end.

Kill him, F thought.

Kill him and he becomes his, can't leave, can't hide, forever and ever.Can't ignore him with those beautiful eyes, can't utter cruel words with those beautiful lips.

You once said that the me you want is an obedient humanoid with the appearance of your beloved, F thought.

Actually, something like that...who wouldn't want it.

who wouldn't want...

I also want a night that is mine, loves me by my side, and doesn't look at anyone but me.

That is the deepest, quietest and craziest fantasy of everyone who can't get what they really want no matter what.

Just kill you and you will be completely mine, I want to hold you, let you sleep peacefully in my arms, so that you can never escape, never say you can never love me.

The sharp fingers deepened the scratches, under the skin was flesh, under the flesh was bone, under the bone was, was... his heart.

If I kill you, can you really belong to me completely?

If I take your heart, can it be mine from now on?

Yin Yening no longer had the strength to struggle. He was sweating and panting heavily, letting others slaughter him like meat under a knife.

F is crazy, he already knew he was a lunatic, a crazy robot, and he was going to fall prey to his madness.

"It's up to you...but I'll never be yours."

The ironic smile seemed to know what the robot was thinking at the moment, but Yin Yening didn't know whether he was mocking F or herself.

In the half-consciousness, time is going back, let him go back to the time when he still loved him very much, when he thought he really loved him, in the endless sea, when he thought that life would come to an end at any time Only then did he dare to truly look directly at his own heart.

Cowardly people dare not admit anything now that they are dying.

He only thinks that F is a lunatic, and even if F is a lunatic, he is not willing to give him a little warmth, because everything has been destroyed.

He insisted that he didn't love her, even if he died, he would not admit it.

deny.

The dripping blood stained his fingers and stopped on his heart.A few inches down, just a few inches away, and it's all over.

F looked at his hands, watched.

Red was intertwined in his sight, and it turned into darkness again. He seemed to have returned to the first day of existence. In such darkness, he heard voices, and he felt someone touching him, nose, mouth, the warmth The touch made him greedy, so he opened his eyes and saw that person——

Since then, that person has been the center of the whole world for him, and the winds from all directions converge in that center, which is the whole of all his worship and all his beliefs.

In fact, he really likes that person's weird temper, including his fierce attitude, stubborn persistence, and stubbornness that never wants to open his heart.

Because just like Yin Yening once tried every means to get him to obey absolutely, he also tried every means to open his defenses, just like that, slowly approaching.

It's not just humans who always like to challenge the impossible.He clearly remembered the first time he talked back, the first time he disobeyed orders, and the first time he took his hand and threatened viciously, "Yin Yening, don't challenge my endurance".

Doing such a thing always makes him extremely nervous and looking forward to it, as if it is righteousness and reckless recklessness.

He also clearly remembers the first hug, the first kiss, the first time he felt that he was really looking at him with gentle eyes, the first time he felt that maybe he could be happy...

...maybe be happy.

Even if it's just an unrealistic illusion...

Suddenly, everything in the field of vision became clear.Including the howling wind and the pervasive smell of blood, he has not experienced such clarity for a long, long time.

……night?

He lowered his head and looked at that person in confusion, why, why did he have injuries all over his body, who is it...

Hands stained with blood, hands covered with steel and wires, his own hand still resting on his heart.Countless memories flooded up, so clear and so cruel, so painful and so hopeless.

He hurt him with his own hands, cut open his white skin, stained with his scarlet blood, he thought, if this is the way he can finally have him...

But Ye said, I will never belong to you.

It will never be yours.

I knew it a long time ago, I knew it a long time ago, since I knew it, why did I hurt him, why did I still hurt him!

"Ah... ah ah..."

He raised that hand and hugged his head, making a hoarse sound from his throat.He grabbed his hands indiscriminately, wanting to kill himself just like that, to stop this unrealistic, ridiculous, nonsense-like madness.

How can this happen, how can this happen?

what happened?Why, why would it hurt him?

Even in the most chaotic time, it is impossible to hurt him, impossible!

Because...he is obviously the most precious, the most precious...

Who is that in memory?Who was standing beside Cheng Fei's bed, reaching out to pull out the oxygen mask; who was hurting his most important night, drawing wounds on his body...

Why, he would clearly have that kind of memory...

If he was even [-]% sober, he wouldn't do it, he definitely wouldn't do it...

Can't, can't control yourself anymore?He suddenly felt a bone-chilling cold.

If he was only [-]% awake, he would not want to hurt Yin Yening, including the people around him who valued him, and even that Cheng Fei who might rob him of everything.

Because for him, love and cherishing are always equated, and the happiness of the night is always paramount to him, isn't it?

I'm broken...

His eyes were stained with obscure despair.

Totally broken.Hurt Ye, hurt his important people, and it is irreparable.

No... There is no need to exist anymore.

There is no need for it to exist anymore, so hurry up and destroy it, and it won't cause any irreparable consequences.

Although I can't bear it, even though I can't bear it to you...

He stroked Yin Yening's cheek, thinking, but if my existence is not what you expect, if my existence will cause you harm, then I will choose to disappear without hesitation.

I know, I've always known.

Under my appearance, there is no body, no blood, in fact I have no soul, in fact everything is fake, I will not feel sad or hurt.It’s just that I have no soul, and now I still have a little selfishness, that is, after I die, maybe occasionally, you will think of me...

The life of nothingness, the existence of nothingness, will not be perceived, will not be recorded, as if it never existed in this world.

But it obviously exists, otherwise...why would there be such an unforgettable pain in my heart?

In fact, I don't care if anyone will know that I exist.You will think of me, that's enough.

You'll remember you used to ask me silly questions when we thought we were in love.You will remember that I gave you some silly answers, you asked me if I would dislike you when you get old, I said this is the system setting, I will always love you.

If forever is only this far from the end of my life, then I've kept my word.

He leaned down and kissed Yin Yening lightly for the last time.

With his cold lips.

I love you……

The lips that have been unable to make any sound softly spit out the motto of love.

It's windy and it might be cold, but hopefully it doesn't freeze him...

He tore off his coat and covered Yin Yening.He sat down beside him and looked up at the sky and water for a moment.

So beautiful, he thought, closing his eyes.

Although I should not exist in this world, but I saw these, I think they are beautiful, if I have a soul, I will definitely miss it.

He slowly tore open the chest with his broken right hand. The central circuit inside was actually very fragile. He just pulled it lightly, and with a few crackles, it was destroyed.But he was not satisfied, he tried his best to smash it into pieces—there was his heart, the more broken the better, the better.

Haha ...

He didn't know where he was so ruthless at the last moment.

Hate... I don't know who to hate.

Who is to blame in the end?Only myself to blame.

It doesn't hurt, that's it, the dust settles.His body fell backwards, the electricity was exhausted rapidly, and his body was so heavy that he could no longer lift it up.

He didn't want to take one last look at Yin Yening, but for some reason, he tilted his head to that side. He couldn't stop looking at it, and couldn't stop looking at it. It was mixed with sadness and gentleness. He exhausted his last With all his strength, he stretched out his right hand stubbornly, towards the direction where Yin Yening fell asleep.

You are mine, night.I used to secretly think this way, if one day I'm not here, I want to take you away.

At this time, he didn't want to take him away at all.

A little bit, he thought silently, just a little bit, his hand was always just a little bit away from his warm skin.

But never close to that, never, ever, can't really hold him.

That little distance is already a hair's breadth away, and it's a thousand miles away.

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night without tears

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Yin Yening was stingy with the love she gave, and finally destroyed F cruelly,

He erased F's existence, love and persistence,

But I can't erase the remorse and pain that I dreamed back in the middle of the night.

He reassembled the dilapidated F and "resurrected",

However, that F, who was only attached to him with all his heart, could never be found again.

What was unforgettable at the beginning, but now it is unbearable to look back,

Through so many tears and pain,

The feeling of returning to zero and restarting is more painful than Yin Yening imagined.

They were once only one step away from happiness,

How much punishment is needed now to make up for the damage he left?