night without tears

What is... so dark.

So cold, so still, like an abyss.

His memory was fragmented, and he saw a familiar laboratory in front of him—as for why he was familiar, he couldn't remember.He felt as if he stood up, stopped and walked on the dark road, and then, in something flowing, he saw his own reflection.

The burnt copper wire, the scorched black resistor, half of the cheek is left, the rest of the skin has been damaged, and the left hand... is gone.In this way, it can no longer be described as down and out, it is simply like a ghost.

He grinned and smiled.

I like myself the way I am now, he laughs.

Of course I like it... because, finally, I am different from "someone".

But... who is that person?Can't remember, can't remember at all.

He casually took some clothes from the laboratory and wrapped himself tightly. Even so, some passers-by on the street still cast him fearful and astonished eyes.

Why do you look at me like that?He shook his head, not understanding.

Where am I going?do not know either.

But the body seems to have a mind, walking forward step by step, towards a predetermined place, walking slowly.

He boarded the ferry, and on the ship, the dark and turbulent water below seemed to hide some unforgettable memories...

He felt that he had been to this small island before, and he remembered this place. Although he didn't have any specific impressions, this old and beautiful bungalow was so familiar in his subconscious, it seemed that there should be many, many beautiful memories here.

A dog crouched by the door, saw him coming, stood up, and bared his teeth.

He didn't know why he couldn't hate it.He got around the dog because he knew how to get into the house through the little door on the other side.After opening the door, he also knew the layout inside, and quickly found the bedroom.

On the double bed in the bedroom, a man was lying asleep, his face was haggard and pale, and his head was wrapped in heavy bandages.

He leaned close to him, watching the way he looked.

There are some fragmented memories in my mind, which are revived vigorously.

This lying man is very handsome, he is very quiet, who is he?Why does it feel so familiar?

Then, what I had been thinking about so hard finally surfaced.

It's him……

Is it him...

It was this man, in his memory, he could see his face clearly.His appearance is like this, with narrow and gentle eyes, a high nose, and a sharp chin.

But in his memory, he didn't lie quietly with his eyes closed, but leaned against the wall, smiling happily.

It's somewhere in this house.The white finely carved tiles and the ambiguous dark blue ceiling light make the bathroom look like an underwater world swaying by waves.This handsome man is standing in front of the mirror. There are pairs of cups and pairs of towels on the sink. The colors and textures are so warm and gentle.

Suddenly a man came up behind this person, and when he thought of this person, he froze.How good-looking that man is--a touch of silver-colored hair, black crystal eyes, and when he smiles, that kind of elegant and unbearable evil...

who is he?He tried desperately to remember.Who is he to this lying man?

He is so beautiful, just a smile in the memory makes his heart beat, so he really wants to know.

"When my face is full of wrinkles, you will still be very handsome. At that time...don't dislike me."

He spoke, that black crystal beauty.He tugged at the black-haired man, half mournful and half serious, half joking and half threatening.

Who could dislike you?He couldn't help feeling that such worries were really unnecessary.Sure enough, the black-haired man in his memory thought the same way. He turned his head and looked at the person behind him tenderly.

It was a tenderness that made one's heart ache, as if he could give him a lifetime promise with just his indulgent eyes.

The robot standing beside the hospital bed was staggering in a trance amidst the ups and downs of memories.

Is all this... the memory of the man lying here?Why, why is it in my mind, why when I think of it, it seems to have forgotten something extremely precious, so empty and so painful.

The person lying there, and that beauty with black crystal eyes...should be very much in love.

It's so enviable.

He walked over, sat on the edge of the sleeping man's bed, and bent over.

He didn't know what he was going to do, maybe he just wanted to take a good look at this person, to see what kind of person he was, who was worthy of such happiness.

He held out his hand to him.

But he didn't touch him. He was pulled up, and there was a sharp pain in the back of his head. He turned around and stood alone behind him with a fierce expression.

"I finally found you..."

F frowned, staring blankly at that person.

Tall figure, blond hair and blue eyes, handsome and angular, but why, why did it give him an inexplicable sense of innocence?

Some strange and familiar fragments flashed in my mind again.

The blond man, holding a wooden stick, approached...

"I won't...not allow you to hurt Ye..."

Whose voice is that?Is... is that the black-haired man lying down?Night, who is it...

The blond man took a wooden stick and slammed it hard on the handsome man's head.Severe pain, once, twice...

Lying man with wound on head.

So...was this foreigner, this foreigner with fierce eyes, who let that person lie there?

Those two people are so in love.No one...no one should destroy it!

Because that is what he wants to protect.

F stretched out his hands and stood in front of the man on the bed. For some reason, he decided that it was something he wanted to protect.

However, the body suddenly couldn't move.

I don't know why, but he couldn't move suddenly. The foreigner dragged him out of the house with astonishing brute force, untied his tie and tied his hands behind his back, then picked up a brick from the side, step by step. Approaching.

no, do not want……

When he opened his mouth, his voice had been broken long ago, and he couldn't make any sound.

At this moment, there was a sound in the house.The blond man let go of him immediately, turned and ran to the bedroom.

He saw the person lying on the bed wake up.

Joshua looked at Cheng Fei, blankly, and walked over.As if treating some cherished artwork, with slender fingers, a face that scratches the door, and deep blue eyes looking at him, it is the gentleness of the deep sea that he has no longer had for many years.

"Don't touch me." The man's face was full of boredom.

Joshua withdrew his hand obediently, and nodded: "Don't worry, I haven't forgotten what I promised you. I swore that day in the hospital, if you can wake up, I will let you go... In the end, you really woke up."

Cheng Fei looked at him coldly.

It is reasonable to say that Joshua is a person who has tasted Cheng Fei's indifference, and he once ignored that indifference and did whatever he wanted.But now, he was cramped, as if it was extremely difficult to say a word.

"Cheng Fei, do you know? At the craziest moment, I thought about killing you and taking you as my own. But now, I finally know what it's like... How would it be if I lost you?" It's hard. I will never force you again, the peace you want...I am willing to give it to you."

As he spoke, he secretly glanced at Cheng Fei.But Cheng Fei turned a deaf ear and didn't even look at him, which shows that he loathes him to a certain extent.

"It would be fine if I wasn't so stupid at that time. It would be fine if I didn't confess my love to you at that time." He lowered his head and continued to talk: "Maybe I can be like Yin Yening and be with you all the time." It should be... a kind of happiness to be by your side."

Cheng Fei remained silent.

So Joshua sighed deeply and stood up.

Cheng Fei, Cheng Fei, if you hate me, I will never appear in front of you again.

The freedom you dreamed of is finally here.

Chased for so many years, so many years.He felt that he was really pathetic. This chase had ruined the other person's life and his own.Then, just let it go.He said it was for Cheng Fei's happiness, maybe it was just that he couldn't hold on anymore, who knows?

So many years, too tired, too bitter, both of them.

In my youthful fantasy, if I fell in love with someone, I would never use coercion and torture to express "love".However, if you don't know how to go on this road, if you don't know what to do, you can't turn back.

If you could erase time, if you could erase the past, if you could start over, how good would it be?

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Joshua walked out of the courtyard, dragging F and the robot tied up by him, walking along the path as if aimlessly.

The island is not big, but it's not that small either.The winding path leads to the pier, and the island is deserted under the crimson sunset.

Joshua slowly walked up the small bridge shaded by maple leaves. The path under the bridge stretched to an unknown end. The green grassland in the distance was a late purple in the setting sun, as if it could melt everything in the world.

He dragged him to a pile of rubble on the cliffs of the isle, the wind blowing his golden hair.In front of you is the blue sea, with magnificent waves. In front of such a broad and pure blue, everything seems small and nothingness.

"A drop in the ocean", a word that Cheng Fei taught him a long time ago, a word that he feels very emotional.

For a long time like that, I will never come back.

Tears slowly slid down his cheeks, he squatted down and covered his face, weeping for the past that had finally passed away, for the past that had been defiled by his own hands.

A few minutes later, he wiped away his tears, put on a gloomy and indifferent face, and looked at the people at his feet.

"...I've been looking for you for a long time." He knelt down and said to F, "You pushed Cheng Fei down and hurt him. I'll settle this with you."

push down?

F frowned, unable to remember what he was referring to, but his whole body and mind strongly rejected this word!

push... push down...

No, I didn't push anyone down!

But why, why did that person look at me like that, obviously did nothing, why didn't he believe me!

Why... don't believe me...

He started shaking his head, shaking his head desperately, hitting the ground with a muffled sound.

Joshua sneered and said, "You still don't admit it? I saw it with my own eyes. When you stretched out your hand, Cheng Fei fell down. You can fool Yin Yening but not me!"

...Yin Yening?

Such a familiar name... who is it...

"Let me tell you, Cheng Fei is the person I value the most in this world. I have decided to quit, but I will not allow any obstacles on his way to happiness. If your desire to monopolize Yin Yening is so strong If I try to harm Cheng Fei, I will get rid of you first."

Cheng Fei is the person I value most in this world...

Cheng Fei is the person I value most in this world...

who is it?also said this sentence.

This sentence, why, sounds so chilling to him.

"I have hurt him, and I can't make up for it. Since I can't do anything for him, at least, at least...At the very least, I still want to protect his happiness."

Guard his happiness?Is that the man on the bed?Isn't his happiness to be with the one he loves forever?

lie! .

F gritted his teeth suddenly, he remembered that the blond man in front of him was here to destroy those two people.Because... because he is the one who wants to protect them with all his life.

It is what he wants to protect.

What he wants to protect are those two people, the happiness of leaning on each other, the happiness of embracing each other, in the home that belongs to them, every day and every night is like a dream, the happiness that makes people joyful, painful and crazy...

He had already forgotten that the black-haired young man in his memory always had a slightly shy smile, his happiness and sadness were so vivid and deep, that person was not Cheng Fei.

but himself.

What he wants to maintain has always been the seemingly invisible red line between himself and Yin Yening, which has ironically become someone else's, but he still has to go through fire and water for it.

Because, his love of moths to the flame has always been, never been confused and wandering for a second.

—as long as you're gone, he thought, looking at the blond man.

As long as you are gone, they can live happily together.

If I could do that, it would be worth it to lose myself.

Suddenly, he didn't know where the strength came from, and he broke free from the rope and belt that bound him, and stood up.

The strong wind howled, and the two people on the cliff looked at each other, and what they were thinking in their hearts turned out to be the same thing.

The upcoming fierce fight is no longer a struggle of life and death.Not betting on one's own life, but throwing one's own life down to protect the person who is more noble than faith.

In the past, F, no one would be his opponent, but the half-crippled body made his movements much slower, and Joshua's eyes were already red, no matter how hard he was ruthlessly beaten by his steel and iron frame. No matter how many times you are knocked down, you can still grit your teeth and get back up.

The two of them were on the cliff like this, wrestling and entangled like wild animals.

Not long after, Joshua's ribs were broken, his face and body were covered with bloodstains, and the robot's already damaged arm was ripped off and pierced into the abdomen, and black and blue lightning burst out everywhere.

That person is no good after all, F knows, he can't beat himself.Because that person would be in pain, would bleed, and that would be a fatal failure.

A fatal failure that made him extremely envious.

Joshua's face was extremely pale, and his body was already numb from the pain, but the crazy fighting made all senses seem to be far away.He grabbed the robot again and pushed him to the ground, his blood-stained fist fell hard, hitting the steel with punches and dents.

The bones of his right hand can already be seen.

The whole person hit the raised stone behind him, F felt dizzy for a while, and had a splitting headache.At that moment, as if the hype was falling out of control, something suddenly filled the memory, and then disappeared, leaving a blank space after the severe pain.

He seemed to remember something, but he didn't seem to remember anything. His hands and feet, his whole body and the whole world were all mottled in the blank.

He instinctively raised his good hand and strangled Joshua's neck.

His strength is so great that humans cannot struggle.

strangle him.There is a voice in my mind who doesn't know why said this: strangle him, all those who want to hurt Ye, all those who dare to approach Ye, kill them all! .

I want to protect him.

Because he is mine, and Yin Yening is mine.

At that moment, he no longer had the confusion of "who is Yin Yening?" Ye is Ye, who else could it be?It is his night, with beautiful eyes like black crystals and a fickle smile, sometimes gentle and sometimes indifferent, making people's hearts always tugging.

Don't come to hurt him, and... that person, please don't come to rob him.

Please don't come to snatch him, Cheng Fei, please.

he's mine.

he's mine he's mine he's mine

All of you leave me, get away from me, he is mine, he is mine!

Please...don't come to grab...

Don't take him away.

The person strangled by him is kicking his legs and walking towards death.

He looked into those unwilling blue eyes without any pity.Then, suddenly heard something in the ear.

"Stop, F, stop—"

This voice, this sudden familiar voice, this voice that he thought about day and night, brought him a moment of clarity.

He pinched Joshua's hand and let go all at once.

He turned his head, and the person he had been thinking about day and night, his night, was pulling Cheng Fei up the cliff panting.The wind was loud, and his bangs were blown up. His gaze stayed on the hand that was holding Cheng Fei, and then only on Yin Yening's black crystal eyes.

……It's him.

It's really him.

So long time no see.

You are still so beautiful.

Ye, I miss you very much.

He tilted his head to look at Yin Yening, his awe-inspiring murderous aura suddenly disappeared, and he just stared at Yin Yening.

In fact, his mind is still chaotic, without any cause and effect, without any clear context, but at least he remembered that he was his night, and then remembered some things in bits and pieces, and what came to his heart was unforgettable pain, unforgettable of despair.

He saw his night pulling Cheng Fei.

Cheng Fei...Cheng Fei...the water-blue shirt, with the corners of the collar swaying in the wind, is still so handsome.

His appearance is real, his smile is real, and the temperature of his palm will also be real.

So damn true.

But what about myself?He couldn't remember what he should look like, he looked down at himself, his hands were gone, his body was scorched black, even his face...was terrifying.

Don't, don't look at me.

He wanted to cover his face, he wanted not to be dwarfed by the contrast between his own misery and Cheng Fei's handsomeness under such bright sunlight.

Ye, I'm too ugly, don't look at me.

Yes, everything is already over.I have been abandoned, destroyed, from body to heart, fragmented.

They've all stood on the edge of a cliff, and they've all come to an end.

Behind the sea, the sound of turbulent ups and downs was deafening.He suddenly felt that the sound was long and far-reaching, like a call from the dark abyss.

The voice told him, it's over, it's over.

He felt that he should jump down and end all this before Yin Yening used some method to crush his heart into powder again.

If he had known that he would come to such a step, it would have been great if he hadn't tried hard to climb ashore on the day of the storm. Then, everything after that would not have happened, and maybe Ye would remember him for the rest of his life.

That's right... Rather than staying, staying like this, and making Ye loathe him more and more, it's better, it's better——

He turned around mechanically, and walked towards the sea step by step.

"F—" Yin Yening called him loudly.

The sound was swallowed by the sound of the sea wind and waves.

From the corner of his eye, Joshua was getting up staggeringly, a strange smile that could not be described in words appeared on his blood-stained face.

F wasn't sure if he understood the meaning of that smile.

He and Joshua Ronan seem to be two extremes.But maybe in a sense, they are basically crazy and depraved people.He knew how to cover all the wounds with a stubborn smile like that, and smile without hesitation without redemption.

Joshua walked towards him quickly, and suddenly, the two of them understood each other.

Do we die together?This way... this is also good.

So he didn't dodge, Ren Joshua grabbed him, pulled him towards the direction of the cliff, and jumped.

F closed his eyes.

However, the arm joint that had been broken was loose, and it just broke.

He staggered two steps and stopped on the edge of the cliff. Although the force of inertia made him almost fall in the next second, he was pulled into an embrace from behind.

That breath, that strength, he is very familiar with, longing for the embrace that is almost irreversible.

He opened his eyes, and the world suddenly turned into the deep blue of the boundless sky and sea——

"Lornan—!"

Joshua seemed to hear the voice of salvation, he never imagined that Cheng Fei would call his name in such a tense tone.

The cold wind whizzed by his ears, his blue eyes reflected the sky and sea water, he chased until he was exhausted, and finally the long pain was about to end, but the falling of his body stopped suddenly, and someone grabbed his right hand on the cliff.

He raised his head.

He stared blankly at Cheng Fei.His expression is quite calm, so no one will know how much turmoil is in his heart.

Oh my god, my god, this must be a dream, he thought, squinting his eyes and smiling.

His vision was covered with blood and his thoughts were in a trance, but perhaps it was because of this trance that he felt happier.

"Asshole...why are you so heavy..." Cheng Fei saw the indifferent smile on Joshua's face, gritted his teeth, and tried with difficulty to reach out his other hand.

Because he had been lying on the bed for a while, and his body hadn't recovered, he couldn't pull him at all, and Joshua was about to slip out of his grasp.

"Give me your other hand! Quick! Quick! Are you deaf? Give me your hand!"

Joshua didn't move, he just looked up into Cheng Fei's eyes.In the bloody sight, he didn't see any hesitation in the black pupils, so he was a little puzzled.

Don't you hate me?Why do you want to save me?

I'm dead, isn't it good?

"What are you laughing at, give me your other hand, give it to me quickly!"

Cheng Fei's voice had turned into a roar, and it was only when Joshua paid attention to what he said.

am i laughingOnly then did he realize that he was indeed hooking the corner of his mouth.

What are you laughing at, what are you laughing at, you don’t know, what do you know?Already insane, know what.

He looked at Cheng Fei and shook his head.

"Enough, that's...enough."

As soon as his nose was sore, he couldn't control his tears. With tears in his eyes, he finally couldn't support that fake smile anymore, and lowered his head and murmured.

"Enough is enough..."

Already burst into tears.

So long, so long, so long, you finally reached out to me.

Redemption is too late and too complete, I don't deserve it, I can't bear it.

Cheng Fei, I made a mistake.For so many years, I will only make you unhappy, I was wrong, I was really wrong.Please don't pity me, I don't deserve it.

I apologize to you.I hope you can forgive me after I die.

He let go slowly, weeping, his hand slipped from Cheng Fei's.

At the last moment, he actually saw fear in Cheng Fei's eyes, as if he was begging him not to give up.

However, it could just be that he was wrong.

He finally let go of his bruised hand, slipped from the man's grasp, and fell, engulfed in the deep water.

This story got off to a brilliant start.He still remembered the day when he first met Cheng Fei, on the basketball court, that black-haired boy's smile was as warm as the sun.

But then why did it go wrong?How can you be so persistent and ruin everything?

Obviously you are unique, obviously I like you so much...

Why did it come to... I can't look back.

Perhaps, if time could be turned back, I would bury myself deeply together with my deep love for you, and then watch silently where you can't see, instead of such an unmanageable ending.

Cheng Fei's hands were shaking, and he punched hard on the cliff.

"What have you done... What have you done, and why!"

He stood up, turned around, and yelled at F who was hugged by Yin Yening.

F closed his eyes, enjoying the short and sad self-righteous sweetness in Yin Yening's arms.He didn't want to look into those black crystal eyes, because he knew that he would see a lot of emotions he didn't expect in those eyes—anger, fear, blame, or others, but it was never what he expected ...

Seeing that he ignored him and seemed to be still laughing, Cheng Fei rushed over and pulled him out of Yin Yening's arms, as if a string in his mind had snapped.

"Why are you treating him, why are you..."

"What are you doing!" Yin Yening waved Cheng Fei's hand away and protected F: "Why did you hit him!"

"Why should I? Get out of the way, I'm going to kill him!"

During this tugging, F's head began to ache again, and everything that was originally clear in front of his eyes was once again stained with mottled double images, and the world was spinning.

Someone grabbed his clothes and pulled him up with brute force, and someone on the other side also pulled him, and someone yelled something in his ear.He couldn't hear, couldn't understand.

who is it?what to doCan't see, can't hear.But those people continued to harass him, with no intention of letting go at all.

so annoying.

He simply thought so, and waved one of them away.