night without tears

"Fang Jili, look what the hell you have created! I want you to destroy him immediately! Immediately!"

"Oh oh oh, master, calm down, calm down!" Fang Jili idly drank his cigarette, stretched out his hand and pulled F over to check: "What's the matter? Oh, it's just a minor injury, don't need to scrap it, Xiuxiu can do it again used."

"I don't want him to be usable!" Yin Yening couldn't bear it any longer: "I want him to destroy! I want to watch him disappear! Fang Jili, the things you made are too scary, do you know that he says he loves them all day long?" Me, he is crazy, he will be jealous of the people next to me, he will daydream, he...he is a monster who is obviously a pile of scrap iron but has feelings!"

F stood aside, as if struck by lightning.

It's a pity that he can't move, speak, or argue now, otherwise he would have to jump up and shake Yin Yening until he wakes up and clearly understands what he just said.

"A monster who is obviously a pile of scrap iron but has feelings"...

You've said it all, it's obviously a pile of scrap iron but has feelings!

You know I have feelings, you've admitted it!Although you are afraid, even though you want to destroy me, you know that I have a heart and a soul!

You know it!

Now that you know that those feelings are true, why are you still so cruel to destroy me?

Want to cry but have no tears.This word has always been stored in the dictionary, and it has always been very, very suitable for his current state of mind.

He doesn't have that thing called tears.So my heart hurts, but no one knows how it hurts.

Fang Jili looked at the nervous Yin Yening, and then at the despairing F, in the almost frozen atmosphere, he suddenly smiled inappropriately.

"Hey, I said, Young Master Yin, it was you who asked me to set him to love you very much."

"That's different!" Yin Yening immediately retorted: "I thought the "set love" was just that... he would be obedient and respond to me with a smile. It shouldn't contain jealousy, resistance, let alone It contains something like possessiveness! He is just a machine, he shouldn't have such feelings! He is a machine, if he has feelings, then he... what is he?!"

Fang Jili looked at Yin Yening's flushed face, not only couldn't empathize with him, but he laughed instead.

"Pfft ha ha ha, hey, I said Mr. Supermodel, what a big deal happened to me! For a long time, you were frightened by my simulated character program, that's a genius - I did it, of course it can be faked. Already!"

Fang Jili patted Yin Yening while talking, with the strong contempt of scientists for illiterates: "Could it be that you still think this machine has a brain that can think for itself?"

Is not it?Yin Yening glanced at F, seeing his helpless feeling of being unable to move because of the prohibition imposed by himself, she couldn't help feeling a little suspicious.

He has feelings and thoughts, is it just him scaring himself?

Could it be that what F said and did, including those crazy things, were all within the allowed range of the setting procedure?

"If you really think he can think, then it's not the machine's problem, but your brain is broken." Fang Jili patted Yin Yening's forehead: "You didn't make it clear to me at the beginning! What you want That kind of low-energy machine is much easier to do than this one, and it made me spend so much time trying to diversify his personality! Well, well, lift the ban, look at this poor guy."

As Fang Jili said, he glared at Yin Yening again. After all, his proud work could be regarded as half a son emotionally. Being treated like this, he still felt a little defensive.

"But……"

"Don't worry about it. You've been thinking too much from the beginning to the end! Such an expensive thing, scrap it? Are you burning money, master? Even if you take it home and just cook, you can still spend money and hire a servant to use it." Bar!"

Yin Yening frowned, and lifted F's ban suspiciously, but still had lingering fears.

"You can keep him... Well, I don't want him anymore, and I dare not want him... Anyway, he can't learn what I want."

"Ye! I beg you, I beg you!" As soon as F was able to move, he rushed forward and hugged Yin Yening tightly: "Give me one more chance, I was wrong, I dare not! Ye, I just I want to stay by your side..."

He knew he shouldn't have acted so agitated and humbled.

However, he exists for Yin Yening, if he is left here, he will never see Yin Yening again, and he will never be able to see him smile again, so it would be better to die.

Yin Yening turned to Fang Jili and asked, "Do you think such behavior is abnormal?"

"He loves you! He will do what happens to people in love. Is this abnormal? This is too normal. You can also try to let him pick flowers on the cliff, let him stand in the downtown square Take off your clothes and yell that he loves you, tell him to jump off the 21st floor, he will do it.”

"But in terms of the ideas and tolerance of ordinary people, isn't it too extreme?"

"Cut! So he is a machine! If he is not extreme, who is extreme? He can love you completely selflessly, make all sacrifices for you, and do everything for you. I really don't understand why you don't understand Enjoy it? How many people in the world yearn for this kind of love but still can’t get it? In fact, you don’t need him to be your Cheng Fei. Anyway, it’s enough to look pleasing to the eye. It might be better if you treat him as himself Have fun."

"Did I hear you right?" Yin Yening frowned: "You, a scientist with rational thinking, are suggesting that I try to love a machine itself?"

"Of course not, I'm suggesting that you try to love science and technology...Okay, okay, I just suggest that you enjoy this process, just like buying a refrigerator and air conditioner to make the most of it-if you really accept it If you don’t want to return it to me, I have nothing to say at that time. You don’t want him before you fully understand the product. As a designer, I am very shameless.”

"Ye!" F was like a puppy who was afraid of being abandoned by his owner, buried in Yin Yening's chest and trembling slightly.

Yin Yening looked down at him, narrowed his eyes, with contempt and contempt.

Sure enough...a machine loaded with a ridiculous program called "Infatuation" that does nothing but humble begs for love.

Now that I think about it, I am really serious about myself.

What Fang Jili said was right, this thing, this machine, if you buy it yourself, you can enjoy it.Why think too much, why take it seriously, just have a dream, just enjoy yourself.At least... In terms of "performance", he is actually very satisfied.

Anyway, I have already mastered the password to clean up this machine, so I am not afraid of him doing it again.

Anyway, you are just a consumable.

Yin Yening sneered disdainfully, while F seemed to have regained his life, following behind him with full eyes, step by step, cautiously.

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As soon as he returned to the island, Yin Yening became top-heavy.

Looking back, the night before yesterday was a toss in the rain, the robot was fine, but he was miserable, got out of the car, started to shake when he walked, and was exhausted by the door.

"Ye," F supported him worriedly: "You have a fever."

Yin Yening shook off him.He has only experienced so many things, and at this moment, he can't bear to accept F's thoughtfulness. But F ignored his awkwardness, and directly lifted him up with brute force and threw him on the sofa, pulled the towel and blanket, wrapped him up tightly, and then went to get the medicine and ice cubes.

Yin Yening was drowsy, and after being fed the medicine, he only felt F's knuckle-boned palm resting on his forehead.

Aggrieved, but very reassuring.

He hates this feeling.

"Get out." He pushed the person next to him.

F ignored him, Yin Yening kept pushing and pushing, using too much force, and almost rolled himself off the sofa, so F had to suppress violently.

He climbed onto the sofa and pressed his master, who was so lovely when he was drowsy, under him.His body has a constant temperature and can be used as a heater. Yin Yening immediately wrapped himself around him, rubbing against his body dishonestly like a sleepy cat that couldn't sleep.

"Hey, where are you touching?" F hugged the person in his arms and grabbed his hands: "You are sick and still in heat?"

"Huh?" Yin Yening's thigh was rubbing against the most sensitive part of F, but his expression was full of ignorance and confusion.

"...Frauded and muddled, you're still going to die!" F was burned by him, and he gritted his teeth and thought he was unlucky.

After a long time like this, Yin Yening finally fell into a peaceful dreamland, F stared at his face under the moonlight in a daze, being so depended on and snuggled up by him, she felt as if she was very important.

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The next day, Yin Yening's temperature subsided, but his hands and feet were still limp. F cooked the porridge and fed it to him, Yin Yening drank it in sips, looking at the unhappy face of the man in front of him, feeling a little uneasy about his conscience for some reason.

"Hey, are you poisoned?"

F looked up at him, innocently puzzled.

"..." It wasn't poisoned, was it?

Yin Yening, who was sober, felt that it was a miracle that she was still alive.If he and F were to switch their identities, and see the heinous self lying so weak, not using a picket to kill people to vent his anger, then he would definitely be a person with noble sentiments.

Of course, it wasn't that he felt that he was really heinous, but... it seemed that he was a little too much.

Thinking about it from another angle, if I were a robot, I would almost be dragged to be scrapped by others... I shouldn't repay him when he fell ill, right?

Moreover, before this, the robot was locked in a small black room. If he couldn't escape, he could only wait silently for a long time before the power ran out and he died...

Slowly, step by step towards death, no one knows, no one hears, this is actually a very scary thing.

But F did not seem to care at all.

"You... are you real or just pretending? Are you really not angry!?"

"...Angry? Why are you angry?" F was a little confused.

"I don't believe it. You didn't hold grudges when you were locked up and... sent back to the laboratory?"

"Why do you want to hold grudges? That's already a thing of the past," F lowered his eyes, and smiled lightly: "The feeling of being angry is just a momentary thing, and it's gone after a while, isn't it like this? As for hatred , I should never have that kind of emotion, especially... Especially for Ye Ye, that is absolutely impossible."

Sure enough, the world of robots cannot be the same as the world of humans.

But... How perfect are artificial emotions and artificial love.

Don't care about gains and losses, don't be afraid of pain because of injury and dare not give your heart again, don't remember pain and hatred, and only accumulate a little bit of love.

Maybe everyone longs for this kind of love, because people are narcissistic and selfish in their bones, and they all hope that without making any effort, they will be loved deeply by a good person without any reason, until they die Unswerving.

...I finally got this kind of love, Yin Yening smiled secretly.

Although in such an out-of-the-ordinary and ulterior way, I got it.

"Are you full? If not, I'll..."

Yin Yening grabbed his wrist suddenly, and the bowl fell to the ground, F's face was blank.

He slowly approached that handsome, simple, and honest robot, whose eyes were noble and elegant with black crystals, but whose lips were as dangerous and coquettish as cinnabar, held him down, and slowly pressed him down on the sofa.

F looked a little dazed, and his eyes were innocent.Except for his looks, this person really doesn't look like Cheng Fei at all. Yin Yening always felt that F didn't have Cheng Fei's sunshine, Cheng Fei's maturity, and Cheng Fei's determination, but now she doesn't know why, but feels that maybe Cheng Fei doesn't either. how nice.

Cheng Fei does not have such delicate nerves and persistent thoughts as F, and Cheng Fei is not good at cooking, so it is impossible for Cheng Fei to be as caring as F.

An imperfect human being will never be able to compare with a perfect artificial intelligence—it can’t be compared to something that only belongs to him. Even if it is virtual, it is at least an exclusive lover and exclusive love.

The touch of the lips was very soft. This was the first time Yin Yening kissed F after returning home from the laboratory, and it seemed that it was the first time that he kissed F from the shallow to the deep like kissing a lover, carefully thinking about it. F seemed to feel the difference of this kiss and became clumsy. During the lingering kiss, he laughed happily.

At that time, maybe touched a ripple, maybe not.Yin Yening didn't think much about it.

Looking back later, that was the most dazzling smile he had ever seen in his life.

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In the following days, live in harmony.The kiss has everything that should be hugged, and she goes to bed when she should go to bed, with a faintly strange calm, both of them tacitly agree.

Never mention anything about the past, as if it never happened.

Time slowly entered midsummer, and for a few days it was extremely sweltering and hot, and Yin Yening simply stayed at home.Hiding in the villa with the air conditioner turned on, it seemed that there was nothing else to do, so he and F slept under the quilt day and night, which was absurd.

In a sense, this is like any man who is addicted to electronic products, playing day and night, forgetting the time, let alone looking out the window.

Since the afternoon, the sky has been cloudy.The wind picked up suddenly, and the rustling of leaves, doors and windows didn't bother Yin Yening much. After all, summer storms are too common, and they come and go quickly.

But that was not a storm at all, but a hurricane rare in hundreds of years, and it was expected to make landfall at the port of S City in the early morning of the next day.

The meteorological department had reasonably predicted the damage that the hurricane would cause, issued warnings for five or six days in a row, and organized the evacuation of coastal residents, but these news did not seem to be received by the isolated people.

At around ten o'clock in the evening, the seawater submerged the island. Seen from above, the white villas were suspended in the vast ocean.

When building this villa, Yin Yening considered the problem of rising sea water, and the answer he got was that so far, there was no record of hurricane disasters that could submerge half of the island's water level, so when the lobby on the first floor was already submerged in water, he Finally got a little nervous.

The cell phone signal was completely gone, and the construction didn't bother to pull a phone line in, and it was stormy outside, and there was no way there was going to be a boat, helicopter, or rescue of any kind.

"It shouldn't flood the second floor."

It was dark outside the window, only the sound of violent whistling could be heard.Yin Yening seemed to be comforting F, and also seemed to be reassuring himself.

There were banging and cracking sounds from downstairs, and F would tremble every time he heard it.At this moment, Yin Yening didn't know where the chivalry came from, and hugged him like a protector.

Perhaps one has to put oneself in such a position in order to maintain one's consistent calm and composure.

But in fact, he already had no bottom in his heart, so he could only cover it up with gentle movements, rubbing his fingers against the broken hair behind F's ear, leaning into his ear and whispering affectionately: "Really, it doesn't matter even if it's submerged, here's off the coast. It’s not far, at worst we can swim there.”

Speaking of which, of course I hope that I won't get to that point. It may be possible when the weather is calm, but trying to swim back now is simply courting death.

It's... too careless.

F had never seen a hurricane before, and the battle stunned him.

So much sea sand and gravel were rolled into the sea, and all the glass downstairs was shattered. I don't know if the house is strong enough and can support it until the sea is calm.

In the night, robots are always more vigilant than humans.

F heard a strange sound, outside the windy and chaotic window, something was rapidly approaching.

"Ye, be careful!"

The moment he roared out, a thick tree with a diameter of nearly one meter and cut off by the wind pierced straight in from the joint between the wall and the window, and the sea water poured back.

With quick eyes and quick hands, he hugged the stunned Yin Yening.

The rotten branches and leaves, as well as broken steel bars and glass, grazed F's back fiercely from Yin Yening's eyes. Outside, if it was Yin Yening who was replaced by Yin Yening, he would have been covered in blood and bones.

"How are you?" Seeing that he was seriously injured, Yin Yening's heart throbbed inexplicably.

"I'm fine, it's not that you don't know that I... Hey! Don't touch it!" F hurriedly pushed away the hand he couldn't help stretching out: "I'll shock you."

"Really...does it not hurt?"

Looking at F's mutilated body, Yin Yening couldn't believe that the injury would not hurt like that.

"No...uh!"

Rainwater splashed in from the window, and at the break of the electric wire on F's back, there was a sudden crackling sound of blue sparks, and he bent down instantly in pain.

Yin Yening fished him over and hid in a place out of the rain. The arm that touched his body was tingling. Fortunately, the current of F's bare wire was not particularly strong.

"Is this...is that what it feels like? Is this what really hurts?"

The water on the second floor gradually flooded the floor, and when the rain touched the exposed wounds of the robot, blue lightning flashed one after another.

F gritted his teeth, gasping for breath in pain but extremely excited at the same time.

"Ye, look, I finally feel it too. Is this what you can feel when you are injured? Is this the legendary pain?"

Yin Yening admired himself for being able to maintain a calm judgment at this time: "To be precise, it's the pain of electric shock. There are many different types of pain that human beings can feel. However, I think you can feel the pain at this moment. The feeling should be similar to my feeling..."

"Ye, your hand!"

It was only then that F realized that Yin Yening was still hugging him, the exposed wires were burning his skin, and when he pulled it over, there were already scorched marks on his arms.

"Ye, why are you..."

There was an uncomfortable numbness in his heart, and he looked at Yin Yening in disbelief.

Why?Why did you still hug me when you knew it would hurt?

Before he could finish speaking, the overhead light suddenly exploded.

The surroundings were suddenly dark, and the two hugged each other tightly almost at the same time.In this pitch-black darkness, everyone is afraid of being separated from the only warmth that exists around them.

At that moment, amidst the stormy sea, it was unexpectedly calmer than any other moment.

The dark night is actually a warm protective color when you are with the people you love.

F really doesn't want to break this silence, but unfortunately...

"Night, no matter how high the water is, sooner or later this place will be submerged. Let's grab that tree and use it as a floating board to return to the shore!"

"Do you really think that's possible?" Yin Yening looked at the thick driftwood tree uncertainly. If it's not possible, then it's not negotiable to be buried at the bottom of the sea.

"What is impossible in this world? I am an impossible existence, am I not? Ye, you have done such ridiculous things as finding someone to create me, what else do you not believe in?"

There was another low wave, and the electric current hit the whole body again, F shrank back and shivered.

Yin Yening's arm also felt the dull pain of numbness, but he didn't let it go, because F laughed at the sentence just now: "Well said..."

Soon, both of them couldn't laugh anymore.

The seawater had already reached his waist, and F was so painful that he couldn't sit still in the bluish-purple electric current, and he also began to gnash his teeth.

"It hurts! Damn it, Fang Jili has deleted all the words that can express my current mood from the vocabulary, and I don't know how to scold anyone if I want to!"

"I can teach you a few words." Yin Yening said.

"Save your energy and use it later!"

Forced by the situation, they had no other choice but to climb the broken tree.

Although it was summer, the temperature had dropped sharply, and the sea was even bitingly cold. F desperately climbed onto the tree with one hand and held Yin Yening tight with the other, bowing down and using his whole body to shield him from the wind and rain.

At this time, he finally discovered the benefits of the robot he had been secretly cursing.He will not be unable to open his eyes under the big waves like Yin Yening, he will not have the physical strength to swim to the shore, and he even has a precise positioning in his mind, knowing which direction to swim in order to return as soon as possible. ashore.

It's just... There was a continuous leakage of electricity from behind, so he had to hurry up and try to get Yin Yening to the shore safely.

"...F."

In the howling wind, F heard Yin Yening calling him, and yelled at him at the highest volume: "Stop swimming with me, your strength is too weak to contribute at all, and you are the one who grabs the driftwood well now." The only duty, do you hear me!"

Yin Yening seemed to be talking about something, but F couldn't hear it and didn't have the heart to listen, so he just focused on swimming towards the shore, and when he heard the words in the wind intermittently, he replied casually: "Don't worry, I will definitely bring you to the shore. On the shore. I'm fine, anyway... Even if it hurts, it won't die!"

The two of them drifted in the roaring sea for a full two hours in a short ten-minute boat ride in calm weather, and could not see the shadow of the other side in the drowsiness, but F knew that it was not far away.

Yin Yening was already dizzy, his face and lips were all blue, another wave hit him, and his hands could no longer support the weight of his body.

"night!"

F immediately dropped the driftwood and sank into the sea. He has night vision, so his aim was accurate, and he caught the man with one stroke.

But when he fished it up, the driftwood had disappeared, and in the vast sea, the only strength he could rely on was himself.

And the power is slowly running out.

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Yin Yening's last impression was that F hugged his body temperature tightly, and then he didn't know anything.

When he woke up, he was lying in the temporary ward of the Central Hospital of S City, mixed among a large number of patients injured in the hurricane, F was not by his side, he wanted to ask, but the medical staff were so busy that no one had time to answer his questions question.

He comforted himself by saying that F might have just gone out for a while, but after receiving the IV for a long time and waiting for a long time, he was still nowhere to be seen.

He later learned that he was found among the rocks on the shore.In a coma at the time, he asked if they had found anyone else, and replied that he was the only one.

Yin Yening suddenly seemed to have lost something indispensable, and his mind was buzzing.

"Now the police are counting the missing persons. You can report your friend's name and identity to them, and let them find it for you." Seeing that he was anxious, the nurse kindly stood beside him with the statistics sheet.

identity?Name?

Yin Yening hugged her head, what should I say, should I say that what he is looking for is a robot?Said that he didn't even give that person his name?

For a moment, regret and heartache intertwined, piercing the heart.

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After the hurricane passed, Yin Yening went to find F on the reef where he was found. How many times he traveled between the island and the shore by boat, he asked all the rescue teams.

He went to ask Fang Jili how to find F, but Fang Jili just shook his head and said that if he could find it, he should be able to repair whatever was damaged. There is no other way.

For more than ten days, Yin Yening was in constant panic.

He began to fall into a futile search. Every day he dragged his tired body back to the hotel, but when he closed his eyes, the smile of that person still appeared unavoidably.

He felt that it was because he had always treated F very badly—hurt him wantonly and bully him, and to this day, his conscience was disturbed.

Seeing his haggard look, Fang Jili comforted him: "If you lose it, you lose it. At worst, I'll make it up again for you."

"Redo it?" Yin Yening muttered to himself in a daze: "...Do you want to do it again?"

Redo one...any one, is F?

Fang Jili didn't hear anything strange: "Of course it can. Scientific replicas are similar to copying and pasting in a computer. It is guaranteed that there will be no deviation in a single line. If you upload your memories together again, it will be exactly the same. .”

"Exactly the same? How can it be exactly the same! F is not a machine that can be mass-produced! He...F is..."

So, what is F...?

What's the next sentence?If you say it, and you have been dismissing it all the time, what is it?

In the past, it was F who was desperately trying to prove that he had feelings but he refused to believe it. Now it was he who was trying to convince Fang Jili that F was different, and Fang Jili looked at him like a madman.

"You...have gotten into the drama too much, Yin Yening, let me remind you again, that guy is just a machine! Didn't you know it well before, why are you confused now? Circuit boards, circuits, artificial intelligence, Simulating emotions, you really took him seriously, and I, the designer, will be troubled too!"

Fang Jili shook his head, and took another bite of the cigarette: "It seems like he's ruined, and I won't make you a new one. Go back and be sober and return to reality!"

"You... what did you say? It's okay to destroy it?"

"Of course it should be destroyed! I shouldn't have promised you to do it in the first place! Look at yourself," the scientist pointed at him with disdainful eyes: "Because of that machine, you're going crazy!"

"... Take this sentence back to me." Yin Yening clenched her fists tightly, trembling all over.

"What, want to fight? Come on, I'm afraid of you?" Fang Jili rolled his eyes, dropped his cigarette and stood up.

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The next day, the nurses at the S City Central Hospital were surprised to see Yin Yening's handsome face was bruised and purple. Given his fierce eyes, no one dared to ask who was his colleague.

Of course, before yesterday, Yin Yening did not expect Fang Jili's seemingly powerless scientific researcher to be so capable of fighting.

The leaves rustled, and the spots of light passed through, falling on the midsummer grass like fireflies.

The handsome man stood upright, and opposite him sat a stone-like figure with empty eyes.

"Pei Yi, do you want to ask where the person who came to see you with me has gone?"

Yin Yening raised the corners of his mouth slightly as if he was talking to the person opposite.

"I've been wondering, too, whether I'll ever see him again."

The setting sun reflects, slightly warm, slightly astringent.

"Pei Yi, do you know? I started to miss him, I missed him very much. In that boundless sea, when I thought my life was about to end, some things became clearer than ever.

"Everyone is like this, searching and searching, always looking for that one and only person. I have met a person, and I have identified that person, but until now, I am still surrounded by something else... something else Man, let's replace it...

"Because at least at that time, I knew very clearly that the person I was thinking about, the person who stayed by my side was not Cheng Fei. Maybe it was not him anymore from a long time ago——During that time , It seems to be what I have pursued, a dream when I was young and ignorant... One day I woke up from the dream, and there was another person by my side.

"No matter what he is, whether it is a human or a machine, whether it has real feelings or artificial intelligence... At that time, I thought, if I can survive, maybe I can try..."

As Yin Yening spoke, her eyes turned red.

"I treated him really badly before, maybe... I want to make it up to him now. He has always been easy to satisfy, as long as I treat him a little better, he will be so happy...but...it's already too late. I Standing here, he... Where did he go? Pei Yi, if you know, tell me where he is, okay?"

The surroundings were peaceful, and Yin Yening waited patiently. He waited for the rustling of the wind and the occasional lazily chirping of birds. The rest was dead silence.

"I'm so stupid. I learned so much from that guy F, so I said so much to you."

He wiped away his tears and stood up, but as if he was not reconciled, he looked back at the man: "Hey, let me tell you, Pei Yi, if there is really a miracle in this world that F thinks, I will call you now, give me Wake up? Pei Yi, Pei Yi?"

The soulless man sits in a wheelchair, mockingly motionless.

"...As expected, it doesn't exist. Something called a miracle..."