night without tears

Yin Yening found that her life had become a little bit dispirited.In short, a heart is in a mess and I can't pick it up.I didn't take a photo with F, and I didn't leave any memory.When searching in the memory, the suspected happiness is just a few days chewed to pieces.

He went all over the place where he played with F, searching in vain for a familiar figure in the crowd.He thought about where he might find him, but every time, he returned disappointed.

In the end, he returned to the island he never wanted to set foot on again.

The house didn't collapse, but it was already dilapidated. The cracks on the walls were clearly visible. The water in the house had drained, but things were messed up, and nothing was still the same. There were even spider webs, and the whole house seemed to be deserted. Not sure how long the haunted house was.

In just a few days, it became like this.

Yin Yening walked out. The soil on the island was still soft, the trees were crooked, and although the grass was dead, new green had grown.

His eyes were full of confusion, and if something was gone, it was gone.The sandy beach where he watched the sea with F disappeared, leaving a bare shore, muddy and gravel, so he had no choice but to turn around.

There was a trail behind him, and walking along the trail, he slowly walked around to the rock pile on the side, the rocks were also washed away, and a pit rushed out bonyly, and there seemed to be something in the pit.

Suspecting a suffocating tension in Yin Ye's heart, he walked up quickly. His heart was pounding and his blood pressure was so high that his head ached. The moment he stood by the rock, the pain bursting out in his chest made him almost He stumbled and rolled to the man.

F lay quietly in that pit, like a lifeless doll, after being abandoned by its owner, quietly waiting for destruction.

One of his arms is gone, and his body is full of exposed wires. His eyes are slightly open, facing the blue sky, without any brilliance.

Yin Yening knelt down and hugged his cold body for a long time, tears streaming down her face.

For him, this person has been lying in such a cold place for so long.

And he doesn't remember that he ever treated him well, and he didn't even give him a decent name.

F is just a code name.

F is for fantasy.Fang Jili said that because creating such a robot is a dream of his life, or is it an illusion.Perhaps it is precisely because of such a maker that F is also born with many incredible fantasies, some of which he once thought were absurd, but F will always persist and be persistent.

Because he believes that as long as he continues to believe in those dreams, everything will become true.

"They are real now." Yin Yening hugged him and said softly, "As long as you can wake up, I will give you everything."

Miracles don't happen anytime.Just as Pei Yi wouldn't open his eyes because of someone's persistent call, F didn't wake up because of a vow he might have expected.

I don't know how long it took, Yin Yening finally calmed down, realized that what she was holding was not a corpse, and couldn't help crying and laughing.

Good thing he's just a robot, so there's still a chance.

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Fang Jili slandered a lot when he saw the dilapidated F like this, but Yin Yening's expression of holding the treasure made it really hard for him to say anything, so he had to do what he should do and fix him thoroughly.

"That... the memory is seriously damaged, almost completely shattered, so he will forget a lot of things, are you sure you want him?"

"forget?"

"Well, I don't know how much he can remember, but the relationship between you probably needs to be restarted. Is it okay?"

Everything that has been built up with great difficulty, should we go back and start over?Yin Yening suddenly felt terrified: "He... if he forgets me, will he not be like... that..."

"No," Fang Jili knew what he was worried about: "The program in that aspect is very good. Even if he forgets all about it, he will still fall in love with you at the first sight when he wakes up. This is implanted. Password, don't worry."

Only then did Yin Yening feel slightly relieved, and gently stroked F's cheek, suddenly feeling that this was fine.

Although this is a very selfish idea, it is very unfair to F.But starting over means that while F doesn't remember happiness, he also doesn't remember those injuries. He doesn't have to remember, because this time, Yin Yening is determined to treat him well.

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When F woke up, it was a bright afternoon, and Yin Yening was sitting beside him, looking at him anxiously.He even prepared for F not to recognize him, but F smiled.He sat up and pulled Yin Yening, using his usual tone and gentleness.

"night."

"You... still remember me?" Yin Yening's eyes were wide open, and the light flickered.He doesn't usually look like this, and everyone who knows him says that such a shiny expression hasn't appeared on his face since he was five years old.

"How could I forget?" F just laughed, tilted his head and said, "Even if I forget myself, I won't forget Ye."

Such innocent sweet talk... Yin Yening almost cried, and pulled F into her arms.

Fang Jili saw the two people hugging each other from outside the closed door, sighed, and slowly closed the door.

But in fact F did forget some things, such as being locked up by Yin Yening, being sent back to the laboratory by him, and even Pei Yi didn't remember anyone.

His memory started from when Yin Yening took him to play around, every detail, every little bit of happiness, he remembered clearly.

"It's quite convenient. You can forget things selectively, and all the things you remember are good things. It seems that he really likes you."

When Fang Jili said this, Yin Yening had already dragged F away.

Yin Yening didn't want to go back to that villa on the island anyway, that place made him almost lose F forever.

He bought a house on the outskirts of the city, with a single family, and F seemed to like that place very much. He also bought a big dog for F as a pet.

F likes it very much, it hurts like hell, but the dog doesn't like to get close to F, maybe in terms of its sense of smell and feeling to distinguish likes and dislikes, even if F can move, it is not a living thing after all.

This made Yin Yening so angry that he yelled every day to give away the stupid dog, but F always stopped him: "It's not Chacha's fault, after all, it's me..."

"You're very good! You're just a stupid dog!" Yin Yening insisted.

F knelt down and stroked the furry body of the big dog, a faint smile appeared on the corner of his mouth because of Yin Yening's stubbornness.

"Ye, you are so kind, I am so happy, really very, very happy."

Yin Ye stared at the man squatting on the ground, he didn't know whether he was moved or sour.

Has F really forgotten those sad things in the past?Or do you just choose to bury them so that you don't feel so guilty?

He shook his head, thinking about it.In any case, there is nothing wrong with treating him well in the future.

Since then, Yin Yening's life has started a new page, and that page is called everything centered on F.

In fact, he has never felt that he is heartless, but he has never tried to be a gentle lover in the past, so instead he is careful in everything, for fear of making any beginner's mistakes. The result of being so careful is very satisfying—— ——Yin Yening felt that she was almost becoming a model of a good man.

But at the same time, he also knows that his goodness is completely based on the fact that F is super easy to satisfy.With a little care, he can make F very happy and flattered, and he also likes to see F's happy and satisfied smile.

So, New Years, Christmas, gifts, sweet hugs.In this way, the life of Yin Yening and F continued in peace and warmth.Such days did last for quite a long time, and Yin Yening had already reached the end of her 27 years.

He looked in the mirror, and the more he looked, the more worried he became.Comparing F with each other, the image reflected in the mirror looks very good, but what about ten years later? 20 years from now? F will not grow old.

"When my face is full of wrinkles, you will still be very handsome. At that time...don't dislike me." He said in a very low voice.

"No matter what you become, I will love you the same," F smiled, and carefully added a joke: "This... should be the benefit of programming."

"Since it's been set, I'm relieved," Yin Yening wrapped F in his arms, showing a bright smile: "I absolutely believe in the power of science."

The big dog was in the middle of them, rubbing and rubbing on both sides of the dog's legs.

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Even though he left the island, Yin Yening would often take F to see the sea on weekends.Driving the car and carrying tea, Yin Yening said that on the surface, it could be a standard "family of three", although it was obviously not the case on the inside, and it was far from it.

When F is sitting on the beach, one posture can be maintained for a long time, and Yin Yening takes advantage of this, leaning on his shoulder, blowing the sea breeze comfortably, sometimes picking up a stone and trying it out on the choppy sea. Try to get away with it.

Chacha usually drags its long tail to chase the small crabs running amok on the beach, not to disturb them.

"night……"

Yin Yening heard F calling him, but when she raised her head, she saw that his eyes were closed, and his long bangs were gently swaying with the breeze.

"what?"

F didn't answer any more, as if the shallow cry was just a babble in sleep.

Yin Yening has always been puzzled as to why the robot can fall asleep.If it is explained from the perspective of physics, then F definitely does not need to sleep, but although this guy has not yet reached the point of lethargy, once he has nothing to do for a period of time, he will fall asleep quickly, and when he touches the bed, Fall asleep faster.

Thinking of this Yin Yening made me depressed, last night it seemed that halfway through, this guy fell asleep...

...is this despising my technology?He never did this before!

Or, gradually getting old and fading, can't arouse the interest of this robot?

... Sad reminder.

"night."

He called him again, Yin Yening frowned, waved his hand in front of his eyes, and poked him lightly, but F still didn't wake up.

Anyway... in the dream, I still call my name.

Yin Yening sighed, and felt a little comforted. Looking at the innocent sleeping face, he suddenly felt guilty, raised the corners of his mouth, and pressed F on the soft sand.

F finally woke up, looking at the handsome face so close, with a look of shock.

"What did you dream about?"

There was no one on the beach, and Yin Yening had already pushed people under him, smiling evilly, while unbuttoning him with one hand, while thinking about the countless days and nights on the island, he had repeatedly He was pressed against the seashore, and the seawater carried sand, gently brushing over his hot and entangled body...

"Dreaming...with you, I am very happy."

Yin Yening just smiled, lowered her head and kissed him: "Aren't you just going to be with me now? Aren't you happy now?"

"Now... I am very happy now..." F suddenly nodded desperately: "I can't... I can't be happier than now."

"Fool," Yin Yening looked into those clear eyes, "Why is it impossible?"

F opened his mouth, but said nothing.

It turns out that what you insist on is actually something you don't believe in.Just how fragile you have to be to make you guard and fear so hard.

"Come here." Yin Yening pulled him up and walked onto the wet beach.

"night……"

"Stand here and watch—"

Yin Yening waved his hand and started running wildly on the beach.He was running fast, but instead of going straight forward, he was running in a strange circle, over and over again.

The expression on his face was bright, with a kind of triumphant smile, F tilted his head and looked at it for a long time, but he still didn't understand what was his intention of running around like this.

"Okay." Finally, Yin Yening jumped back in front of him, panting and raised her hands: "Are you a little happier now than before?"

……why?

F didn't understand, but seeing Yin Yening's cheerful expression, he still nodded subconsciously.

"Fool."

Yin Yening turned slightly sideways, turned his head, F followed his line of sight, and only then did he see the traces of the circle he just ran.

It was a heart, a big heart made of footprints in the sand.

Yin Yening is a person who is good at painting, so the patterns he stepped on casually are exactly the same, not crooked at all.

"night……"

"Ah, ah, forget it! You treat me as if I haven't done anything well!"

It was around this time that Yin Yening suddenly felt that he had done something unbelievable. He jumped up to destroy that heart. Of course, F stopped him at the right time and dragged him around.

"Yes...I have, I am happier than before..."

As the cool sea breeze blew by at dusk, F stretched out his hands and hugged Yin Yening tightly from behind.

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Work always happens every now and then. This day, after Yin Yening took F to the company for a walk, he finished work and went to the restaurant as usual. As usual, he ate one by one. Could not bear.

"You really...can't eat a little bit?"

"It's meaningless, and it can't be converted into energy."

"But, the taste is really good." Yin Yening stroked the center of his eyebrows: "Sometimes eating is not just for satiation, but also a process of enjoyment. I really think F you have lost a lot of fun in life."

"It doesn't matter," F smiled: "I have you, I am very happy to see you eating happily."

Yin Yening blushed, thinking that this guy was really good, he would come out with sweet words as soon as he opened his mouth.

"Just a little." Yin Yening dipped a little bit of the cream on the ice cream dessert with his hands, "Try it, it's delicious."

F obediently stretched his head over to lick his fingertips, Yin Yening's mind froze for a moment, his heart beat faster, he really wished he could get some more for F to lick more.

"...so sweet."

"What? You...you can taste it? Is it true?" Yin Yening was overjoyed.

And at this moment of joy, someone next to him disturbed him and called his name.

"Ah Ning? Is it Yin Yening?"

who!What a fucking annoyance!Didn't you see that Grandpa is busy feeding?Yin Yening turned away with glaring eyes, but was completely stunned the moment she saw the man.

With a tall figure, suits and leather shoes, but without losing a bit of chic, handsome face, wherever he goes, he carries the breath of sunshine.This breath is really nostalgic.

Cheng Fei, whom he had not seen for many years, was standing by the table, looking at him with a smile.

"How long has it been? Nine years...nearly ten years, have you disappeared? Ah Ning, you haven't changed at all. You don't remember me anymore, do you? It was very good when I was in a British boarding school. I am ..."

"You are Cheng Fei."

A voice broke in, and Cheng Fei noticed the man sitting opposite Yin Yening, first he was surprised that he knew his name, and then he was shocked by his appearance.

After all, people who look in the mirror every day know very well what they look like. The man in front of him is at least six or seven points alike.

"Don't mind, I often hear Ye mentioning you. Sometimes he would say that I look a lot like you. When I saw you today, it was true."

F spoke calmly, as if talking about family matters, while Yin Yening was on pins and needles, thinking that it was over, F must be angry!

"Oh, that's really a good fate! The moment you looked up just now scared me," Cheng Fei returned with a bright smile: "I even wanted to call my dad right away to ask him if I still have a A long-lost brother or something."

"If you don't have anything else to do, just sit down," F said generously, "You haven't seen each other for many years, so let's catch up."

"Then I won't be polite," Cheng Fei brought the coffee from the table next to him and sat down: "I'm here on a business trip, and our company established the Asian Marketing Department at the beginning of this year, and since then I've been running on both ends. Yes. But I really didn’t expect to meet you here. I haven’t been in contact with you since I graduated from high school. I thought you would settle in the UK after graduation, but I didn’t expect you to return to China.”

"I didn't go to college." Yin Yening raised the corners of her lips and smiled calmly, "I returned to China as a model after graduating from high school, and I still do it to this day. It's incomparable to a corporate elite like you."

"Models? No wonder I just felt that your place is more star-studded than other corners in the restaurant. Then..." He naturally admired F's figure and temperament, which is as superior to ordinary people as Yin Yening: "You two are Colleague? By the way, I haven’t asked Ah Ning the name of your friend yet.”

"Hey..." Yin Yening couldn't think of an answer for a while, and turned her head to F in a daze.

F glared at him indiscriminately, and smiled: "Well, my name is F."

Cheng Fei smiled: "Is it a stage name?"

"That's my real name." F looked straight at Yin Yening thoughtfully, his eyes frozen with resentment: "Also, I'm actually not Ye's colleague, I'm him..."

"He's my roommate." Yin Yening interrupted.

With a slight shake of F's hand, some water spilled out of the glass in front of him.

Yin Yening quickly took the napkin, stood up like a dog and wiped it for him: "Are you okay?"

F stared at him sullenly.

Of course Yin Yening saw F's frightening expression, but he really didn't intend to hide anything from Cheng Fei on purpose, but he was thinking about Cheng Fei's attitude towards homosexuality, after all, he knew about Cheng Fei's attitude towards homosexuality, and since they haven't seen each other for ten years, it's rare to have a meal together. There is no need to involve so much what is there and what is not.

So he looked back at F confidently, and said in his heart that I did nothing wrong. If you are not happy, at worst I will go home at night to apologize.

Cheng Fei didn't feel the turmoil between the two of them.

"Roommate? Ah Ning hasn't married yet?"

"Hehe, that's what we do as models. We see too many beauties, so we can't settle down," F said with a hehe, and asked Cheng Fei with a half-smile: "Mr. Cheng has a successful career, and he should already have a family." right?"

"Speaking of me..." Cheng Fei sighed, and smiled wryly: "Actually, I just got divorced, alas."

"what?"

Yin Yening couldn't believe it, he always felt that although people like Cheng Fei were superficially playful, once he was settled down, it would be a matter of his life.Cheng Fei shouldn't have divorced so early, not to mention that he has such a good condition, and he still looks like he was dumped.

"I'm not good enough, haha," Cheng Fei smiled awkwardly, suddenly the phone rang, he pressed it down and immediately drank his coffee: "It's work, I have to go!"

"Wait a minute!" Yin Yening called to stop him: "Leave a contact information."

"Okay!" Cheng Fei took Yin Yening's phone and stored a series of numbers: "This is it, call me when you are free!"

As soon as he turned around and stepped out of the restaurant, F snatched Yin Yening's cell phone and deleted the number.

"Hey!"

"Why, can't bear it? Chatting for a while is not enough, do you need to contact more in the future?"

Yin Yening really didn't know whether to be happy or angry. After hesitating for a while, he chose the latter. After all, F's desire for monopoly has been excessive since before. If he indulges blindly, he has to bear the consequences of indulgence?

"It's just a friend I haven't seen for a long time, isn't it a bit domineering for you?"

"It's just a friend... It's just a friend, you made me in his image? It's just a friend, you can't forget it for nearly ten years? It's just a friend... You don't want to admit who I am to you in front of him?!"

F looked excited, and stood up suddenly as he spoke: "I don't want to accompany you anymore, you can find someone you really like to accompany you for dinner, anyway, I'm just pretending to be sitting here!"

"Why are you getting angry, F, come back to me!"

Seeing him walking out without looking back, Yin Yening added: "This is an 'order'!"

F couldn't go anymore, he was frozen there, Yin Yening got up, dragged him back to sit beside him, stretched out his left hand and ordered: "Come, take my hand."

F's expression was extremely aggrieved and unwilling, but he still uncontrollably clasped fingers with Yin Yening.

"say you Love Me."

"..." F tilted his head, bit his lips and refused to say.

"You don't love me anymore?" Yin Yening pretended to be hurt.

"Excessive, how could you do this?" F shook his hand vigorously, but didn't shake him off, with an expression as if he was about to cry: "If you really like me, you should, you should have..."

"What should I do from the beginning?"

"Forget it, forget it! What do I know! The behavior rules I know are all told to me by the program. You are a real human being. What can I say about your actions? I am just a machine, just a copy of others That's all! What I said, what I thought, what I did was all wrong!"

F buried his face in his hands, aggrieved and depressed.

"Don't do this!" Yin Yening looked distressed: "I'm sorry, what do you want me to do, what do you want me to do? What is the correct behavior law in this situation? You tell me, and I will do it."

"No...it's not necessary." F turned his head and stopped talking.

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On the way home, F didn't talk to Yin Yening again, which made Yin Yening depressed and at the same time dumbfounded.

As possessive as it gets, this guy is just as jealous, and love is a wonderful thing that can drive anyone in it crazy - even robots.

"Don't be angry."

Since entering the house, Yin Yening has been tugging at the corner of F's clothes, looking like a big man acting like a baby.He thinks this...maybe it's the "rule of behavior" that F wants normal people to have when their lover is angry?

"How do you want me to apologize? Tell me, I really don't know, I don't know what strange rules Fang Jili has installed in your mind to make you so weird."

"There's no need for him to pretend! Don't I know how to compare my heart to my heart!" F turned her head and looked at Yin Yening very disappointed: "If we were the other way around, if I were you, I would know what I said and what I did would hurt you." To you. I will be careful because I love you and I cherish you."

Yin Yening didn't know what to say for a while.

As he stood like this, time froze for a moment between the two of them.

Suddenly, F sighed deeply. "Ye, is it true that to you, I'm just a machine forever and ever, you can hurt me wantonly because I don't hurt..."

Yin Yening smiled, sneering as usual.After laughing, I saw F sitting silently by the side, hunched over, looking very pitiful, and realized that all this was not so funny, and felt a little at a loss.

He was thinking about whether to apologize to F, but his body had already acted first.He embraced F from behind, with the pity he wanted.

Yin Yening felt that it should be from the heart, because her heart... was throbbing.

"I'm sorry," he said, "I will definitely, definitely not do this again in the future."

F didn't speak, just closed his eyes slightly, and leaned gently on his shoulder.

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Yin Yening is really easy to be forgiven, and he doesn't know whether it's because of F's procedure, or if he really loves him without principle, or both.

The days that followed were as usual.He took F to work, eat, and play, and it seemed...he didn't really remember Cheng Fei who happened to meet that day, and even if he remembered, the number was gone.

Although he always felt that he was in this city, he would still be able to see Cheng Fei again.

That night, Yin Yening took F to the bar recommended by a friend. He was in high spirits, but before he had two drinks at the bar, two men fought over a woman, which ruined the atmosphere a bit.

"What's the matter with them?" F rarely saw such a situation, and secretly asked Yin Yening.

"Those two men are drunk." Yin Yening said.

F frowned, searched for the definition of "drunk" in his mind, and nodded with some understanding: "Human beings will do strange things when they are drunk."

"Well, when people are drunk, their minds are usually very unclear, and there will be friction in a little thing."

"Unconscious... Isn't that kind of situation like our circuit is burned or messed up?"

"Almost," Yin Yening smiled: "The difference is that you can't recover automatically if you burn or become disordered, you have to repair it, and humans can just sleep, so in the end it is more convenient for us. But having said that, I I haven't seen you go crazy before, I really want to know if you burn a nerve, will it have the effect of drunken sex?"

As he said, he approached F, his eyes were extremely malicious under the ambiguous light.

F whispered: "Ye, this is not gay, it will be seen by others!"

"I don't even mind, when did you start to mind those stereotypes?"

As Yin Yening said, he lifted his forehead hair and was about to kiss him. At this moment, someone at the bar next to him cursed "perverted bastard" drunkenly.

He was very upset, his sharp eyes swept over there, and found that the other party was not scolding them, but lying on the table talking to himself.

Yin Yening and F stopped at the same time.

The man who was [-]% drunk and talking to himself was none other than Cheng Fei.He was lying on the bar, his face flushed, with a weird smile, and his eyes were empty.

F immediately wanted to grab Yin Yening, but was a step too late, Yin Yening had already walked towards that person.

Cheng Fei happened to turn his head and saw him, first he smiled, and then the expression on his face changed from confusion to unspeakable sadness, and he wobbled onto Yin Yening like he was grabbing some life-saving driftwood. He leaned his head against his tie, and suddenly burst into tears.

"A Ning, A Ning, help me, I don't want to live anymore..."

Yin Yening was stunned by his sudden behavior, and then thought of his divorce, she patted his head comfortingly.

F watched from the side, his hands clenched into fists unconsciously.

That's his person, why should he touch that guy, why should he cry in his arms!

So he walked over without hesitation and pulled Cheng Fei away. Cheng Fei was pulled by him, but hugged Yin Yening even more tightly.

F was angry, and raised his hand to hit him, but Yin Yening quickly blocked it with his eyes: "What do you want to do?!"

F ignored him at all, and pulled Cheng Fei and shouted: "Let go, let him go!"

The surrounding guests stopped to watch, and the bar owner had already brought the security guard over.Yin Yening had no choice but to yell, "F, be more honest."

Opening his hand with a snap, Yin Yening accompanied the drunken Cheng Fei out of the nightclub with a smile.

F also hurriedly followed.

"Hey - it's so heavy..." After finally getting him into the back seat of the car, Yin Yening fell down beside him and told F: "You drive, I'll take care of him in the back."

F sat in the driver's seat, slammed the car door, and asked angrily, "Where are you going?"

Of course Yin Yening didn't know where Cheng Fei lived, and seeing him crying like this, he couldn't just let him alone...

"Let him spend the night with us tonight."

"Are you kidding me?" F just started the engine, and immediately turned off the engine when he heard the words: "I hugged him, and want to take him home? Go dream!"

"Can you be more polite?" Yin Yening was very dissatisfied with F's tone of voice: "Isn't this a special situation?"

"He's drunk, and it's called a special situation when he pulls you to cry? Well, then he can get drunk every day, and he can cry every day for an excuse to let you take him home. Isn't every day a special situation? I don’t care, anyway, if there is him or me in that family, you choose yourself!”

"F, don't be self-willed," said Cheng Fei, who was drunk and unconscious, and F, who was menacing, Yin Yening felt his head was getting bigger: "Just this time, don't make another example."

F had no choice but to grit his teeth and start the car.

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Their bed was occupied by that person, Yin Yening carefully covered his forehead with a towel.

Seeing that F had been tossing and tossing for most of the night, Cheng Fei still held on to Yin Yening, trying not to go over and pull his hand off.

"Okay, that's enough! You take care of your ancestors!"

Yin Yening didn't sleep all night and had a headache. "I said you have a little sympathy for people other than me, okay? He's divorced, so sad."

"So you have a chance to take advantage of it?" F sneered: "Are you happy?"

Yin Yening's patience was also exhausted: "You, shut up, if you can't help, just go to sleep on the sofa obediently, don't force me to use coercive means."

"Try it? If you dare to order me, I will definitely remember it!" F roared: "I will definitely learn to hate you!"

"Shut up and go to sleep, this is an 'order'."