night without tears

Yin Yening opened the door of the laboratory, and the inside was gloomy black. F seemed to feel that something was wrong, but he couldn't remember what it was.

By the way...Fang Jili's eyesight is very poor, he is almost night blind, and everywhere he goes is brightly lit, so in this situation...could it be...is he not there?

The next moment, the lights suddenly turned on.

F subconsciously covered it with his hand, and then he was hit in the abdomen by something, a burst of numbness spread, and his body suddenly fell limp.

What hit him in the abdomen was an electromagnetic pulse gun in Yin Yening's hand, which was used to destroy sensitive electronic circuits...

He looked at Yin Yening with wide eyes, but Yin Yening didn't look at him, stepped over his body, grabbed his hair, and dragged him towards the large motor in the corner of the laboratory.

"Fang Jili is on a business trip." Yin Yening said while tugging on the robot, as if talking about something commonplace. "However, it shouldn't be that difficult to scrap you without his guidance."

He took F's hands and pinned him to the poles of the motor.

F opened his eyes wide, and he smiled again, with unparalleled fear in his heart, but the smile was still on his face.He just smiled like this, looking at Yin Yening, his deep black eyes were full of despair.

"Don't blame me, you asked for it yourself."

"No, no, no, no! Ye—" F shook his head feebly, and suddenly became frightened and humbled: "Ye, I beg you, I beg you..."

He was scared, suddenly very scared, he didn't know what would happen, he didn't want to die yet...

I can't just die like this... I haven't explained anything, I haven't... You still don't believe me... I can't just...

Yin Yening shook his head, his fingers were already on the power supply.

"If I had made up my mind early on... Cheng Fei wouldn't have become like this..."

F shook his head, struggled violently and screamed: "I didn't intend to harm him! I didn't, Ye! I don't know! What I did, I don't know! Ye, please, listen to me—— I just want you to listen to me..."

Yin Yening looked at him with a blank expression, and pressed the power button.

"Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah------"

He hit hard and struggled, screaming heart-piercingly. , It seems that not only the body, but also the soul has fallen into purgatory.

There are countless circuits in his body, which burn and collapse under the impact of strong current. This feeling is like being burned by karmic fire, and his body soon begins to convulse, and he begins to suffer unspeakably.He opened his mouth wide, but he couldn't yell anything. Looking at the dark ceiling with his big dark eyes, he suddenly laughed again.

Can't cry, there is no luxury like tears.

Therefore, whether it is happiness or pain, sadness or severe pain, he can only laugh...

I can only laugh!

if i could cry...

If I could cry, I'd like to cry...

Really, because only tears can wash away a little bit of my love, my sorrow, my grievance, and my unwillingness.

Why do I have no tears, why no matter how painful it is, there is no way to vent.

Why I was born a robot...

Why do you tell me that my love is wrong, my attachment is wrong, my hatred is wrong, everything about me is wrong.

I would have had nothing.I have nothing but love for you.

What I want, you are stingy and don't give me a little bit. Now, you want to take away what I have left...

If you didn't intend to give me anything...

Why did you create me in the first place?

Yin Yening looked at F silently, watching his skin a little bit anxious, watching him struggling and writhing in pain, roaring and laughing hysterically, many past memories suddenly appeared in his mind.

He suddenly remembered many mornings, the warmth of the two cuddling each other; F pursed his lips and smiled shyly, his kisses, his eyes, his pain, his forbearance, everything about him that made him unforgettable.

He can be very decisive, he can press the power button and destroy him without mercy.

But, in fact... they were almost on the road to happiness.

He should have fallen in love with him only a little bit.

How crazy and perfect to fall in love with a robot.However, such a perfect day, why didn't it stay?What brought everything to this point?

"Ye, I didn't do anything, I didn't do anything! Why...why don't you believe me, why!"

F screamed with the last of his strength, and then his voice was cut off.

Under the ravages of the electric current, his body burst into countless damages, and his delicate skin and heroic appearance were also distorted and shattered a little bit, never returning to their original form.

His hands were left with only a scorched black shape, and his face was also eaten away. His body was bent into an extremely painful shape, and he was heading towards destruction bit by bit.

Only those black pupils looked at him painfully, wronged, and unwillingly, and kept looking at him.

Yin Yening suddenly couldn't take it anymore.Something in the chest seemed to be broken, and it hurt so much that it was tearing, and then tears were about to come out.

reluctant to...

He suddenly realized that he was still reluctant.

Even if F tries to murder Cheng Fei again and again, but, but he still...

I still only remember the incomparable concentration, the undisguised greed, and the lively happiness like the small candle lit on the table after the power outage when he looked at him.

He wanted to cut off the power, cut it off immediately, but his hands were shaking too much, and he tried many times before pressing the button.

Suddenly the machine loosened its grip.

F hit the ground hard, unconscious, without sound, the broken circuit was exposed, and blue sparks were still shining.At this moment, he has been fragmented, whether it is body or soul.

Yin Yening wanted to go there, but he didn't have the courage. He hesitated, not knowing what to do.

So let's leave him here...

Don't worry about it, just leave him here, when Fang Jili comes back, he will know what to do...

He will deal with him...

In any case, from now on, this person, this F...has nothing to do with him.

He took a few sharp breaths, turned and ran out.In the dark night, he drove in a direction that he didn't understand.

All he wanted was to escape, to escape from all this.It's everything that suffocates him.

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At dawn the next day, Yin Yening dragged his exhausted body back to the hospital.

Cheng Fei was still alive, and the doctor said it was a miracle that he could be brought back to life.He sat beside Cheng Fei, watched the steady heartbeat on the monitor, and closed his eyes tiredly.

Cheng Fei still didn't wake up, and just lay there, quietly.

Now, it seems that he is the only one in the whole world, and he can still sleep so peacefully.

In the following days, Yin Yening took care of Cheng Fei every day, and stayed by his side every day except to go home to get some necessary things.

He likes to sit by the bed and watch him, and sometimes he won't get tired of watching him all day long.

After so many years, why did this feeling not change, he asked himself.His fingers slid down Cheng Fei's hair, and he frowned slightly when he reached the tip of the hair, no, why is the tip of this hair so chestnut, in my impression, it should be darker, like a charming night...

Yin Yening suddenly shivered.

Cheng Fei's hair color has always been lighter, but the pure black one is actually...

Only then did he realize that what he was sitting on the edge of the bed looking at, and what he was thinking about in his heart, didn't seem to be the lying person.

He shook his head immediately, but something he didn't want to think about appeared in his mind.

F's smile, his quiet look, and then his face, that face that was burned by the electric current and looked horrible...

no no no!Don't think about him, forget it, he's gone.Just like a dream, a nightmare...

However, why the chest is so painful and sore, it is impossible to ignore.

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A few days later, he didn't expect anything, he took a change of clothes from home and went to the hospital, Cheng Fei had already woken up.It would not be an exaggeration to describe this as "overjoyed". The doctor said that Cheng Fei was fine, and after a few days of observation, he could go through the discharge procedures.

"You...how did you wake up?"

Cheng Fei probably thought this was a silly question, and shook his head with a smile: "You might as well ask why I fell down the stairs so stupidly. In short - I must have caused you a lot of trouble these days, thank you. "

"It's all...his fault," Yin Yening lowered his head, his face was gloomy, and he forced himself to mention: "I want to apologize to you."

"Wh...whose fault?"

"F, didn't he push you down the stairs? But don't worry, because he will never..."

"Wait a minute, Ah Ning," Cheng Fei interrupted him: "No one pushed me, I fell down by myself."

"……What did you say?"

"No one pushed me, I fell by myself."

"Cheng Fei," Yin Yening's expression turned ugly, "You don't have to cover him up."

"Why would I cover anyone? If someone tried to murder me, you think I'd spare him? But that person really didn't do anything. I remember standing on the top of the stairs and he suddenly appeared behind me and startled me." I jumped so much that I was so startled that I forgot where I was standing, stepped on the air and fell down..."

Yin Yening's heart seemed to have been hammered hard by something, and he jumped up and down, and forced himself to be calm: "But, but at that time, Luo Nan said... He said he saw F push you down!"

"Where did he see it?" Cheng Fei frowned and shook his head: "It doesn't count what he saw. I'm the person involved. Is there anyone who pushes me who knows better than me?"

Cheng Fei tilted her head: "Let's think about it...because I was standing very close to F at that time, and he did reach out to grab me, and then I fell down again. Is it normal to be wrong?" He said, His complexion also changed: "Hey, Ah Ning, you didn't wrong him because of this, did you? What about others?"

Yin Yening's mind was in a mess, and he almost had the urge to rush to the laboratory and bring F back immediately. He tried his best to suppress it, trying to find an excuse for his cruel behavior: "But later, later, he still treated you... He went to the hospital and pulled out your oxygen mask, which almost killed you..."

"Ah?" Cheng Fei was taken aback.

——Ye, I'm broken... I don't know what I did, I really don't know...

Yin Yesu's heart suddenly shrank, and the voice of F appeared in his mind.

--I really do not know……

He didn't pay attention to what he said at all, until now.

"Where are you going, Ah Ning?" Cheng Fei called out.

Yin Yening didn't answer, and ran downstairs quickly, panting to the parking lot.After starting the car, he suddenly turned off the engine again, leaning on the steering wheel and gasping for breath.

The blood in his hands and feet seemed to be flowing backwards, and his limbs were limp and weak. He wanted to go to that place so much, but he was so afraid to go to that place.

What are you doing there?Bring him back?What's the point of going now after you've made him that way, you've ruined everything?

Why don't we just leave it at that?

This thought really crossed his mind, and he thought about it for a while.Anyway...he's just a robot; anyway...it's not entirely my fault that I misunderstood him; anyway, after all, I didn't want to get rid of him once or twice.It's better to make mistakes and let everything go.

Originally, it was wrong to put down a robot in my heart.It just so happens that by doing that, the negative becomes positive, and the wrong path is corrected.

But... just letting him lie in that cold place... making him feel so wronged, so painful, so miserable...

F used to love him so much and was willing to do anything for him.

... In the end, he treated him like this.

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Yin Yening really didn't want to go to the laboratory, if he went and saw F, he felt that everything would be endless forever.However, no matter how contradictory, no matter how entangled, he finally walked in.

The laboratory was still pitch black, and Fang Jili still hadn't come back. In the empty hall, the only sound was his footsteps.stop-and-go.

The huge motor was still standing in a corner of the room, and there were still traces of scorched black on the electrodes.

F is gone.

Where he had been lying was empty.

Yin Yening's back felt a little chilly, and he immediately looked around vigilantly, thinking that Fang Jili must be playing tricks on him, so he began to search, running all over the laboratory and opening every door.

No, no, no.

Everywhere was silent.

Where did he go?

Where did F go?

"Come out, I know you're still here, come out!"

No response, only echo.

He was alone in the empty room like crazy, screaming and screaming until he lost his strength and fell to the ground.

F is gone forever, he knows, maybe just like his wish, will never appear in his life again.

Even though his heart was hurting, he felt relieved.

He has ruined him, and with so many past memories and loves, there is no room for regret.

"Don't hate me." He said this to the air, feeling ridiculous.

F does not understand what is hate.

Don't be sad, Yin Yening told himself, that is just a robot, he actually has no life, his feelings and love are just manufactured, they can't be taken as real.

Can't take it seriously.

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Yin Yening finally made up his mind to get out of F's shadow, repaired his island, and renovated it inside and out, so that no trace of F was left there.

A few days later, Yin Yening helped Cheng Fei complete the discharge procedures, and took him to the island to recuperate.

It was just a pure rest, he didn't take the opportunity to have anything to do with Cheng Fei.Joshua didn't want to pursue the so-called love and dislike before.

Because that love was a long time ago; because when he looked at him, he didn't know who he was looking at, or he knew who he was looking at very well, but he couldn't admit it.

He gradually felt like a walking dead, his soul didn't know where he went, and many things no longer attracted him.

When he came back from outside that day, Cheng Fei fell asleep lying on the chair.The chair was by the floor-to-ceiling windows, and the sun shone on his face, giving him the illusion for a moment, as if he had returned to the past—but it was not the youthful years of him and Cheng Fei under the bright sunlight, but the countless so quiet days later. Under the sun, with someone, slowly spend a long time together.

It would be great if F could be the same as Cheng Fei.

Flesh and blood, alive next to him, everything... slowly getting old.

The long-lasting love for Cheng Fei is like a long dream.People usually desire things that cannot be obtained. If he created F because of his dark desire to keep Cheng Fei by his side and do whatever he wants, now it seems that his wish has finally come true. The living Cheng Fei is by his side, without People interrupt, no one hinders.

However, after all, things have changed.

Everything is different, already different.

Cheng Fei will be able to walk soon, and sometimes he will walk around the yard when he is bored.Under the red-brick courtyard wall, there were rows and rows of dogtail grass. When he walked there, he had nothing to do, so he always pulled one or two off and held it in his mouth.

Although Yin Yening didn't say anything, she always felt uncomfortable in her heart.

F used to cherish every plant and tree in this yard, including the dogtail grass under the wall of the yard. He said they were fluffy and cute.

At that time, Yin Yening occasionally wanted to bully him, so he made a gesture to step on them, and F would jump up and protect them like a child.

Now, the people who protected them were gone, so they were pulled down, knotted randomly, and thrown on the ground miserably.

If the grass and trees are ruthless, he doesn't have to care about them, but there are some things he can't help but care about.

Chacha likes Cheng Fei very much, that is the big dog he bought when he was with F, when he saw Cheng Fei for the first time, he wagged its tail and rubbed against his feet.

At that time, Yin Yening really wanted to kick that stupid dog's ass, and tell it: Your mother's name is from F, and the food is fed by F. It's fine if you don't kiss him at all, but you never kiss him. You throw yourself into your arms when you see others, I have never seen you so ungrateful.

Sometimes, when he saw Chacha lazily nestled in Cheng Fei's arms, he would be so angry with it that he wanted to cry.