Stockholm syndrome

"Ah Shen, come with me." There was a bustling crowd at the gate of the station.Li Weiran stood there with a huge travel bag on his back, and reached out to me.Sweat dripped from his nose.Just looking at me like that, with a look in my eyes that I have never seen before. "Just the two of us, let's go."

Li Weiran sent over the ticket, which was a ticket to Xi'an.Regarding the poem that connects our two names, the autumn wind produces Weishui, and the fallen leaves are all over Chang'an.He always remembers.

I never thought that Li Weiran would do this for me. He has a family and superior material.But I am willing to wander the world for people like me.I never seem to have treated him seriously, except for helping him with his homework for a year and a half, I did nothing.Between us, he gave me far more than I gave him.

"You really want to walk with me." I reached out to him with shaking hands. "Your family. Didn't you say that you want to inherit the family business, marry a wife and have children?"

"There is no way, Ah Shen. I can't let you go." Li Weiran tightened the straps on his shoulders. "I know this is wrong. I should take on the responsibility of being a son. But I can't let go of you. When I was in England, I didn't have a familiar person around me. I was going crazy thinking about you. I took it all, but you When I heard about your accident, I couldn't control myself at all. I couldn't let you go, I couldn't leave you. I always said you pretended to be smart, but I also pretended. I pretended not to care about you, and pretended that I could be alone Live. But no matter how I pretend, it's a fake.

My dad asked me to go back to England immediately, and I don't know how many years it will take me to go.I thought I could walk away as cleanly as before.But when I saw you, my heart broke.I thought about it all night yesterday.Ah Shen, I can't leave you alone, I can't do it, it's worse than killing me.There is also my elder sister at home, and my parents are people who will enjoy a lifetime of blessings. They can still live well without a son, but you are different.I can't leave you alone.

Let's go, Shen.Let's go together.I brought a lot of money, let's start a small business and live a good life.Status, money, I don't want anything.only you.

You have always wanted to be my family.come with me.We are one family and will never be separated. "

"Li Weiran..." My hand was already in his, but when he was about to hold it, I suddenly pulled it away.For a moment, I really wanted to hold his hand tightly, and we would leave like this, away from all the hustle and bustle.Go somewhere to have a good time.Just do a small business and live an ordinary life.When we are all old, we will help each other to go to the park to bask in the sun.Together in this life, every minute and every second is not less.But I can't do it, I still have my dad.I can blame him or blame him, but I can't hate him.He is my dad after all.I am a person, why is he not.How can I leave him alone.

"Li Weiran, what I owe you will never be repaid in my entire life."

The smile on Li Weiran's face froze, he didn't seem to expect this result.Before the corners of his eyes could fall, he opened his mouth halfway and looked at me.It took a long time to react, his eyebrows trembled, and he suddenly cried.What I owe him, I really can't change it for the rest of my life.

"My family still has my dad, I can't leave him alone."

"He has treated you like this. Why...why..." Li Weiran's tears could not be restrained, this was the first time I saw him cry, he was gasping for breath.Speech became staccato due to breathing. "I don't want anything for you. You...why don't you go with me. He's always like that...yes...to you."

"He is my father after all, and I can't ignore him." I suddenly realized that I was the cruelest person.Looking at Li Weiran's tears, I was deeply saddened, but I couldn't cry, and I didn't even want to cry.

Li Weiran kept raising the back of his hand to wipe the tears from his eyes, the square in front of the railway station was full of people, the two of us standing here so abruptly attracted people's attention. "Fuck, I'm an idiot. I'm a fucking idiot." He cried heartbreakingly.I want to hold him in my arms and comfort him, but I am no longer qualified.When I choose my dad between him and my dad, I have no right to influence his feelings.Suddenly I became sober, and it was the first time I realized that I could be so rational.I can't hug him, I can't comfort him, I can't give him any hope.Everything I do now is shitty.

Li Weiran cried for a while, and finally raised his head.His eyes were bloodshot, and his gaze became firm again. "Have you figured it out?" He just looked at me like that, his eyes were so deep that I couldn't figure out what he was thinking, exactly the same as last winter.He always gives me the initiative.

"Think about it." I nodded, the same as last time, without hesitation.

"That's how it is." Li Weiran didn't turn around and leave like last time, he unloaded the mountaineering bag, and when it fell to the ground, there was a splash of dust. "That's fine." Li Weiran sighed, looked up at me and smiled.Dragging the hiking bag, he walked to the side stone steps and sat down on the floor. "Shen, come here and talk to me. I'm going back to England tomorrow. I don't know if we can see each other again in this life."

I went over and sat next to him.The weather was very hot, and because of sweating, the smell of boiled water on Li Weiran's body became more and more obvious. I don't know how long I can last.How I wish he could be my relative, but when he gave me the chance, I gave up myself.

"Ah Shen, do you like me?" Li Weiran suddenly asked a silly question.

"I like it, I like it very much."

"Compared to Zhong Han?"

"It's different. I like you as much as my relatives."

"Hehe." Li Weiran smiled, stretched out his arms, and turned his head to look at me. "Do you know when I started liking you?"

"On Valentine's Day?" I thought about the past two years, I didn't want to underestimate myself, probably he fell in love with me at that time, but I didn't realize it yet.

"Earlier than this." Li Weiran shook his head. "What's so good about you, isn't it that you study well and look good? You're incompetent and useless. We fought in the beginning, you idiot. You don't have any rules in fighting. How could you You stretched out your arms like that. Be careful in the future, use your elbows and knees. Don’t be so useless, people want to bully you..." Li Weiran talked about the messy past, and was punished by Lao Zhang to stand, Kung Pao Chicken rice bowl.All kinds of things, even things that I have forgotten, he remembers clearly. "Do you still remember our class playing football with Class 13?"

"Remember." I smiled self-deprecatingly. "I also got a beating. It hurts me more than you beat me."

"I never hit you hard." Li Weiran paused, "I came out of the playground that day, and Sun Rui was by my side. Do you remember that she was the girl who sang in the art class? She was quite famous and she was very pretty. .At that time, I was chasing her. The little girl pretended to be high-spirited and kept catching me. I was quite happy to watch my game that day. As soon as I turned a corner, I saw you being blocked. You It's really rubbing, and people are knocked down with one punch.

When I saw you being beaten, I was in a mess.I can't tell you what it feels like, I've never had it before.My heart suddenly became chaotic, numb.I don't care about Sun Rui anymore.Rushing over like crazy, that man is also considered interesting.Seeing me coming, I ran away immediately.

Carrying you to the hospital.It took me two stops before I realized that I could take a taxi.Tired me.You also rubbed my nosebleed all over.My hands were still shaking until you were checked and sent to the inpatient department.I thought at the time, it's over, I'm afraid I fell in love with this person.

Then I was forcibly left by your mother to guard you. In fact, she didn't need to say that I would not leave.You lay there quietly, with such long eyelashes, shaking gently with your breath.Much prettier than the girls I've chased.Emotions are really weird.Suddenly I found that I like you, and I still like you very much.I thought at the time, as long as you nod, I would be happy to be with you.I don't care if you are a man or a woman, I just like you.Whatever you want, I'll buy it for you.

Because I know you like Zhong Han, I find him particularly unpleasant.But no way, I know I'm not a good thing.But you can't be violent with your classmates for no reason. "

"Didn't you hit me and put a rice bowl on my head?" I interrupted.He passed his left hand over, and there was a small hole where the ring finger was. "Look at this, on the first day when we were divided into classes, you pushed me and I knocked on the table."

"True or not?" Li Weiran couldn't believe it.

"Can I still confuse you?"

"I really forgot about that. I always thought it was the chickenpox you scratched when you were young."

"You think I'm like you." Li Weiran had a scar left by chickenpox on his waist, and only close friends knew about it.We were all silent at this point.Li Weiran is my closest person, and there will be no more in the future.