imperfect lover

Two days later, Wei Shengkai finally appeared in the starry night, as glamorous and charming as before. After nightfall, regular customers came to the door one by one, and Wei Shengkai didn't have a chance to talk to them at the bar all night.

"I really don't believe you are so relieved." Sun Shangqing poured wine for Yan Junxi who was sitting at the bar, Yan Junxi just smiled and toasted him.

"He has been very cooperative these three days, so I promised to let him drink two more drinks tonight."

"Tsk!" Sun Shangqing spat contemptuously, "You really spoiled him."

Yan Junxi just smiled, then got up and left the bar to walk out of the starry night to answer the phone.Tonight's weather is breezy with a cool breeze and a bit of rain during the day, making for a very comfortable evening temperature.

Yan Junxi listened silently to the voice on the other end of the phone, and finally only replied, "I see." When he put away the phone, he was hugged from behind, and he didn't need to think that it must be Wei Shengkai.

"Why did you sneak out to talk on the phone?" Wei Shengkai whispered behind his ear, and the strong aroma of wine immediately infected each other.

Yan Junxi smiled faintly, "I don't want my father to hear that I'm in a bad place."

"Starry night is not a bad place, it is now run by Sun Shangqing as a restaurant." Wei Shengkai hung on his shoulders, looking drunk, but his eyes were too sober. "Why does your father want you?"

"You want to know?"

"I don't want to know why I'm asking you."

Yan Junxi smiled, "You seem to really value me more."

"I don't want to talk about it, I'm too lazy to listen." Wei Shengkai turned around and was about to go in, but was held by Yan Junxi.

"Kay."

Wei Shengkai turned his head away to look at him, and suddenly grinned brightly, but Yan Junxi could tell at a glance that his smile didn't mean to laugh at all.

"It must be very, very important to make a special call overseas! There must be a very, very important task!"

"I have promised you that I will be with you this month."

"Oh, am I such an unkind person?" Wei Shengkai patted his chest and laughed, "Dad is more important."

"Kai." Yan Junxi held his hand, leaned close to his lips and kissed him lightly, and looked at him affectionately, "I won't go anywhere except by your side."

Wei Shengkai withdrew his smile and took a step forward, the two of them were almost stuck together. !C7h3O/ty#c}9H

"That's not why I want to be with you..." Wei Shengkai slightly raised his head and kissed his beautiful chin, "If your dad needs you more than I do, I won't tie you up."

"He never needs me." Yan Junxi sighed softly, "He just wants me to go back, he is going to remarry."

"Dad's marriage is a big deal."

"It's the third time."

"Ha, no wonder you have so many brothers and sisters."

"Kay, come back with me."

"Me?" Wei Shengkai's eyes widened, "Why should I go back with you?"

"You haven't been to my home in America, and you haven't seen my family."

Wei Shengkai laughed, "Yu, this kind of thing seems to be done by someone's wife."

"I won't force you, I just don't want to leave you."

"I don't care, Dad is more important! How long are you going back?"

"I can come and go in a day."

"You thought America was next door?"

"Going home is inevitable."

"Are you still afraid of socializing?" Wei Shengkai said with a smile, "At least you don't go to work."

"We can travel by the way."

"I'm not interested in America."

Yan Junxi didn't speak anymore, if Wei Shengkai didn't want to go, no one could force him to go if he broke his mouth.Wei Shengkai will never compromise for anyone, even for himself, even for the person he loves the most.

But Wei Shengkai is indeed different from before. In the past, he never asked Yan Junxi anything, and he never picked up Yan Junxi when he went abroad, but now, he has more problems, and even follows Yan Junxi home to help him pack his luggage, although he just Opened his mouth, and then drove Yan Junxi to the airport the next morning.

"If you regret it, I can help you buy a ticket immediately." Yan Junxi said to him with a smile when he parked the car.

"Even if I had a plane ticket, I didn't bring my passport."

"I can wait for you."

Wei Shengkai looked at him, "But the plane won't wait for you. Aren't you going to get off?"

"I don't really want to." Yan Junxi held his sharp chin and pulled him closer, kissing his soft lips.

Wei Shengkai leaned into his arms, and he was able to speak with ease, "Forget it, you have to fly once a week."

"This is an emergency situation."

"I don't believe in your sudden situation anymore." Wei Shengkai raised his head and gave him a sweet smile, "Little Bie is better than a newlywed!"

"I'll be back in two days."

"Ah, I only have two days to be free."

"Don't turn off the phone."

"I'm online 24 hours a day."

"Kay."

"I'll wait for you to come back and take me for a walk in the park."

"Kay..."

"Are you forcing me to say stay?"

"Do you know?"

"I don't want your father to think that his son is unfilial because of me!"

"I'll wait until you're willing to come back with me."

"Okay, I'll read more American travel books in the next two days."

Yan Junxi held his face and kissed his mouth reluctantly.

"You go first, you don't need to accompany me in."

"It's the first time I've come to drop off the plane, so I don't give face."

"I'm afraid I'm going to drag you into the toilet to make out."

Wei Shengkai laughed, "If you are caught making out in the toilet at the airport, you will be locked up, right?"

"I'm a lawyer."

"Oh, that's true."

Yan Junxi kissed his soft earlobe, Wei Shengkai smiled and burrowed into his arms.

"Don't bite me..." Wei Shengkai hugged him, buried his whole face in his broad shoulder, and said in a muffled voice, "It feels inseparable, it's terrible... "

"Then don't leave me, my heart is always with you."

Wei Shengkai smiled, and closed his arms to hug him even tighter. "That doesn't seem too bad."

"It's not too late to find out now."

Wei Shengkai fell silent, nestling on him like a quiet cat, listening to his heartbeat, as if this could stop time.Neither of them spoke, the atmosphere was very peaceful, and their hug was very gentle.

"Are you asleep?" Yan Junxi asked him softly.

"If I fell asleep, you shouldn't wake me up." Wei Shengkai lazily replied.

"If you do fall asleep, I'll carry you on the plane."

"Junxi, I suddenly remembered that I forgot to ask you something."

"What's up?"

"Have you ever loved someone else before me?"

"Why are you asking me this question at this time?"

"Because I was thinking, your father has been married three times, where would you be so devoted?"

"That sentence really hurts my heart."

Wei Shengkai laughed, and deliberately patted his chest and said with a smile: "Who hasn't passed it! For a perfect man like you, even if you don't chase others, there will be several truckloads of them automatically posted!"

Yan Junxi held his hand, cupped half of his face with one hand and looked at him.

"I'm not perfect." Caressing his face carefully, these mischievous and beautiful eyes made him love but helpless. "I'm human, how can I be perfect."

"For most people, you're perfect enough."

"In terms of relationships, I'm a failure."

"Oh?"

"Yes, I loved someone else."

"Where is that person?"

"I found someone who loves him more."

"Don't you love him?"

"I used to love him very much."

"Then why give him to someone else?"

"Because I don't have time for him."

This is the sticking point!How can someone as smart as Wei Shengkai not know where this relationship is entangled?

They have scruples about each other, no matter how deeply they love, they will not imprison each other's soul lightly.

After this plane crash, they have already confirmed the importance of each other to themselves, and they are finally willing to try to let each other penetrate into their lives, but they dare not make a deeper commitment.

Yan Junxi had already put his heart on him, but he still couldn't spare his time for Wei Shengkai.Wei Shengkai has let himself depend on him, but he still has no sense of security in this unstable relationship.

In the past, he always laughed at Sun Shangqing and Yu Jie as two idiots who love to hide and seek, but how good is he himself?It was he who kept Yan Junxi from understanding, kept Yan Junxi from getting close to his inner world, and then teased and tickled others. No wonder Sun Shangqing always called him a scoundrel.

The unspeakable love for Yan Junxi seems to be a chain that he can't break free. He knows that no one in this world loves him like Yan Junxi, but Yan Junxi still can't give him the feeling he wants.

What he wants is actually simple, but it is a sense of stability without fear, which will not make him lose sleep when he cannot see the other party, and will not make him have to use ridiculous and depraved excuses to fill his loneliness.

do you know?Without you by my side, I can't sleep at all, and now that you are on the plane, I am afraid that you will die, just like I can't bear the oppression that the hospital gives me.So Junxi, how should we continue to love?

We are like being cursed, we can't separate, but we can't tie each other; we want to tie each other, but we can't be with each other all the time.Ah, is there a problem with you or a problem with me?Who is unwilling to compromise and who is unwilling to sacrifice?

You think I never think about such a problem, but I have been stuck in it for a long, long time...

***

"What? Going abroad again? I think Junxi might as well just buy the airline company." Sun Shangqing lit a cigarette, but Wei Shengkai stole it again. He immediately stared, "As long as he's not here, you will relapse."

"I can't quit, I'm just talking." Wei Shengkai walked into the bar and poured wine.

"People don't just talk to you." Sun Shangqing took the cold beer from him, and Wei Shengkai raised his eyebrows and replied:

"I didn't tell him that either."

"I thought after the crash, you guys would seriously consider being together."

"Why let you know everything." Wei Shengkai laughed.

"Sheng Kai."

"Why are you so disgusting all of a sudden?"

"Don't let the opportunity slip away." Sun Shangqing suddenly said to him seriously.Wei Shengkai also lost his smile at the same time, took a puff of cigarette, took a sip of wine, and said coldly:

"You think I want to?"

Wei Shengkai walked out of the bar with a downcast face, but suddenly his whole body collapsed. Sun Shangqing immediately rushed over from the high chair, grabbed his shoulders in time, and saw that his face suddenly turned pale, and even his lips seemed to be covered with a layer of snow.

"Hey! Don't be scary!"

Wei Shengkai pressed his hand tightly on his abdomen, exhaled heavily, and took a long time to straighten up, and unexpectedly threw him a bright smile.

"It succeeded in scaring you."

Sun Shangqing pushed him, stared angrily and said, "It's not funny!"

"I'm going back to catch up on sleep, and I'll come back at night." Wei Shengkai took out a tissue and wiped off the sweat from his forehead, then stretched.

"I see you don't come."

"You want to usurp the throne? Even though I took a few extra days off this month, the money still has to be counted."

"I seriously think you should retire to take care of yourself."

"I was born to work hard."

"I see you have a lot of free time." It's other people who are busy.

"I'm a top-notch bartender. If Xingye didn't have me, you might as well switch to a fast-food restaurant."

"good idea."

"You really want to drive me away?"

"It's so ugly! I hope you take care of your body first."

"Hey, I'm leaving. It's hard to keep my ears quiet for two days. Please help me and stop nagging."

"Who told you to owe others scolding!"

Wei Shengkai waved his hand and took two steps, then turned back to look at him.

"I ask you."

"I'll ask you."

Wei Shengkai hesitated for two seconds, then pouted, "Forget it."

"Wei Shengkai!" Sun Shangqing roared, "When did you become so unruly?"

"I've always been so reckless." Wei Shengkai rolled his eyes at him, "Half-hearted, indecisive, contradictory and furious, a wayward person like me, why does he like me?"

"Because he thinks the most annoying part of you is the cutest. How? He finally feels better?"

"He's good at all, but I'm not good. Why do you keep matching us up? It's hurting him!"

"How come? I think he's happy! The point is, you're obviously happy too, so why be so stubborn!"

"How are you sure he's right for me?"

"Because he can definitely take good care of you."

Wei Shengkai didn't speak or smile, this time he really wanted to leave, walked out of the starry night silently, and lit another cigarette irritably.

He got into his own car, but didn't drive away in time. The dull pain in his abdomen came from time to time, but he didn't bother to pay attention to it. He suddenly felt in a bad mood, and his mind kept thinking about the picture of going to the airport in the morning, okay, In fact, he was thinking about Yan Junxi, and he kept thinking about it after sending him away. His head hurt and his heart became anxious, and then he became irritable for no reason.

This is the concern, this is the burden, but he can do nothing about it, because he can't say the words that he is not allowed to leave...

Why doesn't he know not to let the opportunity slip away again, but no one can understand his fear.There is always a black hole in his love that cannot be filled, and it reminds him of his despair of love all the time.

In the past, that person also made a solemn promise to him: "Sheng Kai, I will never leave you."

"I do not believe."

"If I lie to you, I shall die badly."

"You thought you were filming?"

"Because you don't believe me, I have no choice but to swear."

"He who has no faith swears."

"I just like how you're different."

"I hate your smooth tongue."

When did you start to become as glib as that person?He remembered that he didn't seem to be so smart before, when did he start to hate himself so much?

"You don't count your words..."

"Yeah, so I have to die..."`

"I won't let you die!"

"I don't want to die either. If I die, who will take care of you? If you don't know how to take care of yourself, if I die, who will take care of you... Sheng Kai, learn to take care of yourself, please, don't let me I'm worried, okay..."

"not good......"

No, no, he has never been able to take care of himself, nor does he want to take care of himself.He remembered why he became like this, it was because of that person's dishonesty, when he mistakenly thought that love seemed to be able to stay together, he lost it forever.

"His death was not your fault at all." Sun Shangqing once said to him at that time.

"Whose fault is that?" At that time, he got drunk every night, and only Sun Shangqing was by his side.

"It's not your fault!" Sun Shangqing just missed punching him to wake him up.

"It's my fault...if only I could give him a little more..."

If only I could give him a little more love, he loves me with his life, but what have I given him?I couldn't give equal love, couldn't give him the sincerity he longed for, and it was only after he died that I saw my own cruelty. `

I can't love him, but Junxi, I love you...so don't promise me, and don't tell me that you love me, because I don't have the courage to take it, and I don't care as much as I look.

He's dead, I can't even give a single tear, but I just thought you were about to collapse when you died, so I knew that if you really died, there would be no point in living for me.

Why do you think of these annoying things again?Why does Yan Junxi become so anxious when he leaves?His previous chicness had been shattered by the crash, and all his pretentious calm gradually became impossible to pretend.

Wei Shengkai was lying on the steering wheel, his stomach hurt so badly that he didn't even have the strength to take out the car keys, his shirt was almost soaked in sweat, he bit his pale lip and couldn't help cursing in his heart: Damn it!Why do you always feel uncomfortable when Yan Junxi is not around?

"Brother Kai!" Yu Jie's voice came in panic, and the car door was opened immediately.

"I knew there must be something wrong with your car that hasn't moved." Even Sun Shangqing appeared.

Wei Shengkai just wailed with a pale face: "Oh, my stomach hurts and I want to go to the bathroom."

"It's best just like this." Sun Shangqing grabbed him and was about to pull him out of the driver's seat. Wei Shengkai suddenly clasped his arm, his sweaty and pale face shocked the two of them.

"If you dare to send me to the hospital, I will break up with you!"

"You and I are wayward!"

"It's not capricious, it's serious!"

Wei Shengkai bent down, the abdominal pain had eased, he took a few deep breaths, raised his head and resumed smiling, but the smile was obviously weak.

"It doesn't hurt anymore, I can go to the toilet now."

"Wei Shengkai!" Sun Shangqing gritted his teeth, really wondering if there was something wrong with him?

"Don't make a fuss! I'd rather have diarrhea than constipation." Wei Shengkai calmly got out of the car, and walked back to the starry night, as if he was really going to squat in the toilet.

Yu Jie looked at his back worriedly, and then at Sun Shangqing.

"Shang Qing..."

"That's what he is."

That's the way you are, and you'll kill yourself if you're not frank!Sheng Kai, do you want to be like that person and let Yan Junxi's heart break for you?