out of control relationship

"That's how it is."

Wang Yihong, who heard Qin Yuan narrate the whole process, simply didn't know what expression to use to face it.

"I said you," he put down the bamboo stick in his hand to boil the tripe, and poked Qin Yuan with his finger on the temple, "you never discuss this kind of decision with others?"

Qin Yuan put the can of Coke on the table heavily—since he had some subtle feelings about Qin Shuobei after drinking last time, he made a serious decision to resist getting drunk in the future—suffering and said, “There is nothing wrong with discussing with him.” use."

Of course, when he said this, he was a little uncertain. To be honest, in his heart, he never put Qin Shuobei on the same level as him. This was not a contempt for human dignity, but an overbearing desire for protection.

Yes, Qin Shuobei is no longer a child.He corrected his established concepts in his heart, but he still couldn't accept that the other party would be equal to him one day, and even... held him in his arms like an adult.

As if protecting him.

"Let's put it this way," Wang Yihong tugged his trouser legs and changed his sitting position, "You think this matter has nothing to do with him, it's from your point of view, but if you change to his point of view, he becomes you, he doesn't Your dear brother, but you don't even go to school because of you, what kind of favor do you think this is?"

"It's not good or bad in itself, it's even beneficial to you, but do you have any psychological burden? Do you feel that you owe him your whole life and can't hold your head up in front of him?"

Qin Yuan didn't speak.

"Qin Yuan, don't you look so good that your face is so big that your brain is only as big as a walnut kernel?" Wang Yihong was heartbroken. Is it gone?"

"He..." Qin Yuan suddenly turned his eyes away, "He came over and hugged me."

Wang Yihong was stunned for a while, and then said after a pause: "Then, then you... hug him too?"

Qin Yuan immediately looked at him as if he was insane.

Qin Shuo finished his high school entrance examination and started to study at home during the summer vacation. Because he is talented and hardworking, skipping a grade at the beginning of school is probably a certainty.

He also arranges his time meticulously during the holidays, and more importantly, he can strictly follow this schedule. In Qin Yuan's view, this rationality and restraint can be called a monster at his age.

When Qin Yuan returned home worried, he had just repaired the light bulb on his balcony that broke during a thunderstorm, referring to a reference book borrowed from the library, full of labyrinth-like circuit diagrams.

He watched Qin Yuan enter the door, but without saying a word, he went to the refrigerator and poured him a glass of mung bean water.

Qin Yuan yelled in his heart, fuck it, come again.

It's really gone.

He didn't care that Qin Shuobei's back was facing him, he went up and grabbed his clothes until Qin Shuobei turned around and looked at him.

Qin Yuan opened his mouth, "Can you turn around?"

There was a hint of doubt in Qin Shuobei's eyes, but he did as he did.He never thought much about Qin Yuan's words, obedience was his instinct.

"Can you spread your hands?"

Qin Shuobei did as well.

"Can you stop moving?"

He looks at him.

He hugged him.

Qin Shuobei looked straight ahead, there was nothing there, but he didn't know what he saw, maybe it was a rare thing he had never seen in this world, or maybe it was the most exciting scenery.

"Can you... stop being angry." Qin Yuan said.

If he had to describe what it feels like to be soft-hearted, he thought, every word of this person is a soft dagger, which can kill him.

His heart was about to melt, he was so weak that it would break if he touched it lightly, but he wanted this person to touch him; he didn't dare to open his mouth, for fear that the intrusive conversation would make Qin Yuan let go and make this hard-won The tenderness faded too soon and too soon.

He still craves, craves, wants more.

Then, he had a bold idea.

"Decided to do this" didn't take a few seconds, and the rest of the time he was looking for reasons to polish this behavior. Before all the good aftertaste dissipated, he put his hands around Qin Yuan's shoulders and put his lips behind his ears and neck He dawdled lightly, "Don't be angry."

Sure enough, before he got used to the sudden crazy heartbeat, Qin Yuan drew back as if being stabbed. His complexion was fair, and it was difficult to hide the changes on his surface when he was emotional, so Qin Shuobei clearly saw him blushing. He wiped his hand on his neck, seemingly disapproving, but his face was extremely vividly red, and even the slender eyelashes and rolling Adam's apple could be clearly seen.

Qin Shuobei knew in his heart that the scale of his movements had to be absolutely in place, it was not only like a child's unintentional act when he was acting like a baby, but also like an ambiguous hint of those feelings that had been suppressed for a long time.But Qin Yuan couldn't figure out what was wrong with him at all. The feeling of being touched by the other party once again disturbed his thinking, but he wasn't sure if it was a "kiss" or not, and his whole body was in a mess.

"Brother?" Qin Shuobei looked at him for a long time, "Are you... a bit sunstroke?"

"...No." Qin Yuan lowered his eyes and waved his hand away, his face turned red all the way to his neck, and the unexplainable heat seemed to spread under his thin collar, "I forgot to drink the water you poured, This memory."

As a result, he went to the bathroom in a particularly inappropriate manner.

Qin Shuobei stood where he was, wanted to laugh but didn't dare to laugh, so he could only clenched his hands into fists to his mouth and coughed pretendingly.

He was really a little angry with Qin Yuan, but the reason was not only because of the conflict of the previous two days, but also because of the long-simmering anxiety.

Why does he still not know what he thinks of him?

Is it because their relationship is so complicated, spanning the entanglements of two generations, so those taboo loves cannot be produced, and there is no room for negotiation?

After all, Qin Shuobei is a teenager at heart, so he just doesn't believe in this evil.

He doesn't think he is a scheming person, but most of his thoughts are spent on Qin Yuan, and dependence is as inseparable as a certain part of life. There are worship, awe, and nostalgia in this love. , There are also some desires that come from male instincts, just like love always makes people feel irrational, this is very likely to be a chemical reaction generated in the human heart, and it is not transferred by subjective consciousness.

He had to do something about it.

Whether it is explicit or metaphorical, it is good to let Qin Yuan understand. In fact, he even has a kind of blind self-confidence, thinking that Qin Yuan will definitely not turn against him. He is no longer so sensitive to other people's emotions. Try to make changes and compromise without realizing it.

Just like this time, he chose to fight Qin Yuan at a risk. In the end, he never expected that Qin Yuan would take the initiative to seek peace with him.

He's done so much for him, and he has no reason to let go.