i love you after all

I am probably the most failed person in ANT.

I envy Jiang Yanran because she has a wealthy and powerful family, and I also envy Danjin because she has one of the most beautiful faces.Although they each have their own unspeakable difficulties, God always gave them a good side.I have no family background, I am not so beautiful that people are amazed, and I am always the last one in the group, and I am often too inferior to lift my head.

The more inferior I am, the more I want to show off.Just like the softer the meat, the sharper the thorns.

And the only time that made me feel that I wasn't so bad was when I met Danqian.

The first time I saw Xiaoqian, she was a six or seven-year-old girl, as delicate and cute as a little glutinous rice ball.Danjin pulled the short girl to me and Captain Jiang, and introduced to us: "This is my sister, Xiaoqian."

Xiaoqian, what a nice name.Like her people, she gives people a slight and gentle feeling.

Xiaoqian stared at me closely, and after a while, she took the initiative to come over, and held my index finger with her tender little hand, "Sister, you are so beautiful."

When she saw Dan Jin and Jiang Yanran, she was able to tell me, you are so pretty.You know, whenever the three of us appear at the same time, most people's eyes will fall on the other two.

At that moment, I suddenly believed in my heart that perhaps such a person really existed, and in the eyes of this person, I was better than thousands of other things.

At first, she slept with Dan Jin.Later when Chuqiu came, the little girl who had suffered so much seemed to become the center of Danjin. When Danjin was at home, she only slept with Chuqiu.Danjin seems to think that a child as sensible as Xiaoqian doesn't need her to care more.

But that night, there was a sudden knock on my door.Xiaoqian just stood at the door holding the quilt so pitifully, and said in a low voice: "Sister Xue'er, I can't sleep alone."

I ushered her in and let her lie in my arms.After turning off the light, I hugged her limp body and asked distressedly, "You can't sleep by yourself, why didn't you tell Xiaojin?"

"My sister has worked hard to take care of Chu Qiu, I don't want to worry her anymore."

I hugged her tightly and said, "Then Xiaoqian won't be able to sleep in the future, so come to me."

She hummed.

Since then, she has really come to me every night, asking me to hug her to sleep.This is a secret that only she and I know, even Xiao Jin doesn't know, her beloved sister falls asleep in my arms every night.

Xiaoqian always said softly in my arms: "Sister Xue'er, you are really the best person in the world."

I was silent for a while, and replied, "Xiao Qian is the best person in the world."

Yes, she is so sensible, so gentle, and considerate of everyone's emotions all the time.She doesn't have the indifference of Dan Jin who rejects people thousands of miles away, but she has a face that is as inhuman as Dan Jin. She seems to be a person who perfectly combines the advantages of Jiang Yanran and Dan Jin. She grows up Yes, she must be the best girl in the world.

When Dan Qian was 16 years old, I became more certain about this idea.

She was so beautiful, beautiful and soft, I never saw a better girl than her.This is a lucky thing, but for me, it also represents some misfortunes.

Once the sea was too difficult for water.I can't like anyone anymore.

The only thing I can do is wait, when she grows up, when she is old enough to fall in love with me, I want her to be my girlfriend.If she also happens to like me and everything goes well, then I will take her abroad and marry her.

I believe she likes me.On her 16th birthday, I gave her a bracelet with tiny diamonds and gave her a soft kiss on the right cheek.Her ears turned red, and she said in a voice that only I could hear: "Sister Xue'er, do you know a city without guards?"

I couldn't understand what she said. Like Dan Jin, she had read too many sour books, and she couldn't make sense of what she said.But I can roughly understand the blush on her cheeks.

I always put my thoughts into the jokes, and every once in a while, I would play with her and say: "Xiaoqian must be my girlfriend when she grows up."

She always responded with a joking tone.

"Okay, be your girlfriend."

I'm not a serious person. In the eyes of others, it's normal for me to joke around, so I always say these things to her openly in front of everyone. I like to see her and she agrees to me openly. , as if this is equivalent to making a promise to each other.

But something was wrong. After she got older, she suddenly became cold towards me.

During that time, she was very ill and fell into a coma at home several times. Dan Jin pushed all the announcements and stayed with her in the hospital.I also tweeted all the announcements, but as soon as I sat next to her bed, her big smile faded away and she didn't say a word.

I heard Dan Jin talk about her illness, but I could only comfort her: "Xiao Qian, you will be fine."

She just smiled bitterly and ignored me.

I talked to her a lot, about interesting things I encountered at work, and wanted to make her happy.But she smiled perfunctorily and didn't respond much.

Later, she was still very kind to me, but that kind of kindness obviously changed.For example, she still puts two chicken legs in the meal she cooks for me, but she will put the same two chicken legs in the meal for Chu Qiu.It wasn't like this before, they all had one before, but I was the only one who could get two.

I seem to have miscalculated, I always feel that Xiaoqian will like me when she grows up, but she seems to care less and less about me.Even the diamond bracelet that she never left her body is gone now.

After returning from the island, Danjin and Chuqiu went to the new crew, and Team Jiang also had their own schedule.I took a vacation with the company for a period of time, and wanted to spend some time with Xiaoqian while she was still on summer vacation.

I stayed at home all day like a fool, just hoping to talk to her, but she ran out every day, meeting friends today and meeting classmates tomorrow, but she just didn't stay with me.

Until one day, she came back from outside and told me gently while changing her shoes:

Sister Xueer, I'm in love.

I looked into her eyes with a smile and said, it's a lie.

She came to me and sat down gently, looking at me softly, "I am with her, you will be very satisfied, she is a very good person."

I laughed even deeper: "How good is it?"

She was silent for a moment and said, "She is the best in the world."

I stood up abruptly, grabbed Xiaoqian's thin wrist, and dragged her upstairs.

Aunt Mei is still in the kitchen, I don't want her to see me lose my composure.

"What are you doing? Let me go..."

Xiaoqian struggled hard, but she was not weak, she had no strength at all, she could only be dragged behind me forcefully, followed me upstairs and into my room.

I slammed the door hard and yelled at her, "Why are you in a relationship!"

With red eyes, Xiao Qian said softly, "I like her..."

"You can't like her!"

I was so angry that I breathed hard, and my chest heaved violently. After a long time, I finally let myself relax from the hypoxic state, and the anger in my head also calmed down a lot.I let out a long breath and tried to soften my voice: "Xiao Qian, please, don't like her."

Xiaoqian's eyes were even redder, and the tears in them became moist.

"If you like her, what should I do?" I looked at the ground with a sore nose.

"Sister Xue'er, don't say that, I can't help it..."

Xiaoqian's tears slid down her cheeks, and she looked at me with gloomy pain in her eyes.

"Can't help it? Can't help but slap me?" I smiled bitterly, let go of her wrist, and took two steps back unsteadily, "I'm not afraid that you know what I'm thinking, I just hate you for not I knew it earlier. I have been waiting for you for so many years, and this is the result, what should I do?"

She deeply forgot about me, said nothing, turned around and wanted to leave.

"Xiao Qian, if you leave now, don't regret it."

Her figure paused for a moment, then hastily opened the door and left.

I have already threatened her like this, but she still left.

She should really like that person.The best person in the world for her.

I didn't have the courage to step out again, I was afraid that when I got downstairs, I would see Xiaoqian bring that person back and make love to me.Sitting in the room blankly, with nothing to do, I was crying like crazy.

I pulled a case of beer from under the bed and poured can after can into my mouth.I drank in a hurry, because I know that only people who drink in a hurry can get drunk easily.

There is one more thing I haven't had time to tell her yet.

Small shallow.

I am the city without guards.

The author has something to say: ["Winning a heart that has never been in love is equivalent to entering a city without guards." from Dumas fils "La Traviata"]

If I have to write one of Danjin and Danqian, who do you want?