Watching you quietly outside the window

Lan Yeniang hurried home by bike. This time Wang Yi did it too intensely, which made him sore and weak from the waist to the legs. In winter, it is getting colder and colder outside, especially at night, when the bitter cold wind It can penetrate through the coat and into the skin, making Lan Ye shiver uncontrollably.He put on the white gloves Chen Jun bought for him. At this moment, snowflakes fell in the sky.The first snow of winter falls silently like this. The first snowflakes that fall melt into small dots similar to the ground on the ground, and then are blown dry by the wind. Maybe Yue is eager to come to this world. The easier it is for snowflakes to disappear, just like people, the more concerned people are, the easier it is for them to disappear...As the snowflakes gradually become denser, snow begins to accumulate on the ground.Facing the wind, a few cold snowflakes cut on the face like blades, and there were waves of stinging pain on the cheeks.He lowered his head as much as possible, so that the snow hit his face as little as possible.When he rode down the apartment building, his hands and feet were numb from the cold, and his face was aching from the cold. He couldn't help but think of Chen Jun's hands, which were always so warm, touching his face when he felt cold or helpless. His hands clenched.

When Lan Ye went up the stairs, he had to hold on to the railing. His lower body had almost no strength at all. When he reached the top floor, he was exhausted. He grabbed the protrusion on the door with one hand to support his body, and took out the key with the other to open the door.A beam of light came from the house, and the living room was lit.Lan Ye quickly opened the door, and couldn't help being stunned for a moment. He saw Chen Jun wearing a light brown pajamas standing in the entrance, looking at him with a smile. The smile was as warm as the sun shining on him. Worrying, I just felt my body leaning forward involuntarily, and then suddenly fell into Chen Jun's arms.

Chen Jun hugged him tightly, stroked his body that had not yet cleared off the snow and his wet and cold hair, and then said in a low voice: "I miss you so much!" His breath was so deep, warm breath When it reaches Lan Ye's neck and earlobe, it is so warm, so unbearable...

After a long time, Chen Jun let go of Lan Ye and said to him: "I made dinner." Only then did Lan Ye notice a table of dishes on the dining table.

"You seem to have lost weight. I guess you can't eat well when I'm not around, so I cook more." Chen Jun smiled at him, and there was something else hidden in his eyes besides the gentle look, that was Doubt and sadness.It was the first time he showed such an expression, which made Lan Ye panic and uneasy.

"Lan Ye." Chen Jun said, "You're so late..." He stopped suddenly after speaking, he seemed to be thinking, and then took a deep breath, "Change your clothes first." He asked Lan Ye to stand at the door , Then he brushed off the unmelted snow with a brush.

At this time, the two seemed to have guessed the other's mind, but they were trying their best to cover it up.Chen Jun didn't know what would happen if the concealed truth was revealed, but he felt that if he said what he wanted to say, the thing that had worried him for a long time would happen sooner or later.

Lan Ye went to the bedroom and changed into his pajamas and came out. He turned up the collar of the pajamas and buttoned it to the top.In fact, the room was quite warm. Chen Jun only wore a long-sleeved single shirt, while Lan Ye covered her tightly, as if she was afraid of the cold.His body was thinner than before, and the clothes seemed to be hanging loosely around his thin body. Chen Jun felt distressed for a while, he thought, there is no need to ask, if he doesn't say something, there must be something unspeakable , why force him so...

Lan Ye seemed very cautious when eating, and glanced at Chen Jun from time to time. Half an hour passed, and he still hadn't finished a bowl of rice.Chen Jun frowned, "Do you think it tastes bad?"

"Delicious." Lan Ye buried her head and said, unable to see the expression.

"Lan Ye, is there something wrong with you?"

Lan Ye's chopsticks stopped for a moment, then shook his head.

"I feel that your complexion is not good..." Before finishing speaking, Lan Ye choked and coughed wildly.Chen Jun hurriedly went over to help him pat his back, then put his hand to his mouth and said, "Lan Ye, spit it out, just spit it out..." Lan Ye ran to the toilet choking, and spit it into the sewer inside.

He coughed for a long time before he gradually calmed down.Chen Jun poured him a cup of hot water for him to drink, and then they sat on the sofa, Chen Jun asked, "Is it better?" Lan Ye nodded, with some tiny beads of sweat on his forehead.

"Did you... have a fever?" Chen Jun stroked his forehead, it was cold, he stroked his hair wet with sweat, and then kept stroking the delicate contours of his face, he heard Lan Ye's voice The panting gradually became heavy, and he smiled and said, "I haven't seen you for a few days, are you so sensitive?" Chen Jun slowly moved his hand down his face, and looked at him lovingly.Lan Ye raised his eyelids, his eyes seemed to be ablaze with desire, making his eye sockets blurry, Chen Jun kissed his forehead, lightly pecked his tall and straight nose bridge, and slid the kiss to the corner of his lips, tenderly At the beginning, Lan Ye was very active, he put his hands around Chen Jun's neck subconsciously, closed his eyes, and kissed Chen Jun intoxicatedly, his eyelids trembled slightly, moaning and exhaling from his two thin Leaked between the lips.Chen Jun wrapped one arm around his slender waist, supported his head with the other, and kissed him more deeply.Lan Ye began to resist, he frowned, his lust dropped suddenly, as if he suddenly woke up from some kind of panic, Chen Jun went to unbutton his clothes, Lan Ye pushed Chen Jun like an electric shock, and looked at him in a panic. Then moved his body.At this time, a button on his pajamas had been unbuttoned, and the exposed collarbone was printed with spots of bright red. Lan Ye quickly buttoned up the button. At that moment, Chen Jun's head was empty, and he felt his heart beating suddenly. He stared blankly at Lan Ye, inexpressibly shocked and panicked.Lan Ye didn't say anything, but lowered her eyes slightly.He saw some crystal teardrops hanging on his slender and thick eyelashes like smoke willows, and felt an indescribable sadness in his heart.Chen Jun forced himself to forget the scene he saw just now, and deceived himself that he didn't see anything. He didn't want to force Lan Ye, and he didn't want to see him sink into a sad or even depressed expression. It shattered and disappeared into the air.But why did he do that?Why doesn't he say anything?

That night, Chen Jun went to the living room to draw a line draft, and Lan Ye fell asleep after finishing his homework.Chen Jun stayed up until two o'clock in the morning. He was really sleepy, so he washed up a bit, and then quietly walked to the bedroom.Lan Ye curled up her body, her closed eyes seemed to be trembling slightly, as if she was dreaming.Chen Jun lifted the quilt lightly and lay down on the bed. Lan Ye suddenly reached into Chen Jun's quilt to look for Chen Jun's hand, but he didn't sleep.Chen Jun hugged Lan Ye into his bed, Lan Ye closed his eyes, but put his arms on Chen Jun's chest, and turned sideways.Chen Jun hugged him even tighter.

It was still snowing outside the window, and the strong wind whizzed through the residential buildings and corridors, making some weird and distorted sounds, and the fluttering snowflakes shone under the dim street lights, like countless silver butterflies...

Chen Jun had a dream, he dreamed that the blue night turned into snowflakes and floated to the ground, the ground was muddy and dirty, Chen Jun couldn't bear him to let him fall into the mud, he chased desperately, finally caught him in his hand, and Lan Ye's body gradually melted into water vapor in his hands, and then was dried by the cold wind.When Chen Jun woke up, he found that he was crying. He subconsciously looked at Lan Ye. He was sleeping soundly in Chen Jun's arms without making a sound, like a cute kitten.Chen Jun couldn't help stroking his soft hair gently.

In the morning, when the snow stopped, Chen Jun shivered when he opened the window.It was a vast expanse of whiteness outside, and the snow on the ground could touch the ankles visually, and the snowflakes reflected the light under the morning light, which was a bit dazzling.

When Chen Jun was making breakfast, Lan Ye had already dressed and walked out of the bedroom.He took out a pack of cigarettes from under the coffee table and walked to the balcony.He was wearing a white nightgown, and he was as white as snowflakes in the morning scene full of snow.

Some snow on the road has been cleared by the urban management, but the snow is super unclean, there are uneven ice everywhere, riding a bicycle is very strenuous, Chen Jun let Lan Ye ride in front, ride to a slope, Lan Ye suddenly from the ice The edge of the ground forked over and nearly fell.He put his hands on the ground, and the gloves were stained with black mud. Chen Jun asked, "Does it hurt?" Lan Ye shook his head, and Chen Jun said, "If you buy black gloves, it won't be so obvious." Lan Ye turned around and rushed Chen Jun smiled lightly, and then continued to ride forward.

When you ride to the intersection next to the school, the indicator light in front turns red.Lan Ye pulled the brake and stopped.Chen Jun thought about it quickly in his mind, and then asked Lan Ye: "Do you still eat leftovers from others for lunch?"

Lan Ye glanced at him, said nothing, just acquiesced.

Chen Jun asked again: "How about this, I have enough time for lunch break, how about I wait for you to have dinner together at noon?"

Lan Ye turned her head, hesitated for a moment, and then said lightly: "Come directly to you?"

At this time, the indicator light turns green.

Chen Jun said: "Let's call."

Lan Ye nodded, rode forward, and disappeared into the crowd.

At noon, the ground was completely covered with black muddy water. Chen Jun rode his bike to the crossroads and saw Lan Ye was already standing there waiting. He didn’t ride the bike. The white down jacket was shining in the warm afternoon sun, and it looked very pure. thin.

Chen Jun rode over, Lan Ye noticed him, and turned his gaze.Chen Jun stopped beside him, pulled his collar up, and covered his cheeks that were a little red from the cold.Lan Ye smiled lightly.At that moment, Chen Jun felt heartbroken.

He suspects Lan Ye, but every time he sees only the real him, he doesn't know if it's Lan Ye's nature that hides too deeply and deceives him, or if Lan Ye really has some unspeakable difficulties, why does he keep it a secret? I?

Lan Ye himself is not very talkative. After returning from Chen Jun's business trip, he seems to be more silent, and he smokes more frequently than before. Chen Jun told him not to smoke so much, and then Lan Ye showed that faint expression full of sadness and helplessness. Smile.The balcony was not turned on for heating, so it was basically the same temperature as the outside. Lan Ye breathed out a deep mouthful of smoke, his thin body was wrapped in smoke and breath, and his eyes were once again filled with extremely sad and depressed eyes. He always put his clothes on Wrapped so tightly that no skin could be seen, he seemed to have already sensed that the end was approaching step by step, and his pale face became more and more haggard day by day.Lan Ye snuffed out the burnt cigarette butt, quietly raised her eyes, took a deep breath, and said to Chen Jun: "Ah Jun, let's go back to the house." It was blown away so that there was no wisp left, but Chen Jun was nostalgic for it.He didn't speak much, but every sentence contained infinite affection, Chen Jun could feel it, which made him feel even more heartbroken and confused.When Lan Ye looked at Chen Jun with his hazy light-colored eyes, Chen Jun just wanted to hug him and hold him tightly in his arms. Chen Jun didn't believe it was an illusion of lies, Every breath and heartbeat of Lan Ye is so real, he really doesn't want to lose him.