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Yan Langzhao raised his hands and said in a relaxed tone: "I declare again that the doctor and I have not interfered with your memory."

Yanchun took the pillow and pressed it against her body, "Uncle Yan, I believe in you."

"So now there are only two possibilities - you have a cognitive bias about the relationship during that time, Jing Hanyu thinks it's a relationship, but you think it's just him taking care of you; your memory is missing before you go abroad. "

Yanchun rubbed the short tassels on the pillow, but said nothing.

Yan Langzhao said again: "But no matter what it is, you can only find the answer if you two have a good talk."

Yan Chun looked up, frowned, full of worries, "I thought you could give me the answer."

Yan Langzhao shrugged his shoulders, and said with a smile: "In the end, my role was only to rule out one possibility for you."

After finishing speaking, Yan Langzhao changed his tone and became more cautious, "This is a private matter between the two of you, you must be aware that talking to him is the best solution, but you are avoiding it."

Being told about the central matter, Yanchun pressed the corner of her lower lip.

Yan Langzhao said, "What are you worried about?"

"I..." Yan Chun subconsciously squeezed a corner of the pillow, and finally said: "Uncle Yan, Jinghanyu is the most special person to me, I dare not approach him, worried that one day I will lose control Stop yourself and hurt him."

Yan Langzhao frowned.

"The reason why I found myself liking him was when we were kidnapped together in the second year of high school. I crawled up to him and licked the blood on his neck."

Yan Chun felt a torrent rushing through his veins, and the memories of more than ten years ago easily excited him, "I will listen to you and go with you because of him."

The first time Yan Langzhao heard Yan Chun's confession, he couldn't help asking: "You said at the time that you wanted to become a normal person."

Yanchun's eyes were filled with a calm and sad light, "Because of him, I want to become a normal person."

Yan Langzhao raised his eyebrows.

He clearly remembered what happened ten years ago.

The investigation center was just established that year, and he and other experts went to various parts of the country to assist the local police in solving serious cases.

In the case of Yan Shengping in Tongti Town, he found that the child Yan Chun was different from his peers, and the brief communication made him more convinced that Yan Chun had inherited part of Yan Shengping's criminal personality.

But Yan Chun is very different from Yan Shengping. He still has good intentions, and he will work everywhere for his sick brother, and he studies in key high schools with good grades.

If it is properly guided and controlled, Yan Chun will not follow the old path of Yan Shengping.

At that time, Yan Langzhao had the idea of ​​taking Yanchun away, but he couldn't find a reasonable reason.

He can't deprive Yan Chun of his freedom just because Yan Shengping is a murderer.

But what Yan Langzhao didn't expect was that after just a few months, he came to Huancheng again because of the case, and this time Yanchun became the number one suspect.

He went to the scene with the trace inspector, read all Yanchun's interrogation records, and found that although Yanchun's testimony was inconsistent, it was caused by mental disorder, not deliberate lying.

The black shadow that Yan Chun mentioned really exists.

There is a deliberate person with superb anti-reconnaissance skills who is secretly influencing Yanchun and people like Yanchun.

The way the boy said with red eyes, "I want to avenge Xiao Hai" deeply hurt Yan Langzhao.

He asked, "How are you going to avenge your friend?"

Yan Chun shot a gloomy and crazy gaze, "It's like he killed Xiao Hai!"

Yan Langzhao shook his head, "But if you do that, you will also become a murderer, just like your father."

Yan Chun's expression froze, and he didn't speak for a long time.

Yan Langzhao asked, "Are you like Yan Shengping?"

Tears suddenly appeared in Yan Chun's eyes, and the gloom disappeared, like a lost child, "I don't want to...but I'm not normal, it's Yan Shengping's blood...I want to be like them!"

They refer to normal people, those classmates in No. [-] Middle School.

Yan Langzhao understood, and began to talk about his plan.

The authority of the investigation center is higher than that of the local police. He can take away Yanchun and send Yanchun to receive systematic treatment, provided that Yanchun is willing.

At the end of this conversation, Yanchun did not agree.

Yan Langzhao and his colleagues have always paid attention to him and kept in touch.

Before summer was approaching, Yanchun finally took the initiative to find him, "Can you really make me a normal person?"

Scientific research pays attention to precision and objectivity, and Yan Langzhao can't give any guarantees, but he solemnly nodded to the young man's eager gaze, "We will do our best."

Yanchun was trembling all over, "Okay, then I'll go with you."

The arduous treatment process is vivid in his memory, and Yan Langzhao loves Yanchun as much as he loves his own child.

In terms of work, he has come into contact with many teenagers like Yanchun and tried to help them, but most of them are unwilling to receive treatment, and a few of them are willing to give up halfway because they cannot bear it.

Only Yanchun persisted with a strong will, even when he overcame Yan Shengping's "curse" hurdle, he did not give up.

Now Yanchun is an excellent consultant. In the four years since returning to China, he has helped the police solve many unsolved cases.

The innate monster did not make Yan Chun degenerate into a person like Yan Shengping, but turned into a pair of his wings.

Yan Langzhao has always known that Yanchun has a strong heart, and he had an extraordinary belief when he received treatment.

But he thought most of that belief came from Yu Xiaohai——Yan Chun had sworn to catch the murderer with his own hands.

But now, Yan Langzhao discovered that the person he regarded as a child still had deeper and more stubborn thoughts hidden in his heart.

"Jinghanyu, since we met in Feiye Village, it has influenced me."

Yanchun lowered her head and spoke very slowly, as if she was missing something.

"Before he showed up, all I saw were adults and children dressed in the same rags and dirt as me.

He got out of the car that day, wearing white clothes, his face was not dusty at all, clean and decent. "

Yanchun smiled, "I didn't know the word decent back then."

"Children are the most easily influenced. I chase him every day and want to play with him. I envy him and want to be as clean as him.

Before I knew it, he had already become a symbol of everything related to perfection in my subconscious mind. "

"I was dug out of the No. [-] Middle School in the first year of high school and had to change my name temporarily. I even had to use the same name as him."

"He's grown up, but he's better than when he was a kid.

Uncle Yan, do you think what kind of people are around me?Qiao Lan, hysterical, has long been driven crazy by Yan Shengping, Qiao Xiaoye has been ill since childhood, Yu Xiaohai is like me... Everyone has shortcomings, but Jing Hanyu has none. He not only has a love attraction to me, but also Makes me want to be a better person. "

"When you first told me about going abroad for treatment, I actually didn't listen at all.

I don't believe you, why do I have to be treated?I am like this, Sombra will definitely come to me again, and I will find a way to kill him. "

Having said this, Yanchun stopped and remained silent for a long time.

Yan Langzhao looked at him without urging him.

"But Jing Hanyu didn't seem to have anything happened. He gave me a lot of homework every day, saying that I wasted time and now I have to make up for it. I..."

Seeing Yanchun's rare mood swings, Yan Langzhao walked over and gently followed his back.

"I feel like I'm hopeless, I don't want to think about the college entrance examination or the future.

But he didn't give up on me, always saying that we could get into the same city. "

"I'm going crazy, every time he gets close to give me a lecture, I want to bite his flesh and taste his blood.

But I really want to take the college entrance examination as he said, and go to university with him. "

"He made me want to be a normal person, like him."

"But a monster like me, as long as I get close to him, I will hurt him one day."

Yan Langzhao said, "That's why you decided to come to me."

Yanchun closed his eyes and nodded slightly, "If I hadn't met him in Feiye Village, I might have died in that small northwest village.

If I wasn't in the same class as him, the goal I set for myself was to finish high school in the middle class.

If Xiaohai and Xu Qing broke up, he didn't stop me, if after Xiaohai was killed, he avoided me like a snake and a scorpion like other classmates, I... I would already be the next Yan Shengping. "

Yanchun smiled faintly, "He can always appear at every node that is enough to change me.

Uncle Yan, do you know how I got over it when I collapsed because of Yan Shengping at the beginning of the treatment? "

Yan Langzhao already had the answer in his heart, but he didn't speak.

Yanchun said: "I think, if I fail, I will be Yan Shengping. If I persevere, maybe I can become as clean and decent as the little boy who just arrived in Feiye Village."

Yan Langzhao sighed, "You came out."

Yanchun calmed down for a while, and covered his hot eyes with his hands, "You are right, I should have a good talk with him, that is our private matter.

But I dare not, since I reunited with him, I feel things are getting out of control.

He is not the same as before, and it is difficult for me to restrain my impulse towards him.

Last week, I hurt him.

If I keep going, I might do something irreparable. "

"Wait a moment."

Yan Langzhao interrupted, "What harm?"

Yanchun hesitated for a moment before saying, "I bit his wrist."

Yan Langzhao asked, "Is it serious?"

Yanchun shook his head and gesticulated on his wrist, "He invited me out, I can't help it."

Yan Langzhao calmed down and took a few steps, "Maybe the matter is not as serious as you imagined.

Since it was an invitation, at least he had a sense of proportion. "

Yan Chun was puzzled, "What?"

Yan Langzhao said, "Why do you insist on seeing this as harm, rather than a certain degree of release?"

Yan Chun opened his mouth.

That was indeed release, when he made that circle of marks on Jing Hanyu's wrist, he suddenly felt much more relaxed.

"Before you returned to China, the doctor told you that you control yourself well, but don't forget to release properly."

Yan Langzhao said, "Maybe Jinghanyu is helping you."

Yanchun couldn't sit still, "But..."

Yan Langzhao said, "You underestimated yourself.

Yanchun, let me ask you, how do you evaluate yourself now? "

Yan Chun didn't expect to encounter this problem, so he was stunned for two seconds and said: "I was born with a tendency to commit crimes, and when I was young, I often had the idea of ​​killing people, and I planned it many times.

After treatment, I can barely live like a normal person.

But if I relax, I'm likely to go back to the way I used to be. "

Yan Langzhao waited for a long time, "That's it?"

Yanchun nodded honestly, "Yes."

Yan Langzhao walked towards the grooming mirror in the corner of the office, "Come here."

Yanchun didn't know, but went in anyway.

Yan Langzhao stepped aside, only Yanchun was left in the mirror.

"A handsome lad."

Yan Langzhao laughed.

Under his relaxed tone, Yanchun also relaxed a little, "Uncle Yan."

"But this handsome young man has such a low awareness of himself that he underestimates himself!"

"Ok?"

Yan Langzhao said: "When he returned to China four years ago, Dr. Carton said that he was the strongest and brightest student, and he was fully able to take care of himself after the treatment.

After he returned to China, he worked under me and followed me through many serious cases. Although he was young, his consciousness and reaction were not inferior to those of experienced criminal police. "

Yan Chun looked at Yan Langzhao in surprise, this elite policeman who was also a master and father had never praised him so bluntly.

"He is outstanding in the analysis of criminal psychology, and he can always figure out the thoughts of criminals in a short time.

He didn't want to stay in the investigation center, but went to the grassroots for training, so he went to Lihai. "

Yan Langzhao continued: "Which important case in Li Hai does not include him? The most commendable thing is that Li Hai's brothers all like him very much, saying that he is the best consultant."

Yan Langzhao stared at Yanchun deeply, "But my excellent apprentice came to tell me that he barely looks like a normal person, and he may become like his father at any time."

Yanchun was speechless.

Yan Langzhao shook his head, "Why don't you believe in your excellence?"

"No."

"You still say no?" Yan Langzhao said, "You have placed too much psychological burden on yourself.

It is true that you always want to restrain yourself, but it is not a good thing to restrain yourself too much.

Your little friends are coming to your door, but you still hide. "

Yanchun hesitated, "I'm afraid..."

"Afraid of hurting him? But you are all adults, and you are still troubled by the troubles of your youth."

Yan Langzhao said: "You might as well try, open up your heart with him, and let your relationship develop."

Yanchun still had no confidence, "Really?"

Yan Langzhao's gaze calmed down, "If it's someone else, I wouldn't suggest this to you.

But since this person is your support in the most painful time, and you change for him, then I think you can trust him.

You don't trust yourself for a while, but you can trust him. "

Yanchun was silent for a long time.

Yan Langzhao added: "Looking at it from another angle, it's not that you hurt him, but that he is your shackles, he is restraining you."

To restrain, to shackle.

Yanchun suddenly looked up.

Yan Langzhao smiled gently, and there was the care and expectation of the elders in his eyes.

His throat was rough, "I see."

Came to the capital, although he didn't find the answer to the question in his heart, the long talk with Uncle Yan made Yanchun a little bit firmer, and he couldn't wait to go back to Lihai to see Jinghanyu.

But there is one more thing, which is also the purpose of his coming to the investigation center - Dan Wen, the boy who killed a college student and dressed his body as a dead leaf skeleton.

After Yan Chun finished speaking, Yan Langzhao folded his arms and pondered, "You judge that he might be bewitched, someone instigated him to commit a crime?"

Yanchun nodded, "He seemed to be afraid of something, and he only showed abnormalities in one interrogation.

Uncle Yan, he is very similar to me before.

If Sombra is still alive, he will definitely target people like me again. "

Yan Langzhao said: "In the past ten years, whenever a vicious juvenile delinquency occurred, we would track the shadow, but he seemed to have disappeared and never appeared again.

Rest assured, we have been paying attention and never give up.

If you have an idea, go ahead and do it. "

"By the way, it suddenly occurred to me just now that Black Shadow might be related to Yan Shengping."

Yan Chun has returned to normal, with sharp thinking and clear organization, "I have thought about it countless times, Yan Shengping has chosen to stop a long time ago, and has been living peacefully with Qiao Lan for a while, why suddenly kills again."

Yan Langzhao said, "He said it was because of you."

Yan Chun put his hands in his trousers, "That's right, it's because of me, but was he also instigated? That person instilled in him the concept of 'your son didn't inherit your advantages, he's worthless', and through him, come affect me."

It is not that the police did not analyze the two homicide cases ten years ago, but because of the lack of key connection points, they were not classified as related cases in the end.

"Before killing Yu Xiaohai, Soi Ying said that I am useless than Yan Shengping."

Yan Chun turned around, "He said that, which means that Yan Shengping was once driven by him."

Pausing for a few seconds, Yanchun slowly clenched his fists, "Yan Shengping is a pawn he used to stimulate me, and his target is me.

But... when did I provoke such a character? "

The author says:

Yan: Woohoo, he is really my white moonlight!

I'll go back to see Lao Gong in the next chapter