contradiction

?11-dream [dream]

[soldier commander]

【Captain Levi】

【Can you hear me? 】

This is how dreams appear without warning. They don’t give you any time to prepare. They sneak into your mind while relaxing in a deep sleep, disturb your mood, and make you fall continuously until you reach an abyss of unwillingness and pain. , until you are reduced to the same level as those miserable wandering spirits.

Levi looked at the smiling young man lying beside his bed, still looking like a kid, a little different from the man he saw during the execution, but full of inexplicable familiarity, he couldn't help but Say his name.

"E... Lun...?"

Then the boy smiled again, the moonlight shone on his young face, so beautiful and moving, so full of vitality, as if the execution that day was just a dream.

【I woke you up, sorry. 】

But there was no apology on Alan's face, he still smiled, a little mischievously. [I miss you so much, so I came to see you, will the captain be troubled?Captain...] He paused, and asked in a cautious tone 【...do you miss me a little bit? 】

what is this?Levi was a little stunned, he couldn't understand all this, so he just looked at the kid like this, and found that the smile on his face faded little by little, his lips were tightened so that it became a little pale, and he lowered his eyelids no longer Go to see him, said in a low voice.

【sorry. 】

Again.

Levi clutches the sheet over his lap, anxious.These three words again, sorry, sorry, sorry, why did you apologize to him, why didn't you look at his face and talk, why, why did you look sad.

He stretched out his hand to the boy but failed to touch it. His arm passed through Allen's body, and the world began to distort. The light of the moon filled the entire room. The dazzling brightness made Levi close his eyes, and the boy finally left His smile took his breath away, his whole body throbbed, his blood backed up, his heart stopped, and death took over his consciousness.There was only darkness in front of his eyes, his body fell all the way down but it seemed that there was a day when he didn't touch the ground at all, and then at this moment, someone held his hand, with a warm feeling and infinite vitality.

Levi felt his veins throbbing.

He opened his eyes, and Alan was holding his hand, spreading it upwards, stroking it with his fingertips little by little, counting the lines on it and chanting words.He stared at the boy's open and closed lips, trying to identify what he said, but to no avail, no sound came, and the only thing he could feel was the slight itch when the boy's fingers brushed against his palm , like a bug, penetrated the skin and penetrated deep into the body.

He raised his head, and the boy smiled at him, without a trace of negative emotion, without sadness or despair, just full of happiness that could almost overflow.

He opened his mouth to ask, but found that all this began to disappear again, the boy's smiling face was still there, it was preserved in the static time and gradually became blurred, a little panic began to rise, Levi took a step , speeding up until it turned into a run, he stretched out his hand to touch the boy's face, so close that he could almost feel the temperature from the skin.

But at the moment of contact, the boy's body quickly shattered, pieces turned into powder in front of him, and fell on his hands, shining in the moonlight, Levi watched them slip through his fingers Sliding down, blown by the wind where he could no longer catch up.

He closed his eyes and waited, waiting for the next time.

The young man was chained to the corner of the wall. He had various scars all over his body. The blood was all over the place. The wound was extremely hideous. While the flesh was turned outwards, there were signs of healing. In the whole room, there was only the sound of Allen's weak breathing.Levi looked at him, his muscles tensed uncontrollably, his hands began to tremble, his throat was dry and he couldn't make a sound.

He was already powerless to entangle the reason of all this, he just felt that the severe pain from his heart would tear him in half in the next second, there was no reason, and it had nothing to do with the loss of memory, it was just that this powerlessness was too clear at this moment , he felt compelled to hate himself.

The boy raised his head, his golden eyes shone strangely in the darkness, angry, desperate, resentful, and then met Levi's eyes.So these things became worse, the boy spoke, his voice hoarsely scratching his eardrums.

【why】

Allen struggled frantically, the sound of the chains colliding became louder, the wounds on the boy's body that had healed began to burst open, and the stench in the air seemed to be a murderous cockroach, devouring the sight of witnessing all this bit by bit. The human soul, but the boy didn't stop at all, he just wanted to rush towards Levi, he yelled, yelled.

【Why--! 】

【Why--! 】

【Why--! 】

Tears welled up from his eyes, with emotions and disordered spirits that could no longer be described in words, flowing continuously as if they could not stop, followed the struggling body and fell to the ground, and finally collapsed from exhaustion.

The light supported by the pain disappeared, and the boy was thrown aside like a dilapidated doll. His absent-minded eyes were still looking at him, but nothing could be reflected.Allen still asked him, but it seemed that he no longer wanted an answer.

This scene became a knife pierced into Levi's heart, so he could only start questioning himself.

why.

why.

Why exactly.

The last thing he saw in the dream was the time that still existed in his memory. It was the night when Allen was arrested. For some reason, he remembered that day very clearly. There was no sun, and the trees were mostly withered and yellow. Autumn is coming, and winter is coming day.It's just that no one can feel the cold, and everyone is immersed in the victory and cannot extricate themselves. They sing, dance, and vent their fear that has not been completely eliminated.

Then at such a time, the Allen he saw was avoiding such an ugly crowd, sitting on the cold grass, hiding his uneasiness about fate, spending his last free time alone.

Levi walked towards him, crossing the lake in front of the boy, he couldn't feel the cold touch, and walked forward stubbornly.

He just got close to Allen, 50 meters, ten meters, nine meters, three meters.

He stepped onto the lawn but didn't bring any water, his whole body was transparent, even the faint moonlight could pass through that day.He walked to the boy's side, and then, just like this sudden dream, he didn't give him a chance to prepare.

——The young man was wearing a military uniform, with wings of freedom spread out behind his back.He sat there quietly, with his head down, looking at his palm with eyes mixed with happiness and pain.And on the boy's palm, there was a metal coin lying on it, reflecting light directly.

Its shape is so familiar.

Familiar to the point of despair. ?