embrace the memory of youth

"Brother Liu Yu, come and hug me, please?"

I squinted at him, ignored him, and pretended not to hear.

"Hold me, please, just a few seconds," he begged.

"Go back, Xiaohong will definitely be worried if she has been out for a long time, she can't stand the stimulation anymore"

"Hold me and I'll go right away"

"Don't be like this, just take it as I beg you, go back quickly"

Seeing that I was indifferent, he hugged me back and blocked my mouth with his mouth. I pushed him away vigorously, and turned my back to him and said, "Don't show up again in the future. If you continue like this, I think I will leave You stay far away, go to a place where you can't find me, you should know that I am a person who will do what I say." After I finished speaking, I felt blood dripping from my heart, and then I said silently, Liu Bing is sorry, I love you.

After a period of silence, I heard the sound of closing the door before I slumped on the sofa weakly, and then wept again.

At night, I figured it was nothing, no one knew me, so I decided to look for Fourth Uncle, when the lights inside were brightly lit, and there were two voices, I boldly rang the doorbell, and it was Uncle Li who opened the door. I was very happy to appear and gave way to me very politely, while my fourth uncle was very surprised.

"Why are you here, kid?" Fourth Uncle said expressionlessly.

"Why can't I come here? How did I do something against my conscience? I'm afraid people will find out," I said angrily.

"Nephew, why are you talking to your fourth uncle like this, you have to control your emotions." Uncle Li said a word.

I glanced at him and said with a sneer, "A man like him should talk to him in such a tone, uncle, don't be fooled by his superficial skills."

"Your boy is becoming more and more indifferent, you go out now," the fourth uncle said angrily.

"Of course I'm going out after I've finished speaking. This place is full of hypocrites. You think I want to stay, it's disgusting." Before I finished speaking, my fourth uncle slapped me across the face. The pain made me understand clearly what happened just now. It's true, I touched my hot face and glared at him, while Uncle Li looked at us both in a daze.

"Liu Zhiye, thank you for your slap, breaking our uncle-nephew relationship, but I still have something to ask you."

"Nephew, don't talk about it, go back quickly, and come to look for your fourth uncle when his anger subsides." Uncle Li interrupted me, and I glared at him and said

"This matter has nothing to do with you, you get up"

"You let him talk," the fourth uncle said.

"Did Bingbing's father die because of you and Bingbing?"

"You came here today to ask this"

"Just answer yes or no"

"Yes, but..."

"Don't be, you murderer, murderer, why did you do this, why?" I yelled frantically.

"My nephew happened for a reason, don't just imagine it." Uncle Li hugged me into his arms and said comfortingly.

"Don't touch me, I suddenly feel so nauseous, since I slept with the person my uncle slept with, I can't live my life, I hate, I hate myself, there will be retribution, there will be retribution" I couldn't cry said.

"Yuzi, things are not as you imagined, don't be like this, fourth uncle feels uncomfortable seeing you like this, if you are unhappy, you can hit me, as long as you are happy"

"Get out, I don't want to see you again" I ran out of his villa and kept running until I couldn't run anymore.

A few days later, Uncle Li asked me to meet in the town. I was afraid that someone would recognize me, so we met in a coffee shop in the county seat.

"If you have anything to say, just say it." I spoke first.

He took a sip of his coffee and said lightly, "This coffee is really good."

"You asked me to come here to say this, if there is nothing else, I will go back." After I finished speaking, I was about to get up.

"Nephew, don't you want to know about your fourth uncle?" He said calmly.

"Then you can get straight to the point, don't talk about what's not there." I sat down again and listened to him quietly.

"I have known your uncle for almost 3 years. I still know what kind of person he is. I don't know whether to describe Bingbing's father's death as accident or reason. Because he was terminally ill, he took advantage of the problem and got a sum of compensation. "

"This should be just an excuse for him to shirk his responsibility."

"Don't you think it's necessary for your fourth uncle to tell such a lie? Bingbing's father and your fourth uncle are classmates. They have been friends since childhood. Your fourth uncle even told him that he likes men. Of course, he promised not to leak it. It is their common secret. They are very happy when Bingbing was born. Your fourth uncle treats Bingbing like his own son. Sometimes he is mistaken for liking him if he is good. Bingbing thinks he is better than his father, and even obsessed. I saw it in my eyes, but I didn't like it in my heart, so I arranged a blind date for him early on, but Bingbing still didn't give up, and begged your fourth uncle to take him away, but was severely rejected. Your fourth uncle said, never treat him like a son.”

"and then"

Uncle Li took a sip of coffee, and then said, "Then Bingbing told Xiaohong about his love for your fourth uncle, and Xiaohong cried and found Bingbing's father, but Bingbing's father forced Bingbing and Xiaohong to die. Married, who knew that tragedy would really happen”

"Then... are fourth uncle and Bingbing really together?"

"It shouldn't be. I was already with your fourth uncle at that time, otherwise how could I know everything about him?" When he said this, his eyes were obviously in a trance, which proved that he was lying.

Later, Liu Bing confessed to me that he was indeed with his fourth uncle, and his fourth aunt knew about their affairs. The fourth aunt hoped that Bingbing's father would stop them from being together, but Nai Bingbing was originally a very affectionate person, and because of the four Uncle was his first love, so he went against his father.

Later, the fourth uncle tried to persuade him to go on a blind date, and they can still have a relationship when they get married, so Bingbing obediently went on a blind date with Xiaohong. The fourth aunt thought that this would separate them, but one night she found that the fourth uncle and Bingbing were having sex on the bed. Bingbing’s father came over, along with Xiaohong. Of course, there was a firework battle. In the end, Liu Bing’s father died in exchange for Bingbing’s return, but Liu Bing’s father did suffer from cancer, and the fourth aunt also chose to divorce the fourth uncle. And informed Liu Jun of these things.

I finally understood the meaning of Liu Jun never stepping into the fourth uncle's villa during the Chinese New Year. In fact, I am in love with him and I have no right to criticize the fourth uncle. Maybe this is the tragedy of being gay.

In this regard, I also see the future of Liu Bing and I, each with his own destiny. Although the truth hurts people's hearts, I have to admit it.

A month later, I met Liu Bing at the door of my house. We were already about ten meters away, but we had never seen each other before. I was very pleasantly surprised when that familiar atmosphere appeared. I used to think that I didn’t love him, but that he was just a soul With physical sustenance, I tried my best to restrain my true thoughts, and said coldly, "What are you doing again?"

"I miss you. I miss you so much every day. I dare not go back to sleep until the lights in your room are turned off at night. I feel relieved to see you well." He has lost a lot of weight, and the bags under his eyes are much bigger than usual.

"Go back if there is nothing to do"

"Brother Liu Yu asked me to wait, I just want to take a good look at you"

"Go back after reading it, don't let Xiaohong worry"

"I'm afraid she won't live long. She vomits whatever she eats in the past few days, and the vomit is still bloodshot."

"Then why are you still here, go back and be with her quickly, don't come to me in the future, maybe I will leave in a few days"

"Don't, don't leave, or my life has no meaning"

Then we took a bath together, he left after eating, and I was the only one left in the room, some of which still smelled like him, I recollected it over and over again, let myself sleep, don’t wake up, back and forth if It's just a dream, don't wake up, the reality is very painful, I would rather not wake up.