embrace the memory of youth

In the dark night, I was awakened by the sound of knocking on the door. I opened the door excitedly, and my dad appeared at the door with a stern face. I felt so disappointed that I gave him a back view.

"You see that you are not a human being, a ghost is not a ghost, because of you, your brother's supermarket business is getting worse day by day, either find a woman to marry now and stop other people's mouths, or get out of the way, don't stay harm us here"

"Get married, huh... Dad, don't deceive yourself by now. I like men. This is an unchangeable fact. Now everyone knows, who would dare to marry me?"

"You are talking nonsense. There will never be such a person in our Liu family. You tell Dad, you are just speaking in anger." He pinched my chin with his hands and glared at me.

"I like men, I like Liu Bing, no matter how many times you ask me, you always get this answer." As soon as I finished speaking, he slapped me so hard that I was a little dizzy.

I raised my head and said unhurriedly, "I like men, I like Liu Bing." He slapped me down again, saying bitterly

"Shut up, if you dare to say such shameless words again, I will beat you once, until you don't say anything."

"I..." His hand fell on my face again when he was about to speak, I didn't cry or resist, I always thought it was what he should hit.

"Uncle, please don't hit me. It's all my fault. I seduced Brother Liu Yu. If you want to hit me, just hit me." Liu Bing suddenly ran in and grabbed my dad's hand and said.

"Get out, it's none of your business," my dad said, shaking off Liu Bing's hand.

"Bingbing, you go out, this is my father's business." I said to Liu Bing with a faint smile.

"Let's take on what's up together, Uncle, beat me as long as you're happy" Liu Bing knelt on the ground after saying that, seeing him like this, I pushed my dad away like crazy, and quickly helped Liu Bing up explain

"There is gold under the man's knees. I don't allow you to trample on yourself like this. He wants to hit me. It's because I'm his son. Why do you have nothing to do with it? Get out, you get out immediately"

Then my dad took a pole from the kitchen and hit me hard on the back with great force. I fell limp and fell on Liu Bing. Liu Bing hugged me outside, facing my dad with his body, but My dad is still merciless.

"Brother, you are going to beat them to death, it's time to stop." The fourth uncle suddenly appeared and snatched the pole from my father.

"Zhiye, tell me why I gave birth to such an unworthy bastard, even if he is killed, I can't vent my anger"

"Could it be that his sexual orientation is different? You are too traditional. There are many countries abroad that allow men to marry men. I tell you so much and you can't listen. You will be fine if you kill him. It’s not that you put your own life in it.”

"Death is death, and seeing him makes me upset"

"Okay, okay, don't look at him if you don't want to see him, I'll take you back to Liu Yue's place" My dad was coaxed and dragged away by the fourth uncle, and I and Bingbing were left in the room covered with injuries Hugged together, I didn't let him go that night, we hugged very tightly.

The next day I opened my eyes and he was staring at me with affection, I kissed him on the mouth habitually.

After he left, I washed it briefly and went to pay homage to my grandma. I knew I couldn't stay any longer. Xiaohong was right, because we would make Liu Bing's child unable to hold his head up in the future.

Half an hour later, I came to my grandma’s grave to say my last goodbye. When the tears rolled down my cheeks, I realized that these days have been exhausting. It’s not that I don’t love anymore, but that I can’t love anymore.

Back home, Liu Bing didn't know what was coming. Looking back, he thought that he forgot to lock the door, but when he saw me, he showed the most charming smile ever.

"Where did Brother Liu Yu go? If you are injured, stay at home and rest. Don't move around."

"I don't care about my health. I'm going to see my grandma. I'm hungry. I want to drink porridge with preserved egg and lean pork, braised eggplant in braised sauce, and fried pork from the farmhouse." I greedily said what I liked.

"I know you like to eat these. I went to the town to prepare the ingredients when I got up in the morning. I guess the porridge is ready now, so I can eat it after washing my hands."

"Well, you still understand my mind"

When I woke up the next day, my back was still in unbearable pain, but he hugged me in his arms distressedly, smelling the smell of his body, I covetously hugged him tighter.

After he left, I was the only one left in the small space. It was time to leave. Although the pain in the back made it a little inconvenient for me to move, I decided to pack up and leave, and leave the land where I was born forever. I couldn’t help but two lines of tears Going down, because I don’t even have the courage to say goodbye to him. Looking back at this house, there is a mixture of me and him in it, full of happiness. I try to recall his charming smile every time, over and over again. Hitting my brain cells again and again, it turns out that it will eventually become a dream.

I locked the door and looked in the direction of his house. The sky was covered with dark clouds. It should be raining. I paused just to see him again, but he didn't appear until I turned around.

I slowly dragged my luggage forward. The slow speed may be due to injuries on my body, or the pain caused by the first time last night, or because I was still expecting him to stop me. Halfway through, the heavy rain poured down. Not so much, I walked forward in the rain, but the rain became more and more violent, I had to take shelter in the nearest place where I could shelter from the rain, and Wang Zilan was also sheltering here. When he saw me, he was surprised at first, and then She smiled at me again.

"Long time no see, where are you going with your luggage?" She spoke before me.

"I don't know, but as long as I can get out of here," I looked at Yu Yu and said emptyly.

"Don't be so pessimistic, life is full of hope, in fact, I should thank you"

"You don't hate me anymore, thank me" I looked at her in surprise and said.

"In the past, I might hate you. I only knew your good intentions when I heard those rumors. To tell you the truth, a good sister of mine married someone like you. At first she looked very good. Later, her husband She didn't care about it, and even took the boy home openly, and ended up in a divorce, so do you think I should thank you and let me go?"

I smiled lightly, not knowing whether her logic was right or wrong, in a word, it was right that we were not combined, the sky was raining endlessly, we were silent for a long time, and she said again, "Ask you Is the rumor true?"

I smiled helplessly. The thanks just now showed that she believed those rumors to be true. I said lightly, "Whatever I think in my heart is what is going on. It is like rain that falls from the sky and finally falls on the ground."

"Are you going to leave and never come back?"

"I don't know, I haven't left yet, so how can I come back? Maybe, there are too many reasons for me to want to go back, maybe I won't, because there are too many things I can't help myself"

"How could you be so sentimental before, I'm not used to it"

"People are always changing"

"By the way, let me tell you something. Didn't I say that I committed suicide by jumping into the river? In fact, I don't have the courage. At first I thought, but then I didn't dare when I walked to the river, and then my foot slipped. I fell, but fortunately I survived the catastrophe.”

"Oh, then I took myself too seriously at the beginning, thinking you were partial to me"