embrace the memory of youth

"That's a good reputation, not bad."

"Yes, you have gained a reputation, but I have gained a reputation instead. That's good, and it can be regarded as a reward for you. After all, it was really because of grandma that I thought of marrying you."

"Your cruel nature is still the same, you speak so truthfully, but I really like you"

I turned my head and looked into her eyes, which were very clear, and a smile appeared on the corner of my mouth, and she looked away shyly and said, "Why are you looking at me like this, what I said was all in the past, now I will be with my husband live happily ever after"

"Well, you must be happy, but..."

"but what?"

"You're so cute when you're shy, hehe"

"This is the Liu Yu I know, funny and elegant"

"Come on, I'd be proud to say that"

We chatted very happily, which made me forget my sadness for a while. The rain was still falling crazily. Then a small car stopped next to us. It was Wang Zilan's husband. Nodding, it was a greeting. After Wang Zilan got on the bus, she enthusiastically said to take me to the station. I politely refused. Looking at the image of them leaving the car, I meditated in my heart, wishing them a happy life.

When I was left alone, Liu Bing’s shadow was in my mind again. What is he doing now? Did he go home and find that the door is locked and I’m not there?I couldn't help but forget in the direction of the village. It turned out that I still didn't give up. I suddenly explained why I didn't get in Wang Zilan's car just now, leaving myself here to feel sad.

Half an hour later, a figure appeared in the direction of the village. I was slightly pleasantly surprised. As the person approached, the surprise I just had just failed. The person kindly reminded me that the rain would not stop, and the flood was about to rise. Hurry up and go home in the rain Go, I forced a smile to thank him, and he left again.

A few minutes later, that familiar figure appeared, our eyes met, the anxiety revealed in his eyes, and the sound of his gasping, broke through and pierced my eardrum amidst the sound of rain.

"Why don't you tell me why you are leaving? Why, you don't know how worried I was when I went home and saw the door locked. I can't imagine how I would live if I didn't find you today." His voice of reluctance appeared in the sound of rain, making him I want to cry.

"Always have to leave. Now you are used to having me. After a long time, you will get used to not having me. Life still has to go on. Forget me, and I will forget you too"

"Brother Liu Yu, I beg you to go back with me"

"No, I'll leave when the rain stops. Do your duty as husband and father well. This is what you have to do."

"I will. Come back with me now. If you want to leave, I will let you go. Xiaohong wants to see you. It seems that she is dying. I have something to tell you."

"Don't talk about her, she wants me to go far away, how can she still want to see me?" I said dubiously.

"What I said is true, you see." He took out a cornea donation certificate from his pocket, which clearly stated that Xiaohong would donate her cornea to my mother after her death. Apart from being surprised, she was also moved.

"There should be additional conditions"

"Ah, uh, let's go back and talk first"

"In fact, she doesn't need to be like this. I can still leave here forever and let your children grow up healthily. Although I have never been a father, if I am a son, if my father is like this, I will not be able to hold my head up."

"Brother Liu Yu, let's go back, okay, the sky will keep you, the rain probably won't stop for two days"

Half an hour later we arrived at the village. Because of the heavy rain, even with an umbrella in hand, we were soaked to the point of pain. He and I went back to my house and changed our clothes before going to his house. His house was full of Chinese herbal medicine. Too fond of smelling, even a little dizzy.

When his mother saw me snorting, I still politely said hello, and his child also walked back and forth on the ground, but it was not stable enough. This family, which looked complete on the surface, was actually riddled with holes and filled with resentment , but I was terrified.

Entering Xiaohong's room, her face was as white as paper, bloodless, and pitifully thin. She became a victim of me and Liu Bing. After all, I thought it was Liu Bing's retribution for me after marriage, which made their family have a hard time. And my retribution is to lose Liu Bing forever.

"It's finally here, sit down first." She saw me come in and motioned me to sit on the chair beside her bed, and Liu Bing then left the room, and the two of us were left in the room. The atmosphere was a bit awkward, I didn't know what to say, so I had to in silence.

"I decided to donate my corneas to my aunt after I died, did Bingbing tell you?"

"Well, the additional condition for you to do this is to let me be Liu Bing forever, right?"

"A considerable part of the reason is because of this, but I also sincerely hope that my aunt will see the light again."

"Let me say thank you for my mother first. Even if you don't do this, I plan to leave here. I have already packed my things and prepared to leave. God has mercy on me and wants me to see Liu Bing more. It has been raining continuously."

"Brother Liu Yu, I'm sorry, for the sake of our children, I had to let you leave the place where you were raised."

"The one who should say sorry is me, it has nothing to do with you"

"Sometimes I'm really jealous of you. Liu Bing always has a smiling face in front of you, but he always has a stern face in front of me."

"Don't think too much, just rest"

After exiting their house, Liu Bing was already inside when he got home, and the room was filled with smoke from his cigarettes. I angrily snatched the half-smoked cigarettes in his hand and threw them out, and then said to him, "In the future No smoking anymore”

"When I'm bored, I want to smoke one"

"After I leave, it doesn't matter if you smoke more than a dozen packs a day. Now that I am still here, you are not allowed to smoke."

"I promise you, I will never smoke again." He threw away the cigarettes and lighters in his pocket, hugged me from behind and said.

"I have fantasized about countless scenes before, and I never thought that leaving would be so embarrassing. Maybe I should have strengthened my self-control at the beginning, so as not to make us feel so uncomfortable. When I chose to come back, I wanted to forget Guo Xiong. He is just superficial. Deep in my heart, I quietly planted the seeds of love in my heart, but I didn't know it. I didn't wake up until he left. It turned out that the door of so-called love was opened by him, but the position of love was slowly occupied by you. Sometimes I tell myself that you are a family man, don't get stuck in the mud, your kindness, your touch, I can't control myself, I'm sorry, I made you sad." After speaking, tears slid down his cheeks and the back of his hand.

"Brother Liu Yu, I love you" came his choked voice from behind, hitting my internal organs directly, I turned around, hugged him tightly, and the two big men cried bitterly without shame.

It was raining endlessly outside, and it rained for three consecutive days, and the flooded river flooded the road leading to the town. During these three days, he went home to take care of Xiaohong during the day, and came to accompany Xiaohong at night. I.

One night he hugged me and said, "Brother Liu Yu, I really hope that this rain will last forever, don't stop, so that you will stay by my side forever"

"The water will rise to our house, we will have nowhere to live, and the water will destroy the crops, why don't we starve to death"

"A starved ghost is a hungry ghost. There is nothing better than being alive and you are not by my side. God please open your eyes and let the rain keep falling." He joined his palms together and said reverently.

"Fools can't be too selfish. We have to face reality after all. Remember to miss me every day before going to bed. Maybe I will appear in your dreams."

Three days later, the rain stopped. I pushed open the door, and a piece of water came into view. I guess it will take a day or two for the water to recede. Already very satisfied.