embrace the memory of youth

Two days later, the flood was gradually receding. I looked at the suitcases I had already packed, with mixed feelings. I had reached an agreement with Liu Bing before that I would not show up on the day I left. I was afraid that I would cry. I used to think that tears were far away from me. Far away, now I know that it is so natural for a man to cry.

I was about to go out and he still showed up, but there were cries from different people in the direction of his house, and his eyes were red and swollen, I guessed that Xiaohong had gone west, he walked slowly to my side, holding me tightly He hugged her and said with a sob in his mouth, "She's gone after all, I'm sorry for her, I'm sorry for her"

At this moment, I didn't know what to say, so I held him in my arms and let him cry like a child. When he was exhausted from crying, we sat side by side on the sofa with our fingers interlocked.

"Xiaohong said that she will let you leave after her aunt recovers."

"I'm in a mess right now, confused and confused, why did she use her own life to help us pay the bill, now I feel that it was a wrong choice to come back, a life was indirectly obliterated by us like this, I started to hate myself, He turned out to be a cruel person.”

"Brother Liu Yu, don't blame yourself. If you want to blame, blame me. If you had made up your mind not to marry her at the beginning, we could live on for the rest of your life." After speaking, the strength in his hands increased.

Then I went to the town to tell my family my last wish after death. They were very disgusted with my presence, but my mother still cared about me. She was used to touching me in the dark with her fingers to express her love for me. Although her eyes are not clear, her heart is like a mirror, and she knows that I have not had a good time.

"Xiaohong has returned to the west, she hopes to give her cornea to her mother, what do you think?"

"How can such a good-looking person leave?" the sister-in-law said in disbelief.

"They didn't force them to die," my dad said angrily. Hearing this, I lowered my head in shame, not daring to look at them.

"Since she is willing, we simply accept it, but whoever pays for the operation costs at least hundreds of thousands," my brother said.

"I will find a way for the money, you guys give me an answer as soon as possible, this matter cannot be delayed"

"Yuzi, come in." My mother's voice came from the room, and I walked in slowly.

"Close the door and sit next to Mom." I closed the door and sat next to her, waiting for her to criticize.

"During this period of time, my mother knew that you had a bad life, and she had no choice but to help you. In fact, I was also responsible for Xiaohong's death. How could I have the nerve to accept her cornea? This is God's punishment for me. I am willing. I will be punished, and I will never accept anything related to the donated cornea," my mother said sadly while holding my hand.

"Mom, it's none of your business. Are you worried about money? I can definitely think of a way. Just wait for the corneal transplant in peace."

"Why is it none of my business? You think I don't know what you and Bingbing do every night. I should stop you the first time I find out, but I feel that you were very happy during that time, so I indulged you selfishly. It will lead to today's tragedy. Now that she is dead and not let her be a whole body, it is too tragic." I was dumbfounded when I heard this, thinking they didn't know it at all, but I didn't know that they had seen through it long ago. In the end, my mother didn't accept it. Cornea transplant, I respect her decision, I don't know how I walked out of the room, when I passed by my dad and the others, they all still had the unforgivable expression that I made a mistake.

When I arrived in the village, there was a car from the Municipal People’s Hospital to pick up Xiaohong for cornea removal surgery. I found Liu Bing and asked him to give me the certificate, which was already signed by Liu Bing’s family. That heart seemed to be torn apart, and the second time, the sound of shredded paper was so powerful that everyone was dumbfounded. Liu Bing grabbed the certificate in my hand in a panic, and said anxiously, "Brother Liu Yu, what are you doing?" "

"Let Xiaohong go to the ground as soon as possible" I left this sentence, turned around and went home. I didn't hear a word of what they were saying behind, and then Liu Bing followed me to the house.

"What happened to Brother Liu Yu?"

"It's nothing, my mother doesn't agree, but we should respect her choice, go back and deal with Xiaohong's affairs first, don't worry, I won't leave in the next few days, and I will leave when Xiaohong is buried. Now I want to Be alone, go back" Then he left, and I was left alone in the house, I was lying on the sofa, all the emotions of the past few days hit my brain, I was tired, fell asleep in a daze, doing I had a very long dream, without Liu Bing, and Xiaohong and grandma accused me alternately. In order to avoid their accusations, I ran forward crazily. I kept running like this, and I was covered in sweat. I was wrong, don't scold me, but they are still relentless, with their scolding voices ringing in their ears.

After waking up, the room was pitch black, but my body was surrounded by a wave of heat energy. In the darkness, I broke through the silence and said sadly, "I had a dream just now, and I dreamed that Xiaohong and grandma accused me. I already knew I was wrong. Why do you still torture me like this?"

"Brother Liu Yu, I like you, you like me, is it wrong? It's not fair"

"It's just because of this that it's a mistake, it's a mess, it's wrong for no reason, it's wrong..." Before I could finish my words, his lips pressed against me. I didn't cater to him and let him kiss, and finally he touched the corner of my eye The liquid stopped his movements. We hugged very tightly that night, and it was also the last night.

Xiaohong’s funeral will be held three days later. I shouldn’t have attended it, but I still decided to go. At that time, Liu Bing’s family will wear hemp burials. At that time, I took a step back in a daze, Liu Bing, who was one meter away from me, showed distressed eyes, I looked around, and found a place in the corner, there were still people pointing at me from a distance , I dare not look up.

At noon, according to our local customs, Xiaohong was buried. The child Liu Bing was holding in his mother's arms was crying for his mother. At that moment, tears flowed out without warning. I was afraid that everyone would find out. Wiping away the tears, Liu Bing noticed this small move.