Be good, bad boy

When I arrived at the place where Sun Rui stayed, I saw that the huge playground was empty, and only Sun Rui stood in the middle.

"Rarity." I walked over and said softly.

"You are satisfied, what happened?" Sun Rui turned around and yelled at me.

At that time, my blood also rushed through my head, and when I heard this sentence, I started to scold him.

"I'm making trouble? Rarity, I'm sick of you, you actually... I regret hugging you now, you're so dirty!" My words stabbed people like a cold wind, killing the skinny grandson Rui.

Sun Rui didn't say anything at this time, but opened his mouth and smiled, but tears flowed out, and the tears flowed down towards the bright red bloodstain.

"I'm dirty? That's right! I'm dirty, I'm dirty."

I seem to regret saying this sentence, because I didn't control it just now.

"Rarity, I????"

"Stop talking, I'm dirty." The choked up words made me feel very guilty.

"Ruirui." The old grandson who caught up from afar shouted.

"Don't come here." Sun Rui yelled at Old Sun vigorously.

Old Sun was stunned.

"I want to talk to him alone."

After hearing this, Lao Sun stayed where he was very distressed.I also took Sun Rui's speech seriously as if it was something important.

"Tong Yan, you don't understand at all." Ruarui said softly to me.

"Then you understand?"

"Do you know why I didn't come home so long ago? Do you also know that you once asked me why I didn't have new clothes? Then do you know why I drink medicine every night?" Sun Rui still smiled as always, I thought That can't be faked, especially in that situation, that belongs to his unique temperament.

I was suddenly asked, and I didn't know how to answer.

"Tong Yan, I really envy you, really! When you are down, Shao comforts you, and when you are unhappy, Shao coaxes you. It seems that everything is for you. But what about me? I What? What do I have?" Rarity's roar pierced the black sky, and I could still see his bulging veins in the distance.

"I'm an orphan, an orphan with no love and no love." Then Rarity began to cry.

"When I see fathers around their children every day, how envious I am, how jealous I am, I'm even jealous of their quarrels, at least they can still quarrel, whoever I find to quarrel with. I hope that person is me. I I wish I saw a family or a man I like on the street, he would be my dad. But, this is just the disgusting thing you say."

When I heard this, my pupils dilated involuntarily.Because I never heard of these things.

"You think I'm disgusting and perverted." At this moment, Rarity walked in front of me slowly.

I didn't speak and closed my eyes.

"That's right! Tong Yan, I'm gay." He shouted at me loudly,

I was taken aback and opened my eyes hastily.Looking at Rarity's crystal eye frames and bewildered expression.I feel a little sorry for him.

I didn't know what it was then?This reminds me of a word I know 2 years later

"gay!"

"Also, I like men." After whispering in my ear, he walked in the direction of Lao Sun without looking back.His last sentence expressed his ruthlessness towards me, and his disappointment and despair towards me at the same time.

Walking up to Lao Sun, Lao Sun, who was squatting on the ground, stood up, Rarity paused, actually I expected him to turn around, but he didn't.Without any scruples, he dragged the old grandson to the distance together.As the night slowly disappears.

I stayed where I was, and I couldn't forget what he said to me for a long time. The words "I like men" lingered in my ears like a repeater, and his roar shocked me deeply.

He envies me, envy me what?Envious of my father who raised me for 18 years is not my own?Or was it the desperate way to survive after running away from home, or the event that was enough to make me suffer for the rest of my life?To be honest, I wanted to forget that incident, I thought I had forgotten it, but it was so heart-piercing after the dusty memory was opened.I closed my eyes.I don't want to open my eyes and see the world, cause I'm only now finding out,

I'm so dirty too!

He clenched his fists tightly and stood motionless.

On the road

"Ruirui, Ruirui." Old Sun let go of his hand and grabbed Sun Rui.

Rarity stopped.

For some reason, Lao Sun was speechless all of a sudden, he felt that Rarity was not easy, and he felt a little indebted to him.

"What do you want to say?"

On the contrary, Lao Sun didn't speak but looked at Rarity quietly.

Sun Rui didn't feel surprised either, but looked at Lao Sun calmly.

"In this world, I found it seemed as if there were only the two of us."

"Rarity, I'm sorry!"

"sorry?"

"I don't know what's going on? Anyway, I just feel sorry for you." Lao Sun looked at Rui 4 Rui distressedly.

Rarity continued to keep his smile, and broke away from Old Sun's hand.

"You know what I'm most afraid of?"

Old Sun shook his head foolishly.

"I'm afraid of getting sick, because whenever I'm sick, I'm alone. Whether it's a cold or a fever, whether it's a serious illness or a minor illness, I'm afraid. I always take the medicine quickly, and then hide under the quilt by myself. Hug yourself. Say silently: "It's fine". At the same time, look forward to recovering tomorrow."

After Rarity finished speaking, she touched the blood on her head, and it had dried slowly, leaving a coagulated blood stain.

After listening to Rarity's words, Lao Sun's deep eyes appeared crystal clear.

"At least you still have me now, and I'm with you."

"You said that you envied Tong Yan, envied that he was loved and loved by others. At that moment, I suddenly found that you were so pitiful, and my heart ached for being so pitiful."

"teacher????

Lao Sun took advantage of the situation and grabbed Ruarui's hand, "Call me Lao Sun, okay?" He choked up.

Rarity couldn't imagine looking at Lao Sun's firm tone, because this title is the kindest lover to have such a right. He didn't know whether Yaguang called Lao Sun like this, but he knew that at this moment, he was completely owned.

"Old, grandson?" Rarity said cautiously.

"Hey!"

I thought it was a shame to tell others that I was G.It can be seen how determined Rarity was at that time.

When you find out that a good friend beside you suddenly boldly tells you that you are G, how shocked you are.I really didn't expect that the best friend by my side was a G.To be honest, I used to hate G, and I've hated and dreaded it ever since.Rarity thought telling me all this would make me quiet.But he was wrong????

I stood on the playground for a long time, and slowly opened my eyes.The reality blended with me again, and I couldn't help searching for some broken memories in my head????

I just remember that I was so dizzy at the time, and I was thrown on a soft place in a blur. With a faint consciousness, I saw clearly the person in front of me, the one who gave me things, his hands were touching me, In the confusion, I was very resistant and confused.When I was naked, I felt I was turned on my side, and I was resisting, resisting.Then there was a burst of pain, and finally I couldn't remember anything.

Subconsciously covering his head, he shook his head vigorously.

"I don't want to remember."

"In no mood!"

Roaring vigorously.He looked up at the black sky.With huge teeth, as if to swallow me in the mouth.

In the dormitory building, the people who saw the excitement dispersed, and Shao packed things in the dormitory.

When I rushed to the dormitory and saw that figure from behind, my eyes were a little aggrieved.

He turned around slowly, and then asked me what I didn't hear, so he came over with his hands on his shoulders.I could only see his mouth moving, but I couldn't hear what he was saying.

I suddenly had a feeling of wanting to hug him, a feeling of wanting to find a safe place after making a mistake.

"You Shao!" It took me a long time to open my mouth to speak.

"What's wrong? What happened to you just now?" You Shao put his hands on my shoulders.

"I?? I, I." My nose was sour, and tears appeared in my eyes.

"Who bullied you?" You Shao asked anxiously when he saw me.

"Is that Sun Zhengguang?"

I really wanted to cry, I really wanted to cry on his body, but I didn't do it, but I was sobbing.Looking at him with very aggrieved eyes.I feel a little sorry for him, You Shao is an upright person, if he knows that I am like that, I think he will not be able to stand it.I was afraid that he would say the stinging words: "Think I'm dirty." After all, I really don't want him to share the pain with me.

"Who bullied you? Tell me?" His repeated words made me very wronged.

At that time, in my mind, when You Shao and I were together, we were wearing each other's coats, barefoot on the roof, and loudly singing "Broad Sea and Sky".Now I also really want to sing loudly, singing "Broad Sea and Sky", which we haven't been passionate about for a long time, but why do I think of that thing, why?

Seeing him frowning anxiously, I felt even more uncomfortable.I am not good at crying, I have cried for two people, one is my family and the other is him.

"Tong Yan, Tong Yan." You Shao grabbed my shoulder and held it tightly with his heavy palm, pulling me back from reality.

"You scratched me." I was very angry and threw him away, in order to escape, I could only bear to get angry at him.

"Okay, I'm sorry. Then tell me, what's wrong?" You Shao let go of his arm.

I sniffled and just found a place to do it.

"Don't ask, I want to be alone." Said lightly.

"and you???

"Don't ask!" A hoarse growl.

Seeing me like that, Yu Shao knew that I was serious, so he didn't ask me too much.

I didn't dare to look at him, so I quickly climbed onto my bed and covered myself with the quilt.Without even taking off his socks, he lay down slowly.Maybe I'm running away from something, I'm so scared now, really inexplicably scared.His eyes were parallel to the bed and he stared blankly.

???????

In the middle of the night, I don't know how long it will be.I felt my feet dangling in the water, still lukewarm.Am I dreaming!Opening my eyes eagerly, I saw You Shao wearing a vest holding a basin in one hand and washing my feet seriously with the other. He was washing my feet like this because he was afraid of waking me up.I couldn't bear to disturb him, but I shrank my head under the quilt, weeping slowly and silently.

After washing, I could feel him gently lift my feet and slowly put them under the quilt.

I couldn't stand it even more, and slowly cried a little.Then my quilt was slowly lifted.

"Tong Yan." You Shao smiled awkwardly when he saw me. "Woke you up? Sorry!"

I quickly turned my head to the other side, without looking at him.Seeing that there was no movement, I turned around quietly.I saw him carrying a basin and walking towards the water room gently. Our dormitory is very close to the water room, so we are always woken up by the sound of washing in the middle of the night.

"Crack!" There was a very soft sound, and the light was turned off.The room instantly went dark.Tighten the quilt tightly, and forcefully close my eyes, hoping that I can fall asleep early.Wish I could forget for a while.

2:00 am

In the residential building, Room 5.

"Rui, what's the matter? Can't sleep?" The magnetic voice came softly towards the bedroom.

"Is what I said at night a little heavy?" Ruanrui lay on the bed with her eyes open, still thinking about her conversation with Tong Yan at night.

Old Sun didn't speak, but looked at Rarity.

"Tong Yan is my best friend here, and I always feel a little sorry for him." As he spoke, he rolled up and held Lao Sun's hand tightly.

"Old grandson,"

"What's wrong?" Old Sun turned over to Rarity.

"I'm very scared now, really scared." He shrank his head under the quilt timidly.Looking at this small house through the warm orange light.

"There is me, there is me!...

Tomorrow, oh!Is a more looking forward to the day, maybe this is for me.In the past few days, some things have happened that surprised them, such as Rui Rui's "coming out", Tong Yan's memory, Lao Sun's sorrow and You Shao's worry.It seems that dramatic events have happened to them in the past few days. Looking at the sleeping Tong Yan and You Shao who is snoring under the bed, and watching the embrace of Lao Sun and Ruirui on the bed, it seems that tomorrow is a day that they look forward to. In fact, they They are all avoiding today and looking forward to tomorrow.

expect!Naive, how is it possible.Maybe we are like this, today’s troubles are always thinking about tomorrow’s forgetting, but tomorrow, when we see the first ray of sunlight entering our eyes in the morning, or brushing our teeth carelessly, we will know what happened yesterday It will still continue today.That's why the ancestors always told us: we must learn to face life.