father - home

"Marty, you can't stay on the floor. Can I put you on the bed now?"

After watching me nod, Joseph knelt beside me, first bent my legs a little, and then lifted my upper body, just a little, just enough for his left arm to go under his body and hug my shoulders, Wrapping my legs with his right arm, he picked me up carefully, then stood up slowly and put me on the bed.I am 1.8 meters tall and weigh 75 kilograms. It is not easy to pick me up, and I have to be very careful.I could feel Joseph suffocating, and after putting me down, he stood by the bed and gasped quietly for a while.

"Marty, you're soaked, let me change your clothes."

"I want to take a bath." I really want to take a good wash.It was hot, I sweated a little, and then it rained, and when I fell ill just now, I was sweating again.Now not only is the whole body soaked and sticky, but also the hands and feet are cold, as if falling into a hole in the ice.

Joseph held my hand, wondering: "Can you wash it like this? I think it's better to be cautious, let me wipe it for you first."

Yes, Joseph is right, be careful, you shouldn't wash now, you can't be willful.I nod.

"Then wait a minute."

Joseph went to the bathroom.He let go of my hand.I suddenly felt extreme fear and loss.I was still weak, my hands and feet were cold, and only Joseph's big hands could give me a little warmth.But now he left and let me go, and I fell back into the bottomless abyss, where there is no trace of heat, cold, and desolate without human habitation, I am terrified.Come!Come on!Joseph, come and save me!I want to shout, but I don't have the energy to shout, or I don't have the courage to shout.I grinned and laughed at myself, tears streaming down the corners of my eyes.

"What's the matter with you, Marty?"

I'm fine!I continued to grin, still in tears.

"What's the matter with you, Marty? Why are you crying?"

"You stink!"

The look on my face terrified Joseph.I can't explain it.His hands are holding my face, his eyes are searching my face, I don't know how to get out of this predicament, all I can think of is, "You stink!"

Joseph froze for a moment, then looked away, but only for less than a second, when he turned back, I saw a trace of hurt resentment.Does he think I'm still on top?I saw his eyes again, flecks of blue and silver, like a boy's marbles, and he was still very docile when he spoke.

"Hold on, Marty, I'll do it for you first, then I'll wash it."

I want to say I don't care, I want to say I'm just joking, but I don't need to say that Joseph doesn't care.

His hands were strong, and his method was appropriate. With a light push and pull, my shirt was taken off.With moderate force and gentle movements, he twisted two hot towels at a time, wiped them once and then again, and his body was refreshed.He used to take care of me like this, but I never noticed it.

He helped me take off my boots and breeches, wrung out a towel and wiped my lower body.

He stopped and stood there.I could see something strange in his eyes.I tried to raise my head and look down.sky!I'm actually hard there!With a bang in my head, I fell back on the pillow.

"Marty, don't do this."

I was so ashamed that I closed my eyes and dared not look at him.

"Marty, it's my fault. I made you suffer. I know, you waited hard, and I suffered too. But now, it's my wife who asked me to come back this time, and she has agreed with us. We don't have to be apart for so long."

Joseph held my head emotionally, kissed my cheek, my eyes.I could feel his hot breath and hot tears.How happy he is now, he thought he had finally come to the end of his hardships.But Joseph is Joseph after all, and he will never lose his sense of propriety. He didn't kiss my lips unless I responded to him.

I was touched and I wanted to respond to him.Five years of separation, loneliness, pain, once reunited, a kiss is always due.However, it is completely different now.Besides Zhao, would I still want to kiss someone else?No!Sorry, Joseph, it's too late, everything has changed, I tell you, everything has changed.

How can I tell him?How can I bear it?Looking at the white hair on his head, the wrinkles around his eyes, the bronzed skin and the scars on the back of his hands, he suffered so much for me.This was probably the first time in five years that he was so emotional and felt so sincerely happy. How could I have the heart to tell him such a cruel thing?What's more, in a few days, he will leave again and go to the battlefield again. Is it necessary for me to hurt him?

Seeing no response from me, Joseph stopped angrily and looked at me awkwardly. "I'm sorry, Marty, I..."

"I'm so tired, I want to sleep for a while."

"Yes, yes, it's all my fault. You should have a good rest." Joseph quickly finished wiping me, covered me with a sheet, held my head up again, and let me drink water. "You go to sleep. I'm going to wash. But Marty, I want to watch you sleep."

I know he is worried about me.This is Joseph, always cautious, even asking for my permission.I nodded in agreement. "Okay, it's great to have you by my side." I was worried that his old problems would not change, so I told him: "After washing, take a shirt and change it on yourself."

"No, your shirt doesn't fit me well."

"What's not suitable, you are about the same size as me." I was a little annoyed.Why are you always like this, can't you make some progress?

"I'm not talking about size, I mean... Anyway, I don't fit. It's what Zhao wears. Your clothes..."

Turns out Joseph wasn't always careless.Although my mother arranged for Zhao to change bedrooms in advance, all the clothes Zhao was wearing belonged to me, and Joseph could not fail to see.It's true that men in love are as careful as a hair.I want to explain to him that Zhao has nothing, and I don't wear my clothes now, I always wear military uniforms.But after thinking about it, I felt that the drawing would get darker and darker, and I was really tired.Forget it, let him go.

"whatever."

I closed my eyes and fell asleep.