withered color

Back then, Xu Liangyun's profile picture was a boy in a white shirt holding a handful of white chrysanthemums, with half of his white arms exposed, his face completely blocked by flowers.

It's okay, at least it's not a headshot of a strong European and American man with bright abs, a sexy woman smoking a big cigarette, and so on.

Seeing Xu Liangyun's avatar, Chen Shuyan felt that he might have a chance, at least it didn't look so straight, and it also faintly revealed a crooked aura.

Later, Chen Yan discovered that everything was an illusion, and Xu Liangyun was just a fucking piece of wood.

But he didn't know it then.People, when they don’t know much about each other, they always like to grasp the minutiae details in all aspects to give each other a score and guess, and the avatar used is of course included.

So, Chen Yan clicked through the application and entered Xu Liangyun's chat box.

Then he got stuck.

Chen Yan still remembered his blank head and his hands that were frozen in the air. For the first time in his life, he felt that it was so difficult to chat with people.

He was at a loss for a long time without being able to utter a word, and after three or four minutes of being so frozen, he tapped Xu Liangyun's profile picture with trembling hands.

The thumbnail of the first picture in Xu Liangyun's circle of friends looks like the picture that Chen Yan gave him.

Chen Yan's heart skipped a beat, and he said in his heart that he couldn't do it, and then clicked into Xu Liangyun's circle of friends.

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"The magical experience adds up."

Attached picture: The painting that Chen Yan gave him today.

Statement Yan's eyes suddenly darkened, and he immediately wanted to escape from this planet.

He wanted to yell and drop his phone.

He didn't even have time to scroll down, and he was directly stimulated by Xu Liangyun's circle of friends for the first time, so he was embarrassed and had advanced cancer.

At this time, the phone buzzed again.

The statement looked tired, and it was Xu Liangyun who sent him the message.

Xu Liangyun said concisely: Hello.

Statement Yan never thought that these two words would be so difficult to reply.

He held his mobile phone in silence for a long time, suppressed his desire to scream, put himself in a calm and restrained manner, and replied: "Hello."

Statement Yan was still thinking about the next sentence, so Xu Liangyun sent another sentence: "From Liangyi?"

The school that stated his disgust was called Liangcheng University of the Arts, or Liangyi for short.

Xu Liangyun's school is called Liangcheng Police Academy, or Liang Police for short.

Chen Yan nodded, and then reacted stupidly and slowly, nodding through the mobile phone, people couldn't see it at all.

He curled his lips and reached out to type: "Yes, oil painting department."

"I see." Xu Liangyun said, "Is this a new class in your school?"

Statements: "..."

Obviously, the painter's way of courtship is not very common for people who have not had much artistic training in police school.

Statement was so disgusted that he didn't know how to reply for a while. He thought that if he gave Xu Liangyun a painting of Xu Liangyun and his own contact information, the other party would understand that he was interesting.

Xu Liangyun thought it was a course requirement for Liang Yi.

What kind of class could this be, a self-promotion class? ?There is no such ghost class! !

Seeing that he didn't speak, Xu Liangyun thought that he was too embarrassed to speak, and asked very considerately, "Do you need me to pay?"

On the other end of the phone, Chen Yan silently held his forehead in pain.

Xu Liangyun fucking thought he was a performer.

Zhou Dengzhou laughed so hard that he almost died.

"What kind of class does he think you are taking!" Zhou Dengzhou smiled like a big goose, "We are not in the business of selling insurance, why do you have to learn self-recommendation for the oil painting department? Damn, according to what he said, you Isn't it just buying and selling by force—"

"That's right." Chen Yan said a little sadly, "So I told him——"

"—I don't want money."

The statement made 11 years ago was exhausted, holding his forehead and typing speechlessly: "That painting is for you, not a class."

"yes."

Xu Liangyun guessed the meaning wrong, but he was not embarrassed, and asked again: "Then why did you draw for me?"

He choked up again when he was bored with the statement, and he pursed his lips. After a long silence, he finally concocted a good sentence: "The light is pretty good, you look good, I think the composition is good, the shape is okay, and the color tone is also high-end. Just draw."

A very art student's answer.

Xu Liangyun, who hadn't had much experience in art, was dizzy and half-understood, and said, "Thank you, it's very beautiful. I'll treat you to dinner another day."

The statement made a buzz in his head.

Please, you, eat, meal.

Converting these four words means "go out with me".

Chen Yan's face turned red with embarrassment.

It would be quick to go out with Xu Liangyun.

Xu Liangyun is a person who won't eat others for free, and he will feel uncomfortable if he owes others something.

Chen Yan painted for him and didn't want his money, so he felt that he had to give him something back.On Wednesday afternoon, when neither of them had classes, Xu Liangyun took him out to eat and go shopping.

That day, Chen Yan rummaged through dozens of outfits, wishing he could go out dressed as a Disney princess.

But after all, it was the first time to go out with others, and it seemed inexplicably suspicious to dress too carefully. He stated that he was afraid of making trouble, so he finally went out in a more usual yellow and black plaid shirt and trousers.

Xu Liangyun is also very everyday. He wears a white T, black sweatpants and a pair of white shoes underneath. The white T has a strong sense of design. Two silver chains hang from the heart to the right sleeve, dazzlingly shining under the sun. .

When the statement arrived at the place, Xu Liangyun stood beside a row of shared bicycles and waited for him, with earphones plugged into his ears, and the cable of the earphones was hanging down long.

At that time, Chen Yan noticed a little bit of clues, and Xu Liangyun seemed to be particularly fond of black, white and gray.

At that time, Xu Liangyun changed his outfits two or three times, but they were all black, white and grey.

Chen Yan trotted two steps and walked up to him.

Xu Liangyun reached out and took off the earphones, looked at him and smiled.He was young at that time, and when he laughed, his eyes were full of rebellious and youthful and frivolous colors, which were brighter than the mottled light that sprinkled on him when Zhang Yan saw him for the first time.

Standing in front of him, looking at him smiling, Chen Yan knew that his life was over.

Xu Liangyun took him to a shopping mall that day and had hot pot.

Chen Chen was obedient and well-behaved that day, afraid that people would have a bad first impression of him, so he didn't eat much.

Xu Liangyun chatted with him a lot.He said that he was studying at the police academy on the east side, and he was a junior in that year, majored in investigative studies, and volunteered as a special police officer.

The police, or special police with live ammunition.

Statement tired of the sour plum soup in the hot pot restaurant, the image of Xu Liangyun instantly became tall and inviolable in his heart.

But when he turned his head, he felt a little dreamy again.

At that time, Zhang Yan really didn't expect the progress to be so fast. He had just sent someone a painting, and they turned around and invited him out for dinner.

The result was all his illusion.

Zhou Dengzhou choked on his drink, choked up when he heard the words, and after a moment of silence, he asked, "What do you mean... you only went out that once?"

"Yes. After he invited me to dinner, he never went out together again. "

Chen Yan said: "We separated at the subway station that night, you know, Liang Yi is on the west side, Liang Police is on the east side, two diagonal lines - I sometimes feel that I can meet him like the South Pole meets the North Pole Yes, it’s a miracle. I sent him a few messages after that, and he replied, but they were all embarrassing. Also, the painter and the police academy couldn’t go together for eight hundred poles, and there was nothing to talk about of."

He talked a little bit here and there when he said these things, and said what he thought of, a bit messy, but fortunately it was not so out of context.

When Chen Yan recalled these things, he was as calm as if he was talking about other people's affairs.These things from the past are shining brightly in his mouth, as bright as his previous paintings, but there is no brilliance in his eyes.

He said softly: "I felt awkward afterwards, and I was afraid that he would bother me, so I stopped talking."

"He invited me out to dinner, and it ended up like this. I was very sad for a while, thinking that people and people are really destined, and men and men are still out of play, so I wondered whether to give up. But I still want to watch Looking at him, I don't really plan to just like him that much and then find someone else to fall in love with - it's a mess to say, but I still like him anyway, and I admit it after being tortured like this, so I reconciled with myself, and I still go to him on weekends That park run."

"Then I found that it was useful to give him that picture. At least he knew me. Every time he ran past me, he would say hello to me. Later, he went a lot, and he saw that I was familiar, so he followed me. I got a lot closer. After running tired, he would sit down near me. Later, when he was resting, he would come over to watch me draw and chat with me."

"He talked about things in school. Sometimes he would ask me what classes I took to learn oil painting, and he would gossip about everything. When I met him in reality, he would talk more than online, and his tone of voice was different. It's not the same - there are often people like this, with two personalities offline and online, or maybe I'm too familiar with him."

"The two of us are getting to know each other gradually. We chatted a lot and got to know each other a lot. Later, Xu Liangyun would buy me water. He knew that I like grape juice the most, and pudding milk tea with taro balls. Grape oolong with lots of sugar and ice. It’s weird to say, we don’t chat on WeChat, but we always sit and talk together in that park.”

"Then one time, I caught a cold and didn't go on the weekend. Then my grandma fell ill the next week. I went home again and went to the hospital to see her. I thought about sending a message to Xu Liangyun, but when I thought about it, it might be to him Saying that I’m just a friend, it doesn’t matter if I’m in the park or not, but I wanted to have an awkward chat after posting, so I didn’t say anything.”

Chen Yan said: "In the end, he sent me a WeChat instead, asking me what was going on, and why he hadn't seen me for two weeks."

"I'm all confused."

Chen Chen laughed out of embarrassment and said, "I told him that I caught a cold last week, and I will go home to see my grandma this week...he just told me it was true. He didn't see me for two weeks, so he thought something had happened to me."

"I said no, I'll go next week. Then he told me he didn't see me for two weeks, didn't go anywhere in the afternoon, didn't go for a run, just sat by the lake and waited for me until the evening Eight or nine o'clock, once almost missed the gate and was shut out."

"But he couldn't wait no matter what, it was like this for two full weekends, and he panicked. Later he said, he must have liked me before that, and he didn't find it, otherwise why would he sit there and wait , dare not even send me a message."

"He also liked me." Chen Yan said, "He was also willing to stop and wait for me."

"...Sometimes I really can't figure out how to become like this today."

"Why didn't he want me all of a sudden?"

"I...not really. I can probably guess why he doesn't want me. Maybe it's because he's afraid of dragging me down again, maybe because he doesn't dare to face me." Chen Yan said, "When he confessed to me back then, he said that he would let me Don't worry, then when he saw me that day, he must have felt very uncomfortable."

Chen Yan suddenly mentioned these things, and Zhou Dengzhou, who didn't know the cause and effect, was a little dazed.

But he didn't say a word, he knew that the statement was necessary to say this.

Statement Yan said: "I didn't want to hate him at the beginning, I was just unwilling. Now I don't hate him for hurting my hand, and I don't hate him for letting me be involved in this kind of thing because of him. Just hate him for leaving me."

"I hate him for not being able to do what he says."

After the statement was finished, there was a moment of silence.

Then, he suddenly chuckled: "It seems to be far away."

He smiled softly, but Zhou Dengzhou felt a dull pain watching it.

"...It doesn't matter." Zhou Dengzhou said, "You can say whatever you want."

"Well," Chen Yan narrowed his eyes to look at his hands, "Okay."