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Xu Liangyun's breakup phone call came unexpectedly. After hanging up the phone, he didn't react for a long time.

He panicked and didn't know what was going on, so he asked the police to call him again.But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get through.

Xu Liangyun never answered the phone again, and the beeping waiting for the connection sounded like an endless road leading to hell, with no end in sight.

Statement weariness has never seen an end.

At that time, his mind was in a mess and he couldn't breathe smoothly.He was still in pain and couldn't move his hands, but he didn't know where the strength came from, and he threw off the quilt, grinned in pain and wanted to turn over and get out of bed to find Xu Liangyun.

Even though he didn't know where to look for it at the time, he just felt that he should go out and look for it.

But how could he move? Then he fell to the ground as soon as he turned over.Statement tired but not reconciled, he struggled to turn himself over, lying on the ground and crawling forward, also wanting to find Xu Liangyun while crawling, looking extremely embarrassed.

A group of doctors and nurses in the ICU rushed up when they heard the movement, and pushed him back to the bed without any explanation.They didn't care about the statement, tired of crying and howling, struggling to call Xu Liangyun, pressed him to death on the bed and gave him a sedative, which was considered to calm him down.

Statement tired of sedation.But the calm state of mind couldn't stop the subconscious pain, he just looked at the eyes so calmly, weeping all the time, his hand was trembling convulsively after the wound was cracked by the mess just now.

He said let me make another call, let me make another call... please, put him on the phone.

The police couldn't bear it and kept calling Xu Liangyun, but they couldn't get through.

Later, I don't know who called the police. After he went out to pick it up, his face turned pale when he came back.

He said sorry, Xiao Chen, don't call Xu Liangyun anymore.

He doesn't want you anymore.

The police said, he really doesn't want you...I'm sorry.

Chen Yan looked at the policeman who bowed his head deeply, not daring to look at him, and felt that he should be heartbroken.

But he was sedated, he couldn't feel sad, his mood was like a calm dead sea, and he couldn't even feel reconciled to the relationship that ended unexpectedly.

He felt that this was too absurd, so he couldn't help laughing.

He's crazy.Obviously Xu Liangyun said he didn't want him anymore, but he laughed there like crazy, crying while laughing.

"……Why?"

He tried his best to make himself sad, and asked, "What is it for...?"

The policeman lowered his head, held back for a long time, and finally said: "Is he... tired?"

This reason is fucking ridiculous.

That night, he stated that he was tired of the pain for a long time, and the pain was so painful that he couldn't sleep even if he took painkillers.

Xu Liangyun just didn't want him anymore.

In the end, he only left a phone call to Chen Yan, and then disappeared, letting others face him, hiding in a certain corner of the city to avoid him, not seeing him, and saying goodbye to him in the cruelest way.

Later, it was stated that he was sick with a serious illness, and had a high fever until he passed out, which frightened the doctor very much.

Later, many people came to take care of him, but not everyone was Xu Liangyun.

When the treatment for declarative anorexia got better and he could almost move his hands, he finally picked up the phone.

He tried to send a message to Xu Liangyun.

But Xu Liangyun was so cold and violent that every contact method was blocked without exception.

At that time, declarative fatigue finally understood in a daze in the cruel reality.

Xu Liangyun is really, really, really don't want him anymore.

Five years of relationship, plus the year of ambiguity, a total of six years of relationship, Xu Liangyun said no, so he didn't want it.

As a result, Chen Yan gradually broke down in sobs, his voice became hoarse from crying, and the injuries on his body became painfully painful.

Without Xu Liangyun's statement, he was in a state of embarrassment for a long time.He screamed in pain during the debridement in the hospital. When he was discharged from the hospital, he fell down the stairs with his things and couldn't stand up. In the middle of the night, he woke up screaming and screaming at the atrocities. He was so afraid that he grabbed his hair and screamed.

Two months later, when he returned home from hospital, he saw that the house was more than half empty.He knew that Xu Liangyun had come back, but he would not come back again.

Zhong Tang said that the dog was sent to a pet shop by Xu Liangyun for foster care.You can pick it up, but he doesn't want the dog, I leave it to you.

The statement was tired and went to pick it up.When he went to pick it up, he saw Pudding yelling at him with bright eyes, turned around in a circle, and started whining again, as if asking him where Xu Liangyun was.

Chen Chen looked at it tiredly, laughed again, and said softly helplessly, Pudding, your father doesn't want me anymore.

He really isn't a thing.

Statements are boring.

After saying this, he cried again to the dog.

After returning home with the pudding, he tidied up briefly, and saw an unfinished painting in the bedroom. The flowers in the darkness were trying to grow upwards, reaching the bright light that seemed to be within reach.

Standing in front of the painting, Zhang Yan suddenly didn't know how to continue painting.

So he threw the flower of the abyss that was born towards the light into the trash can downstairs, and he never painted his own light again.

Afterwards, for a long period of time, Chen Yan's hands shook so badly that he couldn't even hold the pen, and he couldn't draw a single stroke. He was so angry that he threw things and screamed at home for no reason, as if he was going crazy.

He went to the doctor alone, and the doctor said that you might not be able to draw anymore.

It can be stated that I hate only painting.He had no choice but to do rehabilitation training desperately and undergo surgery to recover, and every time he was in so much pain that he couldn't help crying, those were the injuries left to him by Xu Liangyun.

Every time he cried in pain, he remembered that Xu Liangyun said before that he would not let him cry again.

Xu Liangyun lied.

Chen Yan hugged himself who couldn't help trembling slightly just thinking about it, raised his head and looked into the distance, these words that were so sure that he was desperate, are shaking violently with the winter wind at this moment.

He could only repeat to himself over and over again, trying to make these hatreds firmly take root again.

Xu Liangyun lied to me.

Xu Liangyun doesn't care about me.

Xu Liangyun is an asshole.

He sat down on the bench for a moment.When the sun was setting, Chen Yan took Pudding and walked in Yunhai Park for a while to relax, and then went home.

It's useless to relax, and there is still a haze in the heart of the statement.

After returning home, he also searched on his mobile phone and found several reports from that year-funny to say, this was the first time he searched for these.

This incident was a big hit back then, and there were many reports.

They said that Ye Xia killed the special police lover, that Ye Xia was the kidnapper's girlfriend, that Ye Xia was an act of revenge, that Ye Xia shot three times at the special police, and some of the more brain-dead said that the special police stood still and let her hit her. Three shots.

I am tired of stating that I want to click in and take a closer look.But the word Ye Xia was like a curse, so he didn't dare to click on it anyway, even his fingers were trembling, trembling as if he had Parkinson's.

He seemed to hear Ye Xia giggling wildly in his ear again, making his brain buzz from the laughter.

Finally, the phone in his hand fell from his trembling hands to the ground.

Only then did Chen Yan realize that his hands were shaking unbearably, and his breathing was in a mess. He cried out at some point, and the tears were slowly streaming down his cheeks, and he couldn't stop them.

Pudding found out that he was wrong, and had already run to the side and rubbed against him to comfort him.

Chen Yan slowly squatted down, holding his hands that were shaking like chaff, and took a deep breath on the spot for a long time.

He didn't even have the courage to look at the past.

He didn't even have the courage to look at Xu Liangyun from before.

Chen Yan squatted in place for a long time, and suddenly felt that he was really a fucking thing.

He thought of the five years that he hated so much that his heart ached, and suddenly felt that everything seemed like a ridiculous joke, so he smiled coldly, with a sour and sarcastic voice.

Chen Yan held his trembling hands, raised his head, and looked at Pudding who had been circling him, whimpering with worry.

"... Does he really have a secret?"

Statement Yan was dizzy and murmured to himself, "What the hell is going on with him?"

Pudding could not answer him.

The person who can answer this question has not been back for five years.

After recovering, Chen Yan sent Zhong Tang a Wechat message, asking Xu Liangyun what to say - after all, after five years of dating, Xu Liangyun knew him very well, and he knew that Chen Yan would not really go to the police station to make trouble.So whether Xu Liangyun will come or not is unknown.

Zhong Tang said that he left early. After hanging up the phone, he didn't sleep well all afternoon. He woke up early and couldn't sit still. He slipped away two hours ago.

As soon as Zhong Tang said this, he became angry, and said that it is good to be a boss, and he should get his own wife and leave the work to the subordinates, damn it.

Statement: "...I am not his wife."

Zhong Tang: "Oh."

Zhong Tang: "Fuck your ex-husband."

Zhong Tang: "Are you satisfied with this, Mr. Chen?"

Statement rolls his eyes in disgust, almost wanting to block him.

He sighed and didn't want to talk about it anymore, so he sent a message to Zhong Tang, asking him to send Xu Liangyun's phone number.

But when he was about to send the information, Chen Yan felt that this was a bit too much.

He deleted all the messages again, thought about it, and casually sent an emoji, ending the conversation hastily.

Forget it.

The statement is tired of thinking without spirit.

After a while, a call suddenly came to Zhang Yan's cell phone.

The statement took a tired look.A series of numbers that have never been seen before, unknown numbers.

He picked it up.

"Hey."

he said softly.

He heard a suffocating muffled wind on the phone, as if someone was inhaling hard, exactly the same as that day in the early morning of the New Year's Eve.

Chen Yan knew who it was, so he waited patiently for a while.

After an unknown period of time, the person on the other end of the phone finally managed to hold back two words.

"...It's me." He said, "This is my...change phone number."

"Yeah." Chen Chen replied angrily, "I know."

Xu Liangyun was silent on the other end of the phone for a long time.

He did not speak, nor did he speak.

The two of them just held the phone, listening to each other's exhalation and inhalation, and the howling of the cold wind in the city.

Statement Yan suddenly felt that this scene was very similar to the two years in college.At that time, they were in love, and they would connect to Mailian all night, and they would not hang up when they fell asleep. They would always listen to each other's breathing, even if they heard that the phone was hot, they would not let go.

It's just that time flies, and there are too many unforgettable things. At this moment, things have changed, and everything is over.

After being silent for a long time, Xu Liangyun finally spoke again.

He said, "I'm downstairs at your house. I'll ask someone to deliver the gloves to you, so don't see me."

Xu Liangyun was avoiding seeing him again.

The statement became annoyed all of a sudden.He supported his forehead, took a deep breath, suppressed the fire in his heart, calmed down, and called him patiently: "Xu Liangyun."

Xu Liangyun: "...Hey."

"I said I want to see you." Chen Yan said, "Can you understand what this sentence means?"

"...I can understand." Xu Liangyun said, "But what are you doing seeing me... Don't you think I'm angry?"

"very angry."

Xu Liangyun: "..."

"But I just want to see you. I have to see you for whatever I say today." Chen Jian said, "You have to see me even if you don't see me. You don't care if you say anything about it. Wait downstairs for me. If you If you dare to run, you are finished."

After Chen Yan finished speaking, he didn't listen to his answer. He hung up the phone directly, sat on the spot and took a deep breath. After calming down for a while, he stood up, put on his gloves, grabbed a piece of clothing, and went downstairs.

Xu Liangyun was indeed at the door of the building.

He changed into a black woolen overcoat with the same white shirt inside.

After a day gone by, the dark circles around his eyes deepened and he looked more haggard.He shrugged his shoulders and stood at the entrance of the building a little awkwardly, his expression was very tense. The night light outside fell on his shoulders, like a light snowfall.

He holds the glove of the day in his hand.

You know that he won't throw it if he is tired of stating it.

Statement Yan walked over to him.

As soon as Chen Yan walked over, Xu Liangyun froze.After he walked in front of him, Xu Liangyun lowered his head, raised his head again, handed over the glove in his hand in a bit of bewilderment, and offered it with both hands.

Chen Yan took it and stuffed it into his left pocket.

Xu Liangyun obviously didn't dare to face him. After the gloves were taken away, he took two steps back, then clasped his hands together, scratched them in a panic, and said dryly: "No... If it's okay, I will Just first..."

"Go for a try." Chen Yan said to him calmly, "You see, if I scold you or not, you're done. I'll stop a taxi and chase you with a horn on the buttocks, and I'm sure there will be people in a ten-mile radius. My echo."

Xu Liangyun fell silent.

"Have you eaten yet?"

"……?No……"

"If you don't, come with me to eat." Chen Yan said, "I didn't eat either, it's a coincidence."

After Zhang Yan finished speaking, he stuffed the gloves into his pocket, turned his head and walked out of the building.

Xu Liangyun really didn't expect him to do this, he was so stupid for a moment, he didn't move at all.

Chen Yan walked several meters away without hearing the sound of footsteps following him. Looking back, he saw that Xu Liangyun was still standing still, so he turned sideways and urged him in a very calm voice, "Let's go."

Xu Liangyun shook his shoulders, quickly answered twice, and followed.

After catching up, he was like a child who pissed off his mother, and he followed behind Chen Yan, all the way quietly.