I'm going crazy and I'm green

I have also been to Shen Miao's courtyard on a rainy day, but my mood is completely different.At that time, I was full of ambition and had never experienced life and death. I always felt that there was nothing difficult in the world, not to mention the little scholar in the yard, who just had to spend a little more effort.

So I haven't bothered to look at the scenery in this yard before, thinking that Shen Miao won't live in this poor place for long, anyway, I'll be carried into the mansion with someone and a package... No... You don't even need to bring the package , Throw away his junk as early as possible, I will always buy the best for him.

How could I have imagined that I would step here again.

Shen Miao's small courtyard is really small, there are at most three or two servants in it, but everything is well organized.I don't know what kind of vines are climbing on the shelf in the front yard, so green that it will drip down with the spring rain.In comparison, I was the one who looked tattered and embarrassed at a glance.

Shen Miao took me into the house and asked someone to boil water and prepare tea, and brought a dry handkerchief to wipe the tears off my face.

His movements were rusty and gentle, and his eyes were filled with genuine worry.

I didn't want to continue crying in front of Shen Miao, but just now I cried so hard that I couldn't stop, and I choked and hiccupped even when I spoke.

"Shen...um...Brother Shen...beep...don't worry about me...in a while...beep...someone will pick me up..."

Shen Miao was a little helpless when he heard the words, but he was amused by my miserable appearance: "Then you can't sit and wait wet, even if someone comes to pick you up, the way back should not be close. Wouldn't it make you sick if you come and go again and again?"

"I..." I didn't know what to say, but at this moment a servant woman came forward and said, "My lord, the hot water is ready."

Shen Miao stood up and pushed my shoulder: "Go, and wash away the rain and cold from this whole body."

I thought about it, I couldn't sit in front of Shen Miao so smelly and dirty, so I nodded and agreed.

Soaking in warm water, I looked up at the house.The tub for bathing is also too small. I am 12 years old and have not yet grown up. I can only stretch my hands and feet. If I am taller, I will not be able to move.

I am a person who forgets to eat but not to fight. Many melancholy just now were soaked in hot water and turned into lustful thoughts.I couldn't help but think, Shen Miao is such a frugal person, if it is not necessary, he would not have a double copy of the things in the house, and it is impossible to give me the things of the servants.Then this bathtub is probably what he used on weekdays.I sat in the tub and kept thinking, almost slipping into the bottom of the basin.

After taking a bath, the maid has prepared clothes for me.I picked up the clothes and sniffed them, and there was a fresh scent of soap locust on them.After changing into clean clothes, the maid led me back to the front hall.Shen Miao sat there with a bowl of ginger tea on the table beside him.

I usually don't like ginger tea, it's very choking, like pouring a pot of hot oil down my throat.

I was just trying to reject this horrible cup, but I heard Shen Miao say: "I can't find milk at home, so I can only make some ginger tea to warm my body with you."

My God... my heart was sour, and the tears I had just withdrawn were almost about to fall again.

Shen Miao... he still remembers the milk I prepared for him...

So I picked up the bowl and gulped it down.A bowl of warming ginger tea is nothing, even a pot of hot oil can be turned into sweet sugar water at this moment.

When I put down the bowl, Shen Miao looked at me, and said again: "Jiayan, if you don't mind talking to me, you may as well tell me about your unhappiness. When you talk about many things, you will feel at ease. gone."

I really want to hug Shen Miao and kiss him, then touch his frowning brows, and tell him: How can you say that we have a shallow friendship, we have a deep friendship, my dear!

But I dare not say such frivolous and shocking words, and I can’t say bluntly that the unhappiness in my heart is all because I just scolded my other self for being an asshole, so I can only make up some far-fetched reasons, saying that today I was reprimanded by my brother for not doing a proper job, 12 years old He still lives like a seven or eight-year-old child.

I asked him: "Brother Shen, if I live for a long time and still act like a rude child, do you think my brother will hate me?"

I pulled Brother Li as a target, but I was expecting Shen Miao's answer in my heart.

Shen Miao was stunned, and said with a smile: "But I envy people who live a lifetime and are as innocent as a child."

Being innocent at heart is not the same as living like a rude child, I know this very well, and I know that Shen Miao is trying to comfort me.But my wrinkled and sore heart was easily healed.

How much I want to tell Shen Miao that I miss you for two lifetimes, that I will definitely change those bad tempers in my new life, and I hope you will have a look again when the time comes.

In the end, he made a nonsensical sentence: "Brother Shen...you...you are so kind...you will definitely become the number one scholar as you wish!"

Shen Miao was also surprised by my incomprehensible words, and said amusedly: "Now that we have good words to reconcile, the rest depends on the weather."

While sitting down for another cup of tea, Brother Li rushed over with the guards from the princess mansion, thanked and apologized to Shen Miao, and gave me a lot of things, packed me into the carriage and took me away.

I opened the curtain and watched the gradually shrinking courtyard and street through the car window until the familiar place disappeared in the pattering rain.

I'm really like a mouse guarding a candle in a dark room, wanting to steal the lamp oil to eat, but afraid that the lamp will be knocked down by hands and feet, so I just shrink my paws, hoping that the lamp will be brighter, so that I will be far away. I also feel warm.