time for sysyphus

Silent time does not mean meaningless. Even though Lin Si was silent during this period of time, his thoughts did not freeze, but he digested a lot by himself.

Every time Ji Zhongnian saw him, he would constantly fight against himself in his head, like a person standing at a fork in the road and having to make a choice.

"Lin Mutou, aren't you going to talk to me today?" Ji Zhongnian leaned against the window in front of Lin Si, with his back to the setting sun, talking to Lin Si.

Lin Si was silent, like a piece of fragile porcelain. Suddenly, he shifted his gaze from looking at the sunset to Ji Zhongnian, and quietly looked at the man in front of him.

Ji Zhongnian has long been used to this kind of gaze. In the first few days, when Lin Si looked at him, he looked at him in a vacant and fuzzy manner, and gradually, it became a look with red eye circles.

Day by day, Ji Zhongnian felt that his gaze had changed again, like a tree root, a tenacious gaze grew silently from his jet-black pupils, forming a warm connection with the sunlight in the sky, and then converged on him. body.

"I'll ask Uncle Dong to bring you dinner later, eat more."

Ji Zhongnian was about to leave, but Lin Si took the initiative to stop him, and said a word in a voice that was almost hard to hear: "You are very similar to me back then."

Ji Zhongnian, who happened to walk to the door of the room, paused and turned to look at him, thankful that he did not miss Lin Si's extremely quiet words, although he failed to understand Lin Si's meaning.

He folded back and sat next to Lins, the weight of his body pushed the soft mattress down a little, "Why do you say that?"

"At that time... I was also like you now. I was very stubborn in chasing the person I liked, unyielding, and chasing fiercely," Lin Si said, as if recalling, "That person always scolded me He is a pervert and an idiot, but I just refuse to give up, no matter how much he dislikes me or scolds me, I just don't want to leave him."

As he talked, he didn't even realize that some warm liquid was sliding across his cheeks, obviously.

"I'm like a fool," Lin Sidao said.

"Are you telling me this to tell me that you still love that person very much?" Ji Zhongnian lowered his hand and held Lin Si's hand, his knuckles turned white from too much force.

But after asking this question, he didn't want Lin Si to answer, but before the other party gave the answer, he asked first: "Anyway, it's impossible for you to be with that person, put everything aside, and consider trying with me?" ?”

Lin Si smiled shallowly, even if it wasn't the kind of happy or happy smile, but bitter and helpless, but it was the first time the corners of his mouth rose these days.

"This is already the 18th time you have asked this question this week."

"Are you still counting?"

"Ah."

Ji Zhongnian has been rejected a lot, and now he has a kind of self-optimistic Forrest Gump spirit, "That's good, counting over and over again, it shows that you really take my words to heart."

He said jokingly, but his eyes were extremely longing.What Ji Zhongnian wanted, no matter what method or method he used, he wanted to hold it in his hands.

Even though he knew that Lin Si might still have someone in his heart, he didn't care, as long as Lin Si agreed to be with him, he was confident that Lin Si would fall in love with him and be completely loyal to him.

"Abandon everything?" Lin Si shook his head, "It's hard, I don't seem to be able to do it yet."

He seemed to be less stubborn than before, but he still failed to give the answer Ji Zhongnian wanted. He only suppressed a fleeting smile and stared at Ji Zhongnian's face in silence for a long time, a little bit to quench his thirst. Colors reflected by the setting sun.

But he seemed to have underestimated Ji Zhongnian's love for him, such a tall man, at this moment, suddenly bent down and squatted in front of him, expressing his love to him with gentle eyes.

Ji Zhongnian spread Lin Si's palm, scratched it with an index finger, and wrote "Ji Zhongnian" on his palm, as if he wanted to engrave his name on Lin Si's palm.

"I'll wait for you," he said, "until you can give me a crisp answer, instead of using some unrealistic guesses about the future as an excuse to perfunctory me."

Ji Zhongnian never accepted his fate, nor was he afraid of taking risks and placing bets, so he wanted to gamble, bet on the intuition he got from Lin Si, and bet that Lin Si didn't really have any feelings for him.

After that day, Lin Si seemed to be no different from before. He was still sitting in the room in a daze, but at a certain time, he couldn't help turning his head to see if the door had been pushed open.

But no.

Ji Zhongnian has not come for two consecutive days.

Lin Si picked up the fruit on the coffee table, feeling a little uncomfortable, scratching his heart, and a feeling of emptiness filled his chest.

Every time Ji Zhongnian enters his room to talk to him, he likes to sit in front of the coffee table and chat and roll fruits. Finally, when the second young master leaves, apples, bananas, California oranges, and dragon fruits will always be neatly arranged The best way is to put it in the center of the coffee table.

But now, these fruits have been left untouched in the fruit bowl for two consecutive days.

Thinking about it again, Lin Si felt that something was wrong, so he walked out of the room and went downstairs to find Uncle Dong. This was the first time in half a month that he put aside the world he was immersed in and stepped out of the door .

"Uncle Dong, did Ji Zhongnian not come home these two days?" Lin Si asked.

Uncle Dong was sweeping the sofa with a feather duster. After hearing Lin Si's words, his eyes flashed unnaturally, and he deliberately avoided speaking, "Yeah...Second Young Master, he, he is quite busy these days, eh, busy Well."

"But no matter how busy he is, he has to go home." Lin Si had a bad feeling, "Why hasn't he been back these two days?"

Uncle Dong turned his back, hesitatingly covering up something: "Second Young Master... he's busy with work, and it's normal for him to live in a company."

"He hasn't come back for two nights, doesn't he need to wash and change clothes?"

"Hey. I'm on a business trip. Don't worry about it."

"Business trip? Didn't you just say that he lives in the company?"

"..."

Uncle Dong is honest and kind, and has never been good at lying. Now the signs of telling lies are written on this old face, how could Lin Si not see it.He was completely anxious, "Uncle Dong, if you want to kill me, tell me quickly!"

"Oh, it's the second young master, he said..." Dong Shu drooped his wrinkled eyelids, and looked worried, "He said that if you ask, he can't tell you that he is in the hospital."

The moment these words fell into his ears, Lin Si's eyes suddenly focused, and his pupils shrank——

"Hospital?!"

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This is the second watch