growing up porcelain doll

◎This is the second time Cheng Yu heard Gong Qing say thank you to him, he frowned and said, "Have you forgotten what I told you before?"

Gong Qing was taken aback, and asked...◎

This is the second time Cheng Yu heard Gong Qing thank him. He frowned and said, "Have you forgotten what I told you before?"

Gong Qing was taken aback, and asked, "What are you talking about?"

Cheng Yu put a roasted chicken leg in Gong Qing's bowl, and said, "I am your brother, there is no need to say thank you between us."

Gong Qing curled her lips into a smile, and said humbly: "Yes, yes, my good brother, I will punish myself with a drink!" After speaking, she raised her head and downed a full glass of wine.

"Cool, drink slowly! Eat something."

Gong Qing is happy tonight.Since he came to Beijing, he used the excuse of being busy and tired from military training to rarely contact his elder brother, and every time he called, he would call at home.But how busy can military training be?There is basically nothing else to do except go out to the military posture training queue to organize the housework. After all, the class has not started yet, so there is still plenty of time.

Not contacting big brother is just a subjective consciousness, but not contacting does not mean not thinking about it.For a long time in the military posture, there will always be the figure of the big brother in his mind. The bits and pieces of those together seem to become extraordinarily clear under the scorching sun, and those memories and feelings flow with the hot blood. The whole body, let him be fascinated, and let him forget the tiredness all over his body.But every time after a day's training, when a person lies on his back on the bed, the infatuation during the day will become a thousand times of longing.

University is not like high school, where the school can control the use of mobile phones. In this completely free environment, a person's self-control is tested. His reason is undoubtedly painful to him, but he must persist.He felt that the villain in his heart was constantly fighting tug-of-war, and the distance seemed to not reduce his affection for his elder brother. On the contrary, this feeling became stronger after reminding himself over and over again. He didn't know such a thing When will the days end.

This month's life is really not very easy, but this is just the beginning.

This is also the reason why he didn't go home this time. It was not easy for him to endure it. When he saw his elder brother when he couldn't calm down, his efforts for this month fell short.

However, the eldest brother still saw it, and he saw it when he was unprepared, but at this moment, he didn't want to think about the barriers he had built with great difficulty being breached. All he could think about was the joy and joy of the person he had missed for a month in front of him. satisfy.

He finished a drumstick and asked, "Brother, how do you know I'm there?"

Cheng Yu rolled his eyes when he heard the words, took a sip of wine and said, "I arrived at the gate of your school at noon, and I was about to find a hotel nearby to stay when I saw you go into a noodle restaurant for dinner. I wondered why you would Here, I was still wondering if my eyes were dazzled, so I followed to have a look, and then I found that it was really you." He pointed at Gong Qing with his chopsticks, and continued: "I want to see, it's fine if you don't go home , and lied to us, what on earth are you going to do?"

Gong Qing smiled awkwardly, thinking that it was really God's will. He ate in the restaurant a few days ago, and suddenly wanted to change his taste, and was caught on the spot.He asked again, "Then what?"

Cheng Yu stuffed another fried crispy yellow croaker into his mouth and said, "Then I sat in the coffee shop opposite your store all afternoon."

"Then you can hold your breath."

"Otherwise? I found out that I was cheated and rushed in to beat you up?"

Gong Qing laughed and said, "Then you can't bear it!"

Cheng Yu glared at him, and paused for a while before saying, "Then tell me, why do you want to work part-time? Isn't the family's living expenses not enough? Isn't it okay for you to go out to play or study at school when you have this time? If you have more time, you can also join a club or something, it's better than working part-time."

Gong Qing naturally couldn't tell the truth, he laughed and said: "Our class schedule is out, there are not many freshman classes, and I have also read the books issued, and I don't think it's too difficult, anyway, if you have time, just do something casually It's not that I haven't thought about starting an association, but I feel that there are many things in the association, and the time is not fixed, so it is not free. In contrast, it is better to come out to do part-time jobs. If you have something to do, you can ask for leave in advance. I told you to do this and that to make you messy. If you do this casually, it will not delay your studies. The living expenses given by my aunt are only a lot more. I am not short of money, and making money is not the purpose. I don’t feel very good about social life. Well!"

He didn't want his elder brother to pay too much attention to the reason for his part-time job, so he changed the subject and asked, "By the way, brother, why are you here?"

Cheng Yu squinted at him and said, "What? Can't I come?"

Gong Qing chuckled: "Of course not, I'm too happy for you to come to see me! How long are you staying?"

"I'm just afraid that you won't get used to staying in such a far place by yourself, so I came to see you. I have classes the day after tomorrow afternoon and the last two periods, so I'm leaving tomorrow night." Cheng Yu said while eating.

I'm afraid it's not good for you to be alone in such a far away place, so I came to see you.

A warm current flowed into Gong Qing's heart, as if soaking up all the thoughts of these days, he couldn't help clenching his hands under the table.

He nodded and asked again, "Have you found the hotel yet?"

Cheng Yu said: "Well, I found it, it's nearby."

After the two of them finished their meal, they went directly to the hotel. While the eldest brother was taking a shower, he stood in front of the window in a daze, and the painful see-saw in his heart began again.

The sudden appearance of his eldest brother undoubtedly made him happy, but this short-lived happiness was bought in exchange for the double miss in the future and the restraint that was wasted in the previous month. As long as the eldest brother leaves, his life will only be more difficult than before , because the line of defense in his heart has been defeated this night.

If he is a person with low moral sense, then he can put aside everything and be an exquisite egoist, but he is not, he is grateful to all the people who treat him well, he loves this world, loves This family loves his elder brother more, so when there is a conflict between love and family affection, he would rather pick up a knife and cut himself.

The sound of water in the bathroom stopped, but Gong Qing didn't hear it. He looked at the starless night sky like his dark and unclear feelings, dark and without light.

Cheng Yu opened the bathroom door, and what he saw was Gong Qing's silhouette looking up at the sky at 45 degrees.He couldn't see Gong Qing's expression, nor could he see the thick fog in Gong Qing's eyes, but just from such a somewhat lonely profile, he knew that Gong Qing must have something on her mind.

He walked towards the window, Gong Qing looked back at him, his face was still covered with drops of water from the end of his hair.Gong Qing picked up the towel that her elder brother put on her shoulders, and wiped his face and hair. Just the warmth felt through the thick towel made Gong Qing's heart tremble.He withdrew his hand as calmly as possible and said, "I'm going to take a shower."

Cheng Yu looked at the closed door, he suddenly felt an indescribable loss, not much, just a little.He seems to feel that the distance between himself and his younger brother is getting farther, but this feeling is not real in today's meeting and conversation. Maybe his younger brother has learned to hide little secrets when he grows up.

It's actually not easy to book a room during a short vacation. Besides, Cheng Yu decided to come to Beijing on the spur of the moment. When he was looking at the hotel, there was only one standard room left in the hotel.

After Gong Qing came out of the bathroom, he saw that his elder brother was already lying under the quilt. After thinking about it, he went to another bed and sat down.

Cheng Yu originally wanted to say that the bed was quite big, enough for two people to sleep, but after thinking about it, it wasn't like there was only one bed at home, so he didn't say anything.

He looked sideways at Gong Qing and said, "Are you still used to it here?"

"Well, it's okay, the students are all doing well." Gong Qing said while wiping her hair.

Cheng Yu nodded and said, "Are you still going to work tomorrow? If you do, I'll stay in your store. If you don't, let's go out for a stroll."

Gong Qing said: "I'll be off tomorrow, so I'll take you to our school."

"it is good."

The two fell asleep after chatting for a long time. The next day, Gong Qing took her elder brother to visit every corner of University A in Beijing. Even though it was a holiday, there were quite a few people in the school.They are too dazzling to walk side by side, so that the students passing by can't help but look at them a few more times.

After Cheng Yu left, Gong Qing's mood really fell from the clouds to the bottom. Although he was careful when he was happy together, the thoughts and desires that were suppressed in his heart overflowed with the cracked barriers. It's really hard to push them back.

So for a long time to come, he kept his schedule full. Classrooms, libraries, laboratories, and fried chicken shops were the places where he spent most of his time besides the dormitory.He also keeps in touch with his family once a week or two.As for the big brother, the big brother would send him messages from time to time, which was of no help to him who wanted to distance himself from the big brother.

Those news were like invisible thin threads, pulling him closer to the care of his elder brother. These threads gradually weaved into an exquisite cage, not big, but enough to trap his heart.

After Cheng Yu returned to school, he had another thought.

When he saw Gong Qing appearing tiredly at the fried chicken restaurant, he felt an indescribable distress. He didn't want Gong Qing to come out so early to experience "social life". He felt that a boy of this age should Learning to play should be fun, and the family does not lack his little living expenses, so why does he have to work so hard on himself?

When he saw Gong Qing walking alone on the street, he felt that his younger brother looked a little lonely, and when he thought of Gong Qing's silhouette standing by the window that night, he felt a little inexplicably sad.

He knew that Gong Qing had something on his mind, and he also knew that Gong Qing was unwilling to say it. Although he had doubts about such a change in Gong Qing and felt uncomfortable with Gong Qing's distrust of him, he was still Gong Qing's elder brother after all. She loves him and wants to help him take care of him. He hopes that Gong Qing can rely on him and not to carry everything alone.

So he, who originally planned to study in this school as a graduate student, suddenly went to tell the professor that he was going to A University in Beijing.

Although the professor was very unhappy, he still respected his wishes and wrote a recommendation letter for him, and caught Baoyan's tail at the last moment.

Cheng Yu, who didn't have to take the postgraduate exam, suddenly had a lot of time. He didn't tell Gong Qing the news, and wanted to give him a surprise in the coming year.So he spent the rest of his senior year at school preparing for his graduation thesis and judicial examination.

This year is a bit too long for Gong Qing, the task of study is real, the hours of work are real, and the yearning for big brother is also real.In the past, I wanted to control myself and my eldest brother to keep a distance, and I felt that if I stayed far away, I could calm a restless heart.He firmly and even stubbornly believes that the root of everything lies in his own dirty thoughts, as long as he strips himself from the root, it will not cause trouble to everyone.

But he forgot that there are two other words in this world, one is "overcorrection" and the other is "counterproductive".

The eldest brother is a lake water soaking Gong Qing, and also a soft thorn in his heart. Can a person really live without the source of life?Although the thorn in the heart is pulled out, the wound will still be left. Even if the wound is healed, the trace of that place is still left by the thorn.

He was busy doing various things during the day, but in the dead of night at night, he would still miss his elder brother uncontrollably.He would cry secretly when he saw the two people meeting each other, and he would also feel guilty because of the nightmare in the middle of the night.Dreams are his paradise and his shackles.

Therefore, he cannot escape.

This year is Cheng Yue's college entrance examination year, and she is busier than usual.She took her second brother as her goal, and she wanted to go to school in the same city as her second brother, and wanted to be admitted to the Beijing Academy of Fine Arts, but her cultural class scores were indeed not high. After much deliberation, the family decided to let her stay in Nanshi It’s good to study at Nanshi Academy of Fine Arts, anyway, it is also a leader among art schools.

During the holiday, Cheng Yue's admission letter had just arrived, followed by Cheng Yu's.

Gong Qing looked at the address on the file bag, she was still wondering one second, but immediately understood what happened the next second.He quickly opened the file bag and took a look. Inside was the admission notice for graduate students from University A in Beijing, and the name "Cheng Yu" was written on it.

Gong Qing's head buzzed, and her heart beat a little faster unconsciously.He was holding the gorgeous acceptance letter, and there was only one thought in his head—what to do?