Where to send the rest of your life

Sishilu's birthday

Life is not salty or dull, and Yu Shen's birthday is coming.

Although Jin Yunhe's health is not in great condition, it has indeed improved a lot. The serious injury is in his heart, as long as he doesn't look in the mirror, he can still make do with it.And to be honest, although he doesn't want to admit it, he is still grateful in his heart - after all, he has truly felt that the process of detoxification is worse than death, and he has also truly felt that it is like being reborn after detoxification.

It was a escape.

So after a few days of busy work, he also worked with Xue Tanpei to prepare for Yu Shen's birthday.

Yu Shen's whereabouts are secretive recently, he stays at night and rarely shows up at home.After finally catching the opportunity, Jin Yunhe hastily told him to come back early that day, and Yu Shen vaguely seemed to agree.

But in fact, he is still a little confused-he doesn't remember his birthday at all.

Now he goes out in the cold morning every day and finds a typing job in a newspaper office. Although he doesn't earn much, he can still save enough to spend.Two days ago, a Mr. Gu came to the newspaper office, and he was also a scholar who had returned from overseas. Yu Shen chatted with him by chance, and a burst of surprise filled his heart, and he talked to him if he had anything to do.

Mr. Gu's name is Gu Junpan, and he is also a mainlander.He went to university in Japan, then went to Germany, and recently came to Hong Kong to provide working capital for the newspaper Yu Shen works for.

Gu Junpan is a person who likes to wear suits very much. He is very decent no matter when he is in front of people - his hair is oiled and smooth, and the buttons are tied meticulously. Unlike Xue Tanpei, he never wears formal clothes to look formal .And the reason why he was favored by Yu Shen was because he was good at talking.He has a wealth of experience and has been to all over the world, and he can speak clearly about any little thing that comes to his mouth.And Yu Shen only felt that he still had something to pursue when he got close to Gu Junpan. He felt that he could at least do something instead of just eating and drinking at home and sleeping all day long.

Gu Junpan owns a camera himself. Once when Yu Shen was arranging documents at the desk, he was stunned for a while, and Gu Junpan took a picture of it. Later, he took the photo and developed it and gave it to Yu Shen.

Yu Shen took the photo, looked at himself in the photo, and felt an inexplicable feeling in his heart.

He raised his head with a smile and put away the photo.

Everyone in the family didn't know about Yu Shen's life in the newspaper office. On his birthday, Xue Tanpei finally couldn't bear it anymore. When it was close to noon, he bought a meal outside and wanted to send it to him. He has all kinds of meat and eight vegetables and doesn't want to go home.

However, after finding the newspaper office with great difficulty, Xue Tanpei paused at the bottom, and after smoking a few cigarettes, he did not go up.

After waiting for an unknown amount of time, Xue Tanpei suddenly realized that the food was cold.He froze for a moment, let out an almost inaudible sigh, raised his hand and threw the food into the trash can.

The untouched food fell into the bucket with a muffled sound.Xue Tanpei exhaled two hot breaths, and leaned against a light pole by the side of the street.He hadn't finished the half of the cigarette held between his fingers, so he took two hasty puffs. He threw the cigarette butt on the ground and stamped it out, then turned to leave.

However, at this moment, the small door of the newspaper office suddenly opened, and a person was chasing down the narrow stairs, it was Gu Junpan: "Sir, stop!"

Xue Tanpei didn't think that someone was calling him, and he still walked without looking back, until a big hand patted him on the shoulder.

He turned his head inexplicably, and saw a man about his height talking to him.

"Mister, I see you have been standing here for a long time, why don't you go up?"

Xue Tanpei looked him up and down: "What does it have to do with you?"

Gu Junpan smiled: "It didn't matter at first, but I was very anxious when I saw Mr. He was hesitating. Although I don't know what Mr. He is hesitating about, it's not a bad thing to go up and sit down, right?"

Xue Tanpei gave him a blank look, didn't want to talk nonsense, turned around and left, but at this time another person came down the stairs, it was Yu Shen.

"Yu Shen!" Gu Junpan called out, and Yu Shen looked over here.

"Why are you here?" He approached, looked at Xue Tanpei and asked.

Xue Tanpei shrugged and looked aside: "Passing by."

Yu Shen frowned, just as he was about to speak, Gu Junpan over there had already spoken.

"So you two know each other. In this case, why don't you have dinner together at night, and I'll invite you to a restaurant." Then he looked at the two of them, holding the wrist of his right hand with his left hand and keeping a smile expectantly.

Xue Tanpei grabbed Yu Shen's hand subconsciously: "No way!"

The cake was bought, and the family took a whole morning to clean the house. How could Yu Shen go out to eat with an outsider?

"This?" Gu Junpan's smile faltered, "Why not?"

"No, no, no, you care so much!" Xue Tanpei glared at Gu Junpan viciously, and stared back at all the words he hadn't said yet.

Yu Shen frowned. He didn't find a chance to speak from the beginning to the end. Now that he finally had the chance to speak, he looked up at Gu Junpan, subconsciously maintaining a posture of blocking Xue Tanpei with one hand, and politely said with a smile: "I want to eat You can eat it anytime, if you can’t do it today, there will always be a next time.”

Although Yu Shen was smiling, he was still a little embarrassed, and he didn't want to be with these two at the same time, so he really wanted to turn around immediately.

As soon as Xue Tanpei heard Yu Shen speak, he immediately pulled him away without stopping. Yu Shen still hadn't finished speaking, but he couldn't stand Xue Tanpei's tugging, and stumbled after him.

So he could only swallow those words, hurriedly waved sideways, and said goodbye to Mr. Gu.

Gu Junpan stood there alone for no reason, and went upstairs after a while without knowing why.

Xue Tanpei didn't dare to say a single harsh word anymore, he greeted Yu Shen with care along the way.He had regretted it for so long, and he also knew that Yu Shen would never be the one to bow his head first, so he no longer gave himself a chance to regret it.

Yu Shen sighed, and said softly, "You don't have to do this."

Xue Tanpei paused, held on to his wrist tightly, and asked in a daze after a while, "What's wrong with me?"

Yu Shen stopped and turned to look at him.Xue Tanpei's hands were on Yu Shen's body all the time, so almost immediately, he also stopped.

After a long time, the two finally stood together face to face.The traffic and people around them whizzed by, and the neon lights on the street lit up one after another, but in their eyes, these were as far away as they were in the previous life, and there was only a shadow left.

Seeing Xue Tanpei's unbuttoned neckline, Yu Shen seemed to have found a place to put his gaze, so he hurriedly lowered his eyes and raised his hand to help him fasten it.

Xue Tanpei lowered his head and looked at him seriously.

"You know I like you." Yu Shen said, but still lowered his head, "But let me go."

Xue Tanpei didn't speak.

"I have decided to stay in Hong Kong."

A button has been fastened for several years, but it can't be fastened.

"I also stay in Hong Kong." Xue Tanpei grabbed his hand, "Don't tie it. Listen to me, I won't let you go."

Yu Shen suddenly became confused and felt that his breathing was not right: "You can't do this."

He loves and hates, hates himself for loving him, loves himself for hating him.He thought, Xue's family really is like this, he obviously doesn't love himself that much, but he won't let go.

"Why not?"

Yu Shen almost cried: "If I want to leave, you can't stop me forever."

However, Xue Tanpei suddenly hugged Yu Shen, pressed him into his arms, and buried his face in his hair: "Don't cry, if you want to cry, I will cry too."

Yu Shen was quiet, he didn't cry, but he felt a chill in his hair, that was Xue Tanpei crying.So he raised his face and kissed Xue Tanpei's lips.

Then the two kissed wildly on the street, as if they were gnawing at each other.

Passers-by looked sideways and formed a circle.But they can't see anything in the circle.

This kiss was longer than any other, and the two of them almost suffocated.Xue Tanpei closed his eyes, but still clenched his hands tightly.

But Yu Shen knew that he really wouldn't let go, so the uncompromising in his heart suddenly became very clear.

And the lingering affair in broad daylight that he first provoked was also the first to end it.

Yu Shen withdrew and retreated, and said to Xue Tanpei: "I'm not going home, really, let me go."

Xue Tanpei blinked: "How could you do this?"

Yu Shen shook his head without speaking, turned and ran away through the crowd.

Xue Tanpei stood alone in the circle with his hands down, bearing the sideways glances of passers-by. He didn't chase after him as he said, because he was suddenly afraid that if he caught up, Yu Shen would really leave.

So he pushed aside the crowd, and shouted at the figure who disappeared in the intersection of darkness and light: "I don't like you anymore! Really, I don't like you anymore! I don't like you at all now, Yu Shen..."

Then, wiping away his tears, he stumbled forward a few steps: "Remember to go home!"

Yu Shen ran non-stop, the shout behind him faintly reached his ears, he seemed to have heard it, but he didn't seem to hear it.

He ran all the way back to the agency, and while the door was still unlocked, he hid in the hut where the newspapers were stored, curled up there, and could make do for the night.

He thought, the entanglements in the world are nothing more than those, you love me and hate you, you come and go, or you don't know each other.

Since it is impossible to love forever, it is better to make a clean break as soon as possible.