You can eat it but you are not allowed to miss it

At that time, I noticed that this person glanced at me from time to time. I thought I ate food on my face.

"So I look so mature?" There was a smile on Xueba's cold face.

I said embarrassedly: "No."

After I went back that day, I received an email from my senior. He sent me the electronic notes of the professional courses I took. I suddenly realized why he is a "god of learning" and I am a "weak learner".

After going back and forth like this, our relationship has also become closer, and we occasionally go to have dinner together after working as a teaching assistant.

Once, senior Zheng suddenly proposed an invitation outside of work: "The season to see the maple leaves is approaching. Do you want to go to a nearby scenic spot on weekends? We can go together."

Looking at the maple leaf?Or is it because the ulterior motives are not drinking?However, I don't hate him, he's not the kind of man who is machismo or shows off.After getting in touch, I found that he seemed a little indifferent to strangers, but after getting to know him well, I found that he was calm and gentle.After all, he is a classmate of the same department, so he wouldn't be unfaithful to me, right?

"I can look up the strategy first, I can drive, and rent a car when the time comes, it's best if I can go back and forth in one day, if not, I can book a hotel." He planned.

I was silent.Do you mean two rooms or one when you book a hotel?You must know that any dilapidated hotel here is also expensive, almost catching up with the cost of food for a week or two.As a poor student, of course I feel distressed.But if I live in one room, does it mean that he can do something to me by default?

I thought about it for a while, and still refused: "I just came here, and the academic pressure and teaching assistant work are quite heavy, so I don't feel in the mood to go out for the time being."

"That's right, and I'm not familiar with the route, so it's not safe to drive. Let's wait for the next opportunity." He acted understandingly, without losing his sense of proportion.

He changed the subject, "I heard that you are also good at cooking, I really hope to have a chance to eat."

"It's all messed up by myself. If the senior doesn't dislike it, I will make it for you next time."

Of course I smelled that the other party was exuding goodwill towards me.

"What do you mean?" I asked bluntly.

"It doesn't make any sense."

"I'll give you another chance. Do you like me? Want to pursue me?" I didn't want to waste time continuing to flirt.

On the contrary, Zheng Yanning was the one who blushed shyly. He had probably never seen such a "straight ball" girl, and he was at a loss for a while.

"Invite me to travel alone, and consider staying overnight, isn't that what it means?" I debunked him with a smile.

"No! Who do you take me for?"

"So do you like me or not?" I asked.

He held back for a while and finally plucked up the courage to say: "I like it. But, I definitely don't mean to take advantage of you. I just want to take it slow and wait until I develop a relationship before confessing, and then I have to meet my parents..."

I almost spit out my tea with a puff, "Wait, you want to meet my parents? Big brother, I can try to look around with you, but don't think too much, it's the kind of relationship that doesn't consider the future. Accept that and I can confirm the relationship today."

He still has such a lovely expression, this embarrassed look, as if I took advantage of him, "Yes!"

At that time, I had accepted that I was bisexual.Moreover, since my innocent first love in high school, I have never been favored by Yuelao or Cupid.And I desperately need someone to love me right now, man or woman.

25. Coming out for the fourth time ([-])

◎It turns out that I have misunderstood myself since I was a child.The day I lay on the operating table for gender reassignment surgery, I was very scared, but there was a voice in my heart that encouraged me, such as...◎

It turns out that I have misunderstood myself since I was a child.The day I lay on the operating table for gender reassignment surgery, I was terrified, but there was a voice in my heart that encouraged me. If I unfortunately died on the operating table, at least I could be buried as a man, but if I survived After coming here, I can live in the way I want, no matter how I think about it, I have made a lot of money. --Inscription

"You are so kind." Yan Ning looked at me who was cooking in the kitchen of his bachelor apartment with a happy face.

Even though I told him not to think about anything with me, he still seemed to unknowingly regard me as his ideal "fiancée" candidate.What would he think of me if he knew what was really going on in my heart?

"A Yu is really amazing! I have never made such delicious grilled ribs at home!" Yan Ning smiled so softly and contentedly, and happily ate the food I made.Is this really the ruthless and ruthless academic male god I met at the beginning?

It turns out that it is not difficult to capture a man's "heart".

He said: "Whoever can marry you must be very happy!"

"Are you happy?" I smiled wryly, "That's because you're not familiar with me, I'm difficult, and I'm gay." I said in a joking tone.

He froze for a moment, then gave me an unbelievable look, "Are you kidding me?"

I asked back, "Isn't it like that?"

"The senior sister I had a good relationship with in college dressed like a boy, but I didn't think much about it before. Last year, I attended an academic conference and just arrived in the city where she worked, only to find out that she already has a girlfriend who lives with her." He deliberately Added, "You're nothing like her."

It seems that he is not ignorant of this circle.And, without prejudice.

"Then you really don't want to try with me?" I asked him boldly.

"..." Yan Ning looked embarrassed, "Ayu, our family has religious beliefs, so unless you and I are determined to be husband and wife, I can't touch you casually, and I don't care about your reputation. …”

Before Yan Ning finished speaking, I will not give him another chance.I took the initiative to approach him, and at this moment when the nerd was stunned by the sudden physical closeness of the girl I liked, I went up and bit his lower lip more presumptuously, with a sweet taste of sauce.I smiled slightly, this nerd is quite masculine.Perhaps because I have been suppressed and constrained by the invisible "social morality" for too long, I have imagined countless times what it would be like to have intimate contact with other human beings?Touching the sensitive skin by another person's hand, and revealing one's most vulnerable desires in front of another person, in my opinion, this is the most intimate "language".In that moment, my body needed him, and I don't deny that it was pure impulse, not necessarily love.Fortunately, I never regarded myself as a woman who needs to guard the "chaste archway", so I don't feel too much guilt.

"Wait, are you listening to me?" He pushed me away carefully.

"It's okay, I didn't mean to ask you to be responsible. You can kiss me and hug me. I'm not leaving tonight, okay?" I tried my best to seduce him.

I seem to be a person with "skin hunger", wanting more intimacy, wanting to sweat profusely.I am so lonely, if someone takes the initiative to love me, I will give myself up.Fortunately, he's not a bad guy.

"Do you mind if I have man boobs?" I asked him with a smile.

"I don't mind this, I like you."

You really don't have to take what a man says in bed too seriously.When I later found out that the actress he liked had proud breasts, I realized that he was just saying comforting words for fear of hurting my self-esteem, but I didn't take it too seriously.

His kisses are very unfamiliar, deep French kisses are only "roughly" sent into my mouth with my tongue, but I know how to guide the other party better than before, "Well~ don't keep pushing me, lick my palate, wrap around Touch my tongue. I send it in, and you push it back, so that there is a back and forth, which is a kiss."

I absorbed more from his mouth and responded enthusiastically.

"You can." I invite him.

"Still not. I said I can wait, don't worry for a while." He hugged me to sleep contentedly, and murmured to himself in his dream: "I like you, don't leave me."

That's how Yan Ning fell in love with me. Although I never loved him that much physically, he was excellent.From the beginning to the end, I feel that Yan Ning is the kind of person I want to be, self-disciplined, motivated, goal-oriented, and persistent.Talent matched by ambition.Anyway, I can like both men and women, and talking about a "heterosexual relationship" is the "maximum benefit" for me.This wonderful man is going to marry me, and I can do business with my family.The most important thing is that Yan Ning is really kind to me, he is the kind of man who can calculate the time and bring the meal to my bed, and then wake me up.

Most importantly, I found that he has an ideal big family.Not long after that, I also formally met his family through Internet phone. His family is a warm and united family with loving parents and a beautiful younger sister.They video chat whenever they have time, even if there is nothing special, they chat almost every day or every other day.Several times, I was also invited to join the conversation. His parents seemed to like me very much when they saw me, and said, "They will definitely treat me like a daughter."But in fact, I have the burden of laughing with me when I have nothing to say, especially when I am still rushing to meet the deadline of the next day.I endured it a few times before I complained to Yan Ning. He thoughtfully said that I only needed to say hello and then said that I was busy with other things, or simply lied that I was not there.

Once, Yan Ning and his