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Chapter 30

◎Out of the door, I heard a sound of falling things.I didn't look back, and there was no wave in my heart.Having been together for so long, more or less put him...◎

When I went out the door, I heard a sound of something being thrown.I didn't look back, and there was no wave in my heart.After getting along for so long, I more or less saw him through, and lost my temper at this moment, and he will still be fine in the future, just like a person who has nothing to do.

But thinking of this, I am a little lost again.

Will we meet again in the future?It seems that there is no chance at all, and it’s okay, at least I won’t regret it with him.Thinking about it worse, if Luo Jidong knows about me and him, no one will know what will happen to him.

Take it as my rare contribution.

for him……

Back in the house, Luo Jidong sat upright on the sofa, completely out of touch with the beast that made me into this ghostly state.He glanced at me and said, "I'm back. You will stay at home from today on." He took out a bank card from his bag, "There are tens of thousands in it, which is enough for your living expenses. If If it’s not enough, I’ll let someone call, and the password is your birthday.”

I was a little nauseous and wanted to vomit.

"Take it."

I limped forward to take the card, and went upstairs silently.

In the room, I lay on the bed, looking at the bank card in my hand.

If I didn't have such a face, he wouldn't treat me like this, no!It is impossible for me to appear here, let alone become like this.

I sat up, facing a mirror, and I almost couldn't recognize myself in the mirror.The body is very thin, as thin as skin and bones, without any color, and even a little scary.

It turns out that it is because of this, so much money is for me to take good care of my body, so that I don't look so scary.

After dinner at night, I realized that I had disappeared for no reason before saying hello to Chen Qi and the others.In order to make them less worried, I hurried back to my room and sent them a message.Just at this time, Jiang Shu sent a message to ask me where I was, so I made up a lie to cover it up.

Jiang Shu said that it was a pity that he could not spend college life with me, and hoped that I could recover from my injuries at home and meet up again when I had time.Chen Qi was also on the side, the three of us chatted on the mobile phone for a while, and then I went offline, too many things happened recently, I want to have a good rest.

The next day I slept very late and didn't wake up.I wore a casual coat and ate the meals my aunt cooked, but I couldn't taste anything, and my throat was so sore that I didn't even want to eat.But Luo Jidong installed a lot of cameras at home, and specifically asked his aunt to report to him about my daily meals.I dare not not eat.

It's really hard to take a lot of medicine after eating.

Unknowingly, I have been in that room for a month, and my voice is better, and I can barely speak a few words.I felt that I had to go out for a walk, so I went out with my bag on my back.I walked for a long time, and after returning to my senses, I stopped and looked around for a week, and then I walked into a flower shop. The owner of the shop was blind. When I entered, she was sitting at the table picking flowers and cuttings.

The noon sun shines in from the window and sprinkles on the girl's long white dress, which is as clean as an angel on earth, which catches my attention and I can't take my eyes off it.At this time, she also seemed to notice someone entering the store, and she got up and said, "Hi, what do you need?" Her voice was very nice and gentle.

After I regained my senses, I quickly replied, "I'm buying flowers."

She smiled and stepped forward slowly, "What kind of flowers do you buy?"

I thought about it and answered, "Daisy."

After hearing this, she said apologetically, "I'm very sorry, all the daisies in the store were wrapped by a gentleman."

"All I need is one. Just one."

She was probably surprised by my words, and after a long time, she went to a big bunch of daisies and took three daisies for me.

Looking at the daisy in my hand, I asked, "How much?"

The shopkeeper smiled, "I'll send it off to you. There will definitely be a big bouquet of daisies in my shop next time, sir."

I smiled, said thank you, and took out 30 yuan from my pocket and put it on the table.Carefully returning to the house with the three daisies, I couldn't find the vase, because Luo Jidong was afraid that I would seek death, so he replaced everything that could cause harm.

Finally I found a plastic bowl and put the daisies in it, and I poured some water from a medicine bottle over the daisies.I lay down next to the daisy and watched the daisy in the plastic bowl move slowly in the water.

The water smelled like medicine, but I obviously washed it many times.

This is also good, the flowers also absorb some medicine, so that they will not wither.

After thinking about it, I poured out the water with medicine and replaced it with clean water.

Daisies are beautiful and my favorite flower.I also thought that if I grow up and earn a lot of money, I will plant daisies on a hillside, and when the season comes, daisies will bloom all over the hillside.

That must be beautiful.

The sun came in from the window, I sat on the ground and crawled slowly, watching the daisies moving slowly left and right in the bowl in the sun.

That's the flow of life, and I've imprisoned it in a bowl.

I took the bowl and came to the park. People who passed me thought I was mentally ill, and looked around with a bowl.I came to the river next to the park, squatted on the ground and poured the daisies in the bowl into the river.

The daisies flowed slowly out of my sight.

It's like my hope.

Go, go away.

Show me this beautiful world.

I sat on the bridge and blew the wind for a while, and my heart was so calm that I couldn't be calmer.Looking at the river under my feet, I thought about jumping, but I wanted to live.

i want to live

I want to live a good life...

"Jia Yi!"

When I heard someone calling me, I subconsciously turned around.I saw Luo Sheng standing not far away, walking towards me slowly holding a large bouquet of flowers.

"Give it to you."

It's a bouquet of daisies.

"Take it." Luo Sheng looked at me pleadingly, "It doesn't matter if you're not gay, let's take our time, as long as we like each other, we can be together." He paused, "We can get to know each other again, I will always Chase you."

"What do you like... about me?"

"As long as it's you, I like it." He said without hesitation.

I was stunned for a moment, then rejected his flower, and said: "I can get to know...you again, but it is definitely not for us to cultivate that kind of relationship. We are not the same way, we can't get together. People will grow old, I hope I am young Old age can be respected."

"Isn't it enough for two people to like each other? Why do you have to care what others say?"

I looked at him and asked: "Will you be sexually interested in me for the rest of your life? Can you guarantee that you will not cheat for the rest of your life? When I am old, you will not go to young girls or teenagers? Can you guarantee it? The most important thing is that your Will your parents agree with you to be with me? Can you face gossip with me? Everything in the future is a problem, don’t care about everything just because you are young now. Being frivolous is not a sin, but can you bear the consequences of being frivolous? I There's nothing left, I don't care, but what about you?"

All these questions seemed to touch Luo Sheng's heart, and he couldn't say a word to answer my question.

I think that what I ask is the biggest question in the future, and I don't believe that a person like him will be loyal to me for the rest of his life.It's funny to say that I didn't even have loyalty to him, and asked him to be loyal to me.

It is not a sin to be young and frivolous, but we all have to bear the consequences for our previous frivolity. Many people are irreparable because they cannot bear the consequences.

Although I am also at the age of being frivolous, I am more or less calm and think more than him.I don't want to quarrel with him often in the future, even because of some trivial things.

I'd rather die than live like that.

Maybe that's why I resist any contact with him.

He is clean, I am too dirty to dirty him.

I looked at the daisy in Luo Sheng's hand. The daisy in the sun is always so beautiful, but I don't deserve the daisy he gave me.

There's someone on the apex, but I'm afraid I'll get him dirty.

I'm used to locking myself in a lonely house.

Maybe there was a crazy desire to be loved, to be cherished, and to be held in the palm of your hand, but now these are really useless.

Jia Yi, Jia Yi, are you lying, or are you really doing it on purpose?

Going around like this, I can hardly see myself clearly.

"Luo Sheng, I hope you can find a woman who can spend your life with you, not a man."

"Can't you?"

"No! We are not from the same world."

"Why are we not from the same world? We are on the same land and live in the same country, why are we not from the same world?"

"That's what you think! Stepping on the same land doesn't mean we have to go the same way, and living in the same country doesn't mean we are the same kind of people! Luo Sheng, in the future, in the future, there will be more and more things to consider , we don't have time to worry about the relationship between two people. I told you a long time ago that I will never get married in my life, let alone fall in love with others. If there is such a situation, unless this world has never abnormal."

I haven't dealt with him much, I really don't have the energy.I hate everything right now and feel extremely sick.

I hate it, why did I become like this?

Why can't I even control my own happiness?

I hate it so much.

Who do I hate?

Hate my father?

Hate that pervert Luo Jidong?

I hate them all, but I hate myself the most.

I am cowardly and selfish.

I just want to live a good life, or to put it another way, I just want to live a normal life