please love me

bitter.

Before I was discharged from the hospital, I often went to see him and talked with him. He still had a smile on his face, but he became weak.

May [-]th is Xiao Qi's birthday, and his husband prepared a surprise for him.

It is the fireworks that Xiao Qi has always wanted to see. I heard Xiao Qi say before that his family is very poor, and he can only see fireworks from other people's houses during the Chinese New Year.When I grew up, I rarely saw fireworks due to work reasons. I could only listen to the sound of fireworks blooming through the thick wall.

Now, fireworks and firecrackers are banned in this city, and I haven't seen them for a long time.

That night, fireworks were blooming in the sky, and Xiao Qi's life was also burned out. His husband was helpless beside the hospital bed like a child. The husband did not break his promise, and the fireworks were really beautiful.

Xiao Qi's death has dealt a huge blow to me. In fact, I usually don't have such a reaction to people I've known not long ago.But Xiao Qi really taught me a very deep lesson, let me see what it means to live tenaciously and die with peace of mind.

In this world, the value of people's living has never been hidden by themselves, but people are used to laziness, and most of them are unwilling to find the value of living.

Perhaps their motivation to find value has been crushed by reality. I hope that more people can face everything with joy, live a different self, and find the value of their own life.

Like Xiao Qi, like that old man, like that cancer patient.They all found their own value at the end of their lives.They didn't live long, but they gave many people the courage to live.

Chapter 32

◎After being discharged from the hospital, Luo Jidong asked me to move out, and I could move out alone. Luo Jidong still installed many cameras in my new home, and strictly controlled

After being discharged from the hospital, Luo Jidong asked me to move out, and I could move out alone. Luo Jidong still installed many cameras in my new home, and strictly demanded the time for me to go home.

He would come to my house occasionally, toss me and leave.Because I don't have a job, and I don't have the 'qualification' to look for a job, I can only stay in the house, read books, and sometimes when inspiration comes, I write and draw by myself.

There are more and more manuscripts, filling up the entire cabinet. When Luo Jidong saw it, he would pick it up and read it. From time to time, he corrected some places and told me how to write to better embody emotions.

I didn't listen to his suggestions seriously, maybe I would listen to other people's opinions seriously, but that person is Luo Jidong, and I have no obligation to listen to a pervert's opinions on my works.

This kind of life kept repeating, I started to find some comic websites to contribute, and started to serialize comics.

It was quickly liked by many readers. I had spiritual sustenance, and devoted all my energy to drawing comics. In order to draw better, I kept practicing.

The manga is getting more and more readers, and I'm earning some money, which is small, but still makes me happy.At least I won't be like a waste, who knows nothing and can only hide in a dark house day after day.

When one day I found that my emotions were out of control, I went to the hospital.When the results came out, I calmly folded the case and put it in my bag, and walked towards it step by step.

"Hey, what are you doing standing there? Come down!"

I turned around slowly and looked at him.Luo Sheng stretched his arms, very nervous, and slowly approached me.

"Don't get excited, come down quickly! If there is something that can be solved slowly, come down quickly." Luo Sheng persuaded patiently.

How can I listen to it?Close your eyes and lean back.But at that moment, a hand grabbed my wrist, it was him!My whole body was unstable and I fell on him. Luo Sheng also took the opportunity to restrain my hands.

I broke down and struggled, because I was emotionally unstable, and finally bit him a certain part.He took a deep breath because of the pain, but he held my hand tightly with both hands, for fear that I would rush up again. "Don't get excited, everything can be solved."

"...let me go." I don't know how long it took before I calmed down and said in a trembling voice.

He grabbed my hand, stood up from the ground, and pulled me up as well. "Life is always unsatisfactory, unsatisfactory will be unsatisfactory, and a good attitude will definitely overwhelm unsatisfactory." He gently patted the dust on my body, "It's not scary when people come to a dead end, the terrible thing is that you don't even know whether it's a dead end or not, so you will wantonly abandon it own life."

I didn't speak, I bowed my head in silence.

Luo Sheng asked me again: "Okay. Where is your home? I'll take you back!" I didn't answer, but he was very patient and asked me carefully several times.I talked about my previous home, but he just nodded and led me into the car.No one spoke along the way, I was very tired, really tired, and shrunk slightly.

"Get off."

I opened my eyes, my eyes were dull and unable to focus, I just felt a pair of strong hands hug me.

a warm hug...

I never thought that I would be picked up by a man like a little girl. I can accept others, but if it happens to me, it is really outrageous.

But I fell in love with such warmth deeply, it was Luo Sheng's body temperature.I tightly grasped Luo Sheng's collar, and finally, my vision went dark, and I fell asleep.

When I woke up, I realized that this was not my home, and I grabbed the quilt subconsciously. I was not relieved until Luo Sheng's voice sounded.

That's right, I didn't even give him the key, and he wouldn't search my bag.I don't know where to start, but I don't have the feeling of wanting to escape or refuse contact with Luo Sheng.

"Let's have some porridge. It's the first time you cried in a daze after you fell asleep yesterday. After tossing and tossing all night, eat something slowly." Luo Sheng handed me the porridge at the right temperature.He frowned again and bowed his head and said, "Too thin."

I froze for a moment, took the bowl and spoon, and blurted out a thank you.Luo Sheng smiled: "I just did something that others would do. Eat it quickly, you can't eat it when it's cold." I bite the bullet and ate a few mouthfuls. The porridge is very good, but I I really couldn't eat it and threw up.

Luo Sheng frowned, wiped it for me with a tissue, and asked me: "Is the porridge bad or..."

"Porridge is good, but I don't usually eat much."

"...Did you take any medicine?"

I nodded.

He sighed: "It's okay if you can't eat."

In the end, I insisted on going home, and he followed me.I've been looking for the key with me for a long time, and I don't know how long I thought about it before I remembered to put the key on the window.

I went into the house and he went back.

I forgot, I don't have a home, it's just a house that can shelter from wind and rain...

My mother has passed away...

However, Luo Sheng would come to me at a certain time every day. At first I refused his coming, but slowly, I got used to having him.

He prepared a lot of dishes for me that I hadn’t seen before, told me many stories, and accompanied me when I couldn’t control myself. I hurt him several times, but he laughed it off and said, it’s nothing, it’s just a scar That's all, a manly man, maybe this scar will look more masculine in the eyes of others.

The spirit is not good, I get tired easily, it is difficult to sleep, the pain, they are very tormenting me.Luo Sheng has seen me like that, he doesn't think I look like a monster.

I often forget things, but Luo Sheng always remembers them for me and reminds me, making my life inseparable from him.

But I don't want to depend on anyone...

This kind of self is really annoying.

With his company, I seemed to have improved a lot, and with his encouragement, I went to the hospital for reexamination.

Indeed, I feel better.

I never had any hope that I would get better, because I felt that even if I got better, life would only be troublesome.

Luo Sheng told me the meaning of life time and time again.

Sometimes I feel that he is a ray of light bestowed on me by God, but I am also afraid that this ray of light will disappear with Luo Jidong's awareness.

Every time Luo Sheng came, I was afraid that Luo Jidong would appear suddenly.One is that after Luo Jidong finds out about Luo Sheng's existence, he will intensify his torture or hurt Luo Sheng, and the other is that Luo Sheng knows that I am such a person, a dirty, cheap and cowardly person.

If he knew, he would stay away from me.

It's ridiculous, I used to hope so much that he would stay away from me and not come close to me again, but now I am extravagantly begging him not to leave, I can't live without him.

Why did things develop to this point?

What should I do?

Suddenly one day, Luo Sheng mentioned the matter of love to me again. He asked me when I would fall in love and what kind of person I like. Anyway, it was just a lot of questions about love. know how to answer him.

I never thought about what kind of person I would like and when I would fall in love. I don't want to fall in love, let alone get married.

Maybe my whole life should be a person.

"Can you date me?"

"what?"

"I said can you fall in love with me? Our age is just right! It's not a puppy love, I want to fall in love with you, I want to be with you." This time, Luo Sheng is not like the first time I was so nervous when I confessed, but I urgently need a new answer.

He is still holding on.

I rejected him so many times and he still persisted...

I like him too, why am I not with him?Be brave, be brave again.

Looking at him, I nodded.

get together.

That's how the two of us are together, yes.Although it was very sloppy and there was no affectionate confession, I was still happy in my heart.

At this moment