please love me

If there is no possible future and you give up a possible future, that girl is very beautiful, and you should not give up a good marriage with you.At this age, you should also get married.I will not say a word about you and me, I wish you happiness. "

"Fuck your mother's happiness! How did you become like this? You fucking thought I was joking with you, didn't you? That girl is also the same. She was with me just to hide it from her family, and I was the same. We There is no affection! She has her lover, and so do I."

Like stagnant water, I looked into his eyes and said, "I can't wait for someone for a lifetime, and I can't love someone for a lifetime."

At that moment, I saw grief and despair in Luo Sheng's eyes.I admit that my heart ached at that moment.

I have never lost my soul, but I am like a skin, I have never lost my heart, but I am a person without a heart.

Perhaps the only thing I care about is myself. I just hope that I can live a normal life, and others don't matter to me.

I am a selfish person.

In the end he left, and I fell to the ground with no strength, curled up, I cried, but couldn't make a sound, and I seemed to be trembling in the surveillance.

I suddenly hated myself so much, hated myself so much.

Hearing Luo Sheng say that he had waited for me for several years, my heart was full of guilt. Hearing Luo Sheng say that he and that girl were not real, I felt a little lucky, but I had to say that those things hurt him. heart words.

I am really conflicted.

Am I really going to have nothing to love in my life?Maybe.If Luo Sheng knew what I have experienced in the past few years, would he still love me?A very dirty person.

Thinking about it, it's really bloody, the love in those bloody TV dramas is really true...

Why is this happening to me?

I hope never to show up again.

Can you wait for me?

Luo Sheng...

The author says:

That is, everyone can understand Jia Yi's character as a cowardly and awkward one. He is a bit similar to my personality. He is very awkward about certain things and doesn't know what to do.

Chapter 43

◎But after that, Luo Sheng didn't stop there, he often pestered me, this day I was pestered by him again, I don't know the reason to get away, so he cut him off

But after that, Luo Sheng didn't stop there, he often pestered me, this day I was pestered by him again, I don't know what reason to get away, at this moment I received a call, it was Jiang Shu, we He quickly used this as an excuse to get in a taxi and left.

I answered the phone, and Jiang Yan's voice came from the other side of the phone. I was a little surprised, what did Jiang Yan use Jiang Shu's mobile phone to call me?

Immediately, Jiang Yan asked me to wait again, and he went to ask Jiang Shu to answer the phone, and I dispelled all doubts.Jiang Shu answered the phone and asked if I wanted to go to Mongolia.

As soon as Mongolia was mentioned, I thought of Xu Huan and Wei Qianyu, who still wanted to go there to look at the stars.

"Why did you suddenly ask me if I'm going to Mongolia?"

"Jiang Yan is going, I think there will be more lively people." He suddenly lowered his voice while talking, "He usually doesn't like to talk, and he looks gloomy. I want to use this to make him happy."

"Then go. Will Chen Qi go or not?"

"That guy is more active than anyone else when it comes to going to Mongolia. I don't know why, but he was not so active before."

I just laughed and said nothing, Chen Qi might be because of Xu Huan, after all he and Xu Huan have such a good relationship.

We hung up the phone after we agreed on a time. I looked up at the crowd outside the car window, feeling a little emotional.

If I die in the future, there will be people who miss me so much.

After getting on the plane, I ran into Luo Sheng. At that moment, I subconsciously wanted to run. I don't know why I ran into him here.Jiang Shu came over and told me that he called Luo Sheng, and hoped that I would not blame him. I shook my head and walked directly to my place.

Yes, beside him.

During the whole process, he kept looking at me and didn't speak. Naturally, I didn't speak when he didn't speak. Just treat me like a stranger.After we arrived in Mongolia, Jiangshu Mongolian friends warmly entertained us, and the girls sang folk songs to welcome us.

During the meal, Jiang Ning'an kept feeding Chen Qi. Chen Qi glared at him several times, but he didn't receive the message. In the end, Chen Qi slapped him on the thigh, and he was honest.

Others didn't see this scene, but I saw it, and it wasn't because I wanted to see what they were doing on purpose, but because they were sitting next to me, I couldn't stop watching.

And Jiang Shu and Jiang Mo looked like old couples, but there was one detail that caught my attention. Jiang Shu would whisper a few words to Jiang Mo after he finished eating.

On the other hand, Mongolian friends were very enthusiastic and kept pouring wine for us.The hospitality is hard to say, I don't drink very well, and I drank a few glasses, Luo Sheng blocked me twice without offending anyone.

He could drink it, and after drinking with the group of Mongolian friends for a long time, his face was only stained with a little red, and his tone was as usual.

After dinner, everyone set up horses, wrestled and danced folk dances together.Jiang Shu has been here several times, and he has danced well, but Jiang Yan is very unfamiliar with us, so he learns quickly, and he can dance after a while.

We are too lazy to learn, and we still know ourselves very well. We can't force ourselves to dance, after all, our bodies are not coordinated.

I wanted to go into the room to have a rest, but when I saw Luo Sheng walked in, I stopped and sat aside to rest.

I didn't want to be alone with him, the atmosphere was weird and awkward.Jiang Ning'an and Chen Qi had a great time, Jiang Ning'an ran around the fire twice with Chen Qi on his back, and Chen Qi laughed happily.But from my perspective, under the firelight, his eyes were full of tears.

He also quietly wiped his eyes. I didn't realize why he was crying at the time. I didn't realize why he was crying until I calmed down.

After the dance, Jiang Shu said a few words to us and dragged Jiang Yan away.The two sat on the grass where they were, waiting for the stars to appear.

After a while, the stars appeared.

Looking from a distance, one can't help thinking that the two are sitting in the galaxy, and the stars are matched against it, which is amazing.

At this time, Jiang Yan turned his head, and the two looked at each other, both smiling lightly.

What a blessing it is to have an irreplaceable person by your side.

I just looked at them with envy in my eyes.

At night, the two of them just sat under the big tree, looking at the sky full of stars.The wind was very strong at night, and Jiang Shu was afraid that Jiang Mo would catch a cold, so he took him back to the house, and we continued to chat with everyone outside.

When I asked them to eat the next day, I saw a line of words on the paper on the table - Бичамдхайртай.

I smiled, how happy it was to hear this sentence.

At that moment, I really envied Jiang Yan, an unprecedented envy.I envy his talent and envy him having a lover like Jiang Shu.

Jiang Shu is very caring, gentle, and has a sense of security. He has unreserved love and endless doting on Jiang Yan, making him a prince.

Although countless people are scolding and slandering Jiang Yan, Jiang Shu also trusts and protects him unconditionally.

Jiang Shu gave Jiang Yan everything he could.

Who can not envy it.

I backed out and ran into Luo Sheng. Luo Sheng looked at me with a hesitant expression, which made me feel sad.

He was not like this before...

Oh, I wasn't like this before...

We have all changed.

I wanted to get out of here quickly, he suddenly grabbed my hand and held me in his arms.

His heavy breath spread on my neck, the heat made me feel inexplicably safe, and the familiar embrace made me feel at ease.

Luo Sheng, can we go back?If you know how dirty I am in the future, will you not want me?I'll know I'm a swinger?Would you not love me as much as you do now?

Countless questions flashed through my mind. I knew that I couldn't ask those words, but thinking about it in my mind... I felt that it was a heavy pressure, and I couldn't breathe.

I am really afraid now that he knows that I have been raped by his third uncle for so many years, I can't imagine what kind of expression he will appear in front of me.

nausea?disgust?disappointment?still hate?

I pushed him away, and I saw pain in his eyes. I don't know how much pain he has, but I am in such pain, how can he be better.

He stretched out his hand and rubbed my head, and said with a wry smile, "I bought a lot of daisies, your favorite, and I'll bring them to you when I get back, okay?"

At that moment, I didn't know what to say, maybe I didn't understand what he meant.I shook my head and left without looking back.

We left without playing for a few days, because Jiang Yan and Jiang Ning'an had work to go back to.Jiang Shu asked me to play for a few more days, but I don't want to continue playing, and it's not a problem to stay in Mongolia all the time.

Since we didn't want to play anymore, we all booked tickets to go back together.Jiang Shu sent Jiang Yan back home. Jiang Ning'an had an operation and needed to go back to the hospital quickly. Before he could say hello, he left. Chen Qi had no choice but to go back with me.

Luo Sheng took a taxi with me and Chen Qi. Chen Qi frowned and asked Luo Sheng: "Luo Sheng, your family is not the same as ours. Why are you taking the same car with us?" Because Luo Sheng and I Regarding the matter, Chen Qi has always harbored 'maliciousness' towards Luo Sheng, coupled with the 'girlfriend' that Luo Sheng was talking about, Chen Qi's 'maliciousness' towards him increased.

When he went to Mongolia this time, he didn't say a word to Luo Sheng, and even complained about Jiang Shu and dragged Luo Sheng away.