my dog ​​brother

Regarding Christmas, I mostly still stay in the impression of chasing and running around the classroom in high school, spraying snowflakes and ribbons with classmates, and there seems to be nothing more than that.

I wonder if Brother Gou has the habit of celebrating Christmas?

In that case, do I have to prepare another gift for him?

I was distracted when Ding Yanqi, who hadn't been here for a long time, came over.

He said that he wanted me and Liu Xue to help him find some students to be his models, the more the better, there is no requirement, just students at school, it is best to find some of all types.

Of course I agreed, and jokingly asked him, do you have any money?

Ding Yanqi said, of course he has money.

He glanced at me and said, Ji Wen, can I make a picture for you alone this time?As I said last time, I have time to draw another picture for you.

I touched my head and said, okay.

I still like Ding Yanqi very much, I think he is very classy, ​​besides Ding Yanqi is so famous, let him paint me, no matter how I feel, I feel that I have made a lot of money.

He smiled and asked me, how are you and Ruan Xun?

I said, very good.

He nodded and said, that's good.Is Ruan Xun unreasonable sometimes?He is very proud of his status, and he fights in his bones. Although he usually pretends to be a nice person, he didn't offend him. If he really offended him, he would be endless.

I thought about it, and felt that my ears were a little burning, and I didn't think he was unreasonable usually, but it was really a little bit when I went to bed.

Ding Yanqi told me about their previous affairs for a while, and he said, do you know that Ruan Xun is afraid of dogs?When Ruan Xun was young, he once went to my aunt's house to play. Ruan Xun and I had some relatives. My aunt was his grandmother. At that time, it seemed to be a reunion year or something. There were so many people, a big family, and someone led a big Dog tied up in the yard.Ruan Xun ran to tease the dog, and threw a few small stones or bones, which made the dog furious. The chain might have been a little loose, but it broke, and he ran after Ruan Xun.He was young and couldn't run. He was bitten by a dog and fell into the pond in the yard, choking on a few mouthfuls of water.

When the adults heard the cry, they all chased him out and saw that he was so nervous that he fell into the water, and finally picked him up. He was shivering from the cold, and after two or three breaths, his teeth were still chattering. Not to mention the dog's skin, he also blamed the pond in this place for choking on the water, so he wanted to seal the pond, and catch the fish in it and dry it in the sun.

Ding Yanqi shrugged his shoulders with a smile, and said, Ruan Xun was about seven or eight years old at that time. Others said that he was so virtuous when he was three years old. To be honest, I felt ashamed to be friends with him at that time.

I think it's quite funny, it turns out that Brother Gou was actually a bully young master when he was young, but now he is a bear boy who is beaten by everyone.

I said, maybe it's a family pet. Although I was naughty when I was young, I didn't seem to be very good at it.

Ding Yanqi took a sip of his wine and said, Pet?Not necessarily.Ruan Xun's father is an old and unscrupulous man, a typical gamer life, basically never caring about his family, just playing outside, I don't know how many younger brothers and sisters he left for him, but he never recognizes them.Occasionally, when I went home to see Ruan Xun, it was estimated that I would hit him seven or eight times out of ten times. I was very demanding and strict with Ruan Xun.So, when he said that he would skin the dog, seal the pond, and dry the fish in the sun, none of the adults paid any attention to him. Seeing that he was doing well, he dragged him to the hospital for a vaccination, and the matter was resolved.

But later, I admired him. I was able to practice drinking every day in college, mostly because of his influence.

He was still young at that time, so he went to live with his grandmother during the winter vacation, and then drained the pond water by himself, caught the fish in it and dropped them on the clothes rack one by one, I don’t know where to find a hoe, and started The bricks for the upturned pond have been worked one after another for more than a year or two, and it really made him level the pond.And that dog was originally raised by his third uncle's family, and he was very spoiled, so he was sent to the countryside to be raised by someone during that time, so that Ruan Xun would not come to him.

His father found out, came back and beat him up, and said something, he did a good job.

After that time, his father stopped beating him, but he came back even less, until he was 16 years old, his mother passed away, and his father started to spend most of his time at home. Within two years, Ruan Xun When I was in college, I moved out and lived on my own.

I was a little moved when I heard it, and my heart was a little soft. I remembered what Ruan Xun said to me when I first met Ruan Xun in the bar.

Not for nothing.

He felt the kindness my father treated me, maybe because he didn't have it when he was a child.This is not to say that his father is not good to him, it may be that there are excessive differences in education methods, but people's emotional perception ranges are in similar bands, so this difference often makes us feel that something is missing.

My mom didn't have a lot of time around me, so I'm more than sympathetic to that absence.

I can understand that my mother always has the love of my own flesh and blood for me. Although she is often not by my side, it is not bad.I can understand this.

Doesn't mean I can fully feel her love.

This is probably the emotional trek that many children from divorced families have to go through together. They clearly see that the lighthouse is not far away, and they can see the light and brightness, but they are still unable to dock in the past, always wandering, and always longing for something stronger. It's enough to break into the emotional reception band.

I don't know if Ruan Xun is also full of a certain sense of insecurity like me, just like what he asked me, is it because I have never given the other party enough sense of security.

I was once jealous and even afraid of the past between Meng Xia and him, but maybe I didn't really try to understand it.

It's like I only know that I love him, but I never thought about whether he can perceive my love, whether it is within his wave band.Will it still be like my mom and I?The love that is connected by blood does not stop at understanding two words in the end.

I heard a somewhat impressed voice coming from the side of the bar.

He ordered a glass of Long Island iced tea, which was quite high in alcohol, but few people ordered it.

I turned to look at him, white shirt, dark blue striped suit, white and slender fingers, with a platinum ring on the ring finger.

He took a sip of wine, twirled the platinum ring on his finger, then took it off and put it in his trouser pocket.

I know him, I have met him twice, it is Meng Xia.

Ding Yanqi glanced at him, but didn't speak.

He also just sat quietly.

After a while, he looked up at Ding Yanqi, smiled slightly, and said that he hadn't seen him for many years.

Ding Yanqi said, yes.You haven't changed much.

He turned around and introduced me, saying, this is Ji Wen.

Meng Xia smiled and said, I know.We met before, I was a little bit excited last time because of embarrassment.

He apologized first, but I was a little at a loss. There is a gap in age and knowledge. I can't do it with ease like him. After all, I just chased and scolded others not long ago.

I just shook my head and said, I was excited.

He continued to drink on his own, going in a little each time, sitting by the bar, not chatting with other people, just sitting like that.

I don't understand why he's sitting here, and the others don't seem to be bothering to ask him.

At 12:[-] p.m., when I left, he was there in pretty much the same position as before, ordering a second Long Island iced tea.

The next day, Meng Xia came over shortly after I arrived at the bar, still dressed in the same place, still in the same position, and ordered Long Island iced tea.

Of course, I just found it strange that he came on the first day, but he came every day for four or five days in a row, and I just wanted to pretend I didn't see it.

After thinking about it, I decided to talk to him, the conversation between men and men, whether he has some kind of natural superiority over me, some kind of hierarchical difference, or something else things, like my ignorance in his eyes.

But I still feel that it is necessary to talk to him, because as I said, I have few pursuits, but less does not mean that I cannot do well.

I walked over and sat down next to him, I handed him a cigarette and asked him, do you smoke?

He said no.

I put the cigarette back, I don't want to smoke either, I haven't smoked for a long time.

He smiled and said, I was still wondering when you would come over.

I asked for a glass of water, and the words were very high-spirited, and it seemed that I had already figured out my actions before we even started talking.

I said, I didn't expect you to come every day.

To be honest, I don't know why he came here.

Instead, he gave me a slap in the face and said, I'll wait for Ruan Xun.

After speaking, he looked at me indifferently.

I pondered for a moment and said, is it still because of the stated thing?

He didn't answer me directly, but turned the wine glass in his hand and said, Long Island Iced Tea, he and I used to love to drink it, because it is strong, and it will be exciting after drinking it.I still drink now, but it's hard to get drunk, and occasionally I will think of the past when I drink to the end.It is unlikely that I will forget it completely. After all, I made many first suits with Ruan Xun. The first suit was given by him, which is quite similar to the one I wear now.The first time I drank foreign wine, the first time I went to the game hall to play, there were many, too many, and now I think it’s incredible.

It's a pity that so many people tried new things for the first time, but they still didn't come together in the end.

I sometimes think, if I hadn't pursued the statement and went abroad, would the situation have been completely different?

He dipped a little wine with his finger, put it in his lips and sucked it.

I asked him, said, do you think it will be completely different?

He was silent for a while and said yes.Ruan Xun loves me very much. He is the kind of person who is willing to give. Of course, how much he gives depends on whether the other party is in a certain position in his heart. It does not mean that he treats everyone the same.He has given me many things, emotionally and materially.

I can't listen to it anymore, and said, it's over, he should have given you those things, because he loved you at that time, and he took the relationship between you seriously.But it's over, you shouldn't miss this relationship in this way and in this place, you've both started over.

He smiled, didn't care much, and went back, did Ruan Xun tell you so?Or do you think so?Either he lied to you, or you lied to yourself. Most of the first time in my life was given to him, and even the hatred was given to him. If he can really forget me completely, the last conversation, he I won't say that as long as I go back with him, he can ignore everything.