kind of bend me

Since Shen Guozhong's death, Lin Yan's spirit has been bad, and sometimes she becomes dazed while talking.

After 20 years together, how to bear the pain of loss.

Liu Xuan tried his best to adjust the atmosphere and talked about a lot of interesting things at school.Lin Yan listened with a smile, and gradually lost her mind.

Looking at the place where the husband often sits on the old-fashioned old sofa, the strong summer light enters the room, illuminating every particle of dust in the air.The person who sat on the sofa and read the newspaper and often yelled why there is no dinner, will never come back.

Liu Xuan took Lin Yan's hand, "Auntie, don't be sad. From now on, I will come to accompany you often, and you treat me like a daughter, ah, no, no, a daughter-in-law, a daughter-in-law, I will marry you in the future Shen Xu's."

Lin Yan patted the back of her hand with a smile, "Okay, whether it's a daughter or a wife, I'm happy if you can come to my aunt often. You are still young, and if you really want to fall in love, you have to wait until you graduate. Shen Xu has no hope anyway." Now, don't delay you."

Shen Xu raised his eyes and looked at Liu Xuan who was trying to make his mother happy with a smile. How could he...

Coming out of Shen's house, Liu Xuan took Shen Xu's hand.

Shen Xu didn't object, and walked around the neighborhood with her.

"Hey, there are quite a lot of snacks here in your house. What are you going to treat me tonight?"

Shen Xu thought for a while, and finally said, "Liu Xuan, actually, I actually..."

Liu Xuan was curious, "What are you, yo, you're still shy, what can't you say to me?"

Liu Xuan is a good girl, other than Shen Xu, I don't know what words to use to describe her.

He can drink "wine" and eat meat with her without any scruples, sing loudly in the crowded streets, punch the microphone with his fist when the other party is in trouble, and sincerely comfort each other when they need each other.

Liu Xuan is beautiful, Liu Xuan is innocent, Liu Xuan is cute, Liu Xuan is the best girl in the world.

Liu Xuan is his best friend.

Can----

"Actually, I have someone I like."

He always took Liu Xuan's words as a joke, even though she said she liked him many times, he didn't really take it seriously.

Just like the words of love that Fei Mei, Li Da, and Wang Qi all said to him, they were true friends in their youth.

But then, it seemed, something changed.

Liu Xuan sacrificed a lot for him, such as his first kiss, such as remembering his deeds, such as going to find Xu Haozhong.

Liu Xuan, probably, really likes him!Unlike Li Da, Wang Qi, and Fat Girl, Liu Xuan's love is like his love for Wan Chen——

"That person is the one I fell in love with for the first time. I want to go on with him forever. In the future, no matter what happens in the future, I want to be by his side."

He likes Liu Xuan, if there is no Wan Chen, he should be with Liu Xuan as a matter of course.

He likes Liu Xuan, but he can't achieve love. His love is only given to one person.

"sorry."

Although he had guessed this kind of thing a long time ago, when he actually heard it, Liu Xuan was still very sad.

"Really, that's it, haha..." She forced a smile on her face and kept calm, "I'm pretty stupid, right? Who is it? Do I know it? Is it Yi Fang from Liberal Arts? She's pretty, with a personality Or, Li Lin from class three? Shen Xu, you like her so much, but you have such a big accident, why doesn't she stand up and help you? She's from another school? Don't you know?"

He knew, he always knew.

He didn't stand up and just watched from the sidelines from beginning to end.

But Shen Xu didn't blame him, since he knew Wan Chen had an unattainable ideal from the third year of junior high school, for that dream, he worked harder than anyone else.

It was precisely because of witnessing his hard work that Shen Xu couldn't ruin his dream.

He believes that one day, Wan Chen's hard work will be rewarded, and he will stand at the top of his ideals and look down at the world with a smile.

As for myself, as long as I can stand behind him and accompany him silently, that's fine.

"sorry."

Liu Xuan left, Shen Xu saw the tears hidden in that smile.

But he couldn't catch up and wipe away the tears for her.

He could repay Liu Xuan's efforts in many ways, but he couldn't give her what she wanted.

Standing outside the house, he raised his head and looked at the small window on the third floor, wondering if Wan Chen was inside, and how long had it been since they had spoken.

Wan Chen is pursuing his dream, and the weight of that dream far exceeds his feelings for himself.

Shen Xu also felt that he was cheap, no matter how annoyed and scolded Wan Chen was, he still stayed by his side as always.

I just want to accompany him to climb to that ideal height, and I just want to give him even a little help when he is in difficulty and pain.

He loves Wanchen, not the kind of love that he has ever talked about.

If possible, he would like to extend the time to three years, five years, ten years or, longer, longer.

No matter how cold and heartless Wan Chen is, he still believes that he still has a place in that person's heart.

Believe it, what Wanchen promised, belongs to them, the future.

Shen Xu paused, looked at the dark world outside the window, "It's getting late, let's talk about it tomorrow!"

He Lei's voice was obviously not sleepy, "Didn't you say that there is only a little tail left? Let's finish it once. I still want to hear how it ends."

The ending... The ending between him and Wan Chen was very embarrassing, so embarrassing that he didn't want to talk about it anymore.

Until today, when he thought he had come out completely, he still didn't want to recall the last period of his senior year in high school.

Wan Chen went crazy, driven crazy by him, and he also became a walking dead. In the end, there was only endless pain left.

"what happened?"

He Lei's voice was low and gentle, like a whisper close to his ear.

"I am a little sleepy."

Shen Xu lay on the bed, closed his eyes, and refused all light to shine into his eyes.

"Okay, let's talk about it tomorrow, take a good rest, don't stay at home all the time, go out with your friends."

Friends...does he have any friends?

The five scumbags from back then broke up after graduation, and Shen Xu completely cut off contact with these friends for a period of time after leaving S City.

He refused to think of these friends who had helped him, and refused to think of everything in S City.

Just like today's Lu Qian, once the best brother, now it is difficult to even meet each other.

Forgetting everything about that person is the best escape method they can think of.

After hanging up the phone, Shen Xu wrapped himself in a quilt and counted the sheep, and there were occasional firecrackers outside the house, intermittently.From the stairs, there was the sound of a young man who came home late playing and fighting. Someone accidentally knocked on the door of his house, making a loud noise.

Doomed to have no sleep tonight, Shen Xu hid his sighs in the quilt, in a corner of his heart.

At the end of the story, he and Wan Chen in the story have become another person, and the heart-piercing pain has gone away.

It's just that I don't want to recall it again.

Li Da rushed into the classroom sweating profusely, gave Wan Chen a disgusted look, and pulled Shen Xu out of the classroom.

Shen Xu: "What are you doing, the bell for class is already ringing."

Li Da yelled at him, "It's a bird in class!"

Shen Xu didn't know why he was going crazy, hearing the fire-breathing tone, he reckoned that the matter was not serious.

When he came to the rooftop, Li Da locked the door and looked around. After confirming that there was no one there, he said with a livid face, "I went to my cousin's place yesterday. He lives in the suburbs and opened a new small restaurant. He called me to have dinner."

Shen Xu smiled, "Why, did you meet the right person there?"

Li Da punched him, and said angrily, "I met someone there. It was my cousin and a friend. They had a photo studio at home. Guess what he said?"

Shen Xu was confused by the question: "What?"

Li Da: "He said that people nowadays don't know what to think. Someone came to develop photos a while ago. They developed that kind of photos."

Shen Xu felt a faint uneasiness in his heart, "What, what kind?"

Li Da: "Two men, one with a bald head and a beer belly, and one with a good-looking young man, together, kissing and touching, disgusting photos."

Shen Xu's heart tightened, and his hands clenched into fists.

Li Da: "I also thought it was wrong at the time, so I asked what the person who developed the photos looked like. I heard that person's description, very similar, very similar----"

Shen Xu's heart rose to his throat, "Who do you look like?"

Li Da glanced at him, "Wan Chen."

Taking a breath, Shen Xu couldn't believe the name he heard.

"You say, who?"

Li Da was a little annoyed, "Wan Chen! It's Wan Chen who has a close relationship with you to death! Wan Chen who lives upstairs in your house and has been a neighbor for 18 years! Did you hear clearly!"

There was a feeling of backflow of blood all over his body, Shen Xu's heart was beating rapidly, and his brain went blank for a moment.

Wan, Wanchen?

No, it can't be him, definitely not him!

Wan Chen, how could Wan Chen...

"What nonsense are you talking about! Why would Wan Chen do such a thing? I have no grievances with him. What good does it do for him to harm me!"

Li Da was in a hurry, "Don't think about it, he has the film in his hands, so he is the biggest suspect. I secretly inquired about Zhao Yi in the past. He is still working in the Education Committee, and he may mention it again recently. He is so stupid. Self-exploding the scandal at this juncture! There is no evidence, I didn't want to say this at first. If I didn't hear that friend talking about it yesterday, I really planned to let it go. Shen Xu, the more I think about this kid, the more suspicious he is. Why did he go to the suburbs so far to develop photos, isn't it because he is afraid that people will recognize him! Are you sure, you really didn't mess with him?"

Shen Xu yelled anxiously: "I provoked him----" Why?

Before the last two words could be uttered, Wan Chen's heartless and angry roars rang in his ears again and again.

Shen Xu, you insist on destroying me, don't you? !I said stop pushing me, stop pushing me! ! !

Shen Xu, please let me go!

I don't know what conscience is, and I don't need to have any conscience for you.Shen Xu, I asked myself that I have never been sorry to you, and I have given you too many chances.But you, you challenged my limits over and over again, and polished off the last bit of goodwill I had for you.Yes, maybe you are right, it's just that we take different paths, and being tied together is a dead end.If it is true that you loved me as you said, then set me free!

The worst thing I did in my fucking life was to provoke you!I didn't expect you to be such a bastard, a rascal, like trash, you insisted on pulling me into your world, and making me a bastard like you!Shen Xu, you don't deserve to mention the word love at all, who do you love?In this world, you only love yourself.Don't mention this disgusting word to me again, in this life, in the next life, in the next life, I don't want to see you again.

A basin of cold water was poured on the top of Shen Xu's head, which made him feel cold all over.

He looked at Li Da in disbelief, struggling again and again to escape from this desperate situation.

"No, you heard it wrong, it can't be Wan Chen. Because you bothered him, so, so, so it was automatically substituted. I don't believe it, what that person said, tell me, absolutely, absolutely not It will be Wanchen."

Li Da: "Yes, I automatically substituted it, because apart from him, I can't think of another person who can take out the negatives and know you well. If you don't believe me, follow me now. Do you have any photos of Wan Chen? Bring it, let's go to that person and ask for clarification. Shen Xu, don't be stupid anymore, Wan Chen is just a beast."