Fall Mu

Gu Mingxuan continued to look down, only to realize that there are sweeter ones, but they are also accompanied by a little bit of bitterness.

[Where do we start?That day I followed Brother Xuan, confessed to him, gave him my painting and ran away.The moment I confessed, I knew that this was it, he was the one who moved my heart, the one who could enter the depths of my soul.It was expected that I would be rejected after confessing my love, how could I be worthy of such a glorious person?I'm really too inferior. If I subconsciously say that it's okay to play, he will probably think that I'm not a good person.In fact, I had a little hope of being rejected at that time, because I still had Yang Yang.But at night, I received a text message from Principal Qi. I changed my clothes and ran outside without thinking about anything.Yangyang pulled me back and asked me what I was going to do, I just said in a guilty conscience, don't wait for me, shook off his hand and left.When I turned around I could see the sadness in his eyes.But I still left and did something that hurt Yang Yang and myself.I'm really a scumbag.

Let me talk about what I did. When I arrived at the moonclub, I reported Brother Xuan’s name and found the room smoothly. I was a little at a loss in such an environment, so I had to bite the bullet and walk in. Brother Xuan didn’t even look at me. I realized that he was not the one who asked me to come. I was a little disappointed, so I had to say hello to Principal Qi first. He arranged for me to sit next to Brother Xuan. This was the first time I was so close to him. Blood is boiling.

Seeing me sitting down, brother Xuan who was originally as immobile as a mountain suddenly started interacting with the girl next to him, as if deliberately doing it for me, and suddenly felt like a child who had a temper tantrum, and he really wanted to be pampered .My mind suddenly cleared up, and I knew my chance had come.It's not that Brother Xuan doesn't like me, but he's making trouble with himself, probably because I'm a man.So what can I do, I can only be bolder and let him know that I am good. 】

Gu Mingxuan basically knew the following things, but Lin Mu had no way of knowing what was going on in Lin Mu's heart.

[When he hugged Brother Xuan in the bathroom, he expressed that he didn't want to do the next one, so I can only do it. I was actually a little bit resistant. I can't say why. Maybe it's because I'm inexperienced and afraid, maybe I want Possess each other.But I couldn't help it, but I immediately agreed, I knew that I was finished, I betrayed Yang Yang, I betrayed myself, and I will be cast aside in the end.

Unexpectedly, Brother Xuan, who has experienced many battles, is not very good at kissing, and I dare not reveal too much experience, so I had to let him kiss in a mess. At the beginning, Brother Xuan was a little impatient like a big boy, so I had to go first For him, uh... once.Originally, she also resisted, so she never did that to Yang Yang.But at that moment, she just took care of his face and relieved him first.

Later, when it officially started, he was really not gentle to me at all. This should be Brother Xuan. It was the first time he was with a man. He didn't dare to cry loudly, for fear of spoiling his interest.But impatient things really hurt.Brother Xuan seems to be still angry, probably because he was angry that I seduced him, so he punished me severely.During the process, I deliberately did not give me any relief. I was tortured and scratched my heart, but I was not angry at all. I suddenly felt that he was like a child. Therefore, I am willing to let him do everything, as long as he is happy, maybe this It's love.And the previous one should be brother Xuan's first kiss, I'm so lucky and happy. 】

Only then did Gu Mingxuan realize that the first kiss he could never remember was actually given to Lin Mu.He didn't even think about it, but Lin Mu carefully recorded it. He subconsciously bent his mouth and continued to read.

[Although it hurts, after the end, I didn't feel empty at all. I know this is the feeling of being stepped on my heart.I was afraid of being chased away, so I quickly pretended to fall asleep, but later he fell asleep in his arms. My heart was filled, and I felt that I was the happiest person in the world.I really want to be with him forever.

But after all, my wish is like that Nanke Yimeng, which will be shattered when the sun rises again.He just casually said that he didn't have money to buy cigarettes, and he actually misunderstood that I asked him for an overnight fee. This is too... insulting.But thinking about it, I told him that he could have fun, and then I went to pick him up in that kind of place, anyone would have misunderstood him.He spent a lot of money, and that money probably bought me another year or so of life.But I really like him, how can I ask for his money, although he may not ask me to come again, but I can't ask for it, this is my only chance to fight for an equal relationship with him, I would rather starve to death than To retain this dignity.

Besides, I'm obviously not out to sell it.I was afraid that he would think that I would pester him, so when I refunded him the money, I managed to squeeze out a bad smile and told him that I would not sell it, it was free.One is to let him know that I am not so casual, and the other is that I don't want to put pressure on him, so I say it is free.He was still very embarrassed when he heard that, he probably really regarded me as a duck, but fortunately I was strong enough to not run out crying, that would really make people regard me as a girl.

But in the end I left without saying a word. When I asked him to play the violin to cover the overnight fee, he agreed without hesitation, and I ordered a canon.Originally, there was a feeling that the two of us were performing arts for each other, like a little love between lovers, but when I saw him standing in front of the huge French window, playing the piano under the sun, I felt an unprecedented inferiority complex.

The sun was shining brightly on his body, as if he had been plated with gold, but the side faces were so handsome and compelling. When he was playing the violin, he lost himself in it, as if he was integrated with the violin, like a god descending from the earth.I remembered what he said to me just now, telling me not to worry about things that don't belong to me. I really felt inferior, so I had to leave silently without saying goodbye.When he found out that I was gone, he probably wouldn't feel anything.I don't know if he will look for a boy or a girl in the future, but he probably won't look for me again.I don't want him to look for me anymore, because I really fell in love with him.It's a really bad feeling to be in love with someone who can never be yours.At that moment, I seemed to lose my soul, and I didn't know how I walked back to the dormitory alone. 】

Gu Mingxuan really regretted it, such a good child, why did he think that he could buy his peace of mind with money, and he obviously liked him.Not even less than his likes.

Gu Mingxuan closed his eyes and leaned against the back of the huge sofa. This is where the two often make love. He likes to let Lin Mu lie on the back of the sofa, put human legs around his waist, and touch every inch of skin on his body. They can be seen at a glance, and the two are only connected by the most intimate place.This is the expression of his love for someone.

Gu Mingxuan: "Xiao Mu, brother is wrong, I just dare not express it."