agree to be each other's stand-in

When was the last time you were sick?

Xie Nanyuan was reminded of a memory by this question.

In fact, she doesn't get sick very often. Every time, like this time, after a long time of intense and high-intensity work, she suddenly relaxes and gets sick.

The symptoms of the disease are nothing more than a few kinds, either a fever or tonsillitis, or a cold and runny nose.

When I first entered the hospital, I often fell ill.At the beginning, her colleagues were also very concerned, but later found that this was normal for her, and the symptoms were not serious. In addition, Xie Nanyuan himself took it lightly, except for bringing a thermos bottle filled with hot water, other things were not as usual. Whatever is different, you will gradually get used to it.

Maybe this kind of symptom is indeed the stress state formed by the body under high pressure, so after being with Lu Kaiyan, Xie Nanyuan's work intensity dropped, but he never fell ill.

The only time was when I was taking the on-the-job master's degree exam. Because I often stayed up late to do online classes and do the questions, I was busy for a while, and fell ill after the exam.

Compared with the calmness of Xie Nanyuan himself and his colleagues, Lu Kaiyan's expression at that time, it is not an exaggeration to say that the sky is falling.

She slept very late at night, but as soon as Xie Nanyuan had a fever, I don't know how she found out, so she woke up immediately and almost cried in fright.Then he hurriedly woke her up and rushed her to the hospital.Fortunately, I didn't exaggerate to the point of calling an ambulance, I just took a taxi.

Xie Nanyuan comforted her again and again, but it was just a fever, which would go away in a day or two. This kind of situation has happened before, so don't worry too much.

But Lu Kaiyan couldn't listen at all, from the time Xie Nanyuan woke up to the way to the hospital, she never let go of her hand, even she was not allowed to wear the clothes by herself, Lu Kaiyan did it all for her.When sitting in the car, I would check her body temperature from time to time, ask her if she felt unwell, and repeatedly urged the driver to drive faster.

If Xie Nanyuan hadn't been the person involved, he would have felt that he might be terminally ill and his time was numbered.

I don't know why, but at first she thought it was funny, and would refute Lu Kaiyan in a low voice, but then she gradually felt an indescribable sadness.

In my impression, the last time someone hugged her like this was when she was five or six years old.At that time, she was seriously ill, and for three or four days, her father and mother took turns to take care of her, holding her in their arms all the time, and not letting her walk a step by herself.They gently coaxed her to take medicine, bought all the snacks she usually likes but was not allowed to eat, and placed them in front of her, promising to take her to the amusement park when she recovered from her illness.

That home was once so beautiful, it made Xie Nanyuan feel that he was loved.

So when everything collapses, it's all the more absurd.

In the many years after that, Xie Nanyuan grew up with difficulty, and no one would worry about her little ailment and take good care of her.

She told herself that it was because I was not rare.But in her heart, she knew that it was actually because she had already lost it.Even if he wanted it, no one would give it to him, so he simply pretended to be dismissive in order to maintain his weak self-esteem.

Maybe it's because sick people are fragile and hypocritical. That day, in the taxi, Xie Nanyuan wet his eyes unconsciously when he heard Lu Kaiyan's gentle reassurance and comfort.

Later, when I went to the hospital, it was determined that it was just a fever after the examination. Lu Kaiyan breathed a sigh of relief, but still pressed her for an infusion, then ran up and down, got the medicine, changed shifts for her and her colleagues, and finally led her away. go home.

She put Xie Nanyuan on the bed and wrapped it in a quilt, as if she was taking care of an immobile toddler, and told her to lie down obediently and not move.Afterwards, I cleaned up the room by myself, bought vegetables and cooked meals. Although I made a mess in the kitchen, the pot was burnt and the porridge was spilled, but in the end I still made a barely edible meal.

That day, Xie Nanyuan even ate in bed.If it wasn't for her insistence, Lu Kaiyan would probably want to feed her.

What exactly is "home"?It is also difficult for Xie Nanyuan to give a standard definition.

But in that moment, she felt like she had it all over again.

……

"The past is not like smoke, yes, it is not a virtue to be old in love,

It's a pity that falling in love is not like writing a song, no matter how serious it is, it can't become a style..."

"Doctor Xie, this song is quite nice, what's its name?" The sweet and crisp voice of the passing nurse pulled Xie Nanyuan back from his chaotic thoughts.

She smiled and replied, "It's called "Song for Myself"."

So I wrote about those emotions that I would only admit when I face myself.

Xie Nanyuan unscrewed the water cup and took a big mouthful of hot water.No matter how long it has passed, she still doesn't like the taste of goji berries, but because it is good for her body, she has to endure it.

The illness didn't affect Xie Nanyuan's work, everything was already done well, even if she was a little dizzy, it wouldn't affect her performance.It's just that the operation that was originally scheduled in the afternoon was transferred to someone else.She can only sit in the office and watch videos of demonstration operations and write papers.

Han Xiaoxing also came here at this time.

Seeing Xie Nanyuan wearing a coat and holding a thermos, he couldn't help laughing and said, "You look so fresh, if your patients see it, they shouldn't be so afraid of you."

Dr. Xie always has a straight face and seldom talks. Although she is young, patients and their families are always a little afraid when facing her.For doctors, this is a relatively practical talent, because there are always some family members of patients who cannot reason with reason, and making them fearful can save a lot of trouble.

Xie Nanyuan glanced at her, turned his gaze back to the screen, and did not speak.

She usually doesn't talk enough, and she doesn't want to speak at this time.

Han Xiaoxing got used to it, so he didn't care. He leaned on the table, took out his mobile phone, and while browsing the local shops, asked her, "What do you want to eat tonight? The patient should eat something good, so that it will be better." Hurry up. I treat you, don't be polite to me."

"No need." Xie Nanyuan didn't raise his head, "I don't have any appetite, just order a bowl of porridge."

"Then I'll order porridge." Han Xiaoxing said with a smile as if he had never heard of it, "The porridge in this Cantonese-style tea house is delicious, and it can also be paired with some light morning tea." As he said, he placed an order, "OK , they will deliver it when the time comes, remember to eat."

Xie Nanyuan frowned, and instinctively wanted to object, but his body was sluggish and he didn't have the energy to speak.Moreover, Han Xiaoxing has always been like this, and it may not be useful to object.She can make a notice in advance instead of sending things directly, which is considered an improvement.

With these thoughts in her mind, Xie Nanyuan didn't listen carefully to what Han Xiaoxing was saying, and when she came to her senses, he had already left.

That's why Xie Nanyuan encouraged Han Xiaoxing to start his own business.She used to have nothing to do but stay in the hospital all the time because that was her job and no one could say anything.It's different now, there are too many things waiting for her to deal with every day, and it's not easy to insist on coming to the hospital every day.

It was also because of this that although everyone in the hospital knew that Xie Nanyuan had a good relationship with this medical representative, no one cared about anything more.

After all, they don't know about things outside the hospital, and they won't inquire about them.

In this way, even if there is any conflict between the two and the relationship fades, they will not be discussed.

It's not good to have contact at work. You can't see up and down, so even if you become indifferent, you can't completely cut off the contact, you can only minimize the impact.

With these messy thoughts in his mind, Xie Nanyuan watched a video absent-mindedly, but when he thought about it, he found that his mind was blank, he didn't remember anything, so he had to reach out and hold the mouse, and drag the progress bar back.

But as soon as it started, someone else entered the office.

During the Xiaojing period, Ai Aidi stood by her desk, the concern on her face was undisguised, "Doctor Xie, I heard they said you were sick?"

"Small problem." Xie Nanyuan had to sit up straight and reminded the other party, "It's working time now."

Xiaojing blushed immediately, "I... I just came to give you something."

As she spoke, she put the things in her hand on Xie Nanyuan's desk, and she left the office as quickly as lightning, and only said at the door, "Doctor Xie must take care of your health, I wish you a speedy recovery!"

Xie Nanyuan took a closer look, and there was a plug-in hot water bottle on the table.

"..." It's not dysmenorrhea, I really don't need this thing.

She reached out to pick it up dumbfounded, and found that the hot water bottle was still charged, and it was a little hot.I don't know if Xiaojing forgot or was just a little cautious. She only sent a hot water bottle, not a power cord.

Xie Nanyuan shook his head, and put the hot water bottle on the empty table next to him.

Nie Zilin once asked her when she would find another one.In Nie Zilin's opinion, the breakup may have had a big impact on Xie Nanyuan at the time, but she didn't seem to be too sad or concerned about it afterward.

She came out very quickly, and she should have turned the story over.That being the case, it is only natural to find another one.

But Xie Nanyuan didn't think so in his heart.It never occurred to her to find another one.For Xie Nanyuan, the cost of any attempt is too high.She is not with Lu Kaiyan, and she will not look for another one.Rather than try and make mistakes again, it is better to put this time and energy into work.

It's just that she didn't know how to express her thoughts in words for a while, and she was afraid that if she said it, it would become an unforgettable old relationship.

Do you forget your old love?

For Xie Nanyuan, the things that have happened are there, they will not disappear, and they will never be forgotten. They are superimposed one by one, which makes Xie Nanyuan become what she is today.She doesn't intend to forget, but she doesn't allow herself to dwell on the past either.

Lu Kaiyan is her only choice, but she can also choose not to.

The author has something to say: "Song for Myself" - Li Zongsheng

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