pathological addiction

The author has something to say: I swear this is the most abusive chapter in this article, and I will slowly sweeten it later.The ending must be sweet! ! !Not sweet, you stabbed me with Lin Sheng's knife!

Lin Sheng broke free from the confusion, gathered his strength secretly, and then used his field experience to calculate a force that would hurt Qu Boyuan but not hurt him, and punched Qu Boyuan hard on the waist.

This blow caused Qu Boyuan to pause briefly, and Lin Sheng, like a swift leopard, rolled over and pressed him down.He used a little trick to make Qu Baiyuan unable to move, and then pressed his face against his, as gentle and clingy as before.

"Listen to me... Qu Boyuan..." His tone carried the final sound entwined between his lips and teeth, and only the name on the tip of his heart would be called out like this.

Qu Boyuan's heart softened, he gave up the suppression and resistance, and said hoarsely: "Don't leave me."

Lin Sheng buried his face in his neck, and said in a chatty tone: "Do you still remember that you told me that your parents got together because of a high pheromone match, but they hated each other after they got married. So You think pheromones are unreliable."

"I remember..." Qu Boyuan hugged him, stroked his back, and groped along the spine, "But I didn't tell you, my father has always loved my mother. If my mother also has your disease, she Then you won't leave us. Look, I love you so much, and you can't leave me, isn't that great? Lin Sheng, let's complete the final mark."

Lin Sheng's turbulent mood froze for a moment, he stood up and looked into Qu Baiyuan's eyes, "I don't want that, I want to know you more clearly, not just addicted to your pheromones, you don't hate this kind of relationship the most ?"

Qu Boyuan raised his head and kissed him, "You are fine now, the shortcomings of pheromones have disappeared in you and turned into advantages. This is medically proven reliable. We will not hate each other, we will love each other forever."

The madness in his eyes made Lin Sheng feel strange, and the meaning in his words made Lin Sheng feel heartbroken, "But that's not that I love you, it's that I have no choice."

Qu Boyuan held his face: "It doesn't matter, as long as you don't leave me."

"Even if I lose my freedom?"

"You don't need to be free."

Lin Sheng couldn't keep up with logic: "I don't need freedom...what do you mean?"

Qu Boyuan did not answer this question, but restraintly threw the blame at him: "You left without saying goodbye."

This was Lin Sheng's fault. He got up from Qu Baiyuan guiltily, sat on the bed, and said slowly: "I was very afraid that you would think that I liked you because of this illness, so I didn't dare to tell you."

"Then are you?"

"I……"

After Qu Boyuan asked this question, he immediately regretted it. He interrupted Lin Sheng's answer and said, "It's okay, I don't mind. Don't worry about it, come home with me."

The more he was like this, the more Lin Sheng cared about his abnormality: "But my symptoms will get worse and worse, and it's just started now. You don't understand how terrible this disease is. One day you will know that I am you I will wear down both of us!"

Qu Boyuan still said without any hesitation: "I don't mind. As long as you don't leave me, I can give you my life."

Lin Sheng broke down: "What do I want your life for! I just want to be a normal person!"

Qu Boyuan stared at his beautiful eyes in silence for a while, and expressed his most secret worry: "What if you find out that you don't really love me after you are cured?"

Lin Sheng's eyes widened and his lips parted, as if he couldn't believe that he would say such a thing, "So you think so, don't you believe me?"

Qu Boyuan still looked at him like that, affectionate and painful.

Lin Sheng kicked off his half-regressed trousers, turned around and sat straddling his lap, hugging him face to face, skin to skin, and said seriously: "Remember, whether I'm sick or not, I'm I love you. But during the treatment period, I can't contact you, because contacting you will make the previous efforts in vain. I can't drag you selfishly. When I am cured, let me chase you instead."

Qu Boyuan understood the farewell in his words, and asked desperately, "How long is the treatment period?"

"I don't know yet. It will be very long, maybe seven or eight years. My mother also has this disease. I told you that she had her glands removed and died soon. If the detoxification drug was developed earlier, it would be There will be a lot less tragedies like this. This incident is really meaningful, so I decided to stay and study here."

"You lied to me when you said you must go to the same university as me?"

"No, if I didn't have this disease, I would definitely follow you."

"You lied to me when you said you didn't want to be separated from me for a day." This time it was not a question sentence.

"I just want to get well."

"So you chose to abandon me."

"No," Lin Sheng lifted his face, "it's not like that, can you trust me?"

Qu Boyuan could no longer trust him.

Betrayal and abandonment are death sentences for Qu Baiyuan. If it weren't for Lin Sheng, he would delete him from the intersection of life.He was willing to spare Lin Sheng, but he would not give him a second chance to leave him.

But he said, "Okay, I believe you."

The day before leaving City A, Qu Boyuan bought a car.

It takes 22 hours and 40 minutes to drive back to City C from here, but he has to take a person with him, so he might not be able to pass the security check by plane.

The first time he used anesthesia to control the dosage, he parked the car in the emergency lane every half an hour to check the situation of "luggage".Lin Sheng slept soundly, and returned to his soft and harmless appearance. The shadow of his eyelashes fell on his pale face, and he seemed to be sad when he fell asleep.

Qu Boyuan knew that he offended his Omega this time, but it didn't matter, he would be forgiven soon under the influence of addiction.They will be the same as before.This time, he will carefully treasure Lin Sheng in the strongest castle, and he will never be apart for a day.

After more than 20 hours without eating, drinking or sleeping, I finally returned home before the new sun rose.Before Lin Sheng woke up, Qu Boyuan carried him to the bed and fell asleep in his arms.

It was already noon when Lin Sheng woke up, the sunlight could not penetrate the heavy curtains, and only neat and bright beams leaked from the edges.He felt heavy eyelids and dizzy.After sleeping for too long, my body is heavy and sore.

Another breath is close at hand, with aromas of Darjeeling black tea.

He rolled his eyes with difficulty, and saw the outline of the room clearly in a haze—this is Qu Boyuan's room, have we returned to City C? !

"Qu Boyuan." He stretched out his hand to shake the person beside the pillow, Qu Boyuan hugged him, closed his eyes and kissed his forehead.

"Why am I here?"

"We're home," Qu Boyuan hugged him tightly, "I'll never lose you again."

The memory gradually came back, and he remembered that the two of them tossed until late that night, and he used all the warmth in his body to melt Qu Boyuan's thoughts about the final mark into the fusion of his body.He thought they had reached an agreement, so Qu Boyuan let him go temporarily and let him correct himself.

When Qu Boyuan was in his body, he babbled a lot, he said, seven or eight years is too long, would you fall in love with someone else?I won't.When I'm cured, I'll come after you.Are you good at chasing?I want to send you flowers every day and wait for you downstairs in your company.

What did Qu Baiyuan say?He couldn't remember, he fell asleep.In my sleep I felt like a needle had been stuck in my skin, but the sting quickly dissipated.Then came a long, dark, deep sleep.

Everything has a reasonable explanation, and Qu Boyuan's compromise, silence, and tolerance are the clarion call for him to launch a counterattack.While spending time with him, he planned a kidnapping in his heart.

After realizing this matter, Lin Sheng was surprisingly calm.There was no emotion in his heart, no sadness, no anger, but a kind of confusion.He was thinking that he and Qu Boyuan were really a match made in heaven, one pathologically dependent and the other pathologically possessive.perfect fit.

Qu Boyuan didn't seem to be awake yet, and his breathing was long, but Lin Sheng could hear the stiffness and tension in his steady breathing.He is waiting for Lin Sheng to take the lead in questioning, and then he has many theories to support his behavior, such as love, such as reluctance, such as his almost exhausted sense of security.

But he didn't wait to question, Lin Sheng didn't say a word from that moment until he left the house.

Lin Sheng could eat, sleep and have sex with him, but refused to communicate with him, not even making eye contact.Qu Boyuan tried to find the once full starlight in his beautiful almond-shaped eyes, but the starlight dimmed and collapsed into a black hole.

Locked up at home, Omega naturally accepted the role of a humanoid toy, sometimes even without clothes for a whole day, naked like an animal.A deaf, dumb and blind animal.

Qu Boyuan quit his nanny, no matter how busy he is, he will eat three meals a day with Lin Sheng at home, sometimes he cooks for himself, sometimes he buys it from outside.He always learns everything quickly, and with his picky taste, he thinks that his craft is very good, but Lin Sheng doesn't respond at all, just stuffing some food into his stomach at will in order to survive.

When the weather warmed up, Lin Sheng stood in the room and looked at the leaves growing on the trees outside the window through the newly installed metal guardrail. Only then did he realize that the house was surrounded by hibiscus, which he hadn't noticed before.

30 days.He didn't break Qu Boyuan. Addiction forced him to be loyal to his body, and he often revealed some love that he didn't have time to hide.They did not speak, but Qu Baiyuan invented a method of communicating with the body.That night when he reached Gao Chao under Qu Boyuan, Qu Boyuan put a ring on his left ring finger.

"I'll wait for you to forgive me, and I'll wait for you to say you're willing."

Lin Sheng still didn't speak.

On the 40th day, Lin Sheng stabbed a 12cm long steel kitchen knife into his left chest.He stole it from the knives that Qu Boyuan hadn't put away after cooking.Qu Boyuan seemed to have predicted his extreme behavior, and from the first day he hid all the things that could kill himself at home.

I forgot to pack the knives that day because Lin Sheng fell into heat before the meal was finished.The milk-flavored pheromone is dyed with the fragrance of tea in the blend of day and night, which becomes more intense and charming.When he was lying on the dining table and showing his back to Qu Boyuan, he found the knife on the kitchen counter from a subtle angle, which looked very handy.

The fighting knowledge taught by Lin Dingnian came in handy, Lin Sheng was very familiar with the exact position of the heart.Although it cleverly avoided the vital point, it was enough to go to the hospital for emergency treatment.

Maybe there is really some kind of mysterious feeling between AO. Qu Boyuan, who was in a meeting that afternoon, suddenly felt uneasy. A premonition of an imminent catastrophe made him drop everything and rush home all the way.

Lin Sheng was lying on the bed, dressed neatly for the first time these days.When Qubayuan arrived, the blood had already started to coagulate, and he saw his Omega caressing the handle of the knife protruding from his chest with the ring-wearing hand, as if caressing something else that had stabbed into him.

Qu Boyuan's blood also froze.

Lin Sheng heard the movement and turned to look at him, as if the starlight in his eyes had returned, looking at Alpha very tenderly.

The spring sunlight was cut into strips by the metal guardrail, and it fell on the blood-stained white sheets lightly and darkly.Qu Boyuan stood half a meter away from the bed, tears gushed from his eyes and dripped down his cheeks unstoppably.He couldn't speak, couldn't take a step forward, trembling, as if he was the one who was stabbed.

Lin Sheng felt that his consciousness was losing consciousness, he stretched out his left hand with great effort, trying to touch Qu Baiyuan.He has never seen Qu Boyuan cry, his Alpha is always calm and elegant, even when angry, he is calm and restrained, he did not expect to make him cry.Qu Boyuan's tears were more unbearable than the withdrawal reaction.

The pain is only slowly creeping up to the chest now, the pain came too late, and the strength has been accumulated for too long.Lin Sheng gradually fell into darkness in this severe pain, he regretted it, he wanted to say don't cry, I won't leave.But the darkness has swallowed him up.

Qu Boyuan was startled by Lin Sheng's sudden closing of his eyes, and rushed over to grab the weakly hanging left hand.The blood-stained ring was stuck on his cheekbone - he used this ring to propose to his Omega ten days ago, and his Omega rejected him in this way.