Peacock

I feel that my chest cavity is a leaky balloon now, and the air in the room seems to be unable to fill the empty rubber heart at all. I can only breathe on the ground like a fish, and there is boundless coldness all over my body.

I don't know how long it took before I slowly stood up with the edge of the bed, looked at the TV, and it happened to be the zero o'clock broadcast, and just on time, the person I called tactfully rang the doorbell.

I fumbled to open the door, and before I could even see the person who came, I stretched out my arms and hugged the person, and then cried out with a blank mind.

She must have been taken aback, she didn't speak out in a panic, and froze for a long time before she began to pat my back with her palm.

Maybe she thought I was drunk and going crazy with alcohol, and she was afraid that my small body would also show the unique destructive power of a man, and it would be unreasonable to do things later.

When I hugged her, it reminded me of Tang Ling who had just gone away. Whether it was when I was upset or when I was making love, I only cried in his arms.But not anymore.

"Handsome, are you broken in love?"

I didn't answer, just straightened up and looked at her with sobs.

To be honest, I don’t think she is a sex worker in a broad sense, she is a bit bland, she has the feeling of being a classmate in the middle school next door, but when I asked, I found out that she was 29.

Then she said that her name was Xiaomei, and her colleague Mudan couldn't come, so she came to take over.

I don't quite understand what kind of rules they follow when they choose their flower names.

Xiaomei is very realistic, she negotiated the price with me as soon as she came up, I didn't want to hear this, so I said casually.Xiaomei said that I am a straightforward person, so I also readily took off my clothes.

I quickly stopped and said you can sit with me for a while.

Xiaomei paused for a moment with her underwear strapped hand, and opened her mouth in surprise.

I dragged my feet and closed the door, then sat on the bay window with my knees hugged and stared at Xiaomei.I always thought of her as the mermaid in this aquarium.

"Handsome...your hand!"

At first I didn't hear what she was saying, until she came over and shook me, and I gave some attention to my ears.

I just supported the piece of broken glass with my hand, and I got some insignificant small wounds on my palm.Realizing that she might be talking about this, I just said it's okay, then lowered my eyes and pulled out a piece of debris that was broken inside.

Xiaomei seemed to be running around in a hurry, saying that she still needed to find something to disinfect, but she still found nothing after digging through the boxes and cabinets several times, so she made a weeping appearance.I'm tired of watching this performance, and said that she doesn't have to be so conscientious everywhere.

Xiaomei instantly relaxed, and sat on the bay window with me. She just sat silently until I told her to leave.Unlike in the story, the two started confiding in each other's hearts. After all, I don't understand her and she doesn't understand me, so there is nothing to say.

I think this should be the way of getting along with strangers who meet briefly in the world. I don't know if Tangling and I should be like this.

I woke up the next day, and it was already high sun when I walked to the station on one pair of legs.

When the bus drove through several steep corners in a row, I almost wanted to call Tang Ling, wanting to make sure that he passed these places safely. If it wasn't for the bad signal in the mountains, I would have dialed out. His mind was filled with the words that Tang Ling could not die.

Two middle-aged women sitting in the front row were chatting loudly. I fumbled for the earphones in my pocket a little anxiously, but before I found them, I heard some inexplicable words from their mouths, "The wild white peacocks in the mountains became fine. Bo ran into a monster at the foot of the mountain."

They also said that all the peacocks in this mountain are tainted with bad luck, and it is not impossible to become a monster. In the 80s, there was a big owner who started as a farmer. The entire Peacock Mountain was his place. He cultivated peacocks in the mountains by himself, and even opened a peacock garden for the islanders to watch. There are blue, green and white, but it didn’t take long for them to be dyed. The monster died of illness, holding a nearly rotten snow-white peacock before his death.While doing the aftermath, people found the tablet he had carved for the white peacock, and the name on it was his dead wife.

I looked up from the window to the top of the mountain, lost my mind for a while, and remembered the last time I saw Chen Wumian, she seemed to be wearing a long pure white dress at that time.

Just thinking about it, I suddenly heard them mention Chen Wumian.

"Could it be Sister Cai's crazy daughter possessing the body of a peacock?"

"Didn't she go to other places to be a mistress?"

"Oh, you don't know, she jumped off the Lingyun Terrace yesterday morning, and she said it was for the man who came back with her. But I also heard it from Ah Mu who lives behind Sheye Temple, I hope It's not true, otherwise, according to Sister Cai's temperament, she might go crazy."

"That elder sister Cai, she prays to God and worships Buddha at home when she has nothing to do. If her daughter really dies in such a cloudy mountain, she might wish to drink a hundred bowls of talisman water to ward off evil spirits."

"Hahaha, why don't you find some boy to pee and drink, I think your son is not bad."

Listening to the laughter of the women, I looked down at my palm.The last time Chen Xing showed me my palmistry on the bus back from Xingxing Bay, I still remember him saying that it was all through my ears and eyes, so I don't think it's surprising.

Before the car arrived in Baima City, I was thinking about where to go later, and my reason told me that Tangling and I shouldn't meet at this moment.After all, this just one night of calm can't make me reflect on what I did yesterday. I know that I will still have those reactions if I go back in time, and I think Tangling should be the same.

Finally I decided to go home first.

Today, the keeper of the Youjia canteen has become Zhang Yong’s aunt. Thinking that such a lively kid will be dragged into an iron prison to waste his time, I began to feel pain for his family.

I bought some food at the canteen. When I got home, I bit the milk bag and opened the door with my hands empty. I suddenly felt sticky in my palms. When I looked down, I found some inexplicable light white liquid flowing out of the lock cylinder. Even the doorknob was a little stained, and the point of the key in my hand became wet.

Without even thinking about it, I knew it had to be semen.

The most embarrassing thing is that apart from the liquid that was still flowing, there were still many dried semen spots on the entire door lock, which proved that this pervert had come here at least twice.

Feeling physically sick, I froze my hands for a moment and didn't know where to put them.

Immediately, I felt that the earth is so inclusive of all rivers and rivers, that there are people in this world who can develop sexual desires in front of stainless steel door locks.

I boiled a pot of water from the house to clean up those things, and then I rushed directly into the bathroom to take a shower, only to hear someone knocking on the door before I finished washing.

I irritatedly put on my underpants and went to open the door shirtless. As a result, there was a tall and strong man standing at the door. I saw that it was Pu Wei.

He didn't wear glasses today, and told me that he couldn't find them this morning, and he couldn't see anything clearly.As a result, he was sent out to find me during his lunch break, and it's past two o'clock in the afternoon.

I shook my hair full of water: "Why are you looking for me?"

"Chen Xiaoben said that he needed your help for a class this afternoon, but you couldn't get through on the phone, so he said someone was free to visit you. I just don't like to take a nap." Pu Wei stammered, "But I think it's actually No need to go..."

"What do you mean?"

Pu Wei didn't look at me all the time, and waved his hands in a hurry: "When I left, the studio was in a mess. It seems that something happened to Mr. Chen's house, and his mother came over to make trouble, but he didn't listen... Anyway, this afternoon He should find another teacher to take his place."

As soon as I thought of the dialogue between the two women, I felt so familiar that my nerves jumped. I grabbed two clothes to wear, and immediately went back to Erjiu Studio with him.

Just round the corner you could hear chaotic voices, the sharpest of which were yelling in dialect.

The front desk of the studio was completely surrounded, passers-by stopped to watch the play, and some students came to watch it curiously, so the teachers had to go back to maintain order while facing the mess.

I couldn't see clearly even on tiptoe, so I walked through the back door of the cleaning room to the back of the front desk alone, and Chen Xing stood there, his hands tightly clenched by the hem of his trousers, his veins bulging weirdly.

I slowly walked to his side, followed his gaze, and saw Tang Ling who was a little tired.

A middle-aged woman knelt in front of Tang Ling, clasped her hands together, she seemed to let out a long cry, and began to beg for something in panic again.

It's too noisy around, I can't hear what she said, what is she asking Tang Ling for?

Surrounded by everyone, Tangling looks like an animal locked in a cage for people to watch. He has a white shirt and light-colored hair. I think he may also be one of the white peacocks in the mountains.

The woman grabbed Tang Ling's trousers in a panic, but Tang Ling just looked at her numbly.

Then the woman began to kowtow, knelt down at his feet and kowtowed, crying louder and louder.

I was frightened by this overreaction, subconsciously took a step back, but accidentally knocked down the alarm clock on the glove box.

The alarm clock fell to the ground and began to ring indiscriminately. For a while, I couldn't react to stop it. Instead, I covered my ears with my hands, as if this was the only way to solve the problem.

Tang Ling looked towards this side in response, and when I met his gaze, I was speechless in panic for a moment, and my first reaction was to run away.

And in fact I actually ran away.

I realized that he seemed to be haunted by all sorts of things all the time, and wondered if I was one of them.As a piece of thin ice on a lake, it will surely shatter if stepped on too much.